international airport in the very heart of moscow. what you're hearing is just in this newsletter which is titled i hold it up it's called the i'm guessing it's all right the guinea pig zero you know explain the title i write about the history of human experiments and news stories about sometimes abuses and things that go wrong in experiments and so not only did you do the experiment but you're the investigative journalist as well within the industry you could say that i keeping them honest keeping them honest because they have to because the guinea pigs themselves can do it anonymously they all doped up. you know bill.

are all. going to have to sort of the. person who gets more work done with taken from each. scientific definition. this is a humane animal trap this is for a fairly small animal like a possum. or a cat a stray cat and i got it so that i could catch animals on the idea that i might eat them and i wanted to be ready to know how to get food get meat on the table. because i had no money. over the age of

forty five and that's the cutoff date for drug experiments when there's no money there's no money so i have to do something that doesn't cost anything. in my little world part of the complexity that i take a drug to help me continue my writing and research and i also have a lot of problems with the way the drug manufacturers go about their business and make front tested profits my work helps to address some of the contradictions in my life it has a healing effect on the world i think and some modest the gree and they are all it helped me produce my writing the relationship is not complicated to me it just works

this is the educated trial all the doctors that i was seeing do not stand out with my drugs and it's a good thing that i. am my own case manager. it's true. keeps me on nato's i can see her right now she would feel really strongly that she's doing the right thing of course a lot of the medicine she takes to have these sort of things. always mitigating sometimes but not dealing really directly with the problem this is. so it seems to me a long time. i did get hospitalized for poly pharmacy all kinds of weird drugs from prescribed and i got very sick and had to be asked flies then to two weeks to detox. and then they started me on

a whole different pilot drugs i was watching it happen and sang to myself this doesn't seem right. especially when one of her doctors refused to see her and yet he was still giving her psychotropic drugs but not monitoring them with a mood which i'm not i was in the press and that was that was wrong. that's polypharmacy in that she. couldn't tolerate we're not hearing or maybe what do you think about. what i did an air act is not what i imagined i'd be doing when i was in the army. my first impression about prison was this looks like a concentration camp i don't know who i should be watching when i should be doing i should be conducting myself i don't know how i made it there very overwhelming for

a nineteen and twenty year old kid or. to be. in charge of whether some great lives that. i would never. acts like i did i would read prison and normal life never ever in the way were using medicine there was to get at the prisoners and break them down to sort of treating people it was almost like we're punishing them for seeking treatment from us i mean when i'm ordered to give smith fourteen gauge needle. especially if they're not in a mass of trauma i know that that's not needed and i know that that's purely to inflict pain and that was explicitly explained to me by the officer in charge as give these guys fourteen gauge needle so they won't want to have these anymore

because they're so huge and they're so painful. years of the prisoners are crying and wailing and screaming that you and you know in the us. there's nothing to feel good about stick in fourteen years be in somebody for no good reason. i can take you and that's those people who are i'm sure there was other people who also felt the same way as i did but. ghraib prison was not a place you spoke out against. i guess if i practices there was or. planned day and i had to he didn't leave much of a suicide note he simply wrote i leave his experience smiling that's all he

wrote. you know doing it all over again i you know i don't know what i could've done differently i mean for heaven's sakes i didn't want him in the study it was not important at all how dan was chilling if it were important how he was doing that would have contacted me after we contacted them on good friday and said do we have to wait for him to kill himself and we did we had to wait for that i called the corner of the monday after he died i said i wanted to see him and i remember her kind of yawning at me and saying. don't you know how he died. and i his head well evidently i had to hope. and i didn't you know. when you find out your son kills himself you don't say what do i

know i didn't know. but it wasn't a normal suicide. he slit his throat so badly that the car nurse office said young mr capitated himself. and then she said probably because he wasn't dying fast enough that he. let his abdomen open and. reach his hand inside and she said when they found him his one hand had the box cutter frozen and that and the other hand was inside his abdomen up to his wrists. and. you know i want people to know this is what the drugs joe. if dan simply want to kill himself.

