blue is a club school and it's so cool soto in the big old. ski creek in the ski on this medicine this is jim finn scheme we go to twenty two year old kids because come on . now so it's. three thirty am in moscow these are your r.t. headlines here or a villain a day after supporters of rock mass in belgrade his lawyers file an appeal against his extradition to the hague claiming he's likely to die before the trial gets even started former bosnian serb generals accused of ordering the deaths of around eight thousand dollars mean muslim men and boys it serve a need so in one thousand nine hundred five. the u.k. stepping up pressure on the gadhafi regime deploying apache helicopters amid

concerns the move could lead to nato casualties. here actual community is wary of escalating the conflict with calls from g eight nations for gadhafi to stand down and diplomatic efforts from russia and south africa underway. panic button in washington wants to send texts warning people possible extreme weather and terror attacks a move some analysts say will make the population more fearful not more informed a chip to be placed in each of us cell phone means users will get the alerts whether they want them or not. coming up we follow the journeys of four veterans and explore how being a good soldier became synonymous with be able to pull the trigger without hesitation a special report coming your way. town on the this morning pontoon the amount. to be a soldier was

a very important thing in a young man's life and to be not just a soldier but to be a damn good soldier and to be in combat shit and the company. that's where you belong. and that's the southerner in me in time of war that's where you belong i don't think. i had left mississippi. probably too are my children here because of the anger i had growing up i did it to get out of necessity. i came up here and then hop a mission to work on a harvest and that work i couldn't do i couldn't make money at it so i came back at me while i was in jackson i want to live the induction center there and signed up i

believe comedy. i have to say i'm paying you to be. this is a cut military there were star trek star meals and i want to run for about two months and looking for a job and finally. one of the old neighborhood great sedona around for your support i get to jump in the cotton mill. i'm a straight the owner for. the company. the good to come. by griffin's report i grew up in a little small town called parallel and texas to sneer galston i remember sitting on the couch and watching. the first gulf war. two hours ago allied air forces began an attack on military targets in iraq in kuwait and watching it on the television seeing how quick the wind and the reply after were firing

from the liberated peter. costello great to be an american i had felt the we had lost the ghosts of vietnam i remember sitting there on a tile set and think unless you want to go into you know to go into the military. didn't do much. so we got married on the thirtieth of december nighties sixty five. or so and i left on january third of my change six to six going to vietnam so it was where i got spend monumental in vietnam alone. we went from bombed out to ben was where they are for what they call the

orientation peter you know to get used to the climate and to actually get used to the sounds or. the first couple of weeks i was terrified everyone. and after my first weekend i went back to my bed not i just could not sleep i. think i was going to be like a machine at minimal cost the next day nothing happened. and then. somewhere at about three or four weeks we had an operation where they had thirty helicopters i was circling writing on my turn to go into this l.z. or landing zone to put the combat assault. and i heard the radio and the power of one of the red flight said this is red late were taken far and all i could

hear in the background was. now a try to relax and i try to forget about it and it would scar right by this paralyzing kind of fear of knowing that i had to start and be shot in. the helicopter pilot you have both hands full so your gut instinct is to fight it. but there's no place to hide you're looking through a clear plexiglas window and the surrounding woodland you see little flashes and you know that people are shooting to disc open and hit you. from that point although. i think i realize that it is possible. that.

we were but a bunch of thirty guys are going to have to earn truck put in as replace train and we couldn't find a division. we finally found it in the first thing they said to us when we got there i remember why'd you take so long there was no welcome. being a replacement which is the most god awful curse you can have on a human being. you're going to conduct you don't know anybody they don't care about you and they were scared to death you were going to do something stupid lifter it at the wrong time fire at the wrong time anything to attract fire it would get them killed. by january two thousand and three. i found myself sitting in the kuwaiti desert waiting to invade iraq.

i told myself you know hey we're here to fight a war this is it you know this is so tough and this is what eleven years of training you know has accumulated to my main goal was making sure that my men came home alive hell i didn't care about how i had to say it but i didn't really care about anybody that was outside of my platoon and. once we crossed into iraq we were roll into these towns and like a bunch of cowboys shooting the place. we went into the rashid. there was an actual military compound and huge military

compound we pulled in there was an abrams tank that was parked at one of the entrances. i started asking me what was going on because there was some demonstrators down the road and. i asked him if any of them had any weapons and he said no. and so what are you going to. you know they're going to stage a coup against sr anything like that and he said no they they're just down there said and you know cheney and yell and i go behind my home beat and tear open an m.r.e. and all a sudden i hear a gunshot i step out from behind my home be. a series of stuff out from behind my humvee my marines are discharging their weapons and the demonstrators so on sling my weapon and i put the stock up and. gets out of the rifle stock up on my

shoulder and i start fahri and i'm hitting i'm getting the demonstrators no i am. and of course i mean being out the head i mean. center mass but i don't know who called cease fire all i know is it was colic simultaneously we all just start firing. the lieutenant he comes up to me now goes what the hell happened. i don't know you tell me sir you're the lieutenant. i said do you know i heard a gunshot that went over our heads and i said you're heard it's a war the open fire. i don't know. when we did the reconnaissance and as we're driving by. as we're driving bob bodies i'm looking down at the at the ground and not seeing any any weapons they were

wearing traditional. dollar pose and. course they were soaked in red with blood. you know i thought to myself for a split second i said. you know these people didn't have any weapons we just shot at it how much of an arm. protesters. and then a little voice and then your head goes off in the service well that's war. that's what happens in war. i just i'll be honest with you. i really do. so the you know. how did we know.

