the feel. the feel . the float . along the side of the floor it's all about you come back and do this all night long so it's fine it's fine the rest of it you know. i we're going to pass the magical club. and i'm about to actually go to afghanistan here in june so i got i got not

very much time to have fun out here so that's why we try to do it all you want to go drag i'm sure i think in any event employ before yes man direct is pretty good nothing bad happened when you lose any advice so those are good good for hopefully this year is the same day things are starting to calm down here now so much i can say no but i'm really tired and i know exactly every thing is now so got some work to be done but i am a coward so it's what i get paid for you know so i get to have food on the table for the wife and the kid you know. i'll. be. three weeks so. it's only forward to your day and now i'll be all the past my truck down as well so if you and your life have to recall the for the old.

oh oh. and. we've got about fifteen or twenty now among phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's a huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know lots and lots of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was obviously taking a lot of medication and he had been had a little bit of alcohol. this guy had come back from iraq.

he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear he was he was stressed and in order to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. like first or kicking down doors going to. satisfy one. kick down a door in their own scared and i was kind of exciting definitely fun. with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think hopes. and strength a lot no. stone says something to me. like a blow or something even more. i may get more fights and still. spend it.

but i never knew anything about his you know that p.s. t. . so i never knew we had all those those problems are nothing and. some people come back from deployments they're just you know they're. they're hiding they're really good like that all the sudden just . you know in the.

in the afternoon i came home it's like i his truck was in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything like only went out last night or something and i come in and. you know you've usually just locked the bottom on. a lock it walking through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in the lane in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown spots and stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt himself. i come over to arm and i see my

forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood blood everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know like i i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a good looking guy and he said there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing. thirty you know i don't know i got some of the faith kind of all around yeah yeah

not really after her a lot of us just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down in place yes but so i never actually shot in war . a lot of us don't buy we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training. they use all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not for your son you have to do to stay alive you know when the war when the bubble it's just one you just you know a person so this is your life units are going to be a paper so it's it's different but they're shaped as personal. as well. so it's not that i thought all the targets are safe there were they thinking. the soldiers treat as i am an american soldier a moral member of the team sure the people. doing well. always post mission first

well maybe it's the feet moving with all the really fallen comrades and just one physically or mentally to try and pull fish in war to test the rules. always maintain my all my equipment and myself. i stand ready to deploy engage in destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding our freedom and american way of life i am an american soldier. if you know my heart my heart i have freedom it's called the n b a gram misses this way. and also the way. i have for dishonor. the shotgun and two zero three because i would rather die before i disarm i really. really really like you really. what do you like about your country so much that it's the

best country in the world it got to be got it. well. bought by actually what happened in the world are not always what. they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine to. one thousand confirm suicides at fort hood in two thousand and two i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. knew this guy was in

a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. it so this is the story about the soldier who was found dead at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life and place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very recognizable place very symbolic obviously some people were able to talk. a lot of you know on the surface it seems simple because. you know. all in all their forces here. are the.

strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming and going here at all. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they do play from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy. home of the free because of the. brave sometimes our society forgets that.

it's still i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and then. on the. back of no one would hear from behind i shouted something and them live that way before he was out there all for forty the fat man for the hour. ok got up. looked over the bathroom the clothes and went on the floor moving a little bit before me. because if it. was one of the all over him over the loud i'm ok. ok thank you frank or at. the end read a. lot everywhere yes ma'am. gotta go home and not fall on they are ramping it up now we're gonna know that

you got a belt and a hand and a gun and on the floor in your mind i'm remind me around the block that i want to name the line i want to go on the way i got there. you know how sometimes you see a story and it seems so for lengthly you think you understand it and then you glimpse something else and you hear or see some other part of it and realized everything you thought you knew you don't know i'm tom hartman welcome to the big picture.

is it possible to navigate the economy with all the details such as fiction misinformation and media hype will keep you up to date by decoding the mainstream have stated if in your right. i left the hospital and they were thing and start to come back home. i don't know for some reason i just had to go. and when i walked in the restaurant there was

a young girl there. and i just asked the girl i said i need to know did they get a soldier. commits suicide here and she goes well i can't say anything i just looked at. the mother of a soldier and i wanted to thank you for what a job did but he didn't. and she started crying i love you mom i'm so sorry i hope you and the favorite god can forgive me. that's what he said and that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when he said he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of

the family for the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic trained was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were me and worthless army actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to

anything and they get it fixed in straight in the he had to be. stronger or he would never be anything. i love my country i do. to be true is to love your country more than yourself. many people think of it in terms like that but. if you join the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. as i did enjoy being an infantryman rightful for my country like generations of my

friends has done. for hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it that is the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded in your no further use to the army. they get rid of you they where how soon until the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple as i feel better. simple as that whenever as i'm bad day go the range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better.

and it's still a. piece of shrapnel that's a dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was i'm sorry all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or artillery round or anything it was entirely homemade. and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the steam which are you me i'm to things i saw on. own. because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making as vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid

. our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that right that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear and having our weapons we scratch their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi was driving around our yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor off what do you are left with. this way

and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe she put extra starch in your for about it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. never prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting too i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to

help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cuts. just for the money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it was worth it if you come home alive and with lames. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come.

they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness such a. force they convince in their eyes. sometimes they talk and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. well ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most of the times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite coach says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and

they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i know i am this is understand me. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to laught. people have called me a traitor you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. i.

mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no issues don't she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so all my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option.

this is. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far removed from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment.

sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. what if they didn't have. the worst. white house to give it to

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