homosexuality they would have to hit them where it hurts and stop getting natural resources imported from countries like russia saudi arabia venezuela and iran and so on and so on that is a vastly more difficult proposition than pouring american made vodka onto the sidewalk but that's just my opinion. this is for headaches this is for sleep this is a tranquilizer too if i have any episodes xanax can cause blackouts and it's not just. because of him which has been the nightmare because i think enough of it. and build it is kind of. funny because sometimes i have episodes very well be

able to. i think something will trigger me and which i'll just keep on working and working and working or less. like seventy two hours just so exhausted and. i can take and build. a show out or. something i very much. like the phrase that you gave me i could have made a lot more money out of it i want to i just it depends on what we're doing and to. be kept saying on the news that there were rebuilding iraq you're working to rebuild iraq. i was kind of sick of hearing c.n.n. and fox news like bark each other about one say oh it's. you know the horrible things going on iraq and i kind of way to see it for myself you know. i joined the military when i was a teenager nineteen in basic training. like

halfway through my tour i told my unit that i was willing to kill any any human beings. i certainly. asking this one question are you willing to do your job if i was a c no it would have been like oh this guy's be insubordinate throw in jail you know to be so like i came to conclusion like they're basically in slavery we hear i have to say yes you know i'm actually walking the town with a rifle but instead of using the camera. this is one of the girls and it's her town. one boy they don't know where one of the bullets hit a little girl on the shoulder and she ended up dying from that shoulder injury. it

was the last leg bit a happiness i had i was who a breaking point i was i was you know near suicidal yeah. and during that period they set me to a chapel where i sat and talked to a chaplain for about two hours and he tried to basically convince me big. thank. you for your in that situation where you're having that struggle you're going on that struggle yeah and one of my going to well i'm going to call my mom in tow i don't struggle with that stuff i would be bawling her eyes out you know i mean like who am i going to talk to about it you know i mean.

well. i just had my first last december and she went. panic she was frightful but i was completely calm. i didn't cry when he was born i was just completely like. kind of like i had to get a mission done. maybe i should've cried to my dad told me i would but my dad hasn't

seen the things i have seen a lot of. and from all the combat i've seen soldiers that i've lost over time it gets easier that's the thing that frighten me the most. if i killed the enemy. i don't feel it anymore. it's harder but i am happy even to be an army wife because not a lot of people get to do it it's definitely a privilege and an honor being married to someone he serves the country so. it's not an easy lifestyle. and i had family members who were in the military so i knew he was going to be gone i knew i was going to be home alone

a lot you know it wasn't from a dog. but here i was. ny just turned nineteen in the picture and i was here just graduated college. went off to get married. this was the day he came home i did these on my phone so they're kind of blurry but this was when he came home it was just he kind of just wanted for a minute and just like i think soak in the fact that he's not there anymore he's back in the mainland he's able to just breathe and not worry about any day exploding behind him. you mean. you're. here.

this is a reef that i made when my husband came home from deployment the material that you see here is what they call a c u from their uniforms. he wore these were actually his pants and he wore them in iraq so when he came home i just thought it was kind of symbolic just to make this wreaths you know to show he made it home so next time he comes home from another deployment i want to make another one. first time when he came back it was it was scary. there was a lot of rage there's a lot of anger a lot of hurt and. he drank a lot. my husband used to be one of those people a suicidal thoughts you know. he talks

a lot when he's drunk and he'll talk about the words kind of ramble on and i let him ramble. in a listening. you know. yes. there is she trying to earn a living. and. he leaves again this summer and that will be a second deployment and he's gone for anywhere from twelve to fifteen months at a time. did you ever felt you fucking well was a record and i still think that. if you have before you leave.

we know for sure he's going to iraq. that can change at any minute he can go to afghanistan and kind of hoping he stays in iraq it's safer somewhat savor. and. here goes. here one of those. here your breath. you. get. in for breakfast i was about and i usually make him breakfast in the morning but he got home kind of late today so he's probably going to go to the de fact which is the cafeteria. is hard so

that. morning. i'm sorry. it's. not easy morning and usually. or it may. or in the middle of the day. just he's so busy right now where the training schedule. and give you ready to leave so he's got a lot of stress on him. i want a baby before he deployed speakers if something were to happen god forbid i would have that part of him here with me.

