you know when time and you may save money to hire a hit man to shoot me dead from the next building through the open window you. even told my parents or my brother about it they were shocked at first of course but then somehow resigned. i told them that if i saved enough money with their bit and then changed my mind i'd give them all the money to renovate the apartment. and i can think what you could possibly do to make my hair beautiful. just the opposite and i was always the last girl to catch him inside and the ones who didn't notice me were mostly drunk men just didn't go for me. yeah my life seemed pointless i was twenty one and my peers all had families or at least

boyfriends. everything was as it should be for them but nothing like that was happening to me the sinners went outside i could hear people laughing behind my back i know i know this stick insect requires more dawna cricket sees huge snow in some seriousness what i had to withdraw. but i was always an ugly duckling. it was more or less fine when i was a kid but what kind of life is this for a grown man stuck indoors all the time i guess only prisoners know what that's like . i can only go outside in summer because in winter if i happen to catch a chill just getting a cold could finish me off. to look for good one there again.

look at them they're not gays they're ducks ducks right. have you ever seen gaze at all yes. i've seen them on t.v. . to be honest we don't often come here to gory hasn't been outside much has recently started going not because of me i always try to take him on it we want to spend time together visit new places sing at things and enjoy nature. hello don't be shy go on please i like the saxophone yes is his favorite instrument we'll listen for a while. it

was a miracle that we met i was sitting at the computer hands on the keyboard and wrote the board desperately crying my eyes saw it i wondered if there was any man out there somewhere there who was just as lonely as me and looking desperately for a soulmate to. me the most i didn't care at all what this man would be like deprived disabled. of his phone i wrote i'm waiting for you yes i'm looking for you. i searched through the internet typing things like i'm looking for you i'm waiting for you please find me in search engines and look through the results. i thought someone might write to me. when you want one via what i see here should never eyes

and i thought what an interesting guy. his questionnaire proved to we shared the cynthia's in life it really touched my heart or so especially his final lines i'm a daydreamer to the marrow of my bones that's what i've always said myself word for word i'm a daydream much of the marrow of my bones whether you like it or not. or post. before you buy me. was a. business it's you but you. are so he knows on plus thirty or so as to how to over points in your pursuit of course. reports openness. about. to go with what you see.

is the deal with it was. just a. little hello we've been expecting you you know let's see krikorian put your glasses on. yes ok thanks. for you and if you'd like a more interesting lurk i'd suggest wearing a bow tie with us shari can i see. if you'll be a true gentleman you. will of course i was shocked at first i'd never come across in your body i was such a disease label who looked like that. but i knew i needed him in a way that's the kind of person i am looks have never mattered to me it's much more important was inside. to like it is beautiful i want you to like it too i

do i like a new way no matter what sure you're wearing i know what women are like you might say i'm not going anywhere with you or your badly dressed. i told her from the outset quite plainly that i was ill and i would often send her photos so that she'd have no illusions about what i looked like. that if she would send me her photos to. she'd look unkempt and without makeup. asking me whether i liked her not i answered of course i do. the woman i love will always be beautiful to me even in curlers a dressing gown and slippers simply because i love or because she's dear to me.

how can i not love her with their arms around me we cuddle and i know she's mine. you're my own i dreaded our first meeting i come from a kazakhstan village called irritation with a population of seventy five hundred people so. i never travelled by plane before and didn't really know what to do the mere thought of going so far was shocking but my love was so strong that i agreed to come anyway. i went in and there he was sitting on the sofa waiting for me. we had a sort of agreement about how we'd know what we felt well if i liked her i had to try to kiss her. so i asked her why are you crying you think i don't like you she replied so i said you silly girl i can move close

enough to kiss you on my own i'm waiting for you then she said may i i said of course and that was our first kiss. you know i love everything about him i have grown to love every here everyone is fingertips they're all dear to me because they're him too he may not look the weird unary people do but he may be even better you see him actually be healthier than other guys who drink beer in a bench they might have their arms and legs in place but i know i can trust him handor stands me hello since to me he loves me they're real mean the person i really am and that's what counts. and that i need to know the colors of grigori suit showed so i can select a bad hole i like this color so tender. i'm small myself so i need

