[000:00:00;00] feel the. love. for it's all about you come and do this all night so it's fine it's fine person and you. i were going to pass out that you look up. and i'm not actually go to afghanistan here in june so i got i got not very much time to have fun out here so that's why we try to do it the way you want to go drag i'm sure you've been deployed before yes ma'am thai rak was pretty good nothing bad haven't we lose any advice so those are good good hopefully this year is the same day things are

starting to calm down maybe not so much i can stay no but i'm really hot and i know now exactly everything is now so got some work to be done but i hate how so i just want to get paid for you know so i get so i have to have her own table for the wife and kid you know. how to. be. very worried it's. got its own forwards your dad now help me all the past my truck down as well so if you and your life have to really cause. overflow of for the. last

loaf of her apartment. for her the your art. we've got about fifteen or twenty now along phone calls. all within just a minute or two of each other. and there's a gun fight and there's a huge gun battle taking place in the courtyard between all the buildings where there's kids and there's people and of course you know lots and lots of folks lived there and it was still in the middle of a. like almost lunchtime. when we found him. he was obviously taking a lot of medication and he had been had a little bit of alcohol. this guy had come back from being in iraq. he had an assault rifle. and he said that he just he just needed to hear that he was he was stressed and in order to relax he just needed to hear the sound of

gunfire. right first or kicking down doors and going to house to house. so it's fun. kicked down a door in their own scared and i was kind of exciting definitely fun. you know no problem with it i just kind of just go back in the swing of things but i think alcohol hopes. and strength a lot now. someone says something to me. like

a ball or something more. i may get more fights against him but i spend it. but i never knew anything about his you know the p s t v p s t v i say. so i never knew we had all those those problems are nothing and. some people come back from four or five deployments they're just fine you know unless they're. they're hiding they're really good like him that all of a sudden just. you know in the. uk. in the afternoon i came home there's a guy his truck is in the driveway parked getting crazy and everything else they go away we went out last night or something and i come in and unlocked the door and

you know you've usually just locked the bottom one and psychology. a lock it walk in through the door. it happened right here. and i walk in. and all that i see is is feet. you know laying in the lane in the hallway and then i see like little red and brown spots and stuff from my first thought is you know oh he he got drunk last night he's passed out on four or he was moving something heavy any trip to me hurt him self. i come over to arm and then i see my forty five pistol laying on the floor and just you know out the side of his head and everything in just blood blood everywhere blood all over the floor blood all over the couch so i you know just kind of

touched him and kicked just. like. you know it's like i i seen dead before but not dead people by their own hand in my house so. you know he's a bad looking guy and he's at there and smile all the time and everything in israel outgoing. dirty you know i got some of it. yeah yeah not really after all this is don't don't have you know the exposure to actual combat like i've been through combat a couple of times but in my case also driving a truck was kind of hunkered down and pushing us but so i never actually shot in

war. a lot of us don't but we like to. be exposed as soon as we get basic training. they use all kinds of different things to shoot and a lot of fun this is fun shooting a war is not for your son you have to do to stay alive you know to win the war on the bow it's just one just shooting a person so this is your life your to target these are paper so it's it's different but they're shaped as personal. as well. so it's not that i thought all the targets are safe the way they think. the soldiers treat as i am an american soldier an immoral member of the team sure the people. doing it well. always place missions first will move which the feet move with almost aloof fallen comrade and just one physically or mentally tough tranquil titian warrior testing rules. always maintain my all my equipment and myself.

a standard each deploying gauger destroy the enemy's united states of america in close call but only guarding the freedom and american way of life i am an american soldier. do you know that my heart my heart their freedom it's called an m.b.a. graham it means is this way. and also that way. i have that for dishonor. the shotgun and two zero three because i would rather die for our disarm i really. really really like you really. what do you like better country so much that it's the best country in the world it got to be got it. well. bought by actually what happened in the world are

not the way. they were seven confirmed in two thousand and three five in two thousand and four nine in two thousand and five three in two thousand and six six in two thousand and seven fourteen in two thousand and eight and eleven in two thousand and nine and two. thousand nine hundred thirty suicides at fort hood in two thousand and ten. i guess i should say the number of suicides of soldiers assigned to fort hood because he's happened on an off post. the soldier killed himself and. temple one of the neighboring towns in a public restaurant. knew this guy was in a park and around drug town near austin next to a school i mean obviously they all have issues that they couldn't get help for they didn't seek help for.

