if. you guys stick to the jokes i will handle them. the fee the fee . the fee for the following. losses over the phone it's all come back to do this all night long so it's far far

worse than it used to. i were going up as you had to look up. and i'm not actually go to afghanistan here in june so i got i got that very much time to have fun out here so that's why we try to do it the way you want to go drag i'm sure you meant employed before yes man thai rak was pretty good nothing bad happened when you lose anybody so those are good good tara hopefully this year is the same day things are starting to calm down here not so much i can say no but i'm really tired and i now know exactly every thing is now so got some work to be done but i am a coward so it's what i get paid for you know so i get to have her own table for the wife and i kid you now so i'll. be. three weeks so. it's only forward to your day and now i'll be all the past my truck down as well so if you and your life have to really call the

floor. over the low of. we got about fifteen or twenty nine one phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. there's a gun fight and there's a huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know a lot of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was

obviously taking a lot of medication and he had had a little bit of alcohol. this guy had come back from iraq. he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear he was he was stressed and ordered to relax he just needed to hear the sound of gunfire. but first floor kicking down doors going to house to house. sounds fun. kick down a door in their own scared and i was kind of exciting definitely fun. with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think hopes. as. soon says something to me. like

a ball or something more. i may get more fights and you still. spend it. but i never knew anything about his you know that p s t v p s t v. so i never knew we had all those those problems are nothing and. some people come back from deployments or just you know unless. they're hiding a really good like that all the sudden just.

in the afternoon i came home it's like i his truck was in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything like only went out last night or something and i come in and unlock the door and. usually just lock the bottom one and. a lock it walk in through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in the lane in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown spots and stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any tripped and he hurt

himself. and i come over to arm and i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood lead everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of touched him and kicked just. like. you know like i i seen dead before but. dead people all by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a good looking guy and he's that there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing.

thirty you know i got some of the faith kind of all around you know yeah that really really all of us just don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down and pushed us but so i never actually shot in war . and a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training. they use all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not for your son you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the bubble it's just one. person so this issue allows you to target these are paper so it's it's different that they're shaped this person. is but. it's not that i thought at all that the targets are safe they would. the

soldiery. been sold a more human movie team sure the people. dealing with. always place mission first will need to accept the feet moving with almost aloof fallen comrades and just one physically and mentally tough tranquil fishing warrior testing rules. always maintain my all my equipment and myself. a standard age deploying gauge and destroy the enemies united states of america in close call but only guarding the freedom and american way of life i am an american soldier. you need to know that my heart my heart and freedom it's called the n b a gram misses this way. and also the way. i have that for dishonor. the shotgun and two zero three because i would rather die before i dishonor my going to. really

really like a really. whether you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world that got to be got it. well. bought by actually what happened in the world are not always. there are seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine and. one thousand confirmed suicides at fort hood in two thousand and ten. i guess i should say the number of suicides a soldier is assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the

soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. you are missing i was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for. it so this is the story about the soldier who was found dead at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously some people or can. be obvious this has been a lot of you know on the surface it seems to want to feel.

all terror forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming going here at all times. it is the biggest base. it's also a marine deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they be place from here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's crazy.

home of the free because of the brave sometimes our society forgets that. distorted thing i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and that. come no one would be here for the life out of something and the lives that. the four one zero zero four forty the felt when not for the where they. are not. the other the path on the float and land on the floor moving a little bit. because of a. loved one on the boat move in move it around them. ok been very long or at will be a very very. very light everywhere yes ma'am the last one.

on the go go go and not fall on the rail bank you don't know where not to go back to the building and the hand and the gun on the floor in your mind and remind your own blood that on monday night in the long run the want the real good. if your house such persuasive sound of adam's unproved down submitted to the united nations. committed to the security council allowed the world decide this issue rather than iraq tacitly endorsing which i think is what you are doing and the proposed unilateral strikes by the united states why do we not present evidence to the un security council on the series a question you can't be serious you know you're obviously you're russia today you

know everybody when they think about russia in the security council they think about yeah. i think. we're going to do that you know the price is the only industry specifically mentioned in the constitution and. that's because a free and open process is critical to our democracy albus. role. in fact the single biggest threat facing our nation today is the corporate takeover of our government and across several we've been a hydrogen client handful of transnational corporations that will profit by destroying what our founding fathers once will just my job market and on this show we reveal the big picture of what's actually going on in the world if we go beyond identifying the problem you're trying to fix and rational debate and

a real discussion on the critical issues facing america have on the books go ready to join the movement then walk a little bit there. left the hospital and everything and started to come back home. for some reason i just had to go. and when i walked in the restaurant there was

a young girl there. and address asked the girl i said hi and i said i need to know did they got a soldier. commits suicide here and she goes well i can't say anything. just looked at her and i said the mother of this soldier and i wanted to thank you for what they did but he didn't. and she started crying. i'm so sorry i hope you and if a when god can forgive me. for. this but that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when is. he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for

the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic turn and was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were me and worthless actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything

and they get it fixed in straight in the had to be. stronger or he would never be in. i love my country i do. is to love your country more than yourself. many people think of it in terms like that but. if you join the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have a good day. so. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. because i did enjoy being an infantryman rifle for my country like generations of my friends has done. hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it but

it was the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being wounded. and once you are wounded in you're no further used to the army. they get rid of you they warehouse you know until the you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple if i feel better. simple as that whenever as i'm bad day go the range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better.

it's still a. piece of shrapnel that's a dug out of my spine it's a piece of the bomb the bomb was all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or our children or anything it was entirely homemade and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so. i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the steam which i mean the things i saw on. own. because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making us vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid.

our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear having our weapons we've scratched their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi is driving around our back yes. they are me decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does it mean to take your body armor what do you are left with. this way and i don't know how much you need for your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch

in your for about it we're talking about scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is basically all the time with the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take this. never prescription for a great dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting too i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me

get through. so i got nothing good to say about their army. were product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a tax cigarettes. just for the money. tax free come almost like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it was worth it if you come home alive and with limbs. we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are

ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness. a forsaken missing their eyes. sometimes the top and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. while ask you know what is this for who is this war. you want to talk about what happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and

they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i now i am this is understand me. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i'm. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like collina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because a lot of the soldiers need human contact and so this is someone they could come and feel at home. i.

mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no she was doing but she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and the owner is why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option.

this is. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i had expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far removed from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because

i. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're not going to come get me. and just. what if they did. their hunting down as terrorists they hide in the woods and prepare to become

suicide bombers. still believe these young men can be saved. the mothers won't sleep at night they'll follow their sons into the woods find them and return them to a peaceful life they killed almost everybody. had been able to take him away from maybe that was by chance. how does it feel to be a terrorist mother. did you have even the slightest chance come home. my son terrorised on o.t. . ok. dave a croc a welcome you have to take and you're all of virginia it's a little island in the middle of the chesapeake bay and a virginia. county. rampager all in the chesapeake bay probably one of the best there isn't going to solve for us.

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