he went down.

so. what i do is a historian is looking to the way the poor people have been exploited and for the lies that abused by. the people in power. and the people with money. this includes these people who are on the margins including. human guinea pigs. this is a history of that hasn't been told far away. and there are a lot of stories that are important that haven't been brought to light and that haven't been explored.

i think. i. mean the people that are in psychiatric distress can especially benefit from the acute use of psychiatric medications i don't think we need to question them but you also have this whole other part of society that is using slash abusing psychiatric medication and you can put the medical field in there too because they're the enablers in the ninety's if you told a family practice doctor in ten years you will write a ton of prescriptions every month for atypical antipsychotics he might laugh at

you now primary care writing a typical for and on therapy for depression anger management all d.d. anger. i.v. disorders they're just being used for everything the market is being saturated with them but most important by primary care that. i think that's the most important thing that pharma has figured out. i'm tracking a case about a psychiatrist who claims that a major part of her job now is detox she has patients who come in a cocktail of medications from one primary care doctor who thinks he's an expert on bipolar disorder she gets the patient she says they're on all the wrong medications they're not bipolar they're depressed and then her job is to titrate the patient off these medications and get him on perhaps one medication for depression and this is a future of psychiatry you could think about which is psychiatry is detox psychiatry more and more they're dealing with the poly pharmacy generated by primary care and

in this case they asked the question their primary care doctor is writing all these atypical annecy comics we have millions of people that are being prescribed psychiatric medications sometimes appropriate use but a large part of that population is being prescribed psychiatric medication where it may not be warranted or indicated. but it's and to me. i love.

peace it's. feet. deep.

purple. i think how the v.a. system is set up right now you don't have to be going to therapy to get the drugs prescribed the medication if you want therapy they filmed the entire session which

is extremely uncomfortable and they have a set program for p.t.s.d. that just simply doesn't work there's really no continuity to your care because a lot of these guys are residents and you might see him once or twice and so they don't know what you've even been on half the time so they try to give you the same drugs that have already failed for you p.t.s.d. is not a new thing it's been around forever and i think they should be a little slower to just hear drugs say i hope these work for you send you out the door and pursue even like alternate treatments that could work for people. her car. lot of people who do status seem to write again. i mean i'm playing for that one

chance not my hit it big. just a money issue or i don't have the money or i. don't have enough. i . got a past that had no more issues gambling or would not pay my bills that i should. but i didn't have any support from my parents and i wouldn't have any support from anywhere else basically dropped out there and to a world that. made a lot of mistakes when i lost their really good job was a bus driver for

a while. had a snowball to not. make car payments. so when she wanted out of this news that a good time of day my life. it's like one of those thirty days when say. once you've experienced homelessness you just never really get over it. that has been an issue you know us had rather go to vegas this way somebody just knowing that i can survive to the next that mystery. never ever dissipate not really sure where i.

did a deadly illness. but. it's money i could afford of the. well let me go back to us when. we were going for my next big. this scott pic of them with. her dad when i go through vegas is i doubt are going to. mystery. to. you.

to hear it. here to critique it. and it's been all hers seven years more there as well and. i don't think there is a minute that goes by that i don't think come from. i haven't sasha's. him some in here. yes he was spiking my heart.

when he said he and. i mean. any of the. holes but it was a. name experience you know i was lost and that's when i first found this and. it saved my life. that because just recently passed away i got arrested oh if you can't because all the corrupt things he does on have if he has been given is coming to me he's going to get it you know this is that's it that's the way forgiveness a law is one of the got to be able you know. i mean i feel her that he called her us to believe that those tests as was safe you see through her that he

did it for the sake of money. a law heals wombs. you know you need it. i do pray for kelly. thank you prayer for the medicine so that it's doing its job. and i can get a brain with us. and

head up. a bill collector. it's a good thing then you can register i would have a home a weapon in the pile right here.

and that's the way it's done. every day and i wish it was the mentally ill in. it's the pits. that's resisting. this recent. years.

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