it so this is the story about the soldier who was found dead at the memorial on post. where he did it yes that's the first time that someone has. taken their life or poorly taken their life a place like that on post but this is the first time that it was. a public and very recognizable place smells very symbolic obviously some people were talking. as has been a lot of you know on the surface it seems simple it's want you. all to our forces here. are the. strongest anywhere. because it's a volunteer all. everybody in the army wants to join the army. or

at least doesn't have any other options. there is a huge amount of soldiers coming going here at all times. it is the biggest base. it's also a main deployment base. they train here for a couple of months. and then they be placed on here. and we have soldiers here that have gone five six seven eight times it's great he's . home of the free because of the. brave sometimes our society forgets that. this joint thing i can. find a cause worth fighting. to feel on and that. the. threat of no one would hear for the life out of something like this and the

lives that i'll play before who are eligible for forty that win out over the way i think about that was over the south on the float and land on the floor moving a little bit for me. because if a. good one on the block moved him over the lot but i'm. ok with it very long or at what will be a very very. very bad everywhere yes ma'am the last one. yet and not on the re-opening day i don't know where i'm gonna know that he got a bill and a hand and a gun on the floor. and remind me around the bugs on monday night.

for the one where the bear. if your house such persuasive sound of abbot and son prove down submitted to the united nations submitted to the security council a lot there will decide this issue rather than octet simply endorsing which i think is what you are doing and the proposed a unilateral strike by the united states so why do we not present evidence to the un security council on the series a question you can't be serious you know that you're obviously you're russia today . you know everybody when they think about russia in the security council they think about yeah. do we speak your language anybody will or not a day of. school music programs and documentaries and spanish more matters to you breaking news

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around russia we've got the future covered. the hospital and there were things started to come back home. or somebody just had to go. when i walked in the restaurant there was a young girl there. and. i need to know. the soldier. commit suicide here and she goes i can't same thing i just looked at her and i said the mother of this soldier and i want to thank you for what aid did but he didn't. and she started crying. i'm so sorry i hope you and that they were in god can forgive me that's what he

said that's but that was it. and he has sent that to me at five forty three on the sixth and they said it ten minutes after six is when he said he wanted to follow family traditions. and there's military pretty much all in all for the whole both sides of the family for the man. army and air force and he said he wanted something to challenge him and make him a man. after basic turn and was changed a lot i could tell that he really grew up the second tour is when he came back a mess he was having nightmares really bad he said he would see things and he would he would think about it a lot. of that time they didn't really know that this was going on with us because he didn't tell. because he had been talking to some other people

that were having problems that they were being looked upon like they were me and workless army actually told them that they would tell my son that when he told him he had problems they told him that he was worthless and would never amount to anything and they'd get it fixed in straight in the had to be. stronger or he would never be anything. i love my country i do. to be patriotic is to love your country more than yourself not many people think of it in terms like that but if you join the military for any other reason than that you're probably not going to have

a good day. so. if i could have stayed in the army i would have. because i did enjoy being an infantryman. i feel for my country like generations of my friends has done. hundreds of years i enjoyed it. there are good parts of it that is the army species you how to become a casualty how to be killed they teach you how to deal with facing death. you know teach you how to deal with being. and once you are wounded in you're no further used to the army they get rid of you they warehouse you until you get your medical discharge and go away. when i get stressed out a sheeple as i feel better. simple as that whenever as i'm bad day i go to the

range in iraq and i just dumps around feel better. it's steel. it's a piece of shrapnel that's a dug out of my spine it's a piece of the. the bomb was i'm sorry i'm all over the place a pipe basically a huge pipe bomb made with homemade explosives so it was and it wasn't like a mortar or artillery round or anything it was entirely homemade and the iraqi police helped put the bomb in place so i don't want to get into the details of what happened in the attack of the steam which are you mean and things i saw on.

