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a. sort of global proceed new name it still needs to be meaning to be sure. in a sense because if it's a mistake for the it's not simply you know he's an official boy if you look at some time none of the medical school and some good school use a little of the middle of us news a little discipline if the simple stuff. he goes on with are there more of the other some more marital theory of. their income while putting out more thought on that. for a year in. a pressure pressure or for. your profession that the shift around three of them might. work to show.
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did you miss it when making art fair treatment and she said let's take this color and make it a bit softer let's not make it so saccharin it was beautiful and it looked like you i mean your graphic work looks very confident but there was no skull and now this skull looks like a mosque when i first saw it i was terrified and at the same time impressed my eyes
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are the only part of my face that's left and there are no i mean your proportions are still there you go the proportions right. and i think of the figures i might. as a symbol of love on the he's had a cross and she's being crucified on him. part of should he has rights you need a couple more times like this one here you know to have them along the hairline just to merge the hair in the skin better you didn't see it and i think you can use the same time down there on the sides or both sides of the face as a shadow. awards anyone can end up in a situation where they become a criminal. anyone can be in the situation where they suffer from mental disorders . any person could be in our place. i want to sort out my
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feelings. i've just started figuring this out i want to really figure it all out so this never happens and i never come back erica. my brother find myself to be and. think it's very difficult to talk to yourself. if i were able to go back to make the person i was five years ago and explain anything to you. wouldn't understand. what needs this hospital was set up in one thousand to one president are suffering from mental disorders who have committed serious groups seventy or eighty percent have committed violent crimes like homicide rape or grievous bodily harm. we have
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patients who have schizophrenia epilepsy organic brain syndrome and mental disorders resulting from alcoholism or mental disability your person doesn't understand what's going on and commits a group. so we work with them until they do realize that they are ill and when they hear voices as to where they should go and see a doctor would rather than pick up an axe and kill somebody glitch or. even if you know most of our patients all go to the same ward first and then we separate them based on their condition just as we are the ward has small rooms and it's mostly for patients who are grass oath or prone to escaping with a minimum. i got up late today. being shy. and.
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i killed this guy called. after that it happened we then went to my friend's place he said do you know that we have three dead bodies. i yelled what do you mean i was high what do you mean. well there was this maga guy. what do you mean two more i asked he said yeah we killed them. i still don't understand how i could have killed them i know i killed. and i said in court that i killed. but when i saw their photos we burned the house down to. only myself. but myself. and i have a mental illness the treatment was serious i couldn't stop my hands from shaking
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they had to spoon feed me. take my mom for example imagine someone like me just breaking into her house and stop stop stop they would lock him up and he would just sit there on his bunk carefree something we can change the past i'm not saying i've totally changed but i'm a good person now it's only the beginning i'm just starting to smooth the edges i'm starting to come out of this and see that i can actually achieve something you know and i will have to support my mom at some point. what can we achieve through art therapy at least they can start drawing this will help them analyze themselves a little bit and relax at the same time they can be one on one with themselves and with their drawings and emotion is like a battery without these batteries are patients don't want to do anything there are some who are already in a state where they just want to stay in bed and don't want to do anything that's
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what their sickness did to them and there's a mentally retarded patients who learn how to live in the streets and i think that if a person is suffering he has to be helped. in nine hundred eighty nine i was totally insane. i had no money. i needed drugs. once i stole a huge icon that was three hundred years old. someone was going to pay me a lot of money for it. but i was so scared. that i had to give it away for free. i ran into a church and asked them to take it from me. couldn't keep hold of it anymore. three months later i went back to the church it was easter. the head priest wasn't there so i talked to his assistant. i asked him if he knew about the i call them that i brought to the church. i wanted to know where it was and if i could say that. he
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said show you can see i'm. sure my mom once jokingly said that i had been conceived by the devil. has become an obsession with who i was constantly thinking about being the devil's offspring it was schizophrenia. i learnt that the devil could fly into a church. but it. would not let him into the sanctuary. the priest told me that the icon was in the sanctuary and that i could go and see. that was the first time i felt free from this cus of being conceived by the devil q . how do we call mentally ill people but soon patients sick people's you create mad
