technology innovation. many in the black community have long memories and today have

a clear distrust for government run health agencies part of what drives each of you know community to his or his torkel perspective is disenfranchisement just kiki is very very much aware of the knife in our community and we still have many communities are talking about and this is a conspiracy the government wanted to kill soft so maybe we still have people who still have that mindset people don't like to say. that a government would make an effort to destroy people but black people have had a history. of tusky syphilis experience that was carried on by the federal government for thirty years one thousand nine hundred to one thousand nine hundred seventy two and people said at that time this is a way to get rid of the black population so that's corriveau to have to think about . that kind of planning that we have an entire museum in

washington do see you call the holocaust memorial museum which rag maintain it is the most important news in. in the united states that everybody should go to that museum because it's not just about the death. six million people. it's about a government of intelligent people deciding to get rid of a population. they thought was a cunt tam and it. is seeing it all hitler use the term tear that in german animal people suck. as he spoke about the sioux might say that you are free. so people didn't think conspiracy theories conspiracy no doubt set up a conspiracy is when one segment makes a play and against the interests of another segment and the other segment doesn't

know anything about it. and when it comes to matters of mental health and therapy i had this not guy. was my. half. of the time. this. is going to take us back now to fix it was. to try to. just. haven't done it. and i think until you know even in our medical school curriculum you know. when to we talk about hiv you know important it is going to go into the next generation. is

not just ignorance and stigma associated with a disease but a lack of compassion to keep. my mouth. by nineteen ninety five h.i.b. infections among black americans had surpassed white america. blacks accounted for forty percent of all newly infected h.i.v. cases. the most startling discovery was to learn that african-american women accounted for a greater proportion of new aids cases among african-americans overall in two thousand and three. it rose to become the number one cause of death for black women ages twenty five to thirty four and persis this day.

after ten years from now. my husband and three year old daughter and maybe age of twenty nine discovered to have. my third child was born very sick. we didn't know what was wrong with her and no one was able to tell us what was wrong she was in and out of dol spittal and by the time she was about to my husband began to get sick my husband wasn't feeling well he had a cough we kept going to different doctors kept misdiagnosing him first they said he had allergies they gave him allergy shots then they said he had tb they tested him he's fine it doesn't have to be after about a full year of trying to figure out what was wrong they then said ok your blood count is really no he wanted to be emergency room and they said well you probably have a bleeding ulcer so let's admit you to the hospital and let's check you for you know

where that is and we can take care of it they kept misdiagnosing him because he was a family man he was married we own a home we had children in private school so we didn't fit that stereotype of what people with aids or a trophy look like people have histories people have done things in their lives. but he had been clean for over ten areas. they didn't see any marks they didn't see anything that they thought was suspicious i guess that's the assumption and seldom ever asked him so what happened is that people's perception of scott in that way. so by the time they figured it all out he did not have a bleeding ulcer and they then said ok we need to ask you some other questions you know have you ever done drugs and those type of questions and then he said yes

several years ago when i was in the service. and they tested him and he came back with full blown aids. so even while my husband was sick and dying and a half but all you know i made up i did like many of us that you know i made up stories of what he had been one telling the truth. because of discrimination because of fear because of him i don't want to people to be afraid of me he die on january first new year's day of course it all made sense then what was wrong with the baby and then she died. on in june of that year.

i tested myself and my two other children bad thank god they were healthy and they did not have the virus but i did when i was diagnosed i was very sick i was ab pounds i had no t. cells and i was extremely ill so i was diagnosed with aids diagnosis not an h.p.v. diagnosis i was given less than two years to live in the course of six brief months lost her husband of ten years first three year old baby girl and was herself diagnosed with aids. when she reached out to her family i'm blessed that i have the family that i do we don't talk about it but i've never felt like they were afraid to be around me for many of those newly infected with hiv aids silent to acceptance by family and friends is often not enough after everything happened i went

to one support group then it was all guys they were nice men. and i was the only woman the problem with that was many of those guys were talking about things like how do i tell my parents or my family that i am homosexual. they were those were their conversations and their fears and discussions of course when i brought up i am in panic i just lost my husband my baby i have an eight in a four year old i'm going to die so what do i do with my kids i have to stop working i'm now on disability i went from two incomes to a fixed income a disability check i'm trying to figure it all out so of course i think i'm going to die because as i was told and for women for mothers our our focus now becomes not even about herself. it's about our children what's going

