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the flow. of love oh boy it's all about you come back and do this all night and i'm so it's fine it's finally going to do. i we're going to pass you had to look up. and i'm about to actually go to afghanistan here in june i got i got not very much time to have fun out here so that's why we try to do it the way you want to go drag i'm sure i think in any event employed before yes man tire tracks is pretty good nothing bad happened when you lose anybody so it was a good good hopefully this year is the same day things are starting to calm down maybe not so much at stake now but i'm really tired and i now know exactly every thing is now so got some work to be done but i don't make how so it is what i get paid for you know so i get to have have her own table for the wife and

a kid in our house to. be. three weeks so. it's only forward to your dad now i'll be able to pass my truck down as well so if you and your life alterian really calls. for. the low of. we got about fifteen or twenty nine one phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's a huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where

there's kids and there's people and of course you know lots and lots of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was obviously taking a lot of medication and he had been had a little bit of alcohol. this guy had come back from iraq. he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear he was he was stressed and ordered to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. but first or kicking down doors and going to. satisfy on. kick down a door in their own scared and i was kind it's exciting definitely fun.

with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think. as. soon says something to me. like a ball or something more. i may get more fights and still. spend it. but i never knew anything about his you know that p s t v. so i never knew we had all those those problems are nothing and. some people come

back from deployments they're just you know unless they're. they're hiding they're really good like that all the sudden just. you know in the. in the afternoon i came home it's like i his truck was in the driveway getting crazy and everything like i only went out last night or something and i come in and unlock the door. and. walk in through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in plain in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown spots and

stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any trip to me hurt himself. i come over to arm and i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood blood everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know like i i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so you know he's a good looking guy and he's at there and smile all the time and everything in

israel outgoing. thirty you know i don't know i got some in the face kind of all around yeah yeah not really after her a lot of us don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down in places yes but so i never actually shot in war . and a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training for the u.s. all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not a song you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the battle it's just one. person so this issue allows you to target piece of paper so it's it's

different that they're shaped this person. is but. it's not you know not that i thought that the targets are safe their way but. the soldiers treat as i am an american soldier i'm already a member of the team sure the people. dealing with. always place missions first of all maybe it's the feet moving with almost aloof fallen comrades and just one physically or mentally tough tranquil fish in a war that has the rules. always maintained all my equipment and myself. a standard age deploying gauge and destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding our freedom and american way of life i am an american soldier. you need to know that my heart my heart their freedom it's called the n.b.a.

graham maze is this way and also that way. for the song or. the shotgun and two or three because i would rather die before i disarm i really. really really like the really. whether you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world got to be who got it. well. by actually what's happening in the world are not the way. they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine to. nineteen

thousand for be suicides at fort hood in two thousand and ten. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. you this guy was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. so this is the story about the soldier who was found dead at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was at

a. public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously. for. the obvious this has been a lot of you know on the surface it seems to want to feel. normal to forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming going here at all times. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for

a couple of months. and then they be play from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy. home of the free because of the. brave sometimes our society forgets that. it's still i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on or in the. back of no one but here for the right guy something in the. way before one zero zero or forty the fat man or a young man i think got up. looked over the path on the floor and ran on the floor he's moving the focus. being. caught.

on one of the moving him over to. ok frank are at. me a. lot everywhere yes ma'am. yes and not hot they are ramping up now we're gonna know that you've got a belt in the hand and a gun on the floor there i'm remind down around the block on. your way of. syria and barack obama's convoluted past toward the american administration is determined to punish the assad regime's alleged use of chemical weapons other than members of mainstream media many are skeptical of the president's claims and the necessity to attack syria so what is obama's plan doesn't make any sense. you know how sometimes you see

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i left the hospital and they were thing and start to come back home. i don't know for some reason i just had to go. and when i walked and at the restaurant there was a young girl there. and i just asked the girl i said i need to know did i got a soldier. commits suicide here and she goes well i can't say anything. just looked at. the mother of the soldier and i wanted to thank you for what. the child did but he didn't. and she started crying a levy mom i'm so sorry i hope you and the favorite god can forgive me. that's what he said and that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty

three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when he said he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for the man army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic training and was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people

that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were meek and worthless army actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything and they get it fixed in straight now and he had to be. stronger or he would never be anything. i love my country i do. to be true is to love your country more than yourself and not many people think of it in terms like that but. if you join the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have

a good day. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. as i did enjoy being an infantryman care rifle for my country like generations of my family has done. hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it that is the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded and you're no further used to the army they get rid of you they wear how soon until the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out and sheeple if i feel better. simple as that when i rez i'm bad day go to the range in

iraq and i just dumps around feel better. and it's still a. piece of shrapnel that the dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was i'm sorry i'm all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or artillery round or anything it was homemade entirely. and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the steam which are you mean like the things i saw on. because that's what it's not so much the

nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making as vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid. our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear having our weapons we scratch their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice you saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi was driving around. yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave

them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor off what do you are left with. this way and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch in your for about it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care. i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping it's. a muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't

feel good so i take. either prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting too i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cigarettes. just for the money. tax free come almost like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it is worth it if you come alive and with limbs.

we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness such a. force they can miss in their eyes. sometimes they talk and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. well ask you know what is is for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't.

there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody is affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i now i am this is understand me. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact and so this is someone they could come and

feel at home. i. mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no issues do but she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so all my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and

then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option. this is. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far moved from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for

a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because i. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to

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