i can't think what you could possibly do to make my hair beautiful. just the opposite i was always there was a girl to catch him and so i and the ones who didn't notice me were mostly drunk men just didn't go for me. yeah my life seemed pointless i was twenty one and my peers all had families or at least boyfriends. everything was as it should be for them but nothing like that was happening to me the sinners went outside i could hear people laughing behind my back i know i know this stick insect requires more dawna cricket sees hears knows i'm serious this sort of had to withdraw. but i was always an ugly duckling. it was more or less fine when i was a kid but what kind of life is this for grown men stuck indoors all the time i

guess only prisoners know what that's like. i can only go outside in summer because in winter if i happen to catch a chill just getting a cold could finish me off. to look at the wonder game. look at them they're not gays they're ducks ducks right for the keys have you ever seen gaze at all yes. i've seen them on t.v. . to be honest we don't often come here grigori hasn't been outside much has recently started going out because of me i always try to take him on it we want to spend time together visit new places sing at things and enjoy nature.

hello don't be shy go on please i like the saxophone yes it's his favorite instrument we'll listen for a while. it was a miracle that one minute i was sitting at the computer or hands on the keyboard and wrote the borchester at le crying my eyes i wondered if there was any man out there somewhere i was just as lonely as me and looking desperately for a soulmate to. me the most i didn't care at all what this man would be like deprived disabled. before i wrote i'm waiting for you next i'm looking for you.

i searched through the internet typing things like i'm looking for you i'm waiting for you please find me in search engines and look through the results. i thought someone might write to me but if you really want one via what i see here should never eyes and i thought what an interesting guy. his questionnaire proved to we shared this in few years in the life it really touched my heart people don't specially his final lines i'm a daydreamer to the marrow of my bones that's what i've always said myself word for word i'm a daydream much of the marrow of my bones whether you like it or not. or . want to buy me. but it. is not it's you but

you. are so he knows on plus searching for this so as to hide it over onto your pursuit of course. puts me to work over the most brutal very serious. to go with what you see. is the deal with it was. just a. big gaudy hello we've been expecting you you know let's see krikorian put your glasses on. yes ok thanks. you and if you'd like a more interesting lurk i'd suggest wearing a bow tie with us shari can i see. if you'll be

a true gentleman you. will of course i was shocked at first i'd never come across in your body i was such a disease they've all who looked like that yeah but i knew i needed him in a way that's the kind of person i am looks have never mattered to me it's much more important was inside him to like it is beautiful i want you to like it too i do i like a new way no matter what sure you're wearing i know what women are like you might say i am not going anywhere with you or your badly dressed. i told her from the outset quite plainly that i was ill and i would often send her photos so that she'd have no illusions about what i looked like. that if she would send me her photos to. she'd look unkempt and without makeup. asking me whether i liked her not i answered of course i do.

the woman i love will always be beautiful to me even in curlers a dressing gown and slippers simply because i love or because she steered to me. how can i not love her with their arms around me we cuddle and i know she's mine. yon's i dreaded our first meeting i come from a kazakhstan village called irritation with a population of seventy five hundred people so. i had never travelled by a plane before and didn't really know what to do a mere thought of going so far was shocking but my love was so strong that i agreed to come anyway. i went in and there he was sitting on the sofa

waiting for me. we had a sort of agreement about how we'd know what we felt well if i liked her i had to try to kiss her. so i asked her why are you crying you think i don't like you she replied so i said you silly girl i can't move close enough to kiss you on my own i'm waiting for you then she said may i i said of course and that was surfer. i love everything about him i have grown to love every here everyone has fingertips and they're all dear to me because their hand to him may not look the weird unary people do but he maybe even better you see him actually be healthier than other guys who drink beer in a bench they might have their arms and legs in place but i know i can trust him

