believe me but that's just my opinion. what you're hearing is just in this newsletter which is titled i hold it up it's called the i'm guessing it's all right the guinea pig zero rock you know explain the title i write about the history of human experiments and news stories about sometimes abuses and things that go wrong in experiments so not only did you do the experiment but you're the investigative journalist as well within the industry you could say that i keeping them honest keeping them honest because they have to because the guinea pigs themselves can do it anonymously they all doped up. you know bill. there are all. going to have to sort of. gauge just.

the person who gets more work done with me so they can further means. so the scientific definition. this is a humane animal trap this is for a fairly small animal like a possum. or a cat a stray cat and i got it so that i could catch animals on the idea that i might eat them and i wanted to be ready to know how to get food get me down the table was because i had no money. over the age of forty five and that's the cutoff date for drug experiments when there's no money there's no money so you have to do something that doesn't cost anything.

in my little world part of the complexity is that i take a drug to help me continue my writing and research and i also have a lot of problems with the way the drug manufacturers go about their business and make fantastic profits my work helps to address some of the contradictions in my life it has a healing effect on the world i think and some modest the greedy and they are all it helped me produce my writing. the relationship is not complicated to me it just works this is the educated trial all the touches that i am seeing do

not stand out of major leagues and it's a good thing that i too. am my own case manager. it's true. keeps me on nato's i can see all right now she would feel really strongly that she's doing the right thing of course a lot of the medicines she takes have these side effects. always mitigating sometimes but not dealing with really directly with the problem the system. so it seems to me a lot of the time. i did get hospitalized for poly pharmacy all kinds of weird drugs for prescribe and i got very sick and had to be asked flies that two weeks to detox and then they started me on a whole different pilot drugs i was watching it happen and sang to myself this doesn't seem right. especially when one of her doctors refused to see her and yet

he was still giving her psychotropic drugs with not monitoring or wanted to which i was in the person that was it was wrong. that's polypharmacy in that she. couldn't tolerate really not hearing or asking me what do you think about. what i did and i actually this is not what i imagined i'd be doing when i must be serious. my first impression about great prison was this looks like a concentration camp i don't know who i should be watching when i should be doing it i should be conducting myself i don't know how i made it there very overwhelming for a nineteen year old kid. to be. in charge of

whether somebody that lives or dies. i would never. act like i did i would get prison and normal life never ever in the way were using medicine there was to get out the prisoners and rake them down the side of treating people it was almost like we're punishing them for seeking treatment from us i mean when an order to give some a fourteen gauge needle. especially if they're not in a massive trauma i know that that's not needed and i know that that's purely to inflict and and those explicitly explained to me by the officer in charge as give these guys fourteen gauge and you know also they won't want to be is in the mornings are so huge and they're so painful. here's the prisoners are crying and wailing and screaming that you're you know in

the us. there's nothing to feel good about stick in fourteen years have been somebody for no good reason. take the one that's those people and or i'm sure there was other people who also felt same way as i did but. prison was not a place you spoke out against. i guess it's our practices there was or. when day and i did he didn't leave much of a suicide note he simply wrote i leave his experience smiling that's all he wrote you know doing it all over again i you know i don't know what i could've done differently i mean for heaven's sakes i didn't want him in the study it was not

important at all how dan was chilling if it were important how he was doing that would have contacted me after we contacted them on good friday and said do we have to wait for him to kill himself and we did we had to wait for that i call the corner the monday after he died i said i wanted to see him and i remember her kind of yawning at me and saying. don't you know how he died. and i his head well evidently i had to hope. and i didn't you know. when you find out your son kills himself you don't say what good do you know i didn't know. that it wasn't a normal suicide.

he slit his throat so badly that the car nurse office said young mr capitated himself. and then she said probably because he wasn't dying fast enough that he. let his abdomen open and. reached his hand inside and said when they found him his one hand had the. box cutter frozen and that and the other hand was inside his abdomen up to his wrists. and. you know i want people to know this is what the drugs joke. if dan simply want to kill himself. he went down to.

so clear what i do as a historian and as you look into the way the poor people have been exploited and for the lies that abused by. the people in power. and the people with money. this includes these people who are on the margins including. human guinea pigs. and this is a history of that hasn't been told far away. and there are a lot of stories that are important that haven't been brought to light and that haven't been explored. i think.

