no not because then this illness. you know when time and you may save money to hire a hit man to shoot me dead from the next building through the open window with you . even told my parents or my brother about it they were shocked at first of course but then somehow resigned. i told them that if i saved enough money there but and then changed my mind i give them all the money to renovate the apartment. i can't think what you could possibly do to make my hair beautiful. dress them up with when i was always the last girl to catch him inside and the ones who didn't notice me were mostly drunk men just didn't go for me. yeah my life

seemed pointless i was twenty one and my peers all had families or at least boyfriends. everything was as it should be for them but nothing like that was happening to me the sinners went outside i could hear people laughing behind my back i know under this stick insect requires more dawna cricket sees huish knows them serious this sort of had to withdraw. but i was always an ugly duckling. it was more or less fine when i was a kid but what kind of life is this for grown men stuck indoors all the time i guess only prisoners know what that's like. i can only go outside in summer because in winter if i happen to catch a chill just getting a cold could finish me off. to look good on their game.

look at them they're not gays they're ducks ducks right. have you ever seen gaze at all yes. i've seen them on t.v. . and to be honest we don't often come here to glory hasn't been outside much has recently started going not because of me i always try to take him on it we want to spend time together visit new places sing at things and enjoy nature. hello don't be shy go on please i like the saxophone yes it's his favorite instrument we'll listen for a while. it

was a miracle that one minute i was sitting at the computer or hands on the keyboard and wrote the walk desperately crying my eyes i wondered if there was any man out there somewhere i was just as lonely as me and looking desperately for a soulmate to. me the most i didn't hear it told what this man would be like deprived disabled ill. of the phone i wrote i'm waiting for you yes i'm looking for you. i searched through the internet typing things like i'm looking for you i'm waiting for you please find me in search engines and look through the results with what i

thought someone might write to me but if you really want one via what i see here should never eyes and i thought what an interesting guy. his questionnaire proved to we should assume fears in the law if it really touched my heart or so specially his final lines i'm a daydreamer to the marrow of my bones that's what i've always said myself word for word i'm in danger much of the marrow of my bones whether you like it or not. or. use. your body. which it. is necessary to put you on the. spot he knows on plus searching for you so as to hurt over points in your pursuit of course you use the fortune to work over the most brutal three series. to go with what you see. is that.

what it was that's. just a. name to go along hello we've been expecting you you know let's see krikorian put your glasses on. yes ok thanks. for you and if you'd like a more interesting although i'd suggest wearing a bow tie with us shari can i see. if you'll be a true gentleman you. will of course i was shocked at first i'd never come across in your body it was such a disease label who looked like that yeah but i knew i needed him in a way that's the kind of person i am looks have never mattered to me it's much more

important was inside. to like it is beautiful i want you to like it too i do i like a new way no matter what sure you're wearing i know what women are like you might say i'm not going anywhere with you or your badly dressed. i told her from the outset quite plainly that i was ill and i would often send her photos so that she'd have no illusions about what i looked like. that if she would send me her photos to. she'd look unkempt and without makeup. asking me whether i liked her not i answered of course i do. the woman i love will always be beautiful to me even in curlers a dressing gown and slippers simply because i love or because she steered to me.

how can i not love her with their arms around me we cuddle and i know she's mine. your boy and i dreaded our first meeting i come from a kazakhstan village called irritation with a population of seventy five hundred people so. i had never travelled by a plane before and didn't really know what to do a mere thought of going so far was shocking but my love was so strong that i agreed to come anyway. i went in and there he was sitting on the sofa waiting for me. we had a sort of agreement about how we'd know what we felt well if i liked her i had to try to kiss her. so i asked her why are you

crying you think i don't like you she replied so i said you silly girl i can move close enough to kiss you on my own i'm waiting for you then she said may i i said of course and that was sir first kiss. you know i love everything about him i have grown to love every hair every one of his fingertips they're all dear to me because their hands to him may not look the weird unary people do but he maybe even better you see him actually be healthier than other guys who drink beer in a bench they might have their arms and legs in place but i know i can trust him hander stands me he listens to me he loves me they're real mean the person i really am and that's what counts. and that i need to know the colors of

