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worse lead you to. i we're going to pass the magical club. and i'm about to actually go to afghanistan here in june so i got i got not very much time to have fun and. that's why we try to do it they want to go drag him to employ before yes man tire was pretty good nothing bad happened we lose any advice so it was a good good time hopefully this year is the same day things are starting to calm down here not so much out here today though but i really like now i know exactly every thing is now so got some work to be done but i am a coward so it's what i get paid for you know so i get to have food on the table for the wife and kid you know. i'll. be. very worrisome. it's only forward to your day and now i'll be able to pass my truck down as well so if you. have to really call her.

we've got about fifteen or twenty now among phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's this huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know a lot of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was

obviously taking a lot of medication and he had had a little bit alcohol. this guy had come back from iraq. he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear he was he was stressed and ordered to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. right first or kicking down doors and go down. sounds fun. kick down a door in their own scared and i was kind of exciting definitely fun. with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think hopes. as. soon says something to me. the bar seems to be more.

i may get more fights. but i never knew anything about his you know that p.s. t. . so i never knew we had all those those problems are nothing and. some people come back from deployment they're just . there. they're hiding a really good like that all of a sudden just. in

the afternoon i came home it's like i his truck was in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything it's like i only went out last night or something and i come in and unlock the door. usually just locked. and. a lock it walk in through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in the lane in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown stuff in my first thought is. oh he he got drunk last night he's passed out on the floor or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt himself.

i come over to arm and then i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood lead everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know it's like i'm i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a big looking guy and he's at there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing.

thirty you know i don't know where i got some of it. yeah yeah not really yesterday were a lot of us just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down in prison yes but so i never actually shot in war and a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training for the u.s. all kinds of different things to shoot. a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not for your son you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the bible it's just one. person so this is your life your target is your paper so it's it's different that they're shaped this person. is but. it's not you know it's not that i thought that the targets are safe they were they thinking. the soldiery. been sold

a more new member of the team sure the people. dealing with. always post mission first though maybe it's the feet moving with almost aloof fallen comrade and just one physically mentally tough tranquil titian warrior tested rules. always maintained all my equipment and myself. i stand ready to flowing gauge and destroy the enemy's united states of america in close call but only guarding our freedom and american way of life i am an american soldier. you need to know that my heart my heart their freedom it's called the n b a gram misses this way. and also that way. i have that for the song or. the shotgun and two zero three because i would rather die before i dishonor my glory. agreeably

really like a really. whether you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world it got to be we got it. well. by actually what happened in the world are not the way. they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine and. one thousand nine hundred four head in two thousand and two. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in

a public restaurant. you are missing i was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. so this is the story about the soldier too was found at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life and place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously some people for example talking the army says has a lot of units on. it seems to be supporting. you

know. all in all terror forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer on. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming and going here at all. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they be play from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy. home of the free because of the brave sometimes our society forgets that.

isto i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and that. the . threat of no one would hear for the life out of something and the live album before one zero zero four forty the felt when. i think got. to over the south on the blues and land on the floor moving a little bit for me. because if a. good one on the floor moved him over the line but i'm. ok with it for a long korat will be a very very. very light everywhere yes ma'am the last one.

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the hospital and everything started to come back home. for some reason i just had to go. and when i walked in the restaurant there was a young girl there. and address asked the girl i said i need to know did they got there the soldier. commits suicide here and she goes well i can't say anything. just looked at her and i said the mother of this soldier and i wanted to thank you for what they did but he didn't.

and she started crying. i'm so sorry i hope you and that they were in god can forgive me for. this but that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when is. he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic turn and was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would

see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were meek and worthless dharm actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything and to get it fixed and straighten up and he had to be. stronger or he when they were being made.

i love my country i do. is to love your country more than yourself. many people think of it in terms like that but. if you joined the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. so. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. because i did enjoy being an infantryman. i feel for my country like generations of my family has done. hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it but it was the army species you had to become a casualty out of the kill they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded in you're no further used to the army they get rid of you they warehouse him until

the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple if i feel better. simple as that whenever as i'm bad day go the range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better. and it's still a. piece of shrapnel that the dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was i'm sorry i'm all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or our children or anything it was entirely homemade. and the iraqi police

helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the steam which way you mean i think the things i saw on . own. because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making us vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid. our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear having our weapons we've scratched their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we

saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi was driving around. yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor off what do you are left with. this way and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch in your four spot it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or

whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. never prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting too i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a pack cigarettes. just for the

money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. pins if it is worth it if you come alive and with limbs. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness and such a force they convince in their eyes. sometimes the top and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk.

well ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. the times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i want by soldiers so i know i am helpless as i understand. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in

a town like collina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. i. mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real movie

should know she was doing but she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so all my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the owner is why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far moved from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or

whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because i. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but.

more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. you know what if they didn't.

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