you know some i dare to say no but that's how i know not exactly every day and i still got some work to be done. so it's just what i get paid for so i get so ahead after all table for the wife and kids. three weeks. before it's your dad now they'll be able to pass my truck down as well so if you. have to recall. her.

we've got about fifteen or twenty now on one phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's a huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know lots and lots of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was obviously taking a lot of medication and he had been cataloged an alcoholic. this guy had come back from being in iraq. she had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear that he was he was stressed and ordered to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire.

but first for kicking down doors i'm going to. kick down a door. when scared. it's exciting. i mean i don't know problem with it i just kind of just go back to the swing. but i think i'll hopes. someone says something to me. like a ball or something more. i may get more fights to. spend it.

but i never knew anything about his you know that p.s. t.v. year. i say. so i never knew we had all those those problems or nothing and. some people come back from four or five deployments they're just fine you know unless they're. they're hiding they're really good like him that all the sudden just. you know everything you know. about. four o'clock. in the afternoon i came home and i got his truck was in the driveway parked it in crazy and everything like i only went out last night or somethin. comin and locked the door and. usually just locked the bottom one and like all of the tough ones like to lock it walk in

through the door. it happened right here. walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in plain in the hallway and i see like little red and brown spots and stuff from my first thought is. oh he he got drunk last night and he's passed out on the floor or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt himself. i come over to arm and then i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood bled everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know like i

i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a big looking guy and he said there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing. thirty you know i got some of the faith kind of all around yeah yeah that really after first a lot of us just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down in prison yes but so i never actually shot in war . and a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training

they use all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not a song you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the battle it's just one. person so this is your life units are going to be a paper so it's it's different but they're shaped as personal. as well. so it's not that i thought at all but the targets are safe there were they thinking . the soldier's creed. been sold to a more new member of the team sure the people. being. always placed mission first will need to accept the feat and move with almost aloof fallen comrades and just one physically or mentally tough tranquil fishing warrior testing rules. always maintain my all my equipment and myself. a standard age deploying gauge and

destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding the freedom and american way of life i am american soldier. do you know that my heart my heart their freedom it's called an m.b.a. graham it means is this way. and also the way. i have that for dishonor. and two zero three because i would rather die before i dishonor my glory. agreeably really like he really. what do you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world it got to be got it. well. by actually what happened. the way.

they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine to. one thousand confer the suicides at fort hood in two thousand and ten. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. knew this guy was in a park and round rock a town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. it so this is the story about the soldier too was found at the memorial on post.

where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously some people for campbell kentucky the army says has been a lot of units on. the scene supporting. our military forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is

a huge amount of soldiers coming and going here at all. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they didn't play from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy. home of the free because of the brave sometimes our society forgets that. isto i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on to and that. i'm no one but here for me i thought of something and i'm live on the floor of one zero

zero zero four forty felt when i. got off. the other the path on the float and land on the floor he's moving a little bit for me. because of a. good one on the boat moved him over the lot of them. have been very long korat will be a very very. very wet everywhere yes ma'am the last one. yet have not fallen we are ramping up now we're out of contract and got a bill in the hand and a gun and on the floor. i'm remind your own blood that on monday night the long run for the real.

good lumber a jury of your mccurry was easy to believe in. doesn't sound anything. to teach me the creation of why you should care about. this is why you should care only.

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when i walked and the rest. i need to know. did you got a soldier. commits suicide here and she goes i can't same thing i just looked at her and i said the mother of this soldier and i want to thank you for what aid did but he didn't. and she started crying. i'm so sorry i hope you and that they were in god can forgive me that's what he said that's but that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when he said he wanted to follow

family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic training that was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were me and workless army actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him

he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything and they get it fixed in straight in the had to be. stronger or he would never be anything. i love my country i do. to be patriotic is to love your country more than yourself not many people think of it in terms like that but if you join the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. as i did enjoy being an infantryman. i feel for my country like generations of my

friends has done. hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it that is the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being. and once you are wounded in your no further use to the army they get rid of you they warehouse you know until you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple i feel better. simple as that in iraq i'm bad day go to the range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better.

it's steel. it's a piece of shrapnel that the dug out of my spine it's a piece of the. the bomb was i'm sorry all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or our children or anything it was entirely homemade. and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the system which are you mean like the things i saw on. because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making as vulnerable so that we were attacked in the

first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid. our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear having our weapons we've scratched their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi was driving around. yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was a body above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor off what do you are left

with. this way and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch in your for about it we're talking about. scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. a muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. i have a prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting to i still unable to

feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cuts. just for the money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it is worth it if you come alive and with limbs. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come.

they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness and such a force they convince in their eyes. sometimes the top and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. well ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most of times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite coach says you know in

a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i know i am helpless as i understand the way. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. i.

mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no she was doing but she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so all my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option.

i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far removed from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment.

sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because i. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. what if they didn't have.

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