this newsletter which is titled i hold it up it's called the i'm guessing is that right the guinea pig zero direct you know explain the title i write about the history of human experiments and news stories about sometimes abuses and things that go wrong in the experiments so not only did you do the experiment but you're the investigative journalist as well within the industry you could say that i keeping them honest keeping them honest because they have to because the guinea pigs themselves can do it anonymously they all doped up. you know bill. there are all. going to have to sort of. the person gets more work done with taken from each. scientific definition.

this is a humane animal trap and this is for a fairly small animal like a possum or or a cat a stray cat and i got it so that i could catch animals on the idea that i might eat them and i wanted to be ready to know how to get food get me down the table was because i had no money. over the age of forty five and that's the cutoff date for drug experiments when there's no money there's no money so you have to do something that doesn't cost anything. in my little world part of the complexity is that i take a drug to help me continue my writing and research and i also have

a lot of problems with the way the drug manufacturers go about their business and make from task the profits my work helps to address some of the contradictions in my life it has a healing effect on the world i think and some modest the greedy and they are all of help me produce my writing. the relationship is not complicated to me it just works this is the educated trial all the tigers that i was seeing do not stand at major leagues and it's a good thing that i. am my own case manager. it's true. keeps me on me to this i can see all right now she would feel really strongly

that she's doing the right thing of course a lot of the medicine she takes to have these sort of lives. always mitigating sometimes but not dealing really directly with the problem the system. so it seems to me a lot of the time. i did get hospitalized for poly pharmacy all kinds of weird drugs for prescribe and i got very sick and had to b.s. flies bet that two weeks to detox. and then they started me on a whole different pilot drugs i was watching it happen and sang to myself this doesn't seem right. especially when one of her doctors refused to see her and yet he was still giving her psychotropic drugs with not monitoring or with lip to which i was in the person that was that was wrong. that's polly pharmacy in that she.

couldn't tolerate we're not hearing or maybe what do you think about. what i did and i actually was not what i imagined i would be doing when i was in the to be serious. my first impression about prison was this looks like a concentration camp i don't know who i should be watching when i should be doing it i should be conducting myself i don't know how i made it there very overwhelming for a nineteen and twenty year old kid here. to be. in charge of weather summary of what's that and so.

i would never. acts like i did i would read prison and normal life never ever in the way were using medicine there was to get at the prisoners and rake them down the side of treating people it was almost like we're punishing them for seeking treatment from us i mean when i'm ordered to give me a fourteen gauge needle. especially if they're not in a mass of trauma i know that that's not needed and i know that that's purely to inflict and and those explicitly explained to me by the officer in charge as give these guys fourteen gauge needle so they won't want to have these anymore because there are so huge and they're so painful. years of the prisoners are crying and wailing and screaming that you and you know in the us. there's nothing to feel good about stick in fourteen years have been somebody for no good reason. i can take you and that's those people who are i'm sure there is other people who also felt the same

way as i did but. ghraib prison was not a place you spoke out against. the guests or inside the practices there was or. when day and i had to he didn't leave much of a suicide note he simply wrote i leave his experience smiling. that's all he wrote. you know doing it all over again i you know i don't know what i could've done differently i mean for heaven's sakes i didn't want him in the study it was not important at all how dan was chilling if it were important how he was doing that would have contacted me after we contacted them on good friday and said do we have to wait for him to kill himself and we did we had to wait for that

i call the corner the monday after he died i said i wanted to see him and i remember her kind of yelling at me and saying. don't you know how he died. and i his head well evidently i had to hope. and i didn't you know. when you find out your son kills himself you don't say what do i know i didn't know. but it wasn't a normal suicide. he slit his throat so badly that the car nurse office said young mr capitated himself. and then she said probably because he wasn't dying fast enough that he.

misled his abdomen open and. reached his hand inside and said when they found him his one hand had the box cutter frozen and that and the other hand was inside his abdomen up to his wrists. and. you know i want people to know this is what the drugs to. afghan simply want to kill himself. he went down to.

