right. what are you doing where you going and he would ask me if i wanted to go to the store so i didn't notice i was doing this but he they said that. i would go to go to the store with dad just to get milk or something. i would walk up to the front door and just stand there. because i still hadn't developed our redeveloped the habit of reaching out. i spent the entire day my dull life walking up the doors and stop and wait no somebody else to open the door and i didn't realize i was still do that he'd be like standing behind me like you would open the door not in that scene look and so i'd step out of the way and let him open the door until they called it to my attention i realize how stupid that was and you're not stupid but just weird so i had to make a conscious effort to say ok i'm going to open the door today and be aware that i can do that i can open the door walk outside sit down walk in the grass with my bare feet and. look at the moonrise and all those things that. that we

all take for granted you know being able to sit down with your mother and put your arm around her and break bread with your family and. like i said that's a good example of walking bourbon aggress i didn't see grass for. twenty three years something like this. when he first got out a rather dry way the. one that had a side over here next door a nation for cop cars over there. he panicked he went around locked all the doors. so i'm going to actually let you go and i don't know i don't unlock the door he was scared that he would drive a car right in the state of oklahoma because he's afraid of plants.

getting you know push from drugs that say it was he as they do it all the time you know they were going over. and now they are out in the breast cancers or whatever. here i don't like a lever get over the net sail for twenty years. robert king long time death row inmate i met him when i first got there he was a good guy they made him an orderly they trusted him he. was a good guy he didn't give the inmates any trouble and even give the staff any trouble until the day died until he was scheduled to be executed robert had. resolved not to let the state of oklahoma kill him so he purchased and stored enough narcotics to kill himself several times over. in defiance

of. or despite the rules and procedures that are put in place to prevent such a thing on the afternoon of robert's execution he took enough drugs to kill himself several times over when it was discovered the the agents for the state of oklahoma instead of letting that man die which was their objective that day is that he leave this earth he did it for them instead of allowing his death in this peaceful manner that he chose by drug overdose they rushed him to the hospital pumped his stomach gave him the drugs to counteract the narcotics took him back to prison in two hours later they executed him they strapped him to a table stuck a needle in his arm and took his life it is the most bizarre and frightening thing that happened to me when i was on death row and of all of the horrors that i had to witness for two decades it was the one thing that i can't let go of the fact that

they saved a man's life at the last minute so that they could kill him. soudan fi. back. troops. blood in the me. and blood that. we. stand if hanging. from the mob and street he.

seemed. the supreme court turned him down. naturally i'm. so. so. two hundred and twenty second to execution under rick perry therefore and written. a sixty first execution in texas is about to take place.

all over the state of texas and even at washington they see people who are just a best texas sex secure share. quite loud that i thought was only was a phone call that first so why. bring our birth life the national model of our. last family. that were wrapped up. classes.

they done was. my. son. riley was. it's. so odd. that. lethal injection was used in one thousand nine hundred thirty eight and one nine

hundred thirty nine it was started by hitler's personal physician carl brandt ten thousand defective children were eliminated with lethal injections in the right in thirty eight and thirty nine the same mentality that they use then we use today we call it humane to make it easier on those who do the killing rather than on those who are killed zajac line be it was responsible for the deaths of millions of people in death chambers across poland and yet in twenty ten in the united states arizona and mists would be use zajac line b. gas pellets to liquidate people in gas chambers nobody wants to be linked to the

nazis we can all agree that was among the worst regimes that ever existed in humanity and it's easy to point the finger at the nazis and say how terrible they were but the historical antecedents of the american death penalty today come in large part from the nazis. who is coral brant no american knows hitler's personal physician but he gave us the idiology of using a needle to kill people in the name of the law because it was easier for those who didn't who put the needle in the arm this is america if we're going to say how great lethal injection is then let's give credit to where credit is due and give credit to karl brandt and the nazis for coming up with a bad idea well i don't see that it's categorically more violence than been forcibly dragging a person off to be locked in a cage forever. you know it's not the kind of thing that i think of when i think of

the word violence i think of. far more bloody and painful punishments than than. a procedure that is basically is similar to what is done for a medical procedure except that the person doesn't make up. that that is what strikes me is that is what the term violence are for easter.

i would pretty much give. him i won't be allowed to touch him until after he's dead. tell me what about that other states at least let you have a last visit with your family. but it's still perplexing. we keep making jokes about getting real friendly with regards to me and my mother so we can just. you know. think she can convince.

more ed for me to look at. mobile home. her cabin. yeah. goal to fit me up in business with cabins. out here and get rid of this and do it so that's what he's looking for. fatality have thought. that what he wants for now we've decided to if he dares to add the nat'l to give me a business i'll have some income coming in or have to worry about working in money

. in one of his first drawing. after he got locked up.

the first time i looked at that a crowd for our. cause when you look at it you know that what they're feeling. that's what their thoughts are. and this one. that was one of my favorite because it's just so pretty and he uses color. i wish he would concentrate more on the pretty pieces. then the anti death penalty pieces. and there's a big story about this. the first time tony made this piece the hand looked to life live. they literally took it away from him shook down his entire sail. took the hand took everything he had with it. told him the hand was made for an escape attempt. that my son and he would wouldn't even think about going to

skate but to be on it just wouldn't happen. so i don't want him thinking about it ok i feel like. concentrating. on native american stuff even the african match. my unicorn. pretty. butterfly to me that thought i wouldn't work it out but he laughs at. everybody. tony shouldn't be there tony. an excellent case to be able to get relief and be out of there to be able to literally walk free from death row but all these people that keep telling us i mean. their words and we're not being shown anything nobody we're not one step closer now than we were fourteen years ago to

actually seeing him walk out the door and because we deal with it every week when we go to visit whether we talk about it or when we put our hands up on the window and say love you take care the chances aren't really very good. and now it's getting to the point where they've executed more and more of his friends most of the ones that i knew when i first started seeing him and i've met some of them met some of those family and gotten to know most of those who've been executed already there's only like two or three left that are still alive that i knew before and he was losing and what to him are the last of his friends and he says every time there's another execution it seems like he dies

a little bit more inside i don't see the justice and i can guarantee you that all of the people that say it brings closure i think they're going to be very disappointed i don't think it's going to bring any closure to anybody i just don't. i.

personally i can't understand why anybody would want to witness that. i won't be there i will not witnessed him killing myself. i'll be there. but i will be far away there by. the way to see that

either. his dad. and probably his cousin. they'll be there to be supportive for him. not alone. a matter what they do. are they can't be there. i just don't think i could do. to be sitting in a room with him laying there. no one that that's the

last minute. and they're going to ask. for. what she's supposed to say. but they don't want to believe anything. real are sitting here and we can look back on an america that used to have slavery

and shake our heads in disbelief that how could this country have slavery for two hundred forty six years and think it was ok but during that time those people thought it was ok it was a norm for them the way the death penalty is a norm for us. so things change in society society grows it becomes better it just does it at a very slow and frustrating pace and that's what will happen in this country with this issue we will ultimately reach a point where the average person in this country accepts the idea that killing people in the name of the law is not good it is not a good thing for this country to be doing but we are not at that day yet.

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