the feel . my. love. for it's all about me come back to this all night and i'm so please find the spot where did you go. i were going to pass you had to look up. and i'm not actually go to afghanistan here in june i got i got that very much tired i have fun out here so that's why we try to do it the way you want to go drag

i'm sure you meant employed before yes man thai rak was pretty good nothing bad happened when you lose anybody so it was a good good hopefully this year is the same day things are starting to calm down here now so much i can say no but i'm really tired and i now know exactly everything is now so got some work to be done but i am a coward so i just want to get paid for you know so i get to have her own table for the wife and a kid in our house to. be. three weeks so. it's only forward to your dad now then i'll be all past my truck down as well so if you and your lack of theory really calls. for the. odd. overflow of clock last load.

we've got about fifteen or twenty now along phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's a huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know lots and lots of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was obviously taking a lot of medication and he had been had a little bit of alcohol. this guy had come back from being in iraq. he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear

he was he was stressed and in order to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. but first or kicking down doors and going house to house. sounds fun. kick down a door in their own scared and i was kind of exciting definitely fun. with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think hopes. so and says something to me. like a bar something more. i may get more fights against in. a spot it.

but i never knew anything about his you know that p.s. t v year. so i never knew we had all those those problems or nothing and. some people come back from deployments are just fine you know unless they're. they're hiding a really good like that all of a sudden just. you know in the. in the afternoon i came home it's like i his truck was in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything like i mean he went out last night or something and i

come in and locks the door and you know you've usually just locked the bottom on. the top. a locket walking through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in plain in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown spots and stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night and he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt himself. i come over to arm and then i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood bled everywhere blood all over the floor blood

all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know like i i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a good looking guy and he's at there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing i. heard you know i got some of the faith kind of all around you know yeah that really reform is just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving

a truck was kind of hunkered down in place yes but so i never actually shot in war . a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training. they use all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not fun yeah you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the bubble it's just one just shooting at a person so this issue allows you to target your paper so it's it's different that their shape this person. is but. it's not you know not that all the targets are safe they were they thinking. the soldiers treat as i am an american soldier a moral member of the team sure the people. dealing with. always place missions first will move which their feet move with almost only fallen comrades and just one

physically or mentally tough tranquil fish in war to test the rules. always maintain all my equipment and myself. a standard age deploying gauge and destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding the freedom and american way of life i am an american soldier. you need to know that my heart my heart their freedom it's called the n b a gram misses this way. and also the way. i have that for a song or. a shotgun and two zero three because i would rather die for disarm i really. really really like the really. whether you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world it got to be got it. well. bought by actually what happened in the world are

not the way. they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine and. one thousand confer the suicide at fort hood in two thousand and ten. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. knew this guy was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for.

it so this is the story about the soldier too was found at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or portably taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously. for campbell kentucky he says has been a lot of you know on the surface it seems simple it's want you know. all in all their forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army.

or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming going here at all times. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they be play from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's great he's . home of the free because of the. brave sometimes our society forgets that. isto i think i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and then.

on the. back of no one but here for me i got out of something and i live that way before one zero zero zero four forty felt when i got over an hour. ok got up. looked over the bathroom the clothes and ran on the floor moving a little bit for the day because of a. walk on one of the low in mobile alabama oh. ok thank you frank or at least be a great a man or a very light everywhere yes ma'am. i'm gonna go home and not fall on they are ramping up now we're gonna know that you got a belt and a hand and a gun and on the floor of your mind and remind me around the block that i want to

name the line i want to go on the way i got there. you know how sometimes you see a story and it seems so for lengthly you think you understand it and then you glimpse something else you hear or see some other part of it and realized everything you thought you knew you don't know i'm trying hard luck and is a big picture. but how you would test that. intentions of somebody and how would you know the intentions of george w. bush one can launch that war on false pretext it's now recognized internationally that southwest they never had weapons of mass destruction i think that sharing your point of view in any circumstance is a good thing so if you want to open up another country to

a different sort of government or a different type of a man or a different type of authority i think that being open minded and taking it in and perhaps there are better ways of doing it than through force like i just said being invasive but i think that's the open mindedness i guess. ok. david crockett well then we have to take of virginia it's a little while in the middle of the chesapeake bay going to virginia. and county. ok you're all in the chesapeake bay probably one of the best areas in focus for us . this is an old picture of town and you're island before the channel was cut through oh here. we go way up there. there's going. right here or somebody had stones from the graves it for you this is

a fruit that's what we don't want happen to taint you all and we want to get some protection make sure that we don't go into the chesapeake bay like uppers did in other communities. the hospital and everything started to come back home. for some reason i just had to go. and when i walked in the restaurant there was a young girl there. the girl. i need to know did they got a soldier. commits suicide here and she goes well i can't say anything. just looked at. the mother of this. and i want to go thank you for what

aid did but he didn't. and she started crying. i'm so sorry i hope you and that they were in god can forgive me that's what he said that's but that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is finished. he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up. the second tour is when he came back

a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were meat and worthless army actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything in to get it fixed in straight in the he had to be. stronger or he would never be anything.

i love my country i do. is to love your country more than yourself. many people think of it in terms like that but. if you joined the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. so. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. as i did enjoy being an infantryman cared for i feel for my country like generations of my family has done. for hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it that it was the army species you had to become a casualty out of the kill they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded

and you're no further used to the army they get rid of you they warehouse you know until the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out and sheeple if i feel better. simple as that whenever as i'm bad day to go the range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better. it's still a. piece of shrapnel that the dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was i'm sorry i'm all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like

a mortar or artillery round or anything it was homemade entirely. and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack is this too much for you me i think the things i saw on . own. because it's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making us more balls that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid. our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major

concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear and having our weapons we've scratched their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi is driving around. yes. the army decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles next wasn't optional as was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean take your body armor off what do you are left with. this way and i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch in your for about it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care. i don't care if it comes to if

is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. a muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. i have a prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting to i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through day day to. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not

a pack cigarettes. just for the money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. it is if it is worth it if you come home alive and with limbs. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness. a forsaken missing their eyes. sometimes the top

and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. well ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i now i am helpless as i understand. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left.

people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like alina where the brass has a very strong hand the room chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact and so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. i. mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen

i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no she was doing but she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so all my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far moved

from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because i i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that

i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of. things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. what if they didn't have. a. little bit of limbo. pluck live. good speech. if you.

wish i. look. so good live. just see. it. come out of my mind i'm a better little. her. live. live.

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