go to glory is the memory of that one life. back here with r t here is a look at the top stories international law on the line as the u.s. talks of tougher action on syria without u.n. consent this comes as the rebels reportedly call on the world body's envoy kofi annan to admit his peace plan for syria has failed. in or out irish voters head to the polls in a referendum on the e.u. fiscal treaty which opponents say amounts to nothing more of them permanent a steady control by brussels while a backlash against cuts sweeps across europe the plan mean centralized brussels control of national budgets which those against it say means handing over sovereignty to the e.u.

. and a video in which the father of the late former russian security agent alexander blames the boris berezovsky for his death has passed to scotland yard live and go was poisoned by radioactive polonium in two thousand and six and the self exile tycoon want to buy russia is named among the masterminds. who we had lines here on our team up next a special report on the dress to consequence of the use of chemical weapons during the war in vietnam state with. the dow chemical company in midland michigan. seventy two million liters of defoliants sprayed by the u.s.

military over south vietnam beginning in one nine hundred sixty one were manufactured and sold by american chemical companies including dow monsanto and diamond shamrock. at the time vietnam was divided into northern south the us supported the government of south vietnam and military intervention intensified after nine hundred sixty five. but the us made strong resistance from guerrilla forces who used dense jungle as their base of operations. defoliant spraying was begun in an effort to deny cover to the guerrillas by eliminating the jungle falling which. as the war escalated the spring of deval eons increased dramatically and much of the land in

south vietnam was contaminated and left barren. the defoliant known as agent orange was made from the same chemical substances as herbicides used in the us but it was twenty five times more potent. agent orange also contained dioxin the most toxic chemical ever produced. dioxin remains in the environment for many decades and causes a variety of health problems. several million vietnamese and american soldiers who fought in vietnam were affected by agent orange. their children and grandchildren continue to suffer the affects. dioxin remains in the soil of vietnam today and the land has yet to recover.

but my wife and i train one nine hundred sixty six and sixty eight a lot of chemical was sprayed into aung sun mountains and along the border with laos and all. that they did i get it for them the hills were covered with large trees that yeah i did thank. all those. that want it here after the chemicals were sprayed all the trees died from truong song to acquiring tree wow for one thing by then i know i'm not me not me we used to have many precious animals in this area we have a little bit you know if you actually do that. you know why. there were elephants and tigers bears and lions i want to bet that if they didn't make it up on my back i but that got it right you know they were precious birds

including peacocks know enough to lay out. you much how i want to be they were all destroyed by the war not only by bombs but by chemicals. in vietnam agent orange was only sprayed in the south but there are many victims in the north as well as they were exposed in the jungles of the south while fighting in the north vietnamese army after serving in the war these veterans began to develop cancer diabetes and other illnesses many of their children were born with health problems and the effects have carried over into the third generation. yes i mean that and i know i

know i have six sons and a daughter right here my daughter has trouble with her eyes you. know she has six fingers if i. don't. know. this is the youngest son he is mentally disabled. right the one of the grandsons has problems with nerves and breathing down the other grandson has skin disease. in. the way that i feel when i fought in the south i saw chemicals being sprayed from airplanes overhead. i became blind when i was two. since then my life has been very hard. i am now twenty eight and life is dark and

difficult i hope that the society will take care of me and that i will be able to see again. the midwestern town of canton ohio. where buster heather belzer the daughter of a vietnam veteran lives in this small town with her husband aaron and two sons. my father bill morris was in vietnam in one nine hundred sixty eight through one nine hundred sixty nine he was in long binh and then won and he would also go out on convoy i was born in one nine hundred seventy two. my mother

actually had two miscarriages prior to me my birth experience was pretty traumatic for her because i was born with multiple problems. and i was missing my leg and my fingers and my big toe on my right foot and my mother said that there was a gasp everyone was shocked and all she saw was the last oxygen mask or whatever to kind of knock her out my parents really truly honestly believe that what had happened was as a result of my father's exposure to agent orange in vietnam and so that's when my parents started pushing and trying to get the word out so i was interviewed for local newspapers and. i would be photographed and our story would be told in newspapers primarily once when i was

