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once lead you to. i we're going to pass the magical club. and i'm about to actually go to afghanistan here in june so i got i got that very much tired i have. that's why we try to do it they want to go drag and i think in any event employed before yes man tire is pretty good nothing bad ever when you lose anybody so it was a good good tara hopefully this year is the same day things are starting to calm down there now some i dare to say that i really like now. everything is now so got some work to be done but i only make. so it's what i get paid for you know so i get to have food on table for the wife and kid you know. i'll. be. very worried so. get your solar forward to your dad now and i'll be able to pass my truck down as well so even. after you.

heard it. we got about fifteen or twenty nine one phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's this huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know a lot of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was

obviously taking a lot of medication and he had. this guy had come back from iraq. he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear he was he was stressed and ordered to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. right first or kicking down doors and going to. kick down a door in their own scared and i was kind of exciting definitely fun. with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think our hopes. is trying to lighten up. someone says something to me. and more.

i may get more. but i never knew anything about his you know that p s t v. so i never knew we had all those those problems are nothing and. some people come back from deployments they're just you know unless they're. they're hiding they're really good at it all of a sudden just. you know in the. in

the afternoon i came. in. his truck was in the driveway parked it in crazy and everything it's like i only went out last night or something and i come in and unlock the door and. usually just lock the bottom and. a lock it walk in through the door. it happened right here. and walk in. you know what i see is is feet. you know laying in the lane in the hallway and i see like little red and brown spots and stuff my first thought is. oh he he got drunk last night and he's passed out on the floor or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt

himself. i come over to arm and then i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood blood everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know it's like i'm i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a bad looking guy and he's at there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing.

thirty you know i don't know where i got some of the faith. yeah yeah that really yesterday was a lot of us just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but. it was kind of hunkered down and question just but so i never actually shot in war. and a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training they use all kinds of different things to shoot. a lot of fun this is fun shooting or war is not a song you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the bow it's just one just shooting a person so this is your life unit target piece of paper so it's it's different but they're shaped as personal. as well. so it's not you know i thought all the targets are safe there were they thinking. soldiers treat.

installed in a more new member of the team sure the people still doing well. always place missions first will move which their feet move with all the really fallen comrades and just one physically and mentally tough tranquil fishing warrior testing rules. always maintained all my equipment and myself. a standard age deploying gauger destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding the freedom and american way of life i am an american soldier. do you know that my heart my heart their freedom it's called the n.b.a. graham and mrs this way. and also that way. for the song or. the shotgun and two zero three because i would rather die before i

decide my going to. really really like a really. what do you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world gotta be got it. well. bought by actually what happened on the world market right away. there were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine to. one thousand confer the suicides at fort hood in two thousand and two. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the

neighboring towns in a public restaurant. you know this guy was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. so this is the story about the soldier who was found dead at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was at a. public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously. for campbell kentucky. this has been

a lot of unity on. this city. because. you know. all in all their forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming going here at all times. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they do play from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy.

home of the free because of the. brave sometimes our society forgets that. isto i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and then. perhaps come no one would hear first thing i thought of something like that and the man that you always look for who are you are all for affording it that way out of our age. ok got up. looked over the path on the clover and went on the floor he's moving a little bit more closely. because if a. good one on the floor all over him over the loud i'm ok. ok frank are at. me a. very light everywhere yes ma'am the artwork.

on the go home and not the pollen they are out there right now but i really don't know where a lot of contact got a belt and a hand and have done it on the floor. and remind me around on the spot about it on monday night in the long run on the way i got there. you know how sometimes you see a story and it seems so for life you think you understand it and then you glimpse something else and you hear or see some other part of it and realize everything you

thought you knew. you don't know i'm trying hard because a big picture. mission . critical three score three arrangement three. three. three. three born to play the video for your media project free media don carty dot com. i left the hospital and they were thing and start to come back home. for some reason just had to go. and when i walked and at the restaurant there was

a young girl there. and i just asked the girl. i need to know did. commit suicide here and she goes well i can't say anything. just looked at. the mother of the soldier and i want to thank you for what they. did but he didn't. and she started crying. i'm so sorry i hope you and the favorite god can forgive me. that's what he said and that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when he said he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of

the family for the man army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a main. actor basically and was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were meek and worthless army actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to

anything and to get it fixed and straighten up and he had to be. stronger or he would never be anything. i love my country i do. to be true is to love your country more than yourself. many people think of it in terms like that but. if you joined the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. as i did enjoy being an infantryman cared for i feel for my country like generations of my friends has done. for hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are

good parts of it that is the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded in your no further use to the army they get rid of you they where how soon until the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple as i feel better. simple as that when our resident bad day go to the range in iraq and i just dump some rounds i feel better.

and it's still. a. piece of shrapnel that the dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was i'm sorry i'm all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or artillery round or anything it was entirely homemade and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the steam which are you me and things i saw on. own . because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making us vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid .

our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that right that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear and having our weapons we scratch their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi was driving around our back yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor off what do you are left with. this way and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra

starch in your for about it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. never prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting too i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to

help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cuts. just for the money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it is worth it if you come home alive and with limbs. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are

ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness. a force they convince in their eyes. sometimes the top and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. well ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite coach says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and

they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i now i am helpless as i understand the way. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand and chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact and so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. i.

mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no she was doing but she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so all my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option.

this is. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far removed from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because

i i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. you know what if they didn't. look for every dollar up in the field that block they won't find it here if you're

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