you know i wanted that you know we had to have my life was famous and free so i pretty much got what i was looking for if i'm not mistaken i wasn't p. g. community clinic i think just well versed first fell on top when they told me i didn't believe you know because i had all these s.t.d. this is like now. is a cool way he had a. bet with my thinking about it it will way but it didn't go away stanley's response was you know and you know i was definitely does like i already already you know i was like ok if i get it i'm like yeah. you know i want to get. and i probably did go get a had day you know i would not think about it because i know i know my know me so i play and we get home and my dad you know you tell me all head on head along. he

want to know you want i would of buying. so many drugs that he did you take my calls for me. and i had and you know one time i had to get stats like trees have to we. just like. i don't think. that be a neighborhood if you only shoes you know everything everything is heavy you know your legs they have you very weak and you still got to get them to get it out to get these three shots a week yeah that's the way i think. i had three blood transfusions because of the name. so it out was an experience of in the cell and after living with hiv for over thirty years if i tell you a story you think that all of it you got to go through. and it's like.

everybody's body is different you know everybody's body is different what i go through you may never go through then again you might go through it twice is worse so don't look at me and say oh yeah i'm opposed to no i'm not opposed to. someone then with h.l.v. . i remember when major magazine said this would never be a heterosexual disease it would always be you know in the in the gay community it would always be in the drug community it would never have a spread to they had all sorts of community well that was false but when people heard that it was like all thank god i'm heterosexual i don't have to deal with i have to be worried about the strain of this epidemic our investigation reaffirmed that men having sex with men are highly susceptible to contract ing hiv. what we also learned is that straight ahead role sexual black men are

a rising tide in contributing to the growth of this deadly virus thirteen percent of the population may be african-american but we make up a much larger percentage of the individuals that infected with hiv the any and it is screwing especially among young people he's a young african-american the centers for disease control have presented strong data showing that youth between ages thirteen to twenty nine are an ever growing population falling prey to h i v. however we learned of a segment of this group that seems to have gone almost unnoticed youth born with this disease i've heard women use the terminology you know he gave this to me when somebody gave you something it's because you accepted i contracted hiv from

this man i was in a relationship with him and we had a child i love my daughter he meant three i thank him and for whatever reason that god used him and me as a vehicle to bring this challenge to the world h.i.v.'s here the elephant is in the room is what i'm doing with that elephant i no longer. i have locked myself into this anger you know look what he did to me. when i burned spawn thousand entirely positive i was six years old and. it was on my doctor's appointment and you know how they have a playroom for kids you know when waiting for the doctor and i was in the play roles playing and they took my mom out the play room so i guess those who are paying for the tell me my doctor came out the room and he came and picked me up from the playroom and when we went into the the room i see my mom and bill of tears

fill me i'm pulling away from my doctor like mommy i'm still i mean toys or could he not i don't know why my mom was crying and she was like most we hired just come in and the doctors was like you know your mom want to talk to you so i'm like ok and she just told me she just my birthday wow i guess i just passed so like stand up and how she just blurt she does blurt it out and so my first question was that always on a diet because i used to hear like a lot of kids in africa dying from a child being made said i was my biggest fear that i was going to die they both advance the way that i could understand the you know there's medications out there that's going to take care of you but you know this is something that's going that you're going to live with for ever i shared with the school that raising every possible i never expected outcome i never expected teachers would have discriminated against or even i never expected that administrators would not have taken the time to learn and understand how this disease is transmitted so they wouldn't discriminate against it. so when i went to school the next day and i had

told my friend i say you know i went to the doctor that i am about to call me that i had my mom told me that i had hiv and i soon as i said that my teacher she automatically pulled my friend away from me and probably glows around the classroom and i'm due to the fact that her knowing that i was hiv positive i couldn't go on any class should choose to pull garbage bags around me like if i had to use the bathroom she let me use the bathroom or myself choose to take my school lunch away from me or do so factor me being a child be positive she was abused she was abused by i was school system other children started harassing gravely and she even got older would to know that adults treated this child the way that she did a minute child was in catholic school. private schools you would think you know somebody know better they do better that was not the case kids used to make fun of me saying that i have the monster or they used to just that i would get things to

me like this one guy used to have really long hair she cut my hair off one day like i was while i was watching a movie in class and all of a sudden i heard says gold. and i just want my and she was like yeah i'm cutting your hair off because you're going to die soon and i just sat there and i love how continue doing it and because i'd just like as i said when growing up i just felt like you know this is how my life is going to be like everybody just going to make fun of me but everyone did not make fun of her and that the tender age of six trichotomy oprah winfrey and i was a millennium dream at the time that's what made donal's was doing kids that dealing with any type of only they will send them back to disney world i went on my show and i was sick at that time i had a fever and i was like oh i'm sick i don't want to sit next to me and she would just open arms to make sweetheart i don't care what you have you're on my shoulder i want you to tell me what what do you go through and like i just remember me say

