complexity is that i take a drug to help me continue my writing and research and i also have a lot of problems with the way the drug manufacturers go about their business and make fantastic profits my work helps to address some of the contradictions in my life it has a healing effect on the world i think and some modest the greedy and they are all of help me produce my writing. the relationship is not complicated to me it just works it's been an educated trial all the touches that i was seeing do not stand out of my drugs and it's a good thing that i. am my own case manager. it's

true. keeps me on my toes i can see how right now she would feel really strongly that she's doing the right thing of course a lot of the medicine she takes have these side effects. always mitigating sometimes but not dealing with really directly with a problem in the system. so it seems to me a lot of. i did get hospitalized for poly pharmacy all kinds of weird drugs for prescribe and i got very sick and had to be asked flies bet that two weeks to detox. and then they started me on a whole different pilot drugs i was watching it happen and sang to myself this doesn't seem right. especially when one of her doctors refused to see her and yet he was still giving her psychotropic drugs with not monitoring or with mood to which i was in the person that was and i was wrong. that's polypharmacy in

that she. couldn't tolerate we're not hearing or maybe what do you think about. what i did an iraqi is not what i imagined i would be doing when i was in the army . my first impression about prison was this looks like a concentration camp i don't know who i should be watching when i should be doing i should be conducting myself i don't know how i made it there very overwhelming for a nineteen and twenty year old kid. to be. in charge of whether some great lives that.

i would never. acts like i did i would get prison and normal life never ever the way it were using medicine there was to get out the prisoners and rate them down the side of treating people it was almost like we're punishing them for seeking treatment from us i mean when i'm ordered to gives me a fourteen gauge needle. especially if they're not in a mass of trauma i know that that's not needed and i know that that's purely to inflict pain and that was explicitly explained to me by the officer in charge as give these guys fourteen gauge needle so they won't want to be is any more it's there are so huge and they're so painful. here's the prisoners are crying and wailing and screaming match and you know in the us. there's nothing to feel good about stick and fourteen each a b.

and somebody for no good reason. take the one that's those people who are i'm sure there was other people who also felt the same way as i did but. very prisoner was not a place you spoke out against. against same type of practices there was or. when de and i had he didn't leave much of a suicide note he simply wrote i leave his experience smiling that's all he wrote. you know doing it all over again i you know i don't know what i could've done differently i mean for heaven's sakes i didn't want him in the study it was not important at all how dan was chilling if it were important how he was doing

that would have contacted me after we contacted them on good friday and said do we have to wait for him to kill himself and we did we had to wait for that i called the corner of the monday after he died i said i wanted to see him and i remember her kind of feeling at me and saying. don't you know how he died. and i his head well evidently i had to hope. and i didn't you know. when you find out your son kills himself you don't say what do i know i didn't know. but it wasn't a normal suicide. he slit his throat so badly that the car nurse office said young mr capitated

himself. and then she said probably because he wasn't dying fast enough that he. let his abdomen open and. reach his hand inside and she said when they found him his one hand had the box cutter frozen and that and the other hand was inside his abdomen up to his wrists. and. you know i want people to know this is what the drugs to. afghan simply want to kill himself. he went down.

so. what i do as

a historian is look into the way the poor people have been exploited and brutalized that abused by. the people in power. and the people with money. this includes these people who are on the margins including. human guinea pigs. this is a history of that hasn't been told far away. and there are a lot of stories that are important that haven't been brought to light and that haven't been explored. i think. i.

meet people that are in psychiatric distress can especially benefit from the acute use of psychiatric medication i don't think we need to question that but you also have this whole other part of society that is using slash abusing psychiatric medication and you can put the medical field in there too because they're the enablers in the ninety's if you told a family practice doctor in ten years you will write a ton of prescriptions every month for atypical antipsychotics he might laugh at you now primary care writing a typical for and on therapy for depression anger management all d.d. things. disorders they're just being used for everything the market is being saturated with them but most important by primary care that. i think that's the

most important thing that pharma has figured out. i'm tracking a case about a psychiatrist who claims that a major part of her job now is detox she has patients who come in a cocktail of medications from one primary care doctor who thinks he's an expert on bipolar disorder she gets the patient she says they're on all the wrong medications they're not bipolar they're depressed and then her job is to titrate the patient off these medications and get him on perhaps one medication for depression and this is a future of psychiatry you could think about which is psychiatry is detox psychiatry more and more they're dealing with the poly pharmacy generated by primary care and in this case they asked the question their primary care doctor is writing all these atypical annecy comics we have millions of people that are being prescribed psychiatric medications sometimes appropriate use but a large part of that population is being prescribed psychiatric medication where it

may not be warranted or indicated. but it's and to me. i. feel it's easy to. believe. it's.

such liberties. i.

get. international airport in the very heart of moscow. i think how the v.a. system is set up right now you don't have to be going to therapy to get the drugs

prescribe you the medication if you want therapy they filmed the entire session which is extremely uncomfortable and they have a set program for p.t.s.d. that just simply doesn't work there's really no continuity to your care because a lot of these guys are residents and you might see him once or twice and so they don't know what you've even been on half the time so they try to give you the same drugs that have already failed for you know p.t.s.d. is not a new thing it's been around forever and i think they should be a little slower to just hear engine drugs say i hope these work for you send you out the door and pursue even like alternate treatments that could work for people. my car.

lot of people who do studies saying they're right again. i mean i'm playing for that one chance that i might hit it big. just a money issue or i don't have the money or i. don't have enough. i . could have passed and had a lot more issues gambling where i would not pay my bills that i should. but i didn't have any support from my parents and i wouldn't have any support from anywhere else basically dropped out there and to the world and.

made a lot of mistakes but i lost the really good job was a bus driver for a while. had a snowball to not carin. not make car payments. so eventually i ended up this news not a good time with my life. it's like one of those thirty days when say. once you've experience homelessness you just never really get over it. that has been an issue you know us had rather go to vegas this way somebody just knowing that i can survive to the next story.

never ever dissipate not really sure where i. did a downhill spiral. but. it's money i could afford of the. well let me go back to austin. for my next. this scott pick of them with. her dad when i go through vegas is. going to. mystery. to. you.

to hear it. to you to critique it. and it's been seven years more there as well and. i don't think there is a minute that goes by that i don't think come from. i have a sash. behind him some in here. you'll see

a spike in my heart. when he said he and. i mean the. polls were. mean experience you know i was lost and that's when i first found this and. it saved my life. that because he just recently passed away god rest his soul if he can't because all the corrupt things he sends his own help if he has been given is coming to me he's going to get it you know that's is that's it that's the way forgiveness a law is when you've got to be able you know. i mean i feel her that he called her us to believe that those tests as was safe you see through her that he

did it for the sake of money. a lot heals wombs. you know me. i do pray for kelly. thank you prayer for the medicine and serving it steering its job. and i can get a brain with less and less. and

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