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men psychos once acceptable and once on except. the by trying to talk about their victims or relatives of their victims or their crime has a use the term problematic people at them and yes problematic mainly for themselves some. of them and my final goal is to treat them humanely still i want them to realize they're human. how can you socialize those things how can you be a normal person and consider yourself a normal person just nobody treats you like an old person it's a vicious circle. myself so when i first started my own therapy course with them i had no previous experience with these kinds of people continue to perception as i saw people with tattoos they were scary and maybe about time i was afraid you'll see my stuff doesn't talk to them about perspective position i would drop something since you assumed the first results just shocks me as each one of the injury
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himself and the missiles they were supposed to draw the person sitting opposite go in them but there was no resemblance everyone was drawing themselves here but i try my best not to offend them. because you know artists can easily be heard to be able i still remember that my professors would often hurt me. is full of course winter stand that our are patients. quite dangerous. trash a nicer side to treat them of course we should be on alert but there's no way to cure someone who is aggressive and potentially dangerous we should at least hold him in an institution and protect society this is also very important. every six months we gather committee examiner patients and determine whether they are still
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a danger to society. move many patients know that their recruitment isn't over. and they need to stay in a hospital mission when they take our meetings calmly but of course most of them hope to get out of here just. like they were his name is rush he's been in the hospital since september two thousand and nine this is the second hearing in short the seventh rebel trauma in his childhood has been having seizures since he was fourteen and had been under observation since then he was in prison for twelve years. as of i was born in one hundred fifty three with no home yes we know you sit down please sit down here and we've met before. now ok. how long have you been staying here this time three a half years how long trade off yes three an obvious ok has there been any progress
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progress well everything's ok you know what was wrong with your nervous system and your mentality my mentality is fine. because you have any questions for the committee i want to get out of here please discharge me i beg you all each one of you please discharge me. all right we'll discuss it. yeah i'm against it challenging him but he's not just mentally ill he's a criminal because he's committed so many crimes rape robbery grievous bodily harm . you can i mean hasn't recognized his illness he has no criticism or self-control . while he's physically strong he'll be coming back to us i'm not special i don't
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so that's very bad memories compressed in yes there junior school said social because the people fall for the. limit. to. it. i want to hear. he says he was cut demand to know you score a. score of fifteen or so more your style tonight is to speak to me for shit think. that's all you are and you hear. so yourself. you're doing you know what you missed it we have you here so well it was a way for us or. are. here
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. or it. this is an open war all rooms are permanently unlocked and most of critics smoking is only allowed in specially designated areas and you can see the patients aren't allowed to keep any sharp items. alcohol is forbidden to get they're allowed to serve the internet but only in the presence of a counselor or therapist and is generally advisable not to tell them what they're not allowed to do is useful when you know it's better to tell them what they can do for which they pretty much figured out the rules for themselves. no because the medical staff are often exposed to aggression but then depends on what you see as aggression what you might call verbal abuse is not uncommon with patients as an obscene adays or threats against the step which from most of our patients are hard
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to tell from sane people from the look of them but sometimes a disorder may manifest itself through some sort of weird behavior. i've gotten used to looking at them as simply people it isn't hard i like my job and. the in. order. to. drive been here a pretty long time since two thousand and six and one day some three or four months
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ago i'm walking down the street and i bump into a nurse from another ward and she says ok so you're still here as many of your friends are checked in around the same time as you have long been discharged and i tell her no i'm here for a long time and i think to myself i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm just beginning to understand. i don't want to just say mom i'm sorry i want to earn her forgiveness i want to prove myself so that people will start telling my mom natasha we are proud of your son. you understand i want my former junkie friends to look at me and say wow that guy was one of us but now. moved on he's accomplished something's got to go. we're allowed one phone call a month i call my mom and every time she sounds a bit different a bit older i'm shaking all over afterwards and mom comes to visit me here and i
