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made concerns the move could lead to nato casualties international community is wary of escalating the conflict with calls from the g eight nations for gadhafi to stand down and diplomatic efforts from russia and south africa underway. anik but washington wants to send text warnings to people to warn text warning people possible extreme weather and terrorist attacks a move some analysts say will make i believe should more your full and not born for a chip to be placed in every american cell phones users will receive alerts whether they want to go. coming up we follow the journeys of four war veterans and explain and explore how being a good soldier became synonymous with being able to pull the trigger without hesitation that special report coming out. those would particular incident are still disturbs me today i wish i could take

a. i give anything we went into an area near the baghdad stadium this came in through our area and actually stopped about seventy five meters in front of my vehicle that tells you how far the vehicle came into our perimeter and. which is we lit it up. we had three of the. victims in the right key that there were expiring rapidly and we pulled them out of the car and we started doing it for a state i called a corpsman the corpsman came and got the three bodies and took them back to the patel and surgeon. called me came back dump the bodies on the side of the road and went over to the corpsman and i asked him i said what

were you doing how can you bring in a back i need to get him out you need to get him back to an area where they can see a surgeon corpsman there's nothing we can do for him so you can leave you know you can leave the bodies on the side of the road and i said yeah we want to do stats on so i want to impact him up so they don't i'm on the side of the road and. you know and the guys brother you come running over to him and he just said they're holding them while they roll around on the asphalt

on a highway. they're rolling around in pain they didn't even give many morphine. the guy's brother he kept he kept running around and he had his hands in as it is and his face. he's just crying and sobbing and he's saying why did you kill my brother. we didn't do anything to you we're not terrorists. remember i remember i just want to i wanted to close my years i didn't want to hear and i just sat there and he's time that he said it. was like it was permanently being. burned into my brain. and. i lost

that's the last night of ever gotten a good night's sleep the night before that. and then on. the next morning lieutenant you want to remain he said. you're you all right you seem a little distressed a little agitated. and i was not all right. and. i'm pretty pissed off of what we're what we're doing over here. and he said will you give me your interpretation of what we're doing over here. for what we're trying to accomplish over here. i just looked at him and said it well so

i'll say feel that we're committing genocide. and he didn't like my answer and he stormed off towards the. ceo's vehicle. and i knew at that point that my career was done across the line and i knew i had to watch my back and grow eyes so after that night i pretty much slept with my nine millimeter underneath my poncho liner within easy reach. of the door the door case. when i first came back from vietnam and i think six to six i saw protesters

speaking. i don't want to hear it i did believe it to get away from it i put in a ten forty nine to go back to vietnam because i was what rights are and we'll wire it up and i don't think it would have taken a much for me to take one of the protesters out failed had i stayed here i would have ended up killing some people and i could do it legally in vietnam so i put in a ten forty nine and go back i think i was looking at justification not doing what i would do want to kill or it was all a do on my second tour when i began to realize that something was wrong. when i came back to the states i want to washington d.c. to the white house or i talk to somebody the next in the office say that i would not go back to vietnam.

when i arrived back stateside i was ordered to report into the middle health clinics in twenty nine poems the. psychologist looked at me and she said waddle deal with conscientious objectors and. just about lost. for them to label me as a conscientious objector that's the ultimate slap in the face you call your conscience objector i just killed thirty plus individuals for you and you called me a conscience no. stood up when i was a ma'am if you want to label me as a conscientious objector for not wanting to kill innocent civilians but also you court. i went down

a hard attorney. a man by the name of mr kerry meyers. and. mr mars was represented during the may lie trials and. mr meyers in the marine corps came to a. very discreet reacher wonder standing i was on it was discharged december thirty first two thousand and three and here i am. came back i think that that sense of a long term planning has gone. i went through divorce some things i did reckless way probably in the back and on on i would not have minded knowing homo. but my. i went through a period when t.c.t.

cocaine. and about it and that means. long period of severe drug abuse. i finally got to the point the right had no woman. i had no a car i had long since moved out of my house and could not connect home exactly where to go from here. and it was when the national guard needed someone and not in my experience and teaching people how to fly the armed helicopters the cobras and i was asked to come in and help train some of those folks and the money was. you know

fifteen twenty thousand dollars a year for part time work and it carried a retirement with even though i had and a change of heart about wars i needed the money the first come home and you immediately forget about everything and you go to mcdonald's you go to all your favorite restaurants and you do all your favorite things and you're having a great time and you know and analysts and you wake up one day and you're like wait a minute i'm not having a good time anymore. i'm starting to think about this or i'm sorry i think about that because all the newness has worn off your whole i'm alive i got all arm i got my legs i'm alive. but then the mind. the mind starts catching up with with everything else. i found myself going through my