being. little boys. girls. some with direction normal teenage thing. i see young people trying to find their way and a very wicked world. it's like leading the lambs to slaughter you know they don't know. do i admire them and respect them and have great

pride in knowing them and intact and yes now i want to cry sorry because. they have extremely good intentions in defending freedom. on our respect generations that america was founded on but i think that maybe they're slightly this. so how it's hard for me it's hard as a mother you know because i think my kids so it's.

twenty two years old. and i must kill thirty people. the same thing that you were given badges for in iraq you know you would have you considered a serial killer over here and that's you know that's a very weird thought to have running around in your head. in the morning you know it's very easy to sort of think bright happy thoughts and sort of put a correct kind of. spin on it but when it's dark. going to sleep or late at night or tired it's not as easy.

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a pleasure to have you with us here today i'm sure. a long three minutes without saying about our acts. it's always. here the roadside bombs i've had twelve of them. partially my vehicle types. you know the night he goes off you react in ways you think are right at the moment

. and when it when it hit our vehicle. are triggers for i heard my gunner start firing which to me means he had a target my gunner was very good he wouldn't make that mistake. and i jumped out of the vehicle and i shot a shot three people before any of my own eyes what was going on and they started running from us and i shot thank two more before. before my driver grabbed me. he said with. and. that's not me out of it now realize that i was shooting at people because they were there. this one is my grandfather in vietnam he was

a pilot bosnia was six months. and my first trip to iraq was only six months so that's a year my second trip to iraq was a year trip to afghanistan was a year my last trip was fifteen months this was a stream and from that from this to. me i'm oldest boy who is a man. and. a mom or somebody. i'm very proud that i have been in the military i'm proud that i've been to war but however good people do get hurt and i've hurt good people and. there's a reason i'm getting out of the army retired up that's the reason. i have a. chronic p.t.s.d. post-traumatic stress disorder. to be honest with you i just got out of

a mental institution took weeks ago. i was there for thirty days. to help me with my p.t.s.d. and it's from the stuff i've gone through for the stuff i've done and i are. how serious is the beef we go to mental institution pretty serious. all the people in that place with me they were all military. everybody else there except me had tried to kill themselves i was getting ready to go kill other people when you get ready. miles about to get in my car and drive up and start telling people. instead i grabbed my wife and we drove up to the hospital

how do you know are you getting ready to kill people. because the thoughts just kept going through my mind and i was making my plan. at the time it was i had a problem with people being happy because i. am not happy most of the time. so going to dr tomorrow here i'm the first person i saw that looked happy in this. i was going to start with them. i was either going to shoot them but i doubt that i probably would have just beat them to death.

yes. i don't go places. where you really turn or stick to those house or our family that's a. cave that i'm familiar building. the church is one place i don't feel i have any symptoms. from both the church. down to us to have my gun on me yeah i do the. church. because i'm

a radical person where they're likely to strike while the most vulnerable target which would be a church because i would have an h.r. professional in charge nobody but me. the worst one for me was cleaning out other people's brains. larry i can deal with shattered human remains like pick up someone's heart. the brains are different because it's. you don't know if you're holding a piece of someone's memory from their kid or. you don't know if you're holding a piece of their members being married remember that you're holding the peace that

. that that was them being soldiers and that's that's the worst for me. because all i want to you boil it down all this the rest of this is nothing but meat and bone and. but people don't want to have conversations about that they want to buy you a beer and give you a clap or a handshake in the airport and be on their merry way you know. it puts a strain on my marriage for sure. a lot of marriages have been around because the watch just don't understand and don't have the capability of understanding and you know their husband gets home and they think well the husband's going to help me discipline the kids and take care of kids but he end up with three kids and a grown ass man and we've been in the corner drunk off as cradling a gun. no one teaches anybody how to deal with it you know and it also gets back to the in the military it's the john wayne mentality of if you don't

show emotion you know allowed to admit that you're sad or upset or anything ever it's not manly. i don't let myself to become upset because when i do i don't get a little upset i get stage five def-con want to upset like at the world and i just don't trust people at all. i get really. people. doing what i do that no. and i tend to. the temptations their.

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military service members. places. only known as this horrible war. monger who don't need your to get it. but friends as i am walking out. of for vietnam afghanistan and iraq and because of the bravery and sacrifices of the heroes we honor. freedom. it is. no worry about me. but i'm over that not going to be thinking what might have been asked is. unfair it was that after asses some of. it after after will come after it was called after.

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