in talking to oprah and she was just crying my mother just are crying because name just telling everybody i'm having a child being. always sick and i thought i was going down oprah just like well how about if i send you to disney world or something and hope i didn't move on a moment they always wanted to go there and i. hope with them into disney world i confronted her dad he said to me ain't life ain't life a bit you know how long i've been living with this he called me and he was just like why he was on the show why did you tell people to eat i'm positive shouldn't do that how do you think i'm going to look so it's just like you just like one though he just is right when he hears your thought on the magazine our science on the hill just get upset like he's not supportive of. i'm glad though as raven grew into her teens life with her mom became strained the age of thirteen i always saw

people add they tried taking my life away me my mom started making really arguing and like isis i get really mad i had it was just it was a lot to me at that i say my teenage years was like my most lucky is. when i got to is of like sixteen seventeen i had to make realize like you know even . your mom didn't do something because you know she didn't know at the time and i had to realize i had to put my family sense into this like. i was born with that i did x. that is you know i can't be mad at my mother what can she do you know let me make make you make your future better don't don't look beyond the path i don't look at h.l.v. as a bad thing in my and of other youth in raven's age group who are prone to contract in h i v. the reaction of people what they're going to think of. the stigma

that's the main one i think of the stigma that's why a lot of young kids the skid to get tested be done privately that they discuss going on stuff like that but i'm talking as the young because i'm still in the young generation that you know that's the that's what the big biggest problem is that you know people accepting us and in a statement. wealthy british soil. right. market why not. come to. find out what's really happening to the global economy with mike's culture for a no holds barred look at the global financial headlines tune in to conjure report

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the americans have having to meet to spot some of the family in the church to address whatever crisis they are going through because the church was the place that sent us historically the collets the church was the place of you had the illness the choice of going come and support you you know of someone died and you can depend on the church to come and bring the food you know to me come in bring whatever you need even help you to bury your loved ones you know i mean that was the church of you whatever you didn't have the chance of going to come in and fill that gap for you. but when maids first black america most family members were

caught off guard those two points those points of comfort were not quite there you know thank god some people had great family support. most families back then did not know what he was they were afraid you know there was not a lot of information there was a lot of myths so we have that myth that it's not part of me i'm not gay i'm not a lesbian oh i'm a lesbian i can't catch it. i'm not in that age group i can't catch it yes it is it's it's it's in the house many victims of the and aids were shunned by close family members and when they turned to the church to have the stigma that initially applied to. anybody who had to come for all that.

racially religious leaders the church you know was caught up in this is a homosexual disease and you know it's you know again you know going to hail and wind up going to you know we're not going to address that that he was so important for the black church to be for the community because of the black church did not want to accept you because you were gay or because each other being in had a bigger sort of impact in that if you were not then allowed to potentially good church because he in only affected you to that effect did your mother your onto your brothers your sisters because they then also felt like maybe they were part of that being the child so in the beginning it's a gay white man's disease black folks it's not out issue really when people were dying left and right by nineteen eighty six african-americans accounted for twenty five percent of those infected with hiv causes for this rapid increase were

disproportionately low response of the national state and local levels adding to these external factors was the growing stigma surrounding this infection. is that somebody. an african-american has each and that person essentially says in a sense. silence by family members and local clergy bound by fears and an oil only strengthened the growing prejudice against those infected with hiv every black family has someone who has been addicted to drugs or alcohol and someone who was gay you know so that wasn't a new phenomenon what was new was that we were not about to talk about it in public i had a minister to said to me it's a real reverend cheek. homosexuality i don't have that problem in my church has had a problem. because should charge me b.c. twelve hundred people has

a soul in twelve hundred people and easily to say that ten percent of the population this gay and lesbian and you don't see anybody so you don't have anybody in your choir you don't have anybody on your deacon board on your minister ariel staff on you in your administrative office no way you don't see no one gay and as i understand homosexuality and drug addiction are two taboos that were well entrenched within the black family but almost never openly discussed. aids in the black family added one more tip to subject to be consciously ignored many times i would preach a sermon. for family and that would have the family come and say you can't say that he was gay or you cannot say that he died of aids you can say out of cancer but they can you can say he died of aids are you kidding me all of the whole community no. so the way i used to get around that was i would have remarks come first and of