so clearly what i do is the history and the look into the way

the poor people have been exploited and for the lies that abused by. the people in power. and the people with money. this includes these people who are on the margins including. human guinea pigs. this is a history of that hasn't been told far away. and there are a lot of stories that are important that haven't been brought to light and that haven't been explored. i think. i.

mean the people that are in psychiatric distress can especially benefit from the acute use of psychiatric medications i don't think we need to question that but you also have this whole other parts of society that is using slash abusing psychiatric medication and you can put the medical field in there too because they're the enablers in the ninety's if you told a family practice doctor in ten years you will write a ton of prescriptions every month for atypical antipsychotics he might laugh at you now primary care writing a typical for and on therapy for depression anger management old d d anxiety disorders they're just being used for everything the market is being saturated with but most important by primary care that. i think that's the most important thing that pharma has figured out. i'm tracking a case about

a psychiatrist who claims that a major part of her job now is detox she has patients who come in a cocktail of medications from one primary care doctor who thinks he's an expert on bipolar disorder she gets the patient she says they're on all the wrong medications they're not bipolar they're depressed and then her job is to titrate the patient off these medications and get him on perhaps one medication for depression this is a future of psychiatry you could think about which is psychiatry is detox psychiatry more and more they're dealing with the poly pharmacy generated by primary care and in this case they asked the question their primary care doctor is writing all these atypical antipsychotics we have millions of people that are being prescribed psychiatric medications sometimes appropriate use but a large part of that population is being prescribed psychiatric medication where it may not be warranted or indicated but it's in demand.

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i think how the v.a. system is set up right now you don't have to be going to therapy to get the drugs prescribed the medication if you want therapy they filmed the entire session which is extremely uncomfortable and they have a set program for p.t.s.d. that just simply doesn't work there's really no continuity to your care because a lot of these guys are residents and you might see him once or twice and so they don't know what you've even been on half the time so they try to give you the same

drugs that have already failed for you p.t.s.d. is not a new thing it's been around forever and i think they should be a little slower to just hand you drugs say i hope these work for you send you out the door and then pursue even like alternate treatments that could work for people . her car. lot of people who do status seem to write again. i mean i'm playing for that one chance and i might hit it big. just a money issue or i don't have the money or i. don't have enough. i

. get a past that i had no more issues gambling or would not pay my bills that i should. but i didn't have any support from my parents and i wouldn't have any support from anywhere else basically dropped out there and to the world and. made a lot of mistakes tell us the really good job was a bus driver for a while. had a snowball to not carin. not make car payments. so when she wanted out of this news not a good time of my life. it's like one of those thirty things like one say.

once you've experienced homelessness you just never really get over it. that has been an issue you know us had rather go to vegas this way somebody just knowing that i can survive to the next mystery. never ever dissipate not really sure where i. did a downhill spiral. but. it's money i could afford of the. well let me go back to austin. for my next big.

scott pickens with. her dad when i go through vegas is. going to. be history. you hear it. here to cook meat.

and it's been seven years more there as well and. i don't think there is a minute that goes by that i don't think come from. i haven't sasha's. him some in here. yes he was right by my heart. when he said he. i mean. any of the. polls where it was a. name experience you know i was lost and that's when i first found this and.

it saved my life. that the. just recently passed away guy rushes so if he can't because all the corrupt things he sends his own help if he has been given is coming to me he's going to get it you know that's is that's it best with forgiveness a law is the one you've got to get you know. i mean i feel her that he called her us to believe that those tests as was safe you see through her that he did it for the sake of money. alone hills rooms like you know you need to. pray for kelly. thank you prayer for the medicine so that it's doing its job. and i can get a brain with less and less. and

had love. bill collector. it's a good thing under your story would have the whole weaponry pile right here. and that's the way it's done. every day and i wish it was the mentally ill. it's the pits.

this research. this research.

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