the gory pseudo show so i can select a bad haul i like this color so tender. i'm small myself so i need a small buttonhole or a look as though i'm sitting under a bush. she likes lilies for international women's day i specially asked my father to buy a lily for as far as i know no one had ever given her flowers before. and this was some really smelly ferriby we didn't know how to get rid of it but we thought about throwing the flour away or putting it out on the balcony because i'd put all my love into the gift the lily didn't wither for about two weeks so for two weeks we were pinching our noses all over the apartment to avoid the smell. you know me at first i kept my eyes open and just watched but i realized i could rely on this girl and she took it upon herself to care for him so i have nothing to

do now i was surprised at how well she took to it from the very beginning when he was a child who would often leave him alone but one time he was sitting at his computer and suddenly felt very ill after that he said do you know how terrifying it is to die alone when there's no one around to help you. to steal stuff you have terrible fits like a panic attacks that left him choking there when it sometimes he gets cross at all because i still treat him like a kid and he while you wish not my kid i say even when you're sixty you'll still be my child to do he tells me not to put him down in front of his future wife. i can see his eyes are shining. his morale is high but you know he must have realized that he's a true man you once asked me do you think i'll ever have

a family. well we had to be realistic about such things. there is since i was about five i've always dreamed of having a big family of my own and when your dreams start coming true if you imagine god reading your wishes and saying so you think you'll never get any of it here it is take it you two will have everything you want. that anybody gets tomorrow they get married and they'll be finding a name for the daughter. you know when if she jokes me at the idea of them again but she's not going anywhere because it stands too far to walk she's got no choice and she's stuck with the. solar arrays to.

pay bills you don't know if you don't pay the car. to really. everyone in my life that i cared about their government and then. i came to skin well. i was national champion in track and field and also was able to go in qualify for the olympic games. you know nine hundred eighty eight i started to experiment with other drugs i had lost all the financial means that i. was really on the street.

black market. great. interest. germany's finance ministry as the nine reports and is preparing a third bailout for greece. of course not no there will be no third ballot for grains bailouts or so last decade this is the age of the bailiff by the time this is over the bandits banks and brokers will take in all that you've got no dollar euro yen a drop will be left behind and inflation deflation a competition will take every last dime.

economic down in the final that they could learn to deal and the rest of the case will be briefly. you know i never made an official proposal but it was just somehow agreed between us that we would marry. we were talking on skype then and she suddenly smiled and said you know no one's ever proposed to me and that's when it struck me that i had

actually forgotten to propose properly to her as well. as you know. the only thing i regret. is that i couldn't lift her up and. very glad that she always to be together has brought us. to the wedded wife

question i wanted to say no no is what my heart can't say that's why it's saying yes but i was afraid people might not get the joke and decided against it. yes now let the bride answer yes. on two months when she asked a thought if that dot this. i can use my cheek. all the family is getting married. it here has been in wife now you may now case the bright. it was a wonderful magical day it was so warm the sun was shining so bright like in

a fairy tale and only yesterday it was raining heavily corey reassured me it would be a nice and warm day as it turned out he was right because grigori saw the weather forecast on the internet. users mostly young why then go right did your internet not provincial dad from buying a suit the proved to be completely useless. i i think. my positive attitude and the love i feel for the world comes naturally to me as waking up each morning i think there is always a reason to be happy it's just that people fail to notice they have the opportunity to go outside and walk to the shop for example they are too lazy those catch potatoes or they can go outside at night to see the stars in the moon i don't even remember when i last saw the moon. at one point he

admitted to me that he had thought about hiring a hitman because he couldn't end his own life by himself i asked him what he thought about us and he thought how we would carry on without you know he said that he had and that was why he decided against. hate that fire is burning for a whole new family. ideals of all he was born in front of a stock and just wouldn't walk when he was mentally ill even at eighteen months he could stand if he held onto a bench but he would not walk. doctors told us to go to moscow to the second

term medical university where he was diagnosed with spinal masco atrophy. already but his muscles don't rebuild themselves i was told is a genetic disorder but how could that be here no one else in the families affected me they explained it's an abnormality in my husband's and my genes that occurs once in a million cases would pass the down to grigori something our oldest son did that hair at the deceased. about when our doctor advised the chinese to go to moscow but his wife told us the disease was incurable the child would die in three years. to be honest i was on the verge of beating the stuffing out of him. it has such burdens of birth the oath drinking to an oath you. there is to the parents did this justice ah and with what.

