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was driven by politics but it did rule that peace rights were violated after his arrest a decision that moscow is considering to appeal. next we invite you to follow the journeys of for war veterans and explore how being a good soldier means being able to pull the trigger without hesitation. out on the dismounted part on duty. to be a soldier was then a very important thing in a young man's life and to be not just a soldier but to be a damn good soldier and to be in combat to the comi. that's where you blow and. and that's the southerner in me in time of war that's

where you belong and think. i had left mississippi. probably still on my children here because of the anger i had to go it out for me to get out of necessity or a problem with that. came up here and then our commission to work on the harvest and that work i couldn't do i couldn't make money at it so i came back and while i was in jackson i wanted to go with a adoption center there and signed up i believe i believe. i have a sound piece and you mean. this is a cotton mill or there were five textile mills and i want to run for about two months and it's looking for a job and finally one of the old neighborhood great savannah around for years

should get a job in the cotton mill. how much straight the army recruiter. how come. the inundated. by grip is real for i grew up a little small town called peril and texas that's near galveston i remember sitting on a couch and watching. the first gulf war. two hours ago allied air forces began an attack on military targets in iraq in kuwait and watching it on the television seeing how quick. and the hoopla afterward and from the liberated feet. off oh great to be an american i'd feel the we had lost the ghosts of vietnam i remember sitting there on the tile set and thinking morris well you know to go into you know to go into the military.

we got married on the thirtieth of december ninety six to five so and i left on january third of nineteen six the sexual and the vietnam so that's why i spent my on him alone in vietnam alone. we went from the bronx out to ben while we're at daycare for what they call the orientation peter you know to get used to the climate and to actually get used to the sounds of war.

the first couple weeks i was terrified every not. and after my first briefing i went back to my bed not i just cannot sleep i like a plate of us are going to be back and we shouldn't have any more because the next day nothing happened. and then. somewhere at about three four weeks we had an operation where they had thirty helicopters i was circling waiting on my turn to go into this l.z. or landing zone to put the conned out of salty. and i are the radio and the power of the one of the red flight said this is regulate were taken far and all i could hear in the background was. now to try to relax and i try to forget about it and it would scan right back this paralyzing kind of fear of knowing that i had to start and be shot at. a helicopter pilot you have

both hands full so your gut instinct is to fight it. but it's no place to have you looking through a clear flight since last winter and the surrounding woodland you see little flashes and you know that people are shooting to disrobe going to hit you. from that point on. i think i realized that it is possible to doubt. that. we were but a bunch of thirty guys in a through an afghan truck put in as replacement trained and we couldn't find the division. we finally found it in the first thing they said to us when we got there i remember why'd you take so long there was no welcome. being a replacement which is the most god awful curse you can have on

a human being. you're going to comment that you don't know anybody and they don't care about you and they were scared to death you were going to do something stupid lifter it at the wrong time fire at the wrong time anything to attract fire it would get them killed. by january two thousand and three. i found myself sitting in the kuwaiti desert waiting to invade iraq. i told myself you know hey we're here to fight a war this is it you know this is so tough and this is what eleven years of training you know has accumulated to my main goal was making

sure that my men came home alive hell i didn't care about i had to say it but i didn't really care about anybody that was outside of my platoon. once we crossed into iraq we were roll into these towns like a bunch of cowboys shooting the place. we went into the rashid. it was an actual military compound it's in a huge military compound it's pulled in there was an abrams tank that was parked in one of the entrances. and i started asking me what was going on because there was some demonstrators down the road and. i asked him if any of mad any weapons and he said no. and so what are you going to.

you know they're going to stage a coup against sister anything like that and he said no rape there just down there are certain you know chains and yelling i go behind my home beat and terrapins an m.r.e. and all a sudden i hear a gunshot i step out from behind my home be. a series of stuff out from the hamas home be my marines are discharging their weapons and the demonstrators so on sling my weapon and opposed to the stock up and. the thought of the rifle stuck open in my shoulder and i start firing and i'm hitting i'm hitting the demonstrators no i am. and of course i mean being at the head i mean. center mass but i don't know who called ceasefire all i know is it was kind of like simultaneously we all just stop firing. the lieutenant he comes up to me and he

goes what the hell happened. i don't know you tell me sir you're the lieutenant. i said i do you know i heard a gunshot that went over our heads and i said that yours or i say was the open fart. i don't know. when we did the reconnaissance and as we're driving by. as we're driving by the bodies i'm looking down at the at the ground and not seen any any weapons they were aware in traditional. jalapenos and. course they were soaked in red with blood. now i thought to myself for a split second to. you know these people didn't have any weapons we just shot at

much of the norm. protestors. and then a little voice and then your head goes off in the service well that's war. that's what happens in war. i just i'll be honest with you. i really did watch off to the you know. how did we know.

so on after we arrived in coach we didn't know that we had built a base camp or above these complex of cardinals and. so will always people around us may live by sniper fire or at times mortar fire. or felt that we had everything going against us whether it was just that the car on. the creatures or nature itself the snakes. it's farther. and i know it's a different smile. let's face it if you were in battle i know i've heard many people say you can't smell blood but to me that's a lie. you can smell it.