a teen in the band because it was big news i mean you her a girl with one leg marching in a high school competitive band in a very small town i mean it was news i was born without my my fingers on my left hand and on my right hand. my hands really honestly never really stood in the way for me except for an outward sign to other people that i wasn't the same i use my hands a lot in my artwork i find myself drawing my hands quite a bit because to me they're my hands you know just as if anyone would. but they do tell a story they tell a story of. in

october two thousand and ten heather and i and visited vietnam for the first time. their first stop was with the family of gwen van landing in kwan province l r one i don't want to tell you. how. they're going to come back from clean up harmon's got a doctor who. only know. your eyes are red they are always like this even if. you know nothing i said what i said what he said normally that. they were right you know i don't know what are you. going to. write.

it and i don't really get i don't. care how yeah i do you know how to go if you don't like i think that i don't take it what you think of it we don't like to help the daughter is twenty seven and the son is twenty five. you walk past she's in great pain when she has her period. back bad night sometimes the pain is so bad she can't eat three days the night how much of a her brother cannot see and needs to be fed. me feel. that i have yet to be there they all go out like i entered the military in one nine hundred seventy three and was stationed in denying when i was . going out and i was building roads to get camera you know when you ask him what he thought when the problems with children where did you first understand that

there were any so it out when you get when i came home from the war and the children were born i was shocked if you get in the neck. imagined it was because of agent orange. that book here we thought an ancestor might have had a serious disease but got to go you know what we checked the family histories and found nothing he'll give america i'll give. that up but why don't you and i got. you down the way i don't know as a mother it is painful to have children like this do you not think. that but they are so unfortunate compared to other children you talk. who would call me don't believe that no one is willing to accept our children. which. they are as old as now and they would like to work with much good talk the talk when you know you think that i. am going to know that no one will hire them.

but. if i come to know. that it is harder once parent to be a parent of children like the. early climb up what. this you've been able to have any education so far. as you know. they probably ready to go you don't know them well you never know what. you did. in your pastor but you like to tell the children who've been affected by cajun or in america what you would like to tell them and we don't want guys even anything that needed the day to go on in that interval to look at how much meat the night they. need to eat with the meat

and. i feel sympathy no please be strong in the. movie and i'm also trying hard to be happy. if. you like that you are you're not. really reading was a good question and. i was. like you're. not. good. because. heather and ran an antique store on weekends. my father was alive when i got married he really really he really loved he he

was comfortable with their. i think that was a huge fear for him he was afraid that i wouldn't find anyone. and when he met aaron he knew he knew that aaron loved me he got to walk me down the aisle and. very very. good memory for me when i was born and had all these issues and he blamed himself and my mother didn't know and she was having miscarriages he dabbled in alcoholism or while he was in prison by vietnam and he didn't live his life because of that what a tragedy i must have been about six or seven maybe eight years old maybe at the most and i remember hearing my parents fight and. it

was typically you know they would carry on and and then one of them would peel out the driveway in the car you know out of anger and i remember my dad got quiet and i was in my room and i heard him go into the bedroom i was little and i remember i was in my night clothes and i went to the door and i saw him standing by his upright dresser with his heels on the dresser. and i look and he had a pistol and as he and. i was little i didn't know i didn't know that he was probably very close to committing suicide at that point in time and i went to him and i remember just be a little like the daddy if it doesn't work out first try try again that was my eight year old wisdom at the time you know you know. you turn around and he looked at me and screw me up and try try again

and he put the gun down father's death was really it was service connected they did connect it his exposure to agent orange. he would always say i didn't realize i was taking my children or he said. floored me if i didn't know he said if i had known what would happen to you. i would have dodged the draft and for my father to say that that was huge and to hear that come out of his mouth was shocking to me it was shocking but it just spoke to the guilt that he carried from the moment my father went into the draft our life always centered around vietnam always of course there's been times fits and i would call in fits and

spurts in my life believe it that i would become so impassioned over power and i have to do something about this agent orange stuff and it's just still there and it's the unfair and i can't believe this one of the last times i found sharon perry on facebook believe it or not it was i had googled or something children of aging or injured children american veterans soldiers children you know and those kinds of things and legacy was there and i was. i cried you know i just cried and we laid there's other people because when you fight this first so long in our country is so large that you feel isolated thanks to our thanks.

