so not only did you do the experiment but you're the investigative journalist as well within the industry you could say that i keeping them honest keeping them honest because they have to because the guinea pigs themselves can do it anonymously that's all doped up i. you know bill. i have a role. to sort of. gauge just. as a person gets more work done with me so you can further means. the scientific definition. this is a humane animal trap this is for a fairly small animal like a possum. or a cat a stray cat and i got it so that i could catch

animals on the idea that i might eat them and i wanted to be ready to know how to get food get meat on the table was because i had no money. over the age of forty five and that's the cutoff date for drug experiments when there's no money there's no money so you have to do something that doesn't cost anything. in my little world part of the complexity that i take a drug to help me continue my writing and research and i also have a lot of problems with the way the drug manufacturers go about their business and make front test of profits. my work helps to address some of the contradictions in my life it has a healing effect on the world i think and some modest the greedy and they are all

of help me produce my writing. the relationship is not complicated to me it just works this it's been an educated trial all the titers that i was seeing do not stand out of my drugs and it's a good thing that i. am my own case manager. it's true. keeps me on nato's i can see all right now she would feel really strongly that she's doing the right thing of course a lot of the medicine she takes have these sort of lives. always mitigating sometimes but not dealing really directly with the problem the system. so it seems

to me a lot of. i did get hospitalized for poly pharmacy all kinds of weird drugs for prescribe and i got very sick and had to be asked flies bet to two weeks to detox. and then they started me on a whole different pilot drugs i was watching it happen and sang to myself this doesn't seem right. especially when one of her doctors refused to see her and yet he was still giving her psychotropic drugs with not monitoring or with loupe who which i was in the person that was it was wrong. that's funny pharmacy in that she. couldn't tolerate really not being around me what do you think about.

what i did and i actually was not what i imagined i would be doing when i was in the army. my first impression of andre prison was this looks like a concentration camp i don't know who i should be watching when i should be doing it i should be conducting myself i don't know how i made it there very overwhelming for a nineteen and twenty year old kid or. to be. in charge of whether somebody lives or dies. i would never. acts like i did i would rape prison and normal life never ever in the way were using medicine there was to get at the prisoners and rate them down beside it treating people it was almost like we're punishing them for seeking

treatment from us i mean when i'm ordered to give some a fourteen gauge needle. especially if they're not in a massive trauma i know that that's not needed and i know that that's purely to inflict and and that was explicitly explained to me by the officer in charge as give these guys fourteen gauge needle so they won't want to be is in the mornings are so huge and they're so painful. here's the prisoners are crying and wailing and screaming that you're you know in the us. there's nothing you feel good about stick in fourteen you be in somebody for no good reason. take the one that's those people and or i'm sure there was other people who also felt the same way as i did but. a prisoner was not a place you spoke out against. against so it's our practices there was or.

when you damn dad he didn't leave much of a suicide note he simply wrote i leave his experience smiling that's all he wrote. you know doing it all over again i you know i don't know what i could've done differently i mean for heaven's sakes i didn't want him in the study it was not important at all how dan was chilling if it were important how he was doing that would have contacted me after we contacted them on good friday and said do we have to wait for him to kill himself and we did we had to wait for that i called the corner of the monday after he died i said i wanted to see him and i remember her kind of yelling at me and same oh. don't you know how he died.

and i his head well evidently i had hope. and i didn't you know who. or when you find out your son kills himself you don't say what do you know i didn't know. but it wasn't a normal suicide. he slit his throat so badly that the car nurse office said young mr capitated himself. and then she said probably because he wasn't dying fast enough that he. let his abdomen open and. reach his hand inside and she said when they found him his one hand had the box cutter

frozen and that and the other hand was inside his abdomen up to his wrists. and. you know i want people to know this is what the drugs to. afghan simply want to kill himself. he went down to.

so clear what i do as a historian as you look into the way the poor people have been exploited and brutalized and abused by. the people in power. and the people with money. this includes these people who are on the margins including.

human guinea pigs. this is a history of that hasn't been told far away enough and there are a lot of stories that are important that haven't been brought to light and that haven't been explored. i think. i. need people that are in psychiatric distress can especially benefit from the acute use of psychiatric medications i don't think we need to question them but you also

have this whole other part of society that is using slash abusing psychiatric medication and you can put the medical field in there too because they're the enablers in the ninety's if you told a family practice doctor in ten years you will write a ton of prescriptions every month for atypical antipsychotics you might laugh at you now primary care writing a typical four and on therapy for depression anger management all d.d.'s anxiety disorders they're just being used for everything the market is being saturated with but most of. and by primary care of that. i think that's the most important thing that pharma has figured out. i'm tracking a case about a psychiatrist who claims that a major part of her job now is detox she has patients who come in a cocktail of medications from one primary care doctor who thinks he's an expert on bipolar disorder she gets the patients she says they're on all the wrong

medications they're not bipolar they're depressed and then her job is to titrate the patient off these medications and get him on perhaps one medication for depression this is a future of psychiatry you could think about which is psychiatry is detox psychiatry more and more they're dealing with the poly pharmacy generated by primary care and in this case they asked the question their primary care doctor is writing all these atypical nic comics we have millions of people that are being prescribed psychiatric medications sometimes appropriate use but a large part of that population is being prescribed psychiatric medication where it may not be warranted or indicated. but it's and to me.

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i think how the v.a. system is set up right now you don't have to be going to therapy to get the drugs prescribed the medication if you want therapy they film the entire session which is extremely uncomfortable and they have a set program for p.t.s.d. that just simply doesn't work there's really no continuity to your care because a lot of these guys are residents and you might see him once or twice and so they don't know what you've even been on half the time so they try to give you the same

drugs that have already failed for you p.t.s.d. is not a new thing it's been around forever and i think they should be a little slower to just hear drugs say i hope these work for you send you out the door and pursue even like alternate treatments that could work for people. my car. i drive people to do status symbol right again. i mean i'm playing for that one chance that i might hit it big. just a money issue or i don't have the money here i. don't have enough. i

. could've passed that had a lot more issues gambling or would not pay my bills that i should have paid him but i didn't have any support from my parents and i wouldn't have any support from anywhere else basically dropped out there and to a world that. made a lot of mistakes when i lost the really good job was a bus driver for a while. had a snowball to not carin. not make car payments. so eventually i ended up this news not a good time of my life. it's like one of those thirty things like when say.

once you've experienced homelessness you just never really get over it. that has been an issue us had rather go to vegas this way somebody just knowing that i can survive to the next that mystery. never ever dissipate not really sure where i. did a downhill spiral. but. it's money i could afford of the. well let me go back to austin. for my next.

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and it's been seven years more there as well and. i don't think there is a minute that goes by that i don't think come from. i have a sash. behind him some in here. have seen spike on my car. when he said he and. i mean. any that. could. pose a bird with a. name experience you know i was lost and that's when i first found this and.

it saved my life. that because he just recently passed away got a reference no if he can't because all the corrupt things he sends his own help if he has been given is coming to me he's going to get it you know that's is that's it that's the way forgiveness a law is that when you've got to be able you know. i mean i feel her that he called her us to believe that those tests as was safe you see through her that he did it for the sake of money. a law heals wombs. you know you need to. pray for help. thank you prayer for the medicine so that it's doing its job.

and i can get a green with less and less. and

have up. bill collector. so. it's a good thing that you can register i would have the whole weapon in the pile right here. and that's the way it's done. every day now i wish it was the mentally ill. it's the pits.

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