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count every line on her face i gave her those. i see myself and her she looks at me affectionately but they are tears in her eyes and that's because of me so i absorb all of this as an artist and i'm consumed by an inner struggle the virtues and vices battling inside me. at first i lost sleep with and then i was beginning to get lost within an imaginary world that was all around me. it was absolutely unreal. and there was no place in it for other people. i had a feeling of impunity of my own significance and superiority to absolutely anyone including people nature in society you know anything. but my environment at the time it certainly has something to do with it i was julie pretty naive at that age . somebody suggested to me once you're such
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a genius so why don't you try making drugs. and so i synthesize and fed it means at age fourteen. it was just a matter of knowledge skill and practice i could produce practically any substance and almost no touch with reality in capsulated within a world of my own people meant nothing to me there was just a sense of me. and so it happened that i committed four murders. three of those cases were just junkies. i gave them a lethal injection while they thought that they were getting high. but the fourth one was violent i stab someone. that's how high i was already i mean i thought i was high but in reality i was going down sinking into the abyss i was immersed in madness. and that was a scary scary state of mind you don't want to ever find yourself in such
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a realm of insanity there's just the cold and the darkness. my mom sent me a photograph she said their having a silver anniversary with dad. so i started thinking of something to paint for them i decided to paint a full length portrait of my parents on this campus. so here's my head. this is my ear and inside my head my mom here is like a rose this leaf here is my younger brother i'm the elder brother so i'm protecting our little sister and this is mom with the ring my dad is the. and this is me a small creator in a dark world and i want to create a colorful world for them. paint he could paint a black square and she just say my son did this.
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sometimes i feel like i have a grievance against the creator. why why is it that i never had any love. as now i know where my disease comes from so i miss my crimes and my alcohol and drug addiction. for me. ever since i was a child. when i know it sounds quite scary basically but there was a time when it overwhelms me because. i love the world in general but i hate everyone individually that i did to find my life i'm an anonymous alcoholic and an anonymous drug addict i know what addiction is but my illness feels greater than any of that drugs you have to find alcohol you have to drink but that doesn't require any think. beam's like a rainbow you get
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a surge of energy it gives you such a rush you don't even need to take anything to get beautiful. i can do anything. you know because there i admit. that i'm sick. i acknowledged the gravity of my crimes. i spent twenty years incarcerated and every time we got on scene i couldn't understand why what's happened. now i feel like a baby who's just been born. because it was only now discovering love kindness. forty five i only just realised what love for my father as you can now really you know. yes i feel his love for.
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this patient comes across as an almost totally same person but he's a very good actor we is psychiatry can see that in fact he is very emotionally distant his facial expression is a mobile although he speaks according to classic standards of literary language but those who suffer from schizophrenia typically have no speaking disorder in other words schizophrenia implies a dissociative identity a schism of the mind but only someone who is very intelligent can become a schizo frantic please remember that all of these people receive treatment but outside the hospital as a rule they're pretty much beyond any control they don't take any medication prescribed to them at all or stop taking them after some times.
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yes. i look forward to her every visit when she talks to me on the phone i tell her not to come but when she's here it feels so good so wonderful to give her a hug. when she leaves the sadness the pain starts again. you just drift around with nothing to do. makes her sad as well how long a shipping coming here she does everything just to be able to see me. but for a whole long list last. i've told her so many times to stop coming to i'm upset that it takes her so long in the past she had to take the train to get here. hello.
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my little boy this is for you. as there are five of us in the family. so your mom lives you so much i brought you presents. and let mom see them. i've painted this picture for years oh this is for a silver anniversary here dad is that. it's like a crossword puzzle right and i'm the rose. this is. and this is probably you. here in the dark a little creator. time will tell. you that i'm ready and he'll do what's right. even when you apologize to someone or to all of society you have to be prepared for them to. believe you.
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if the committee should take place tomorrow i'm ready for it or for any of them. but there are certain circumstances and situations in which my medical cases very complicated and so is my illness. the most important committee is up there. whatever he decides is what will be. choose your language. call it a killer though in a financial planner say still some of the to. choose the least the concerns get to . choose the opinions that invigorating a good mind. choose to stories get in a good place choose the access to your office.
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