not in a hospital ward no not because then this illness. at one time of you i saved money to hire a hitman to shoot me dead from the next building where the open window. as if i mean i even told my parents or my brother about it they were shocked at first of course but then somehow resigned. i told them that if i saved enough money there but and then changed my mind i'd give them all the money to renovate the apartment . i can't think what you could possibly do to make my hair beautiful. dress that was all had families or at least boyfriends. everything was as it should be for them but nothing like that was happening to me the sinners i went outside i

could hear people laughing behind my back i know i know this stick insect requires more dawna cricket sees huge snow in some series this sort of had to withdraw. but i was always an ugly duckling. it was more or less fine when i was a kid but what kind of life is this for a grown man stuck indoors all the time i guess only prisoners know what that's like . i can only go outside in summer because in winter if i happen to catch a chilled just getting a cold could finish me off. looking on there again. look at them they're not gays they're ducks ducks right. have you ever cindy's at

all yes. i've seen them on t.v. . to be honest we don't often come here to gory hasn't been outside much has recently started going out because of me i always try to take him on it we want to spend time together visit new places sing at things and enjoy nature. hello don't be shy go on please i like the saxophone yes it's his favorite instrument we'll listen for a while. and. it was a miracle that we met i was sitting at the computer hands on the keyboard and wrote

the walk desperately crying my eyes i wondered if there was a new man out there somewhere i was just as lonely as me and looking desperately for a soulmate to. do. the most i didn't hear and told what this man would be like deprived disabled. before i wrote i'm waiting for you yes i'm looking for you. i searched through the internet typing things like i'm looking for you i'm waiting for you please find me in search engines and look through the results. i thought someone might write to me there's a lot more violence i say here should never arise and i thought what an interesting guy. his questionnaire proved to we shared this interview some the life it

really touched my heart people don't like them or so especially his final lines i'm a daydreamer to the marrow of my bones that's what i've always said myself word for word i'm a daydream much of the marrow of my bones whether you like it or not. or . if. they buy you could push it. it's a. story most contraception. over twenty percent. of the viewers watching a lot of the miss. wants to go with what you see. is the deal with it was. just a. wee. bit

gaudy hello we've been expecting you you know let's see krikorian put your glasses on. yes ok thanks. for you and if you'd like a more interesting lurk i'd suggest wearing a bow tie with us shari can i see chris you'll be a true gentleman. and will of course i was shocked at first i'd never come across in your body i was such a disease label who looked like that yeah but i knew i needed him in a way that's the kind of person i am looks have never mattered to me it's much more important was inside. to like it is beautiful i want you to like it too i do i like a no way no matter what sure you're wearing i know what women are like you might

say i'm not going anywhere with you or your badly dressed. i told her from the outset quite plainly that i was ill and i would often send her photos so that she'd have no illusions about what i looked like. that if she would send me her photos to. she'd look unkempt and without makeup. asking me whether i like turn not i answered of course i do. the woman i love will always be beautiful to me even in curlers a dressing gown and slippers simply because i love or because she's dear to me. how can i not love her with their arms around me we cuddle and i know she's mine.

your boy and i dreaded our first meeting i come from a kazakhstan village called irritation with a population of seventy five hundred people so. i had never travelled by a plane before and didn't really know what to do the mere thought of going so far was shocking but my love was so strong that i agreed to come anyway. i went to end there he was sitting on the sofa waiting for me. we had a sort of agreement about how we'd know what we felt well if i liked her i had to try to kiss her. so i asked her why are you crying you think i don't like you she replied so i said you silly girl i just moved close enough to kiss here on my own i'm waiting for you then she said may i i said

of course and that was sir first kiss. you know i love everything about him i have grown to love every hair everyone has fingertips they're all dear to me because their hands to him may not look the weird unary people do but he maybe even better you see him actually be healthier than other guys who drink beer in a bench they might have their arms and legs in place but i know i can trust him handor stands me he listens to me he loves me they're real mean the person i really am and that's what counts. but now i need to know the collar is a big gory pseudo show so i can select a bad hole i like this color so tender. i'm small myself so i need a small buttonhole or a look as though i'm sitting under

a bush. she likes lilies for international women's day i specially asked my father to buy a lily for as far as i know no one had ever given her flowers before. and this was some really smelly for her. we didn't know how to get rid of it but we thought about throwing the flour away or putting it out on the balcony because i'd put all my love into the gift of the lily didn't wither for about two weeks so for two weeks we were pinching our noses all over the apartment to avoid the smell. he had me at first i kept my eyes open and just watched but i realized i could rely on this girl she took it upon herself to care for him so i have nothing to do now i was surprised at how well she took to it from the very beginning when he was a child who would often leave him alone but one time he was sitting at his computer

