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we went into an area near the baghdad stadium this key came in through our area and actually stopped about seventy five meters in front of my vehicle that tells you how far the vehicle came into our perimeter and. which is we lit it up. we had three of the. victims in the right key that there were expiring rapidly we pulled them out of the car and we started doing it for a state i called the corpsman mccormick came and got the three bodies and took them back to the pataki and surgeon. corpsman came back dump the bodies on the side of the road i went over to the corpsman and i asked him i said what were you doing how can you bring him back you need to get him out you

need to get him back to an area where they can see a surgeon corpsman there's nothing we can do for him so when you leave you know you can leave the bodies on the side of the road and i said yeah we want to do so. so i want to have compassion up so they don't i'm on the side of the road and. you know when the guys brother you come running over to him and he's just so they're holding them while they roll around on the on the asphalt on a highway. and rolling around in pain they didn't even give many morphine. and the

guys brother he kept he kept running around and he had his hands and it was in his and his face. and he was crying and sobbing he's saying why did you kill my brother . we didn't do anything to you we're not terrorists. member and i remember i just want to i wanted to close my years i didn't want to hear it and i just sat there and he's time that he said it. was like it was permanently being. burned into my brain. and. i lost

that's the last night of ever gotten a good night's sleep the night for that. i think and then on. the next morning lieutenant he walked up to me and he said sasser. are you all right you seem a little distressed a little agitated. no sir not all right and. so dumb i'm pretty pissed off what we're what we're doing over here. and he said so will you give me your interpretation of what we're doing over here. and. for what we're trying to accomplish what were your. i just like the well

so long as he feel that we're committing genocide. and he didn't like my answer and he stormed off towards the. ceo's vehicle. i knew at that point that my career was done i crossed the line and i knew i had to watch my back and grow our eyes so after that night i pretty much slept with my nine millimeter underneath my poncho liner within easy reach. me in the door the door to. when i first came back from vietnam and i turned sixty six i saw protesters speaking. about i want to hear it i did believe it to get away from

it i put in a ten forty nine to go back to vietnam because i was what a time we you wired. and i don't think it would have taken much for me to take one of the protesters out i felt had i stayed here i would have ended up killing some people that i could do it legally in vietnam so i put in a ten forty nine a go back but i think i was looking at just the four keisha doing what i would do one of killing. it was only due on my second tour in iraq and i began to realize that something was wrong. when i came back to the states i wanted to washington d.c. to the white house or i talked with on the way that makes it to say that i would not go back to vietnam.

when i arrived back stateside i was ordered to report into the mental health clinic at twenty nine palms. the. psychologist looked at me and she said why don't you a conscientious objectors and. just about last. for then the way will be as a conscientious objector that's the ultimate slap in the face your call me a conscience objector i just killed thirty plus individuals for you and you called me a conscience is a traitor no. stood up with us that ma'am if you want to label me as a conscientious objector for not wanting to kill innocent civilians then i'll see you court. i went down and hired an attorney. a man by the name of mr gary myers. and.

mr mars was represented there in the may lie trials and. mr myers in the marine corps came to a very discreet mutual understanding i was on it with distorts the summer of thirty first of two thousand and three and here i am. i. came back i think that that sense of a long term planning was gone i went through divorce some things i did recklessly probably in the back of my mind i would not have minded. but. i went through a period when p.c.p.

kind are on. and about it and thought of mainz. up a long period of severe drug abuse. i finally got to the point where i had no warning. i had no work or i had long since moved out of the house and could not come back home exactly where do you go from here. and it was when the national guard needed someone with on my experience and teaching people how to fly the armed helicopters the cobras and i was asked to come in and help train some of those folks and the money was. you know fifteen twenty thousand dollars a year for part time work and extra to retirement with even though i had and

a change of heart about wars i needed the money you first come home then you immediately forget about everything. and you go to mcdonald's you go to all your favorite restaurants and you do all your favorite things and you're having a great time and you know and then all of a sudden you wake up one day and you're like well you know i'm not having a good time anymore. i'm starting to think about this i'm starting to think about that because all the newness has worn off your whole alive i got my arm i got my legs on a lot. but then the mind. and the mind starts catching up. with everything else. i saw myself going through my viewer prepping like i'm getting ready to go to combat. i mean i even look for suicide

bombers you know anything out of the anything out of the ordinary. once you reach that level of your senses being that heightened it's hard to turn it off it's like being in a cage tiger. and . i can't back in december of forty four there is nobody you can talk to you know there was nobody who had been in combat around. i can remember still seeing that grown red glow on the tip of the chrysler and my god i was home. one day you're killing somebody

even trying to kill you and the next day you're sitting in a bar in new york city it's it's crazy. i don't nobody knows the truth and that. nobody you know if you've got to you've got to get it because you've got a hole in your head you can't say. when i wrote home that i was wounded i had been in france from middle of august. that said to the newspaper reporter who interviewed him he was only there for a few years that was to me only was a at that time not now was a real rejection of who i was as a man he didn't. make it he got it.