to happen to our children my children are going to be orphans i can't even stand to be in the house with them and watch them playing because i was so heartbroken that i'm going to be leaving and i could identify with the guys in the group so i figure i need to talk to some women and see if my only one with this or or. recognizing that her doctor was seeing other female patients. came up with an idea i asked my doctor if i could put a flyer in a home in her office. some other women so the whole a flyer in her office i put a secret phone line in my home because lots of family and friends didn't know i was dealing with this issue and started ringing and i started we started talking to each other just on the phone none of us wanted to show our faces and as we became more comfortable i would meet them in

a coffee shop and we started giving each other support that way and then started in my home where women will come together bring their children and. talk rye prepared for that and all of those things they were doing very much on. women's group. concerns. from the support group. quickly realise that services for women were non-existent if moms need to get to the doctor she was given a token to get on the bus to the doctor. she was given enough tokens to take the children to the doctor with her so basically she had no childcare she had no transportation so she couldn't go to the doctors she ended up not seeing a doctor so we became a network of women and we shared our our very limited resources we

shared our trans. try to point men's. care system. driving children. including. your system. reluctant and full of shy women. group brave souls. able to accommodate the growing number of. women in her home. and started the women's collective in washington d.c. . women are. we are taking care of children. parents. say we have. our own.

to take care of everybody. and i think we need to set up a system that is. helpful. and support women around the support system. to help them to be able to take care of themselves.

to better understand why h.i.v.'s still so persistent in the black community we checked in with you gay and straight after all it is they who will determine the face of the disease in the years to come. i. gave.

it to. play. play. play mission and free accreditation and free zones for charges free to make amends free. free stereotypes free. download free broadcast quality video for your media projects and free media. dot com. i think education is definitely one of the. more important pieces to it

because people are getting the wrong information and they're spraying this wrong information out there we learned about the technical aspect how do you catch it what it is what it stands for why not like percentages and things like that and who are mainly affected by. yes just like general education knowing that stuff like when i took such that in school you never really learned about each ideally we just learned late about puberty and about how to put a condom on but they don't really teach you stuff like hiv prevention and who falls into that category of who has it we're minimum incense and we're going to show you are great men having sex they don't shoot at all here you know it's very important to know about going to times about a man and woman having sex and the risk of what happens whenever a female on a few more our male male be to partner a little bit larger so we know you know we need we need we need to be straight you

need to be gay but we need to know information and curse and i think it's also important that parents talk more with their children about it we don't talk a lot about that with us kids even today it's still kind of hard to broach that subject with the young people but it is so important. my mother was famous for this let you do it in a but you will get a true she's made it all the time to do mom i'm a virgin turned to look around you know your man doing the right you're going to get a mother i'm pretty sure that's not cancer that's how you catch it ok it's so she found out how to really get it she was like a lot that was a game as disease i thought they were given to us and i thought that's how you get it just from doing that i didn't have a big increase my nose and i get it i find it funny how when parents automatically assume that your child is going to be shared i mean and they kind of force me to it that is why a lot of conversations about hiv and aids don't really. it doesn't really happen in

the household because you're taught. you're kind of taught by your parents to be sure and you know to talk about anything that involves your sex life because you're not street is conneally you know taboo to bring into your house it's a code i'm not going to talk about you know things that i can get you know by having sex because my mom doesn't want to hear about me having sex with another guy and for me is not even about just having sex with the same sex or opposite sex it's not having sex at all so it doesn't get beyond if you don't have sex and i'm not even windsor you get married type stuff just on sex and you know procreation when if i'm thinking about it you know i'm interested and all i can talk with my parents about it i don't feel like i can talk to them about that because they already say what they expect it is so now i have sex so i'm like ok if i do have sex what will happen i lack your privacy well what about this and my kids. i don't know what they are i'm young i don't know an weak little mole h.i.v.

we don't need to get to that because it's a don't have that i think many more open dialogue about it people are still very very nervous about talking about their sexual health and their sexual behavior talking about sex and it's pretty normal in my group of friends but when they come so my h.i.b. and like education step s.t.'s on it. that's not their homework and it's really awkward but we do talk about it it's not like it's not existed but usually when i hear other people talking about issues in life all some i guess unattractive or ugly will pass on their person not their sauce or. you get all this stuff so it's usually in a negative not inspiring or educational light but with my personal friends my close friends is usually like look we be educating people or we're just talking about trying to figure out what what we know or what's true us man simply just say i'm a child be on my place and all the blame on the press all the blame will myself and both of those are really unhealthy and can like f.

