so it just i get paid for so i get so i head after all and save it for the wife and the kid in. three weeks. and. it's only forty or dad now i'll be able to pass my truck down as well so if you have to recall. her. we've got about fifteen or twenty now my phone calls. all within just

a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's a huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know lots and lots of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was obviously taking a lot of medication and he had been had a little bit of alcohol. this guy had come back from being in iraq. he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear that he was he was stressed and ordered to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. but first or kicking down doors and going down. sounds fun. kick down

a door. when scared. it's exciting. i mean i don't know i just kind of just go back to the swing of things but i think . someone says something to me. like a ball or something more i may get more. spend it. but i never knew anything about his you know that p.s. t.v. year. so i never knew we had all

those those problems or nothing and. some people come back from four or five deployments they're just fine you know unless they're. they're hiding they're really good at it all the sudden just. you know in the. in the afternoon i came. in it's like i his truck was in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything it's like i only went out last night or something and i come in and unlock the door and. just lock the bottom one and. a lock it walk in through the door and it happened right here. and i walk in. you know what i see is is feet.

you know laying in the lane in the hallway and i see like little red and brown spots and stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night and he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt himself. i come over to arm and then i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood blood everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know it's like i i seen dead before. dead people all by their own hand in my house so. you know he's

a good looking guy and he's at there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing. thirty you know i don't know i got some of it all around yeah yeah not really yet there were a lot of us just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down and pushed us but so i never actually shot in war . and a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training. they use all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not

a song you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the bow it's just one just shooting a person so this is your life units are getting paper so it's it's different but they're shaped as personal. as well. so it's not that i thought all the targets are safe that way but. the soldiers treat as i am an american soldier an immoral member of the team sure the people. doing it well. always post mission first though maybe it's the feet move with all the leave fallen comrades and just one physically or mentally tough tranquil fish in a war that has the rules. always maintained all my equipment and myself. i stand ready to cloying gauge and destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding the freedom and american way of life i am an american

soldier. you need to know that my heart my heart and freedom it's called an m.b.a. graham it means is this way. and also the way. i have that for a song or. a shotgun and two or three because i would rather die before i disarm i really. really really like you really. what do you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world it got to be got it . well. bought by actually what happened in the world are not the way. they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and

seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine and two. thousand nine hundred thirty suicides at fort hood in two thousand and ten. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. knew this guy was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. it so this is the story about the soldier who was found dead at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first

time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously some people for and talk he says has been a lot of you know on the surface it seems it's impossible to believe. all the altar forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming going here at all times. it is the

biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they be play from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy. home of the free because of the. brave sometimes our society forgets that. isto i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and then. the . come no one would hear first thing i thought of something and the live album the four who are out there all for forty the felt when i heard our a. lot of . the other the south on the blues and land on the floor feet moving

a little bit or feel. confident of a. walk on one of the most emotional album. has been a very long rant love will be a great a. very light everywhere yes ma'am. yes and not on the on the re-opening were data that were out of contract you got to build the wall and a hand and a gun on the floor. and remind down around the bugs on monday night the one that won the war on the real good that.

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all over. the hospital and everything started to come back home. for some reason i just had to go. and when i walked in the restaurant there was a young girl there. and address asked the girl i said i need to know. a soldier. commits suicide here and she goes well i can't say anything. just looked at her and i said the mother of this soldier and i want to go thank you for what they did but he didn't. and she started

crying. i'm so sorry i hope you and that they were in god can forgive me that's what he said that's what that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when is. he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him make him a man. after basic turn and was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would

see things and he would he would think about it a lot. at that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems they were being looked upon like they were me and worthless actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything and they'd get it fixed and straighten up and he had to be. stronger or he would never be anything.

i love my country i do. want to be patriotic is to love your country more than yourself. not many people think of it in terms like that but. if you join the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. as i did enjoy being an infantryman cared for i feel for my country like generations of my friends has done. hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it but it was the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded in you're no further used to the army they get rid of you they warehouse you know

until the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple if i feel better. simple as that when i rez i'm bad day go to the range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better. and it's still a. piece of shrapnel that the dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was i'm sorry all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or artillery round or anything it was entirely homemade and the iraqi

police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the steam which are you mean the things i saw on. own. because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making as vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid . our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear and having our

weapons we've scratched their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice you saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi was driving around our back yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor off what do you are left with. swing and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch in your for about it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or

whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. never prescription for a great dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting too i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cuts. just for the

money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it is worth it if you come alive and with limbs. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness. a. forsaken this in their eyes. sometimes they talk and sometimes they want. we don't progress to talk. well

ask you know what is is for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i know i am helpless as i understand the way. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left

people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact and so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. i. mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real lube you

should know she was doing she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far removed from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or

whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second deployment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because i. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but.

more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. what if they didn't have. real damage and complexity of this oil spill was not something you can grasp just by looking at dirty birds we have between four to five million people in this directly affected area of the coast and it's pretty clear why it's not being reported because b.p. can't afford to have a reported all along the gulf coast are clean they are safe and they're open for business if b.p. is the single largest oil contributor to the pentagon the us war machine is heavily

reliant upon b.p. and their oil this is a huge step backwards for the marker c. it's a step forward for oligarchy carex it is toxic as it looked like spraying in vietnam it was it was not a picture that either the government or b.p. really wanted to have out there i don't want dispersants to be the age you are. this boils. down load the official application to yourself choose your language stream quality and enjoy your favorites from alzheimer's if you're away from your television just doesn't matter now with your mobile device you can watch on t.v. anytime anywhere.

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