course people would get up and say well i knew when he first got infected and the family would never said a word it was like the big elephant in the room and nobody wanted to talk about it . we explored internal factors that led to the early growth in the aids epidemic in black america while doing so we learned that silence fear and denial so evident back then has undergone little more than cosmetic changes thirty one years later. load . and i have quite a few friends that were raised in the church so you know i had lots in search service. then so quite

a few churches visiting but it was something that i just didn't see. in my spirit and still totally come to. enjoy the music but a lot of the other rituals just didn't sink in and as i became older and found my way islam was the only way that i knew in one place that i needed to go back to what i sometimes feel it's leave something a little more religiously grounding. from my understanding there isn't anything in the koran actually says about homosexuality being gay it's just a lot of the other. laws governed by the sharia laws you know things that got a lot of the sort of what the profit were practice. where it goes into homosexuality. it being a sin. of when i first found out i was positive. like i said i really didn't think it would be possible i was doing

a student teaching and i want all my lunch break to get my answers to get the results. and when i walked out of it and they said i was positive it was like i was livin in a fog. like i was in a daze. and i went back to work like nothing ever happened but it did it devastate i didn't know where to turn to talk to. how to tell family. i was lost. it was my mother father we were any kitchen. and my husband says oh hi how are you what's going on and they say nothing you know i had him with me there as well when it's all me you know and he's you guys to this is one involved with it in a mother was cooking we came in he said he wanted to talk and he came in and my

husband came in. he told us he had something to say to us and its own that i was a heavy positive this is why i'm in a relationship with a mother started crying and my father being the man he is asking so what does it mean you lost our dresses and you bring a little he said out that this is the was going on and just life floored me that started the whole argument and i just walked out you know that put a big strain on the relationship. is different it's better than it was there isn't a whole lot of conversation or close to none conversation about my sexuality me being gay or meet me any positive. washington d.c. carries the distinction of being ground zero for having the highest h.i.v.

infection rate in america all of d.c. has an epidemic because there are unusual consolation as not being a state not even be in city where a cut out all of d.c. is that a number epidemic level but d.c. is not so unique when compared to other major cities across the nation if you compare metro d.c. that is diminished did the disco columbia and its suburbs metro d.c. with metro philadelphia metro chicago metro miami were about the same there are twelve cities in the united states in which half of the people with hiv aids lives city d.c. is one of those twelve cities. we spoke to medical professionals concerning the disproportionate rise of hiv aids in the black community. forty five to fifty percent community be done with the disease we know how to prevent it by the way

african-americans are more likely to get tested and a group more likely to get to know we get tested we always go for the results and we always don't get into care particularly in rural job graphical remote areas we tend to have a physician or a clinician who has graduated from school or from college you know ten fifteen years ago when a hard to cheat person's age every positive because it was all you remember the infectious disease physicians who treated so they still don't treat and still don't know and they are not willing to. what is the level of hiv training provided for medical professionals the majority of the local hospitals and doctors offices within the district of columbia i think staff physicians nurses ancillary personnel understand that this is not a disease of casual contact so that you go in the hospitals now you don't see red bags outside of the door you don't see signs up there of isolation just because

a person is positive you may see it up there for a host of other reasons but not for being positive. it would seem that this heightened awareness of medical professionals would lead to earlier detection of new age hiv patients six to two percent of patients who actually come into care are diagnosed with aids within a year of being testing positive for hiv let me see that again within a year of a diagnosis of. over sixty two percent of those patients are diagnosed with those patients the majority of them were receiving medical care what it means then is that the clinicians the physicians physician assistant nurse practitioner advanced practice nurse pharmacists dentist did not know the clinic. or the disease or didn't pay attention. of those who can afford medical care it appears that many medical practitioners are not adequately trained in detecting the early signs

of hiv or may simply choose not to treat such patients nobody worries about being positive with syphilis and or nobody even thinks twice about most herpes infections but he seems to carry a burden. that we just can't explain. this fear seems to be born and not just the general public but among medical practitioners as well we had and i had an opportunity to speak with some young physicians. just finishing up residence and a group of them were talking at a meeting we were at recently and the us codes is each of you being taught in your in your program and told them said to us you know when we're at the hospital do a t. shirts and these are residents getting ready to go to become full fledged physicians to sit in a little one of windows patient's room that are positive ok you know clinicians

clinicians with whom hiv you know it's been a room over there and i think that we were stunned when one young woman talked about being in the clinic. and a patient was each of you. is in it should be. going to another police went in front of us said to her did you eat those gates maybe thousands of cookies. to my juggling job. do hack work and get caught when lobbyists money and lawmakers are combined together that's where the problem of corruption comes from. the documents. keep up

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