idea that i might eat them and i want to be ready to know how to get food get me down the table. because i had no money. over the age of forty five and that's the cutoff date for drug experiments when there's no money there's no money so i have to do something that doesn't cost anything. in my little world part of the complexity that i take a drug to help me continue my writing and research and also have a lot of problems with the way the drug manufacturers go about their business and make front tested profits my work helps to address some of the contradictions in my life it has a healing effect on the world i think and some modest the gree and they are all it helped me produce my writing the relationship is not complicated to me

it just works this is the educated trial all the doctors that i am seeing do not stand out with my genetics and it's a good thing that i. am my own case manager. it's true. keeps me on me to i can see her right now she would feel really strongly that she's doing the right thing of course a lot of the medicine she takes to have these sort of things. always mitigating sometimes with not dealing really directly with the problem this is. so it seems to me a long time. i did get hospitalized for probably pharmacy all kinds of drugs from prescribed

and i got very sick and had to be a surprise that two weeks to detox. and then they started me on a whole different part of the drugs i was watching happen and sang to myself this doesn't seem right. especially when one of her doctors refused to see her and yet he was still giving her psychotropic drugs but not monitoring them with a mood which i'm not i was in the press and that was that was wrong. that's polypharmacy in that's. rude couldn't tolerate were not being arrested in the way what do you think about. what i did and i actually was not what i imagined i would be done when i was in the army. my first impression about prison was

this looks like a concentration camp i don't know who i should be watching when i should be doing it i should be conducting myself i don't know how i made it there very overwhelming for a nineteen and twenty year old kid or. to be. in charge of weather summary of what's that and so. i would never. acts like i did i would read prison and normal life never ever in the way were using medicine there was to get out the prisoners and break them down the side of treating people it was almost like we're punishing them for seeking treatment from us i mean when i'm ordered to give some a fourteen gauge needle. especially if they're not in a mass of trauma i know that that's not needed and i know that that's purely to

inflict pain and that was explicitly explained to me by the officer in charge as give these guys fourteen gauge needle so they won't want to have is any more it's there are so huge and they're so painful. hears of the prisoners are crying and wailing and screaming that you're you know in the us. there's nothing to feel good about stick in fourteen years be in somebody for no good reason. i can take you and that's those people who are i'm sure there was other people who also felt the same way as i did but. ghraib prison was not a place you spoke out against. i guess inside the practices there was or.

planned day and i had to he didn't leave much of a suicide note he simply wrote i leave his experience smiling that's all he wrote. you know doing it all over again i you know i don't know what i could've done differently i mean for heaven's sakes i didn't want him in the study it was not important at all how dan was chilling if it were important how he was doing that would have contacted me after we contacted them on good friday and said do we have to wait for him to kill himself and we did we had to wait for that i call the corner the monday after he died i said i wanted to see him and i remember her kind of yelling at me and saying. don't you know how he died. and i his head well evidently i had hope. and i didn't you

know. when you find out your son kills himself you don't say what do i know i didn't know. that it wasn't a normal suicide. he slit his throat so badly that the car nurse office said young mr capitated himself. and then she said probably because he wasn't dying fast enough that he. let his abdomen open and. reach his hand inside and she said when they found him his one hand had the. box cutter frozen and hatch and the other hand was inside his abdomen up to his

wrists. and. you know i want people to know this is what the drugs to. afghan simply want to kill himself. he went down.

so. what i do is the historian is looking to the way the poor people have been exploited and brutalized that abused by. the people in power. and the people with money. this includes these people who are on the margins including. human guinea pigs. this is a history of that hasn't been told far away. and there are a lot of stories that are important but haven't been brought to light and that

haven't been explored. i think. i. think. many people that are in psychiatric distress can especially benefit from the acute use of psychiatric medications i don't think we need to question that but you also have this whole other part of society that is using slash abusing psychiatric medication and you can put the medical field in there too because they're the

enablers in the ninety's if you told a family practice doctor in ten years you will write a ton of prescriptions every month for a typical and psychotics he might laugh at you now primary care writing a typical for add on therapy for depression anger management all d.d.'s anger. id disorders they're just being used for everything the market is being saturated with them but most important by primary care that. i think that's the most important thing that pharma has figured out. i'm tracking a case about a psychiatrist who claims that a major part of her job now is detox she has patients who come in a cocktail of medications from one primary care doctor who thinks he's an expert on bipolar disorder she gets the patients she says they're on all the wrong medications they're not bipolar they're depressed and then her job is to titrate the patient off these medications and get him on perhaps one medication for

depression and this is a future of psychiatry you could think about which is psychiatry is detox psychiatry more and more they're dealing with the poly pharmacy generated by primary care and in this case they asked the question their primary care doctor is writing all these atypical annecy comics we have millions of people that are being prescribed psychiatric medications sometimes appropriate use but a large part of that population is being prescribed psychiatric medication where it may not be warranted or indicated. but it's in to me. i've.

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i think how the v.a. system is set up right now you don't have to be going to therapy to get the drugs prescribe you the medication if you want therapy they film the entire session which is extremely uncomfortable and they have a set program for p.t.s.d. that just simply doesn't work there's really no continuity to your care because a lot of these guys are residents and you might see him once or twice and so they don't know what you've even been on half the time so they try to give you the same drugs that have already failed for you know p.t.s.d.

is not a new thing it's been around forever and i think they should be a little slower to just hear drugs say i hope these work for you send you out the door and pursue even like alternate treatments that could work for people. her car. lot of people who do start is saying that right again. i mean i'm playing for that one chance not my hit it big. just a money issue or i don't have the money or i. don't have enough. i

. got a past that had a lot more issues with gambling or would not pay my bills that i should have. but i didn't have any support from my parents and i wouldn't have any support from anywhere else basically dropped out there and to the world and. made a lot of mistakes when i lost the really good job was a bus driver for a while. had a snowball to not. not make car payments. so eventually i ended up this news not a good time of my life. it's like one of those thirty things like when say. once you've experience homelessness you just never really get over it.

has been an issue you know us had rather go to vegas to see why somebody just knowing that i can survive to the next mystery. never ever dissipate not really sure where i. did a downhill spiral. but. it's money i could afford of the. well let me go back to austin. for my next big.

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and it's been all hers seven years more the years wow and. i don't think there is a minute that goes by that i don't think come from. i haven't sasha's. him some in here. yes he was right in my heart. when he said he. i mean you. know. polls where it was a. name experience you know i was lost and that's when i first found this and. it

saved my life. that the cleveland just recently passed away got arrested so if you can't because all the corrupt things he sends his own help if he has been given is coming to me he's going to get it you know that's is that's it best with forgiveness a law is one of the got to get you know. i mean i feel her that he called her us to believe that those tests as was safe you see through her that he did it for the sake of money. alone hills wombs. you know you need to. pray for kelly. thank you prayer for the medicine so that it's doing its job. and i can get agreeing with us.

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so. it's a good thing then if your story would have the whole weaponry part only here. and that's the way it's done. every day now i wish i was mentally ill. it's the pits.

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