i. meet people that are in psychiatric distress can especially benefit from the acute use of psychiatric medications i don't think we need to question that but you also have this whole other part of society that is using slash abusing psychiatric medication and you can put the medical field in there too because they're the enablers in the ninety's if you told a family practice doctor in ten years you will write a ton of prescriptions every month for atypical antipsychotics they might laugh at you now primary care writing a typical for and on therapy for depression anger management old d d anxiety disorders they're just being used for everything the market is being saturated with

but most important my primary care at that. i think that's the most important thing that pharma has figured out. i'm tracking a case about a psychiatrist who claims that a major part of her job now is detox she has patients who come in a cocktail of medications from one primary care doctor who thinks he's an expert on bipolar disorder she gets the patients she says they're on all the wrong medications they're not bipolar they're depressed and then her job is to titrate the patient off these medications and get him on perhaps one medication for depression this is a future of psychiatry you could think about which is psychiatry is detox psychiatry more and more they're dealing with the poly pharmacy generated by primary care and in this case they asked the question their primary care doctor is writing all these atypical nic comics we have millions of people that are being

prescribed psychiatric medications sometimes appropriate use but a large part of that population is being prescribed psychiatric medication where it may not be warranted or indicated. but it's in to me. download the official publication to yourself choose your language stream quality and enjoy your favorites from alzheimer's if you're away from your television just doesn't matter now with your mobile device you can watch on t.v.

anytime anywhere. and. feel.

i think how the v.a. system is set up right now you don't have to be going to therapy to get the drugs prescribed the medication if you want therapy they filmed the entire session which is extremely uncomfortable and they have a set program for p.t.s.d. that just simply doesn't work there's really no continuity to your care because a lot of these guys are residents and you might see him once or twice and so they don't know what you've even been on half the time so they try to give you the same drugs that have already failed for you p.t.s.d. is not a new thing it's been around forever and i think they should be

a little slower to just hand you drugs say i hope these work for you send you out the door and pursue even like alternate the treatments that could work for people. her car. lot of people who do status seem to write again. i mean i'm playing for that one chance that i might hit it big. just a money issue either i don't have the money or i. don't have enough. i

. could have passed and had a lot more issues gambling or would not pay my bills that i should. but i didn't have any support from my parents and i wouldn't have any support from anywhere else basically dropped out there and to the world. and made a lot of mistakes when i lost the really good job was a bus driver for a while. had a snowball to not carin. not make car payments. so when she wanted out of this news not a good time with my life. it's like one of those thirty days when say. once you've experience homelessness you just never really get over it.

that has been an issue you know us had rather go to vegas this way somebody just knowing that i can survive to the next that mystery. never ever dissipate not really sure where i. did a downhill spiral. but. it's money i could afford of the. well let me go back to austin. for my next. scott pickens with. her

dad and i go through vegas is. going to. the streets. to. do you hear and. hear the critic.

and it's been seven years more there as well and. i don't think there was a minute that conspired that i don't think come from i have a session so yeah him some in here. yes he was right in my car. when he said he. i mean he. could. pose but it was a. name experience you know i was lost and asked laughs first found this and. it saved my life that the cleveland just recently passed away

god rest his soul if he can goes all the corrupt things he does on help if he has been given is coming to me he's going to get it. you know that's is that's it that's the way forgiveness a law is the one you've got to get you know. i mean i feel her that he called her us to believe that those tests as was safe you see i feel hurt that he did it for the sake of money. a law heals rooms. you know need that. i do pray for kelly. thank you prayer for the medicine and so the kids doing its job. and i can get a brain with less and less. and

have love. bill collector.

it's a good thing that you can register i would have a hell of a weapon in the pile right here. and that's the way it's done. everything now i wish it was the mentally ill. it's the pits. it's research. just released.

some of these traditional chili lines they've been bred into bill passed down from

generation to. this is a total destruction of the culture of mexico by telling them i mean this is not going to impact asylum in mexico whatever happens here it's about the whole world now we're eating out about in the in the world in all the war and so forth. genetically engineered crops why do you think this country is full of obese and sick people because we have a crappy food system. and

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