and suddenly felt very ill after that he said do you know how terrifying it is to die alone when there's no one around to help you. to steal stuff you have terrible fits like a panic attacks that left him choking there when it sometimes he gets it all because i still treat him like a kid and he while you wish not my kid i say even when you're sixty you'll still be my child to do he tells me not to put him down in front of his future wife. i can see his eyes are shining. his morale is high but you know he must have realized that he's a true man you once asked me do you think i'll ever have a family. well we had to be realistic about such things. there is since i was about five i've always dreamed of having

a big family of my own and when your dreams start coming true if you imagine god reading your wishes and searching so you think you'll never get any of it here it is take it you two will have everything you want. that anybody gets tomorrow they get married and they'll be finding a name for the daughter. you know what if she jokes me at the altar admission i knew them again those but she's not going anywhere because extends to fatah walk she's got no choice she stuck with you. solar is to. all told you my language as well but i will only react to situations i have read

the reports. put the no i will leave them to state clearly to comment on your latter point someone to say to secure a car is on a donkey no. they do no more weasel words when you made a direct question be prepared for a change when you have to punch be ready for a battle freedom of speech little down to freedom to cost. to be used you don't know if you don't panic or no response to really. knows everyone in my life that i cared about their government and that i came to skin well. i was national champion in track and field and

also i was able to go and qualify for the olympic games. you know nine hundred eighty eight i started to experiment with other drugs i had lost all the financial means that i. black mark can. get free. three. torch is on its epic journey to such. one hundred twenty three days. through two thousand nine hundred top two cities of russia. relayed by fourteen thousand people or sixty five thousand killings. in a record setting trip by land air sea and others face.

alleged fake torch relay. on r t r g dot com. you know i never made an official proposal but it was just somehow agreed between us that we would marry. we were talking on skype then and she suddenly smiled and said you know no one's ever proposed to me and that's when it struck me that i had actually forgotten to propose properly to her as well.

as you know. the only thing i regret. is that i couldn't lift her up and. very glad that he always to be together has brightened to rise. to the wedded wife question i wanted to say no no is what my heart can't say that's why it's saying yes but i was afraid people might not get the joke and decided against it. yes now let the bride answer yes. and i don't want to share stateside is that

dot this. i can use watching. all the families getting married. here has been in wife now you may now case the bride. it was a wonderful magical day it was so warm the sun was shining so bright like in a fairy tale and only yesterday it was raining heavily corey reassured me it would be a nice and warm day as it turned out he was right because grigori saw the weather forecast

on the internet. users last week and why then go right did your internet not provincial dad from buying a suit the proved to be completely useless. i i think. my positive attitude and the love i feel for the world comes naturally to me as waking up each morning i think there is always a reason to be happy it's just that people fail to notice they have the opportunity to go outside and walk to the shop for example they are too lazy those couch potatoes or they can go outside at night to see the stars in the moon i don't even remember when i last saw them. at one point he admitted to me that he had thought about hiring a hitman because he couldn't end his own life by himself i asked him what he thought about us that he thought how we would carry on without you know he said

that he had and that was why he decided against. the fire is burning for a whole new family. what else will he was born in front of a stock and just wouldn't walk when he was mentally even at eighteen months he could stand if he held onto a bench but he would not walk. doctors told us to go to moscow to the second certificate university where he was diagnosed with spinal masco atrophy. all over him but his muscles don't rebuild themselves i was told is a genetic disorder but how can that be here no one else in the families affected me

they explained it's an abnormality in my husband's and my genes that occurs once in a million cases past a down to grigori our oldest son didn't inherit the disease. about when our doctor advised the chinese to go to moscow but his wife told us the disease was incurable the child would die in three years. to be honest i was on the verge of beating the stuffing out of him. such currents of birth the oath drinking to the now a few. beers to the parents why did this this ah and what that we grasp that every straw and try every possible remedy but the doctors eagerly took him on a some kind of a guinea pig transplanted stem cells to him for the last time when he was fifteen when that had no effect he said he was fed up with doctors with endless experiments

