of people are saying that russia is next you see if there is no resistance in syria then one by one all resistance to the un ending hunger of nato will be smashed out one by one the reason syria is so important and so scary is that you have one massive military force that could be very motivated to attack for its own self interest while you have a group of massive military forces how they build defeated to counterattack for their own self interests this is a very tense standoff that could lead to a major moment in history military history but that's just my opinion. as a serious supply road deepens division. and recession the rocks the global economy . the really gather in st petersburg. the russia g. twenty summit on our t.v. . screens i this is for headaches this is for sleep this is

a check on lies or two if i have any episodes xanax can cause blackouts and it's not just. because of which is present nightmare because. i can't get out of it. and bill if it is kind of use it for me because sometimes i have episodes where i won't be able to. i think something will trigger me and which i'll just keep on working and working and working more or less. for like seventy two hours just so exhausted and. i can take and build. a show out or. something i very much. like the phrase that you gave me i could have made a lot more money out of it i want to i just it depends on what we're doing and to. make him say i need is there we're rebuilding iraq you're working to rebuild iraq.

i was kind of sick of hearing c.n.n. and fox news like barky each other about one say oh it's. you know the horrible things they are i and i kind of wait to see it for myself you know. i joined the military when i was a teenager nineteen in basic training. like halfway through my tour i told my unit that i was willing to kill any human beings . i start. asking this one question are you willing to do your job if i was a say no it would have been like oh this guy's be insubordinate throw in jail you know i mean so like i came to conclusion like they're basically in slavery we hear i have to say yes you know i'm actually walking the town with

a rifle but instead of using the camera. this is one of the girls and it's her town. one boy they don't know where one of the other bullets a little girl on the shoulder and she ended up dying from that shoulder injury. it was the last leg bit a happiness i had i was who a breaking point i was i was you know you're suicidal yeah. and during that period they saw me to a chaplain i sat and talked to a chaplain for about two hours and he tried to basically convince me that killing so thank. you for your in that situation where you're having that struggle you're going on that struggle yeah and one of my going to when i got to call my mom in tow i don't struggle with that stuff i would be bawling her

eyes out you know i mean like who am i going to talk to about it you know i mean. well.

i just had my first last december and she went to the c. section and panic she was frightful but i was completely. crying when he was born i was just completely like. kind of like i had to get a mission. maybe i should've cried to my dad told me i would but my dad hasn't seen the things i have seen a lot of. and from all the combat i've seen soldiers that i've lost over time it gets easier that's the thing that frightened me the most. if i killed the enemy. i don't feel it anymore. it's harder but i am happy that i had to be an army wife because not

a lot of people get to do it it's definitely a privilege and an honor being married to someone he serves the country so. it's not easy lifestyle. and i had family members who were in the military so i knew he was going to be gone i knew i was going to be home alone a lot you know it wasn't from a dog. but yeah i was. no i just turned nineteen in the picture and i was you know just graduated college. went off to get married. this was the day he came home i showed these on my phone so they're kind of blurry but this was when he came home it was just he kind of just wanted to sit for a minute and just like i think soak in the fact that he's not there anymore he's back in the mainland he's able to just breathe and not worry about any

day exploding behind him. yeah. you. get. there. this is a reef that i made when my husband came home from deployment the material that you see here is what they call a c u from their uniforms. he wore these were actually his pants and he wore them in iraq so when he came home i just thought it was kind of symbolic just to make this wreaths you know to show he made it home so next time he comes home from another deployment i want to make another one.

first time when he came back it was it was scary. there was a lot of rage there's a lot of anger a lot of hurt and. he drank a lot. my husband used to be one of those people a suicidal thoughts you know. he talks a lot when he's drunk and he'll talk about the words kind of ramble on and i let him ramble. it was anything. so. you know. if. whatever.

he leaves again this summer that i'll be a second plane. and he's gone for anywhere from twelve to fifteen months at a time. did you ever feel kicked up in levels and make it a mistake. you need to get out before you leave. we know for sure he's going to iraq. that can change at any minute he can go to afghanistan and kind of hoping he stays in iraq it's safer somewhat saver. from. here goes. your gloves. gear your breath. you.

get. in for breakfast i was about and i usually make him breakfast in the morning but he got home kind of late today so he's probably going to go to the fact which is the cafeteria and he. is hard some. morning like this. i'm sorry. it's. not easy morning and usually. or it may. or in the middle of the day. just he's so busy right now where the training schedule. and getting ready to leave so he's got a lot of stress on him.

i want a baby before he deployed speakers if something were to happen god forbid i would have got part of him here with me. being a. little boys. girls.