so on after we arrived in coach we didn't know that we had built up a scout or above dates complex of commerce. so we're always people almost daily by sniper fire or at times mortar fire. are felt that we had everything going against us why they were just that the car on. the creatures of nature itself the snakes. hey spiders.

i don't know there's a difference mile. especially when powell i know i've heard many people say you can't smell blood but to me that's what i mean. you can smell it i remember early on i think it was. april. sixth the sixth we were out in noble woods and. it was people in a rice field that we didn't know what they were they had on the bright pajamas and it's so hats and we had an hour and that's our period that we were there that everything in bright pajamas was in and so we opened fire on them.

we were able to go and physically look at them and. they had no weapons and they looked to be teenage children young very young. so you have that dollar in your mind when one reality hit you you know. what did i killed that i kill innocent here i was in a call it's the course and that's never answered. mark. foley . that experience of being fired yes well i had to stock price on irving so i.

asked to be transferred to the army hall carpets and because they never stuck they shoot rockets and machine guns. i don't think i really thought about what your job was. but. at some point. you come upon a situation where you see people you have to spear. and you have a machine gun and we call it a zone unveiled because it looks like a conscience for a. seeing people move. and seeing. women and children go into the house and being told that this is an enemy. location. you. have to aim at this building and you have to far you the rockets from machine guns and if you're far enough away

it's still not quite like shooting people. but i think that it presents a problem for most people if you think about taking a gun and shooting since. most people can't. a soldier has to be trying to do it so. initially it was pretty tough tried to. not see. out that it didn't hit anybody or he only saw the building exploded you didn't see the people. the day i got hit the weather was exactly like this it was cold it was there it was foggy was damp it was september in northern france.

we left for a gun that morning we were to cross the moselle you were on one side of the river and you were being destroyed by artillery shells coming the other way. i was digging a hole. in the dirt because we knew we were going to be attacked. and i was had michele in my hand and inside me i was flying through the air like i.q. sledgehammer that hit me and thrown me way into the air and i didn't know it has come back to the ground i look it up in the suddenly i fell back. put my hand up and i felt a piece of some in my head and then i looked at my hands and they were just scarlet with blood and i looked at my back at my butt and my butt was if you could see the white fat in this huge hole and my but i remember i was lying there and. the

medic came over and he sort of fixed me up and he was leaning over me and i watched the tip of his nose disappear a piece of shrapnel cut out the tip of his nose and then the blood from his nose merged with my nose. and the next thing i knew i was in a stretcher i still don't harp yet because i was still paralyzed on my right side and then i had the operation on my head and what i still remember i grit my teeth you see i didn't have any understanding and they drilled with a drill to start taking all the stuff out and i can still remember it felt like i had put my head on a railroad track and the train had run over. what i

remember is being treated with symbols and formulas tenderness and passion. sometime in may of six to say. neighborhood you know my crop and it was signed out we were like can it be where we were to be it and the other carbonates were converging and wiping the enemy out. there was a price night you could. see long distances but i don't know we have been out for quite a while on this patrol and and saying anything so we were like oh it wants something const up out of the bushes. and it

startled them to see us there and it startled me and. it was firing and i didn't have my weapon i was on the die i call my way ok. so i managed to get. hand grenades off of my. house a couple grenades. now this is what i got. then we could see as far as we could see there would be a car that was calm enough to our program and. we called in for and our a fire and couldn't get it we called in for the mission to return. because i thought it was getting overwhelmed. by the amount of coal is it just try to find a place and spend the night. we told them our shooting he was on

the one that was killed and one other bomb crater and we sat there on night. a painterly the mechanizing when they came in and we loaded the martian on. his brains actually felt hands full and we all will move on and. that's still that's still a bit surreal. and remember it said in that corridor on i with. agamemnon what it is a had planned it how will. what

it was easier to go back and kill that's part of what drove me. was very day and. sleep sleep sleep. sleep. sleep sleep. sleep. sleep sleep. sleep. sleep some people loved by local animals.

deer move for sale wear whatever whatever suits their fancy. but i can also tell you that there is no other feeling in the world that comes close to harming another human being. that's what you're trying to do. and the drawback to it is the fact that you want to do it again. because you enjoy it. it's almost like a drug and you become addicted to it but after a while like with any like with any addiction. you know as soon as you're fired and you get that first burst of enjoyment. it only lasts for so long and the high comes to a load. after wears off it felt to me like there we think it was just somebody you know dark waters it was like old swimming you know in

a big well we've referred to in the marine corps as a shit hole and. you find yourself. looking forward to the next. mission or for a combat role. you get all right if it's right over time i don't know why he do it but it's first kill the. same heart you should think about is specially. if you have to kill that they're close quarters.

it up and where they killed with. with a knife like. my brace was building up forty six people and i wanted to kill. them i felt good at the time when i when i did it it bothered me if i. didn't care a chance to kill someone it went beyond an hour from the call oh goody it turned into something i said. that i hate that i had had growing up in the south i think i had expanded. because of what was happening here not because so loosen the people.

i feel i've become an animal i've never killed no remorse. i literally saw young men turn into. psychopathic killers. but the great thing about the marine corps is the training process that the young men and women go through gives them all the ability to kill at least one time to put that warrior ethos in effect and then once you've done it and then it's on you. there's so many things happen in a war that put you at odds with your sense of right and wrong.

i've seen things that would be described as is war crimes. that the sergeant who had the ring of yours who. is not a secret i mean he's walking around with a big wiring with human ears punched through the lobe and they're all hanging on the ring these are people he has cut off for years to try to get information. on the shooting civilians. you don't really call it it's not like you're shooting a scene there it's like. collateral damage.

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