a small buttonhole or a look as though i'm sitting under a bush. she likes lilies for international women's day i specially asked my father to buy a lily for as far as i know no one had ever given her flowers before. and this was some really smelly. we didn't know how to get rid of it we thought about throwing the flour away or putting it out on the balcony because i'd put all my love into the gift of the lily didn't wither for about two weeks so for two weeks we were pinching our noses all over the apartment to avoid the smell. you know at first i kept my eyes open and just watched but i realized i could rely on this girl and she took it upon herself to care for him so i have nothing to do

now i was surprised at how well she took to it from the very beginning when he was a child who would often leave him alone but one time he was sitting at his computer and suddenly felt very ill after that he said do you know how terrifying it is to die alone when there's no one around to help you to steal stuff he had terrible fits like a panic attacks that left him choking there when an interval sometimes he gets cross at all because i still treat him like a kid and he while you wish not my kid i say even when you're sixty you'll still be my child to do he tells me not to put him down in front of his future wife. i can see his eyes are shining. his morale is high but you know he must have realized that he's a true man you once asked me do you think i'll ever have a family. well we had to be realistic about such things.

there is since i was about five i've always dreamed of having a big family of my own and when your dreams start coming true if you imagine god reading your wishes and searching so you think you'll never get any of it here it is take it you two will have everything you want. that anybody gets tomorrow they get married and they'll be finding a name for the daughter. you know when does she jolts me at the idea of them again but she's not going anywhere because extends to fought a war she's got no choice she stuck with the. solar arrays to.

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choose the stories that impact your life choose the access to your office. you know i never made an official proposal but it was just somehow agreed between us that we would marry. her we were talking on skype and she suddenly smiled and said you know no one's ever proposed to me and that's when it struck me that i had actually forgotten to propose properly to her as well.

i said no. the only thing i regret. is that i couldn't lift her up and. very glad that she always to be together has bright teacher eyes. to the wedded wife question i wanted to say no no is what my heart can't say that's why it's saying yes but i was afraid people might not get the joke and decided against it.

yes now let the bride answer yes. when she asked a thought if that adopt this. i can use my chief. well the family is getting married. here has been and wife now you may now case the bride. it was a wonderful magical day it was so warm the sun was shining so brightly like in a fairy tale and only yesterday it was raining heavily corey reassured me it would be a nice and warm day as it turned out he was right because grigori saw the weather forecast

on the internet. users last week and why then go right did your internet not provincial dad from buying a suit the proved to be completely useless. i i think. my positive attitude and the love i feel for the world comes naturally to me is waking up each morning i think there is always a reason to be happy it's just that people fail to notice they have the opportunity to go outside and walk to the shop for example they are too lazy those catch potatoes or they can go outside at night to see the stars and the moon i don't even remember when i last saw them. at one point he admitted to me that he had thought about hiring a hitman because he couldn't end his own life by himself i asked him what he

thought about us that he thought how we would carry on without you know he said that he had and that was why he decided against. hate that fire is burning for a whole new family. i guess all he was born in front of a stock and just wouldn't walk but he was mentally even at eighteen months he could stand if he held onto a bench but he would not walk. doctors told us to go to moscow to the second certificate university where he was diagnosed with spinal masco atrophy. all over him but his muscles don't rebuild themselves i was told is

a genetic disorder but how could that be here no one else in the families affected me they explained it was an abnormality in my husband's and my genes that occurs once in a million cases would pass the down to grigori that our oldest son did that hair at the deceased. about when our doctor advised the chinese to go to moscow but his wife told us the disease was incurable the child would die in three years. to be honest i was on the verge of beating the stuffing out of him. such burdens of birth the old drinking to the no thieves. thirst of the parents did this justice ah and when. we grasped that every straw and tried every possible remedy but the doctors eagerly took him on a some kind of a guinea pig well we transplanted stem cells to him for the last time when he was

fifty when that had no effect he said he was fed up with doctors with endless experiments with everything. as a child i came up with an original way to move around the flat on a skateboard i'd sit on the board and push with my arms to move around them to put in the skateboard gave way to a try sickle i pushed off the floor with my legs and turned a wheel with my hand. my whole body heard of course most of all the ribs. they were aching constantly but i only cried in hospitals when doctors tried to straighten my legs and i even fainted because of the pain and i didn't have any pain killers. that he was screaming so loudly that. film. excuse me

that they literally had to take me out of the word that it was heart breaking to pull felt he cried. god look at them. look what they're doing to me here live with you please do something to these doctors to all these people i'm so tired of them all. i would tell him my men don't cry and my soldier he asked yes you are like dad yes just like dad. all but i'm. sixty two starbursts. to use even though i said it didn't want to stress itself we're going to put the lives of our own rights.