career prepping like i'm getting ready to go to combat i mean i even look for suicide bombers you know anything out of the anything out of the ordinary. once you reach that level of of your senses being that heightened it's hard to turn it off so i'm being caged tiger. from the if i got back in december of forty two or there's nobody you can talk to there was nobody who had been in combat around. i can remember still seeing that blown red glow on the tip of the crisis and my god i was home wasn't just. one day you're telling somebody they're trying to kill you and the

next day you're sitting in a bar in new york city this is crazy. i look so normal nobody knows if you're handed nobody you know if you've got a you've got a headache or you've got a hole in your head i can't see it when i wrote home that i was rounded i had been in france from middle of august to i was. dad said to the newspaper reporter who interviewed him he was only there for a few days that was for me the only was a at that time not now was a real rejection of who i was as a man he didn't last he didn't make it a gosh yes. and

i think i didn't even understand it then but that started a defining our relationship which spiraled downward downward downward. so you don't talk about it after he said i. had see i was lucky why didn't it why didn't the both somebody on you know guys do that or why did no prometheus why didn't i do this i once tried i don't know still and. i remember i was living in a wide new york city totally alone i don't. put my bathroom sascha rock on it. so the share and why i got down was because. my friends. i had made after the war

who had been through the same thing i had and i felt if i detected myself i would betray. the bond we had. coochie vietnam fire or for tame nine hundred sixty five eighty they call it hell's half acre because of the american boy. and still their town of the island via current snipers have done most of the damage today was no exception. on this but in the twenty seventh and for the tree the framed

wolfhounds moved out to attack the snipers opened up from such perfectly camouflaged positions the most of the a copy of day with a c. in one of them a sergeant was hit in the shoulder and leg as he rolled over. ripped to its back. a medic broke from cough and rushed to his i think dropped to his knees to be again given a bullet smashed into the stomach. both the sergeant and the medic. and artillery board well it was laid down to screen a squad going after the world it especially was fourth world in the hip cross the deadly fifty yards refer to fallon pierce he was hit again this was no but

you were there yes it's hard to bring back to minimum well below. zero christmas certainly we're building up to go and i thought i think about my grandson. they were very aware if they had to draft they would be drafted so i start thinking of what i could do to protect them to keep them from. joining the military but it's the same reason that the young people join now because it is the poor people out of people on the laurian of the economic scale but i want to fight these wars. even though martin america came out

years later and say it vietnam was a mistake it did not take the pie from me. started to take the pill and i ferry for killing people when i went to vietnam i was a car courts rule and i believe what i was going over was the right thing and i was a good soldier but now i'm a soldier on the other side and i think i'm just as good. i sold my soul a long time ago i'm just here trying to come. to europe or all your. people west we want you free to go to prison i mean you're saying you're

a war criminal brother i'm already in prison this is dangerous for chapter zero nine nine western north carolina hoping that this moment registers in everyone's mind that this is one of the total cost of war. the. six true test of who is a great war pull out of world war one wrote a line war was a fiend who stopped their clocks though we met him gram and k. and i know people who got their clock stopped so badly they never got beyond drugs . when the suicide whatever you want to cork and that happened to me and i think my

clock was stopped for close to forty years before i got over that. i was ashamed i was ashamed that i had been wounded i was ashamed that i hadn't been a hero. i never understood that my problems with my parents my problems with my wife my ex-wife were buried in the fact that i got blown up i'd never i never understood what preston told me and then back again to go to a coffee shop and i would hear the big bands of the night hundred forty five and i would weep like a baby in public i had no idea that what i was doing like a reply to was going back or try to find that little boy at night and what happened .

to follow the fool i was driven to go back to flight of the suburban to spend the night there to rent a car and file and find the place where i was wounded on september seventh one thousand and forty four. and when suddenly. i found the bridge that we crossed in the glow of the night in shock. i discovered to the hour of the moment where i had been moved forty years before and i cannot explain it but that discovery began my healing. my generation really were oppressed with the war was about we didn't want to talk about it we weren't allowed to talk about it and then slowly in the one nine hundred eighty s. and one nine hundred ninety s. this whole thing of the greatest generation occurred it was wonderful you know the

greatest generation what a nice name to call us and we forgot what we had done we forgot that we had been animals for a law. war is about one thing it's about killing you either learn to kill somebody else or you get killed or wounded yourself and that's why i've come to solo the idea of war. that's all a purple. nama softness cost not what may i think of it every day. flashbacks from the to memorise still go to counseling for. and. its is now worth it but what i did do was malice to find some good in that war. vietnam a me a better person and made me love people more. made me understand that

we are all one not people to us this earth. has a certain amount of guilt a place to learn to live with you compartmentalize it or unite you rationalize you can i call this case is i mean i really know how to make excuses even. there are things i wish i had not done. but there's no way to change. the. last. laugh. when you come to the point it's real nice for you actually much the more snow on

the way to saturday. and disagreement. and kind of like the poster you can have your night. clothes luxury. good luck.

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