i remember early on i think it was. april. sixth the sixth we were out and over woods and. it was people in a rice field that we didn't know what they were they had on the block for two hours and it's so hats and we had an hour and that's your period that we were there that everything in black pajamas was the enemy so we opened fire on them. we were able to go and physically look at them and. they had no weapons and they looked to be teenage children young very young. so you have that dollar in your mind when

one reality hit you you know. what did i kill that i kill innocent kid i wasn't to call this a course and that's never answered. that experience of being fired while i had to stock price on irving so i. asked to be transferred to the army all cotton because they never stock they shoot rockets and machine guns. i don't think i really thought about what your job was. but. as some point. you you come upon

a situation where you see people you have to shit. and you have a machine gun and we call it a zone unveiled because it looks like a constant spray thank you seeing people move. and seeing women and children go into a house and being told that this is an enemy location. you. have to aim at this building and you have to far you the rockets from machine guns and if you're far enough away it's still not quite like shooting people. but i think it presents a problem for most people if you think about taking that gun and shooting since. most people can't. a soldier has to be trying to do it so.

initially it was pretty tough i tried to. not see. out that it didn't hit anybody or you only saw the building exploded you didn't see the tape. the day i got hit the weather was exactly like this it was cold it was there it was foggy was damp it was september in northern france. we left for gun that morning we were to cross the moselle you were on one side of the river and you were being destroyed by artillery shells coming the other way. i was getting off. in the dirt because we knew we were going to be attacked by

artillery and i was had michelle in my hand and inside me i was fly. like a few sledgehammer and it hit me and thrown me way into the air and i didn't know it has come back to the ground i went. in and suddenly i fell back. put my hand up and i felt a piece of some in my head and then i looked at my hands and they were just scarlet with blood and i looked at my back at my butt and my butt was if you could see the white fat in this huge hole and my but i remember always lying there and. the medic came over and he sort of fixed me up and he was leaning over me and i watched the tip of his nose disappear a piece of shrapnel cut off the can put his nose and then the blood from his nose

merged with my nose. and the next thing i knew i was in a stretcher i still don't know harker yet because i was still paralyzed on my right side and then i had the operation on my head and what i still remember i grit my teeth you see i didn't have any honesty here and they drilled with a drill to start taking all this stuff on and i can still remember it felt like i had put my head on a railroad track and the train had run over. what i remember is being treated with symbols enormous tenderness and. sometime in the mail six to say. maybe early general my cop and i with santa.

we were like can a pig swear we were to be hit and the other cop unaids were converging and wiping the enemy out. there was a price night you could. see long distances by the mall we had been out for quite a while on this patrol and and saying anything so we relaxed all it wants something current stepped out of the bushes. and it startled them to see us there and it startled me and. it was firing and i didn't have my weapon was on the guy i call my way up here are. so i managed to get. hang grenades off my well. house

a couple grenades. now this is what i got. then we could see as far as we could see there would be a car that was coming out to our program and. we called in for an direct fire and couldn't get it we called in for permission to return. because my coffin was getting overwhelmed. so the commander told us to just try to find a place and spend the night a little bit marshy and he was on the one that was killed and one other bomb crater and we sat there on the i. eventually the mechanizing and they came in and we loaded the martian on.

his brains actually fell out as well we all were moving in. that's still i still can picture you remember it said in that corridor our night with them. i can remember that is here sounded hollow. but it was easier to go back and kill that's part of what drove me. i was for

a day and i. was. just so to sleep. sleep. sleep. sleep. sleep sleep. sleep sleep. sleep some people love to hunt i love to love animals i'm here most sales are here whatever whatever suits their fancy. but i can also tell you that there is no other feeling in the world that comes close to hiring another human being. that's what you're trying to do here. and the

drawback to it is if i could you want to do it again. because you enjoy it. it's almost kind of like a drug and you become addicted to it after a while like with any like with any addiction. you know as soon as you're fired and you get that first burst of enjoyment. it only lasts for so long and the high comes to a low. after wears off they feel to me like there was a was just somebody i'm dark waters holes like hell swimming you know in a big well we've referred to in the marine corps as a ship pull and. you find yourself. looking forward to the next. mission or for a combat role. you

get all right if it's right or wrong. time i don't know why you do it but it's first kill is same are you you think about is rationally. you have to kill the close quarters. it up and where they killed were. well for knife i. know he would build in our forty's people and i wanted to kill. them i felt good at the time when i when i did it bother me if i. didn't

care the chance to kill someone it went beyond error and the call of duty it turned into something i said. that i hate that i had had growing up in the south i think i had expanded. because of what was happening in vietnam so close and the poor. i feel i've become an animal i never killed no remorse. i literally saw young men turn into. psychopathic killers. but the

great thing about the marine corps is the training process that and young men and women go through gives them all the ability to kill at least one time to put that that warrior ethos and effect and then once you've done it. then it's on you. as so many things happen in a war that put you at odds with your sense of right and wrong. i've seen things that would be described as is war crimes. that the sergeant who had the ring of ears who. is not a secret i mean he's walking around with a big wiring with human ears pushed through the lobe and they're all hanging on the

ring these are people he has cut off for years to try to get information. on the shooting civilians. you don't really call it it's not like you're shooting a scene. it's like. collateral damage.

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