it's hard to love a man in a body like this knowing you have to look after him as if you were a baby so i know that all men are really babies. like your post and many people can't understand me and this is to shift responsibility a burden across i'll have to carry all my life i just say that he share in the love a man is meet their burden or an act of courage there is nothing extraordinary about it comes naturally. right now when we go out together she always tries to walk side by side with me so as i don't feel that she's pushing the wheelchair. up with you know you won't. yes they will know you aren't. though the battery is. here i asked her whether she really wanted this but she's a strong able bodied girl so yeah i asked her to think everything over i want to

agree that he should have no illusions i told him to be prepared to hear her say one day that it was all too much and she couldn't take it anymore. congratulations on your marriage now blessed having. actually we did official marriage with this stamp in the passport and all those formal procedures we just wanted the church to recognize the union of our souls. first of all i see him as the man i want to build a family with said this respect everything's fine. i won a daughter. well you should cut the soudan chase we have a son who might be offended. and on the balloon there was a welcome

a son or daughter equally or even both of them at the same time actually that would be even better. every man has a purpose in this world i am ill but that's what's meant to be there is a purpose to that. my older brother is strong and healthy but it's never occurred to me that it might have been the other way around on the contrary i've always thought that even if i had the opportunity to change it i'd still choose to be the one myself and my brother the healthy one. but i'm not sure talking about this is right. we asked for help on the internet tried to raise some money to buy our own flat i told our story explain that despite living so far away from each other anya and i wanted to build a family and live together. people sent around fifty to one hundred rubles two or

three dollars. and we wanted anya to move here with her mother and live together but then people started turning against us. they started internet groups against me and i know. that. there were rumors that i planned to launder money for the apartment that i was the leader of some underground cult. and they sent nasty messages to ana saying she didn't love me and was only hunting for a flat. you know so we shut down the fund raising or ernest said she didn't need that kind of happiness. we gave the money to an eight year old girl who has cancer we checked up on her she lives here and build her.

but i'm convinced that if a card meant for us to meet actual also help us through their on everything in it's time i'm sure it will all work out when the time comes. i'll know they're coming here to be with him as long as i'm there. i can't imagine myself not seeing him are not being with him as it's just trying to make sense i'll be with him all this at any cost. i've always promised that if she ever realizes it's too much for her and she decides to leave me i will accept her decision without criticism and i'd shut anyone up who tried to say a word against her. because that search. i can't make any promises of course anything might happen but enough a certain that i

will never meet a man who will be closer to me than agree cory going off to the point is that every day found my man and there is no one else for me to finding him or he's the one. but although there will never be a second very gory for me. sigrid laboratory to was able to build a most sophisticated robot which fortunately doesn't sound anything tunes mission to teach creation why it should care about humans. this is why you should care

only. germany's finance ministry as denying reports that is preparing its third bell after a break up of course not no there will be no third ballot for green bailouts so. this is the age of the belly by the time this is over the banks as a broker will have taken all that you've got no dollar euro yen a drop will be left behind and inflation deflation a compass nation will take every last nickel and does. everyone in my life that i cared about their gold mine and then. they came to skin well. i was

a national champion in track and field and also was able to go in qualify for the olympic games. you know nine hundred eighty eight i started to experiment with other drugs i had lost all the financial means that i. was really on the street. black market can't. break. through. as a medium so we leave that maybe. i will see motion security. there's an. issues that no one is asking with the guests that you deserve answers from it's all politics.

bloodshed and death and tears six killed and dozens injured as a peaceful autumn monday in russia's volgograd is shattered by a suicide attack on a passenger bus we report from a city in mourning in the aftermath of the last cause by a career jihadist. also in today's headlines demanding and says. the u.s. must explain why these people have been killed civilian casualties a lack of transparency and no justice for the victims understand to national lessons out of washington for its drone war in pakistan saying some of the killings amount to war crimes. and the way becomes the latest e.u. country to sell the law on.