up and i see a world. where people man just. with the abundance of information now available about h.l.v. . number noses up the statistics they believe that as with vitamins all they have to do is pop a pill if they should become hiv positive. community like we do desensitize ourselves so much from aids i mean people as i always a mental disease if you can manage it you've got to have deep pockets that manage it i mean if you don't have insurance because i don't think the average person can pay fifteen thousand nine hundred dollars in rent and still pay two hundred dollars a month for medication and for those for whom money is not a concern there is a physical cost to taking drugs to fight hiv take four pills i take one pill i take a bactrim pill because the key perfections and stuff away and then i take. the

opportunity which is helps with the pain in the morning. and so i take that as this clock in the morning i wake up thirty to take medications because. i did recover from second the medication and i go to have my pill container and i'm out of water in the mornings when i wake up i just open the pill bottle take the pills drink the water may back down let the side effects go through this. stomach pain tiredness everything that i go through just let it all go through or not that's why our good. data is that. even well treated even with the best drugs someone with a just going to live a shorter life than someone doesn't have it and i you know i have a lot of friends on these drugs at this point both in africa and here and you know if they could go back and change that and live a life free of

a trade i know for sure for certain that they would. with thirteen percent of the population yet we have the highest rate of infection and again it goes into not a single answer. if i look at how blood pressure what we've looked at colon cancer where will we be if i look at breast cancer where will we be if i look at. it to one it is clear that the tremendous growth of hiv and aids in america's black community is driven by many factors yet no matter whom we spoke to physicians clergy political leaders and those afflicted with the virus it was clear that the real culprits behind the epidemic are ignorance miscommunication and most importantly a collective silence about how it is transmitted what it means to live with hiv and it's phenomenal spread across black america. if we sincerely want to help the

spread of this virus this is a problem that frankly is substantially preventable if there were really good public health campaigns if people were really focused on this problem you certainly should be able to a lot less a trophy a lot less human suffering and you would and that would mean a lot less energy and resources both in that a societal level but also personally trying to deal with it down the why would someone thirty six i was in london in the mid 1980's and you couldn't turn on the television without seeing a commercial about h.i.v. h.i.v. a child be you know can protect yourself be attested etc you know day after day after day after day after day after day after day. that's a public health education in my view that we have not hand at a level of intensity and public health education and still don't have the bill we are still talking about any increase in the number of cases and we need to

talk more to people who other people trust in the communities like for example the hair salon and barber shops we go there all the time we have conversations in there about everything you know so you know getting the right information it's in places like that places of worship getting the correct information that's a beer can can really help kind of hope this disease if they do think that. more conversations better you don't necessarily need leadership from the church which you really need is leadership from somebody right so well that happen to have been the case in the community of that was they were the purveyor of fear is quite right larry kramer was a real leader in this conversation and in zimbabwe and in uganda in congo there were singers who are leaders in this conversations and other places or political leaders who didn't maybe could be almost anybody right maybe somebody has to stand up and take this on it doesn't matter who it is it's just long as i don't personally care isn't is her system. kelly and i think what's going to eventually

happen as far as in our community is that we need to start letting young people and even young people just people in general understand the power of their voice because eventually was going to happen is that. the new media is going to be the cell phone ok because as they see things put the video you know because now cell phones you could upload photos directly to you tube all these different things is that now they have the power to tell the story. as more people living with hiv step forward to tell their stories we will no longer be able to ignore them and pretend we are safe the conversation must be taken to the schools inside the homes and throughout the community to eradicate the myths and fears that feed this preventable disease. today african-americans account for fifty percent of all new

h. i.v. infections every year unless we start talking to each other we will become dependent on drugs to live. with succeeding generation. start the conversation. the elevated to those who don't see. this is an absolute. necessity. but the. data. is to see. just like the thirteen colonies.

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business disease studios and make you know begin. to kill this disease and significantly prevent you from being ignorant confused or ambivalent bulis may be different but we suffer the same schwalbe see. is the name of the gays most don't see the symptoms. potentially deadly blizzard taking aim for the northeast it's expected to hit stunning in a few hours from new york to maine we have team coverage of the storm. but

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