with everything. as a child i came up with an original way to move around the flat on a skateboard i'd sit on the board and push with my arms to move around them to put in the skateboard gave way to a try sickle i pushed off the floor with my legs and turned a wheel with my hand. my whole body heard of course most of all the ribs. they were aching constantly but i only cried in hospitals when doctors tried to straighten my legs and i even fainted because of the pain and i didn't have any pain killers. that he was screaming so loudly that. them. excuse me

that they literally had to take me out of the word that it was heartbreaking wolf he cried. god look at them. but look what they're doing to me here live with me then you please do something to these doctors to all these people i'm so tired of them all. i would tell him my men don't cry and my soldier he asked yes you are like dad yes just like dad. don't listen to. all but i'm. sixty two boys starbursts. to use even though i said it didn't want to surprise. but their lives are very nice. it's hard to love a man in

a body like this knowing you have to look after him as if you were a baby so i know that all men are really babies. like at first and many people can't understand me and this is a huge responsibility a burden across i'll have to carry all my life i just say that he share in the love a man is meet their burden or negative courage there is nothing extraordinary about it comes naturally. but when we go out together she always tries to walk side by side with me so as i don't feel that she's pushing the wheelchair. up with you know you won't. yes they will know you aren't. though the battery is thrown. yes i asked her whether she really wanted this but she's a strong able bodied girl so yeah i asked her to think everything over i want to agree that he should have no illusions i told him to be prepared to hear her say

one day that it was all too much and she couldn't take it anymore. the. congratulations on your marriage now blessed to have been actually we have been rewarded official marriage with this stamp in the passport and all those formal procedures we just wanted the church to recognize the union of our souls. first of all i see him as the man i want to build a family with the senate's respect everything's fine. i won a daughter well you should cut this in case we have a son who might be offended. and on the balloon there was. a son or

daughter equally or even both of them at the same time actually that would be even better. every man has a purpose in this world i am male but that's what's meant to be there is a purpose to that. my older brother is strong and healthy but it's never occurred to me that it might have been the other way around on the contrary i've always thought that even if i had the opportunity to change it i'd still choose to be the one myself and my brother the healthy one. but i'm not sure talking about this is right. but we asked for help on the internet to try to raise some money to buy our own flat i told our story explain that despite living so far away from each other anya and i wanted to build a family and live together. people sent around fifty to one hundred roubles two or

three dollars. and we wanted anya to move here with her mother and live together but then people started turning against us. they started internet groups against me and i know. that. there were rumors that i planned to launder money for the apartment that i was the leader of some underground cult and they sent nasty messages to honest saying she didn't love me and was only hunting for a flat. you know so we shut down the fund raising and us said she didn't need that kind of happiness. we gave the money to an eight year old girl who has cancer we checked up on her she lives here and build her road.

but i'm convinced that if a car demand for us to me it will also help us further on everything in its time i'm sure it will all work out when the time comes. i'll know they're coming here to be with him as long as i'm there but and i can't imagine myself not seeing him or not being with hammers just trying to make sense i'll be with him always at any cost. i've always promised that if she ever realizes it's too much for her and she decides to leave me i will accept her decision without criticism and i'd shut anyone up who tried to say a word against her. because it's her choice. i can't make any promises before seen anything might happen but enough a certain that i will never meet a man who will be closer to me than grigori then offer to point is that i have

already found my man and there is no one else for me to finding him or he's the one . but although there will never be a second grigori for me. pretty buz you don't know if you know her car or no response to really. everyone in my life that i cared about their goal but when that happened i came to skate well.

i was a national champion in track and field and also was able to go and qualify for the olympic games. you know nine hundred eighty eight i started to experiment with that the drugs i had lost all the financial means that i. was really on the street. black market kids. great. street kids. germany's finance ministry as denying reports as preparing a third bill after a break up of course not you know there will be no third ballot for grains ballots or so last decade this is the age of the ballot by the time this is over the

bandits bankers and brokers who have taken all that you've got no dollar euro yen a drop will be left behind and inflation deflation a compass nation will take every last nickel and dime. put it on your arm and why should the banking news all the face i think people. pleasure to have you with us here on t.v. today i'm sure.

russian laws the victims of the suicide bombers bombing and the time that belies of six people with witnesses describing a scene of carnage or report from ground zero in the aftermath of a career of jihad it is at the center of this whole. also on the program death from the sky. the u.s. must explain why these people have been killed. on this to international slams america's drawing board in pakistan condemning the regular civilian casualties as nothing short of crimes. one of the richest countries of the world are living in a type of war zone the u.k.'s most vulnerable are in danger.