when my husband died. everything that i based my life on my beliefs my value system it was turned on its head he always told me from the time that i'm met him that you know we were going to get married that he he was going to die long before me and he died at fifty six it is it is my understanding that his death is attributed to exposure to agent orange because he

did serve in country in the brown water navy on the rivers and he had yes he had diabetes and perfectly raw other secondary illnesses. i had started with agent orange legacy. after my husband passed away of course what the american people need to know that's that's who needs to know is that the families of vietnam veterans are on the brink they are they they are devastated with the circumstances though they face today that they've been living with for years with untreated post-traumatic stress disorder with illnesses and cancer is caused by agent orange their children are ill their grandchildren are ill in these families are devastated they're having to fight for any benefits that they get this straw in my family killed my

husband and that's enough to keep me going to a day i die and i get discouraged yes and then i meet somebody who says you help me and that gets me to the next day. surety kate's parents divorced soon after she was born. her father who she reconnected with when she was twenty six was a vietnam veteran who carried deep scars from the war he died of cancer in two thousand and nine. more or less an accident they got married long enough so that i would not be considered illegitimate so that i would have my father's name by the time i was two i think i'd been to. four or five different doctors about it and it to

a dermatologist diagnosed me with alopecia universalities in my in my case which means i don't have anybody here really anywhere also when i was almost sixteen and not started my period yet so my mom took me to the doctor to just kind of you know see what was going on and the first doctor the we went to took a look and said i need to refer you to a specialist and she didn't really explain what she saw or anything to us she just wanted to go over here to the specialist so went to go see a doctor at the university of alabama in birmingham. not remembering his name just right now and he did a pelvic examination and then they did an ultrasound and some other tests i believe they even may have done a crime was on check to make sure it was really supposed to be a girl go at they found out was that i didn't have a uterus and that my vagina was only about you know that big it wasn't normal everything looked normal from the outside but on the inside nothing was right and

they said you're not going to have a normal sex life you're not going to have children. that was really hard you know in your early teens in your late teens early twenty's at college most of your peers are having sex so to not even be able to and to try to go on a date with someone and of course you date them long enough they're going to expect something to happen and nothing happens or you actually have to look at them and say i can't explain it i mean that's that's really hard. to have two such remotely small things happen to one person seems like statistically speaking there has to be a cause and maybe it's a similar cause how you know why would two such unique things happen without having some. pot you know at least possibly same cause you know i don't know if i'm

phrasing that right but how can that be how do i feel about not being able to have children at this point in my life at forty i'm probably as ok with it as i can be it was i've had two different men in my life who have chosen not to have a long term relationship with me because i can't have kids and that hurts. in fact the man i'm married to now at one point i told him that i would not marry him because i couldn't give him children and he was like oh you have a kid i don't even know i don't know but yeah i've missed out on things i've had things taken away from me and i'm angry i've come to terms with it but it's not fair what i've found over the last year or so becoming involved with agent orange is you know there's there's so much stigma associated with saying i have

a probable reproductive system i think there are fewer people that are willing to talk about it now now that i've opened up and said this is what it is. it is hard to talk about it's embarrassing i'm not precisely thrilled that everyone will do this and get find out that i don't have a uterus but at the same time i think it's important for people to know and i don't think it's something to be ashamed of but that has taken me probably twenty years to get around to to say i have nothing to be ashamed of i mean all those years of the feeling with p.t.s.d. and vietnam and agent orange vietnam agent orange that's what it was like all those years you know america's moved on left us stuck in time how dare they we're going to come out and we're going to we're going to take over where the veterans voice has has been stopped has been discontinued they think that that's all that was necessary to hide their law is but they're wrong because

they forgot about the widow this is a piece they did after my daughter danielle and i had the diagnosis with her spine are we in the process of getting the diagnosis this is. agent orange is evil and. has been bud and six very much like like he did and my youngest daughter lizbeth has she's in prison and my everything that's happened to us plus service asperger's and the alcohol and drug abuse as a result of his p.t.s.d. and other illnesses in this is all came about because of danielle small problems you access to that vertebrates putting a part. religion

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