we grasped that every straw and tried every possible remedy but the doctors eagerly took him on a some kind of a guinea pig transplanted stem cells to him for the last time when he was fifteen when that had no effect he said he was fed up with doctors with endless experiments with everything. that up as a child i came up with an original way to move around the flat on a skateboard i'd sit on the board and push with my arms to move around them to put in the skateboard gave way to a tree circle i pushed off the floor with my legs and turned a wheel with my hand. my whole body heard of course most of all the ribs. they were aching constantly but i only cried in hospitals when doctors tried to straighten my legs and i even fainted because of the pain and i didn't have any pain killers.

that he was screaming so loudly that. them. excuse me that they literally had to take me out of the word that it was heartbreaking wolf he cried. god look at them. but look what they're doing to me here look. at you please do something to these doctors to all these people i'm so tired of them all. i would tell him my men don't cry and my soldier he asked yes you are like dad yes just like dad. and i think sixty two boys are starbursts. and used even though i said it didn't

want to stress. but their lives either but i guess. it's hard to love them in a body like this knowing you have to look after him if you were a baby so i know that all men are really babies. wonderful thing many people can't understand me and this is a huge responsibility a burden across i'll have to carry all my life i just say that he share in the love of madness meet their burden or negative courage there is nothing extraordinary about it comes naturally. so when we go out together she always tries to walk side by side with me as i don't feel that she's pushing the wheelchair. with you know you want to begin to say well you know you are right. though the battery is right.

here i asked her whether she really wanted this but she's a strong able bodied girl so yeah i asked her to think everything over i want grigori that he should have no illusions i told him to be prepared to hear her say one day that it was all too much and she couldn't take it anymore. the. congratulations on your marriage now blessed to have been actually we did official marriage with the stamp in the passport and all those formal procedures we just wanted the church to recognize the union of our souls. first of all i see him as the man i want to build a family with said this respect everything's fine.

i won a daughter. well you should cut this out in case we have a son who might be offended. and on the balloon there with you might welcome a son or daughter equally or even both of them at the same time actually that would be even better. every man has a purpose in this world i am ill but that's what's meant to be there is a purpose to that. my older brother is strong and healthy but it's never occurred to me that it might have been the other way around on the contrary i've always thought that even if i had the opportunity to change it i'd still choose to be the one myself and my brother the healthy one. that was there i'm not sure talking about this is right. but we asked for help on the internet to try to raise some money to buy our own flat i told our story

explain that despite living so far away from each other anya and i wanted to build a family and live together. people sent around fifty to one hundred roubles two or three dollars. and we wanted anya to move here with her mother and live together but then people started turning against us. they started internet groups against me and i know. that. there were rumors that i planned to london money for the apartment that i was the leader of some underground cult. and they sent nasty messages to ana saying she didn't love me and was only hunting for a flat. you know so we shut down the fund raising ernest said she didn't need that kind of happiness. we gave the money to an eight year old

girl who has cancer we checked up on her she lives here and build her road. but i'm convinced that if a card meant for us to meet actual also help us further on everything in it's time i'm sure it will all work out when the time comes. i'll know they're coming here to be with him as long as i'm there but and i can't imagine myself not seeing him or not being with him it just won't make sense i'll be with him always at any cost. i've always promised that if she ever realizes it's too much for her and she decides to leave me i will accept her decision without criticism and i'd shut anyone up who tried to say a word against her. because that search. i

can't make any promises of course anything might happen but enough a certain that i will never meet a man who will be closer to me than agree cory going off but the point is i already found my man and there is no one else for me to finding him or he's the one. but although there will never be a second grigori for me. choose

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dot com. t.v. is a six cold and dozens injured as a piece also monday in russia's volgograd a shot of so sada time on a passenger bus we report from a city in mourning in the aftermath of a last calls by a career to harness. today's headlines demanding answers. the u.s. must explain why these people have been killed fifty nine casualties a lack of transparency and no justice for the victims amnesty international law washington the drone war in pakistan saying some of the killings amounts to war crimes. and no way becomes the latest e.u. country to sound the alarm over.