because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were meek and worthless actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything and they get it fixed and straighten up and he had to be stronger or he would never be anything. i love my country i do. is to love your country more than yourself. many people think of it in terms like that but. if you join the military for any

other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. because i did enjoy being an infantryman. i feel for my country like generations of my friends has done. it for hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it but it was the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded in your no further use to the army they get rid of you they warehouse you know until the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple if i feel better. simple as that whenever as i'm bad day go the range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better.

and it's still a. piece of shrapnel that the dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was i'm sorry i'm all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it was like a mortar or our children or anything it was entirely homemade. and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack is too much for you me i think the things i saw on. own.

because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making us vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid. our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear having our weapons we scratched their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi was driving around our back yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above

the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor off what do you are left with. this way and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe she put extra starch in your for about it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't

feel good so i take this. never prescription for a great dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting too i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about the army. we're product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cuts. just for the money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it was worth it if you come alive and with limbs.

we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness. a. force they convince in their eyes. sometimes the top and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. well ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't.

there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i now i am elvis is under the hood. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because

a lot of the soldiers need human contact so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. when he was in that i. mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no she was doing she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and

the owner is why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far moved from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for

a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because i. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. what if they didn't have.

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