hander stands me he listens to me he loves me they're real mean the person i really am and that's what counts. but now i need to know the colors of the gory pseudo show so i can select a bad hole like this color so tender you know i'm small myself so i need a small buttonhole or a look as though i'm sitting under a bush. she likes lilies for international women's day i specially asked my father to buy a lily for as far as i know no one had ever given her flowers before. and this was some really smelly ferrite we didn't know how to get rid of it but we thought about throwing the flour away or putting it out on the balcony because i'd put all my love into the gift the lily didn't wither for about two weeks so for two weeks we

were pinching our noses all over the apartment to avoid the smell. you know me at first i kept my eyes open and just watched but i realized i could rely on this girl and she took it upon herself to care for him so i have nothing to do now i was surprised at how well she took to it from the very beginning when he was a child who would often leave him alone but one time he was sitting at his computer and suddenly felt very ill after that he said do you know how terrifying it is to die alone when there's no one around to help you to steal stuff you have terrible fits like a panic attacks that left him choking there when sometimes he gets cross with me because i still treat him like a kid and he while you wish not my kid i say even when you're sixty you'll still be my child to do he tells me not to put him down in front of his future wife.

i can see his eyes are shining. his morale is high but you know he must have realized that he's a true man you once asked me do you think i'll ever have a family. well we had to be realistic about such things. there is since i was about five i've always dreamed of having a big family of my own and when your dreams start coming true if you imagine god reading your wishes and searching so you think you'll never get any of it here it is take it you two will have everything you want. that anybody gets tomorrow they get married and they'll be finding

a name for the daughter. you know when does she jokes me at the altar. but she's not going anywhere. to for a walk she's got no choice so she stuck with the. solar arrays to. remember the first time i saw fox and i think a muscle pops came into being after i left leaving united states to live abroad when i first saw it i just thought what is this this is opinion t.v. there are no facts at all it's just opinion i personally i was really shocked at what has happened to my country because there's no news in this is news station you know if you if you click around or you go through all of the major news websites i mean it tends to be the same story to a certain a certain level or degree and not much new information and clearly this business model and. it's not a secret is to. carry

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spanish what matters to you breaking news a little tonnage of angola's kiddies stories. are you here. to try i'll teach spanish find out more visit. all tito it's calm. you know i never made an official proposal but it was just somehow agreed between us that we would marry. we were talking on skype then and she suddenly smiled and said you know no one's ever proposed to me and that's when it struck me that i had actually forgotten to propose properly to her as well. as.

president. the only thing i regret. is that i couldn't lift her up and. very glad that she always to be together has brought to to us. the wedded wife question i wanted to say no no is what my heart can't say that's why it's saying yes but i was afraid people might not get the joke and decided against it.

yes now let the bride answer yes. when she asked a thought if that dot this. i can use my cheek. all the family is getting married. here has been and wife now you may now case the bride. it was a wonderful magical day it was so warm the sun was shining so brightly like in a fairy tale and only yesterday it was raining heavily corey reassured me it would

be a nice and warm day as it turned out he was right because grigori saw the weather forecast on the internet. users last week and why then go right did your internet not provincial dad from buying a suit the proved to be completely useless. i i think. my positive attitude and the love i feel for the world comes naturally to me is waking up each morning i think there is always a reason to be happy it's just that people fail to notice they have the opportunity to go outside and walk to the shop for example they are too lazy those couch potatoes or they can go outside at night to see the stars in the moon i don't even remember when i last saw them. at one point he admitted to me that he had thought about hiring a hitman because he couldn't and his own life by himself i asked him what he

thought about us and he thought how we would carry on without you know he said that he had and that was why he decided against. hate that fire is burning for a whole new family. what else will he was born in front of a stock and just wouldn't walk when he was mentally even at eighteen months he could stand if he held onto a bench but he would not walk. doctors told us to go to moscow to the second term medical university where he was diagnosed with spinal masco atrophy. all over him but his muscles don't rebuild themselves i was told is