some with direction normal teenage thing. i see people trying to find their way and a very wicked world. it's like leading the lambs to slaughter you know they don't know. do i admire them and respect them and have great pride in knowing them and intention yes now i want to cry sorry. because. they have extremely good intentions in defending freedom. on our respect generations that america was founded on but i think that maybe they're slightly this. so how it's hard for me it's hard as

a mother you know because i think for all my kids. this. is. i. twenty two years old. and i must kill thirty people. the same thing that you were given badges for in iraq you know you would have you considered a serial killer over here and that's you know that's a very weird thought to have running around in your head. in the morning you know it's very easy to sort of think bright happy thoughts and sort of put

a correct kind of. spin on it but when it's dark. going to sleep or late at night or tired it's not as easy. to least be told language. programs and documentaries in arabic it's all here on. reporting from the world talks about six of the ip interviews intriguing story so you. see them trying. to find out more visit our big teeth dog called.

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. the ninety goes off you react in ways you think are right at the moment. and when it when it hit our vehicle. are triggers for i heard my gunner start firing which to me means he had a target my gunner was very good he wouldn't make that mistake. and i jumped out of the vehicle and i shot a shot three people before idiom realized what was going on and they started running from us and i shot thank two more before. before my driver grabbed me and he said would be doing. ok and. that's not me out of it now realize that i was shooting at people because they were there.

this one is my grandfather in vietnam he was a pilot bosnia was six months. and my first trip to iraq was only six months so that's a year my second trip to iraq was a year trip to afghanistan was a year my last trip was fifteen months this was of him sitting in front of his team . and me and my oldest boy who is now. and talk a mom or somebody. i'm very proud that i have been in the military i'm proud that i've been to war but however good people do get hurt and i've hurt good people and. there's a reason i'm getting out of the army park up. that's the reason. i

have a. chronic p.t.s.d. post-traumatic stress disorder. to be honest with you i just got out of a mental institution took weeks ago. i was there for thirty days. to help me with my p.t.s.d. and it's from the stuff i've gone through for the stuff i've done and are. how serious it is to be before you go to the institution producers. all the people in that place with me they were all military. everybody else there except me had tried to kill themselves i was getting ready to go kill other people when you get ready. to get in my car and drive up and start killing people.

instead i grabbed my wife and we drove up to the hospital. you know how do you know are you getting ready to kill people. because the thoughts just kept going through my mind and i was making my plan. at the time it was i had a problem with people being happy because i. am not happy most of the time. so going to drive down the road here i'm the first person i saw that looked at him as. i was going to start with them. i was either going to shoot them but i doubt that i probably would have just beat them to death.

yes. i don't go places. where you really turn or stick to those house or our family that's a. cave that i'm familiar building. the church is one place i don't feel i have any symptoms. from both the church. down to us to have my gun on me yeah i did it. in church.

because i'm a radical person where they're likely to strike while the most vulnerable target which would be a church because i would have an entire profession in charge nobody but me. the worst one for me was cleaning up other people's brains. eric i can deal with shattered human remains like pick up someone's heart. the brains are different because it's. you don't know if you're holding a piece of someone's memory from their kid or. you don't know if

you're holding the piece their members being married remember that you're holding a piece that. that that was them being soldiers and that's that's the worst for me. because all i want to you boil it down all this the rest of this is nothing but meat and bone and. but people don't want to have conversations about that they want to buy you a beer and give you a clap or a handshake in the airport and be on their merry way you know. it puts a strain on my marriage for sure. a lot of marriages have been run because the watch just don't understand and don't have the capability of understanding. and you know their husband gets home and they think well the husband going to help me discipline the kids and take care of kids but he end up with three kids and a grown ass man and we've been in the corner drunk off as cradling a gun. no one teaches anybody how to deal with it you know and it

also gets back to the in the military it's the john wayne mentality of if you don't show emotion you know allowed to admit that you're sad or upset or anything ever it's not manly. i don't let myself to become upset because when i do i don't get a little upset i get stage five def-con want to upset like at the world and i just don't trust people at all. i get really. starts like people. do it when i do that no. and i tend to.

the temptations their. way and you know.

they love. a. mole. oh and. i'm honored to be here today today in the presence of the world for our nation and those who do good work i'm sure they are not forgotten. about remembrance for those who have sacrificed so much. and want to fight. for me to our nation has made a world of pain and i'll have a citizen of this great nation the opportunity to enjoy the fruits of my sacrifice . i can think of nothing more honorable confirming your nation. our military and

their families have provided a point you will recall that no other nation. since the heart of this nation and our military service members. only known as this horrible war. monger we don't need your to get used. but princes know i am walking out. of the four vietnam afghanistan and iraq and because of the bravery and sacrifices of the heroes we honor. freedom. it is. no worry about me. but i'm over there are going to be from jim what might have been asked is. unfair it was that after masses some of.

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