oh it's all come back to do this all night so it's fine it's fine for speed you know. i we're going to pass the baton. and i'm about to actually go to afghanistan here and you i got i got not very much time to have fun out here so that's why we try to do it the way you want to go drag and i think if you've been deployed before yes man tire is pretty good nothing bad having we're losing any by so it was a good good for hopefully this year is the same day things are starting to calm down here not so much there to say no but that's how i know exactly everything is now it's still got some work to be done but i don't make how so it's just what i get paid for you know so i get to have her own table for the wife and the kid you know. how. three weeks so.

it's only forty or dad now and i'll be able to pass my truck down as well so even if you have to do it because. i'm glad. for her. we got about fifteen or twenty now my phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other or you know there's a gunfight and there's. huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all

the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know lots and lots of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was obviously taking a lot of medication and he had had a little bit of alcohol. this guy had come back from iraq. he had a an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear he was he was stressed and in order to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. first or kicking down doors going to. kick down doors in their own scared and i was kind of exciting.

you know i don't know problem with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think hopes. someone says something to me. like a ball or something more. i may get more fights and i can still. spend it. but i never knew anything about his you know that p.s. t.v. year. as they are. so i never knew we had all those those problems are nuts and. some people come back from four or five

deployments they're just fine you know unless they're. they're hiding they're really good like him that all of a sudden just. you know in the. in the afternoon i came home it's like i his truck was in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything else they got only we went out last night or something and they come in and unlocked the door and you know usually just locked the bottom on. top it was like to lock it walking through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. you know what i see is is feet. you know laying in plain in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown

spots and stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night and he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any trip to me hurt himself. i come over to arm and then i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood bled everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a good looking guy and he said there and smile all the time when everything in israel outgoing i.

heard you know i got some in the face kind of. you know yeah not really sure if all of us just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down and i'm pretty fast but so i never actually shot in war. and a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training. they use all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not for your son you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the bubble it's just one just shooting at a person so this issue allows you to target your paper so it's it's different but

the shape this person. is but. it's not it's not that i thought that the targets are safe the way that. the soldiery. been sold to a more new member of the team sure the people. dealing with. always post mission first of all maybe it's the feet moving with all the lou fallen comrades and just one physically or mentally tough tranquil fishing well worth testing rules. always maintained all my equipment and myself. a standard age deploying gauge and destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding the freedom and american way of life i am american soldier. do you know that my heart my heart and freedom it's called the n b a gram misses this way. and

also the way. i have for dishonor. the shotgun and two zero three because i would rather die who are just going to. really really like they really. really like a better country so much that it's the best country in the world got to be got it. well. bought by actually what happened in the world are not the way. they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine and two. thousand nine hundred for be suicides at

fort hood in two thousand and ten. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. you are missing i was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. so this is the story about the soldier who was found dead at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or forty taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very

recognizable place very symbolic obviously. for talking. this has been a lot of you know on the surface it seems simple it's want you know. all in all to force here. all of the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming and going here at all. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they be play from here.

and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy. home of the free because of the. brave sometimes our society forgets that. isto i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and then. perhaps come out one would hear first thing i thought of something and the live album the four one zero zero four forty the felt when i. got up. looked up at the bath on the floor and land on the floor he's moving a little bit for me. because of a. lack of one one on the boat load him over to them and.

have been for a long korat. be a. very light everywhere yes ma'am. yes and not on they are around ok now we're gonna know that you got a belt and a hand and a gun on the floor there i'm reminded around the block about on more than a. marble on the rear of the. car. they almost told me my language as well but i will only react to situations i haven't read the reports so i'm likely to push the no i will leave them to the state department to comment on your latter point of the

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is he to you because. you try to eat. at. the hospital and everything started to come by paul. just had to

go. and when i walked in the restaurant there was a young. girl. i need to know did they. say they. just looked at. the mother of this. and i want to go thank you for what aid did but he didn't. and she started crying and. i'm so sorry i hope you and the paper in god can forgive me. for the. let's put them in. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it

ten minutes after six is when he said he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic twenty and was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were me and workless army actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him

he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything in to get it fixed in straight in the had to be. stronger or he would never be in. i love my country i do. to be patriotic is to love your country more than yourself. not many people think of it in terms like that but if you join the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. so. if i could have stayed in the army i would have.

as i did enjoy being an infantryman. i feel for my country like generations of my friends has done. for hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it but it was the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being. and once you are wounded in you're no further used to the army they get rid of you they warehouse you until you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out and shoot i feel better. simple as that when i rez i'm bad day go to the range in iraq and i just dump some rounds on it feel better.

it's still. a. piece of shrapnel that's a dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb. the bomb was i'm sorry more all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or our tiller around or anything it was entirely homemade and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the system which way you mean the things i saw on. oem. because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making as vulnerable so that we

were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid . our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear having our weapons we scratch their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi is driving around our back yes. they are me decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and

what does it mean to take your body armor what do you are left with. this way and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch in your for about it we're talking about. scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping it's. a muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. i have a prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting to i still unable to

feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cigarettes. just for the money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it is worth it if you come home alive and with limbs. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come.

they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness and such a. forsaken this in their eyes. sometimes they talk and sometimes i was. we don't pride than the talk. will ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in

a war there are no i don't want good soldiers. everybody's affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i know i am helpless as i understand. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. when. i.

joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no she was doing she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option.

this is. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far removed from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment.

sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because i i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. what if they did.

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