frank two more before. before my driver grabbed me and he said would be doing. and. that's not me out of it now realize that i was shooting at people because they were there. this one as my grandfather in vietnam he was a pilot bosnia was six months. my first trip to iraq was only six months so that's a year my second trip to iraq was a year a trip to afghanistan was a year my last trip was fifteen months this was a stream and from that from it was to. me i'm oldest boy who is now. and. mom or somebody. i'm very proud that i have been in the military

i'm proud that i've been to war but however good people do get hurt and i've hurt good people. and. there's a reason i'm getting out of the army retired cop that's the reason. i have a. chronic p.t.s.d. post-traumatic stress disorder. to be honest with you i just got out of a mental institution up weeks ago. i was there for thirty days. to help me with my p.t.s.d. . and it's from the stuff i've gone through the stuff i've done and iraq. how serious is the beef we go to mental institution britishers. all the people in that place with me they were all military. everybody else there

except me had tried to kill themselves i was getting ready to go kill other people . when you get ready. to get in my car and drive up and start killing people. instead i grabbed my wife and we drove up to the hospital. how do you know are you getting ready to kill people. because the thoughts just kept going through my mind and i was making my plan. at the time it was i had a problem with people being happy because i. am not happy most of the time. so i was going to drive down the road here and find the first person i saw that

looked at me in as. i was going to start with them. i was either going to shoot them but i doubt that i probably would have just beat them to death. yes. i don't go places. where you return or stick to those house or our family that's

a. cave that i'm familiar building. the church is one place i don't feel i have any symptoms. from both the church. down to us to have my gun on me yeah i do. church. because i'm a radical person where their lives i destroyed. all the most vulnerable target which would be a church because i would have an h.r. professional in charge nobody but me. the worst one for me was cleaning up other people's brains.

i can deal with shattered human remains like pick up someone's heart. the brains are different because it's. you don't know if you're holding a piece of someone's memory from their kid or. you don't know if you're holding a piece their members being married remember that you're holding the peace that. that was them being soldiers and that's that's the worst for me because all i want to you boil it down all this arrest of this is nothing but meat and bone and. but people don't want to have conversations about that they want to buy you a beer and give you a clap or a handshake in the airport and be on their merry way you know. it puts a strain on my marriage for sure. a lot of marriages have been around because the

wives just don't understand and don't have the capability of understanding and you know their husband gets home and they think well the husband's going to help me discipline the kids and take care of kids but he end up with tears three kids and a grown ass man we've been in the corner drunk off as cradling a gun. no one teaches anybody how to deal with it you know and it also gets back to the in the military it's the john wayne mentality of if you don't show emotion you know allowed to admit that you're sad or sad or anything ever it's not manly. i don't let myself become upset because when i do i don't get a little upset i get stage five def-con want to upset like at the world and i just don't trust people at all. i get

really. people. do what i do that no. my tented yeah. the temptations their.

way and you know. they. love. a. mole. oh and. i'm honored to be here today today in the presence of so many heroes for our nation and those who do good work i'm sure they are not forgotten. about remembrance for those who have

sacrificed so much. and we'll fight. for foreigners through our nation to make a world of pain and allow the sons the know this great nation the opportunity to enjoy the fruits of my sacrifice. i can think of nothing more honorable confirming your nation. our military and their families how come i didn't appoint people we don't know what their nation well. the particle just nation and our military service members. places me home only known as normal. bunker who don't need your town. but friends is all i am walking out in the morning. for vietnam afghanistan and iraq and because of the bravery and sacrifices of the heroes we honor. freedom. it is.

no worry about me. but i'm over there not going to be thinking what might have been asked is. unfair it was the after masses something. that after after will come after us was called after.

the civilized world produces more food than it needs. while people die of hunger in other countries. millions of victims every. where a meal is the most of. these flood or droughts to blame. it was a bad year without a train so we couldn't clods anything but that. there was great tang

there. always a good help comes too late and without good intentions. charity diplomacy and business to. me is he just says. he has. to. say. hold it. hold it hold. it. hold it. i look.

at that speech. relief. so.

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