and i think i didn't even understand it that started a decline in our relationship which spiraled downward and downward downward. so you don't talk about it. you sit on it. and say i was lucky why didn't i why didn't i both somebody you know guys do that or why did no for me why didn't i do this i once tried i got on a stool and. i wouldn't have a live in the wire to your. probably alone i don't just to put my bathroom sascha around on it. and why i got down was because. my friends. i had made after the war

had been through the same thing i had and i felt if i get that i could myself i would trade. the bond we had. coochie a vietnam fair word for what changed nine hundred sixty six by a.p. they call it hell's halfacre because of the american people. that have been steal their time to do other than be a cong snipers have done most of the damage today was no exception and i suck i'm a tad on the twenty seventh and for the famed war founds moved out to attack

the snipers open out from such perfectly camouflaged positions that most of the a copy not the whole day with a c. in one of the enemy a sergeant was hit in the shoulder and leg as a vault over a third shop rep to its back. a medic broke from a cough and rushed through with it as it dropped to his knees to begin and given a bullet smashed into the stomach. of the sergeant in the medic. and artillery barrage was laid down to screen a squad going after the world it specialist for what they wanted and here across the deadly fifty yards without a file of tears he was hit again this was no. you're

there yes it's hard. so bring back to me. brown i don't. know still no christmas certainly we're building up to go into iraq so i think about my grandson. they were probably where if they had to draft they would be drafted so i think i know what i could do to protect them to keep them from. joining the military but the same reasons that the young people join not because it is the poor people out of people on the lower end of the economic scale well that want to fight these wars. even though more of our modern america came out years later and say it vietnam was

a mistake it did not take the pain from we started it take the guilt that i carry for killing people when i went to vietnam was a car call it true and i believe what i was building the ones where i think that i was a good soldier but now i want soldier on the other side and i think i'm just as good . i sold my soul a long time ago i'm just here trying to go. to europe or a lot more. people asked me once you're free to go to prison i mean so you're saying you're a war criminal. brother omar in france. this is detritus repeat chapters zero nine

nine western north carolina hoping that this moment registers in everyone's mind that this is one of the total costs of war. sixty just to know who is a great political ally and wrote a vine war was a scene who stopped their clocks though we met him grim and gay and i know people who got the clock stopped so badly they never got beyond drugs booze women suicide would have you want to call and that happened to me and i think my talk was stopped for close to forty years before i got over it.

i was ashamed i was ashamed that i had been wounded i was ashamed that i hadn't been a hero. i never understood that my problems with my parents my problems with my wife my ex-wife were buried in the fact that i got wrote up i'd never i never understood it repressed and totally and then . you can go to a coffee shop and i would hear the big bands of my two hundred forty five and i would weep like a baby in public i had no idea that what i was doing like a reply to was going back and try to fly that little boy all night and what happened. the fall of eighty four i was driven to go back to fly to look for birds to spend

the night there to rent a car and file and find the place where i was wounded on september seventh one thousand and forty four. and when suddenly. i found the bridge that we crossed the border and i had been shot. i discovered to the hour and the moment where i had been routed forty years before and i cannot explain it but that discovery began my feeling. my generation really repressed with the war was about we didn't want to talk about it we weren't allowed to talk about it and then slowly in the one nine hundred eighty s. and one nine hundred ninety s. this whole thing of the greatest generation occurred it was wonderful you know the greatest generation what a nice thing to college and we forgot what we had done we forgot that we had been

animals for a law war is about one thing it's about killing you even learn to kill somebody else or you get killed or wounded yourself and that's why i've come to so loaded the idea of war so i think that's of a powerful force. naam assad and his cost not what may i i think of it everyday. i still have to fire sparks from the to memorise still go to counseling for. and. it's is now worth it but what i did do was mad is to find some good in that war. thing vietnam a me a better person it made me a lot of people more. made me understand that we are all one

one people to ottis earth has a certain amount of guilt and if you learn to live with you compartmentalize it or unite you rationalize you can i call excuses i mean i really don't have to make excuses even though. there are things i wish i had not done. but there's no way to change so since. i last. laugh. when you come to the point you're on i'm sure you're actually my house but there are more snow on the way just so. i'm just agreement.

like the person you can head toward and i. loathe luxury. with. a.

so. let's just. see. this thing that. we're going to. get.

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