a genetic disorder but how could that be here no one else in the families affected me they explained it was an abnormality in my husband's and my genes that occurs once in a million cases were passed to down to grigori something our oldest son did inherit the disease. about when our doctor advised the chinese to go to moscow but his wife told us the disease was incurable the child would die in three years. to be honest i was on the verge of beating the stuffing out of him. it has such burdens of birth the oath drinking to an oath you. here's to the parents why did this this law and what that we grasp that every straw and try every possible remedy but the doctors equally took him on a some kind of a guinea pig will be transplanted stem cells to him for the last time when he was

fifteen when that had no effect he said he was fed up with doctors with endless experiments with everything. as a child i came up with an original way to move around the flat on a skateboard i'd sit on the board and push with my arms to move around to put in the skateboard gave way to a try sickle i pushed off the floor with my legs and turned a wheel with my hand. my whole body heard of course most of all the ribs. they were aching constantly but i only cried in hospitals when doctors tried to straighten my legs and i even fainted because of the pain and i didn't have any pain killers. that he was screaming so loudly that. excuse me

that they literally had to take me out of the word that it was heart breaking people feel he cried. god look at them. but look what they're doing to me here live with me then you please do something to these doctors to all these people i'm so tired of them all. i would tell him my men don't cry and my soldier he asked yes you are like dad yes just like dad. don't listen to. all but i. just need to order a starburst. to use even though i said it didn't want to stress is certainly put their lives in. rice.

it's hard to love a man in a body like this knowing you have to look after him as if you were a baby so i know that all men are really babies. wonderful thing many people can't understand me and this is a huge first time sibylla to have burden across i'll have to carry all my life i just say that he share in the love of man it's me their burden our negative courage there is nothing extraordinary about it comes naturally. when we go out together she always tries to walk side by side with me so as i don't feel that she's pushing a wheelchair. with you i know you won't. yes they will know you aren't. though the battery is thrown out. i asked her whether she really wanted this but she's

a strong able bodied girl so yeah i asked her to think everything over one good way that he should have no illusions i told him to be prepared to hear her say one day that it was all too much and she couldn't take it any more. congratulations on your marriage now blessed haven't actually we have been rewarded official marriage with this stamp in the passport and all those formal procedures we just wanted the church to recognize the union of our souls. first of all i see him as the man i want to build a family with cenis respect everything's fine. i won a daughter. well you should cut the didn't chase we have

a son who might be offended. and on the bullying there was. a son or daughter equally or even both of them at the same time actually that would be even better. every man has a purpose in this world i am ill but that's what's meant to be there is a purpose to that. my older brother is strong and healthy but it's never occurred to me that it might have been the other way around on the contrary i've always thought that even if i had the opportunity to change it i'd still choose to be the one myself and my brother the healthy one. but i'm not sure talking about this is right. but we asked for help on the internet to try to raise some money to buy our own flat i told our story explain that despite living so far away from each other anya and i wanted to build

a family and live together. people sent around fifty to one hundred rubles two or three dollars. he wanted anya to move here with her mother and live together but then people started turning against us. if they started internet groups against me and i know that. there were rumors that i planned to launder money for the apartment that i was the leader of some underground called. and they sent nasty messages to ana saying she didn't love me and was only hunting for a flat. you know so we shut down the fund raising ernest said she didn't need that kind of happiness. but we gave the money to an eight year old girl who has cancer we checked up on her she lives here and build her road.

but i'm convinced that if a card meant for us to meet she will also help us further on everything and it's time i'm sure it will all work out when the time comes. i'll know they're coming here to be with him as long as i'm there. i can't imagine myself not seeing him are not being with him it just won't make sense i'll be with him always at any cost. i've always promised that if she ever realizes it's too much for her and she decides to leave me i will accept her decision without criticism and i'd shut anyone up who tried to say a word against her. because it's her choice.

i can't make any promises of course anything might happen but enough a certain that i will never meet a man who will be closer to me than grigori them up to the point is that i have already found my man and there is no one else for me to finding him or he's the one . but although there will never be a second grigori for me. according

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