own. because that's what it's not so much the nature of the attack and the aftermath it's the reasoning behind making as vulnerable so that we were attacked in the first place that's what bothers me so much it's just so stupid . our brigade commander was concerned that we would scratch the iraqis furniture i'm not kidding they went on public record saying that. that was one of his major concerns because they complained to him that us where all our gear having our weapons we scratch their nice furniture and they did live in pretty nice we saw a lot of brand new b.m.w. is brand new ford brand new mitsubishi is driving around our back yes. they are me decided to have key leadership and what they meant by that was anybody above the

rank of the six like myself would remove their body armor and weapons and leave them in the vehicles and this wasn't optional it was mandatory it was an order and what does me take your body armor what do you are left with. i don't know how much you need your confidence and maybe if you put extra starch and therefore it's about it we're talking about. scratch furniture and poor little iraqis hurt feelings i don't care i don't care if it comes to if is a choice between my safety and making iraqis feel comfortable i'm going to choose my safety every goddamn time sorry if that if that's not politically correct or whatever i don't care this is ambien for sleeping. a muscle relaxer flexeril my muscles twitch when they get aggravated which is

basically all the time with just the what's left of my back twitches and that doesn't feel good so i take those. i have a prescription for a low grade dosage of zoloft and that keeps me from getting to i still unable to feel things emotionally but it doesn't get out of control so it's just enough to help me get through. so i got nothing good to say about the army. we're product they literally use that word in official documents product not a cheeseburger not a pack cigarettes. just for the money. tax free kimonos like thirty five thousand. just not that much but. if it was worth it if you come alive and with limbs.

we have seen the beginning of the iraqi war. we've seen many go. and we've seen less come. and they are all excited about going and they get these wartime tattoos and they are ready. and then they'll come back a year later and there's such an emptiness such a. force they convince in their eyes. sometimes the top and sometimes i want. we don't progress to talk. well ask you know what is is for who is this war. you want to talk about what

happened and sometimes they do. most times they don't. there's the boat. that's my favorite code and it says you know in a war there are no one hundred soldiers. everybody's affected. and they're just in different degrees. and i work with soldiers so i now i am felt this is under way. it's always been an anti-war coffeehouse. i am anti-war my politics are pretty to the left people have called me a traitor and you know protestors are evil especially in a town like collina where the brass has a very strong hand the only chairs around. i decided to make it more like a house because

a lot of the soldiers need human contact so this is somewhere they could come and feel at home. while he was in that i. mean. i joined because i had problems at home my mother had just been admitted to a psychiatric ward and i was sixteen and then. when i turned seventeen i took my mom to the recruiter and she told me she was she was the real luke issue no she was doing but she signed for me and the recruiter was cool and so i went off and my dad was in korea at the time that's why otherwise you know i don't have anybody here my i'm a military brat so my extended relatives are halfway across the united states and

the only reason why i'm here is because my dad was in the army and you know and then he went to korea i'm here with my mom my mom goes crazy i have nothing but but the army is an option. this is. i knew i was going to go. when i joined there was no like i'm not going to lie to myself i hadn't expected to lose a bit of my mind myself you know it was it was constant like it was so so far removed from reality and it was such a bombardment. for me. my young mind or whatever. i came home and i couldn't get back in sync with anything you know living a normal life and worrying about parking tickets and you know bills and these things and i thought if i go back to iraq i could get away for

a year. so i volunteered for my second appointment. sometimes i feel like. i should have died over there. because. i saw some people who had died and i saw people. get blown up and stuff and being so close to it it doesn't make sense that i should be so close to this and it shouldn't be like what was the determining what's what is it about you know what is it why it doesn't make sense but. more often i'm just afraid. just fraid of things i've seen even though i know them probably won't like they're

not going to come get me. and just. what if they didn't have. new york london. the whole world is. the one on the end. of the court building at the end of the street another one a more transparent society gets the money or the proper tears become we see military and police forces mobilized against people who blend into the city the city the more people trust electronic devices the more defenseless the. fear that has a. hierarchy. led mission free

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