you know. this new rule basically. and the c.e.o. . this is good in big question things here that you experience things that there is just no way i mean it's no movie it is no book this disses a real life experience to see people get beat up every night people get robbed us of people just doesn't seem people get it but you don't pay b.o.'s you don't notice you don't pick or knows your new responsibilities are not here because where home is just less of a home maybe my reality was that i was there you know skid row is the last house on the block at g.o.p. we're just in my neighborhood you know i. basically almost slept on every street down here at one time or another i think i would never ever live in a way else you know skid row is my home. as many as eleven thousand

men and women make their home on ellis get round. about two thirds struggle with mental illness drug addiction or both but it wasn't always this way. i came to skid row it was more like skid row's we identified old drunks old drunks on the street. it used to look terrible he told prison guards of drunks. and but it was really safe because they were not very aggressive now we have young strong crack addicts who are many times are willing to take a chance of rolling stone to get their money to get some work crack it's a disparate addition. there's always been efforts to get rid of skid row in their war room for people who are unable to live in the world and they didn't have the trying to move here again and again but it just moves into a different area when big money to fellow purse began to rebuy. lies downtown the

flop house has got new neighbors in penthouses and high in lofts. there are not many places where the gap between rich and poor is a striking as it is here. literally there is just a block or two separating those two things and i presume where there's nothing separating those two things i was shocked for tertian jewelry over to come to skid row this is the new improved nice they'll turn back to you were to be a rock if people didn't come down to see into downtown produce while the heroin addicts leo you know all this is dirt fields and burn barrels and they will cut your throat down to your people to come past main street you doing this is called the pits back the and down. the people are told a different side of the whole generation they're all. just standing close to potential real estate story for groundstrokes here people are interested. in much interest on the people who are on the ground everyone who lands on skid row has

a story to tell about how they got there for many it's the last stop after losing everything for some the fall is the specially term magic my life you know prior to coming to skate row was. in some ways like most people in other ways it was a little bit different you know i am i was born in compton grew up there with five brothers and sisters lost my dad when i was three my mom when i was fourteen at that point i moved out to california and i was an athlete in high school and decent student and started smoking weed you know at high school at the age of fourteen after my mom passed away yet and still you know i was good enough athletically to earn a full scholarship to university iowa state university where i was a national champion in track and field and also i was able to go and qualify for the olympic games in eighty four where i actually competed in one of so. medal so

it at eighteen years old you know obviously going into the olympics a year out of high school was very exciting i had a lot of emotion going on. you know one nine hundred eighty eight i started to experiment with the drugs that he ended up you know getting involved with cocaine and i freebasing cocaine and that was the beginning of a twenty year journey for me as an addict i had lost everything i had lost my shoe contract i had lost my house i had lost all the financial means that i head was really on the street. sleeping on the street for the first time and actually laying down on the sidewalk you know and trying to close your eyes and next we go to sleep when you're outdoors those are the things as an addict that most people don't really talk about so the first time i came down to skid row i was pretty much horrified. i was amazed at the number of english we're down here i was amazed and where some of the people had come from.

the midnight mission first opened its doors and nine hundred fourteen cents and thousands have passed through its drug and alcohol treatment program. two hundred forty four men occupy this space here at the mission and we're going to go and see where i got my humble beginnings in recovery this is the residence when you first come into the midnight mission everyone that comes in has to come through this dormitory first. so this was my big c three up and you can see this in the this is just the way it was when i when i got here i did a lot of soul searching in this period right here i had to make up my mind whether or not i was going to try to stay sober what the program was for me what i was really doing here you know at forty one years old what are you going to do i'm. you

know at that point for me it was either you go forward you know with the other lifestyle or you try to pull back and do something different. any time you can fall from grace or you fall from some lofty heights if you want to use that word. it's humbling. the area has always attracted outsiders. some stay for a. while others never. come albert olsen but everybody calls me bam bam i'm a punky ex new yorker my story starts way back when i was a kid unfortunately. nursery school would be my teacher would it chair i was thrown out of every school ever went to i've been seeing elucidating and hearing voices i've since i was a kid i got i'm one of those cases where i'm bipolar schizoaffective i have anti-social personality disorder p t h d i have intimate rage just major nightmare

disorder i also have a gender identity disorder where i'm taking hormones for a transgender issue for sexual reassignment to get my hair went down a corner they're good spot to summon a festering want to give old. crack a band of weed man the next block i came down here following. two years ago this howling to be two years for me so i spent a good two years down here. which i don't think i'd ever do again at their commits suicide next time. when it's so nasty horrible and everything's over the place it makes you you know makes you want to do something with your life size doing this because this is really rough to do this and i went to the service i got from out of the service for the bad conduct one thing is really stinks the fact it doesn't rain here doesn't wash the urine in the way it's a smell just gets worse and worse i beat up my mother and my sisters and i took my kid and by losing my kid. did and everything else i really really really smart and

i was where i first became homeless because i couldn't rationally. deal with where my life had gone i've been electrician for all these years are always worst. back in the mid seventy's through the mid eighty's we didn't call them homeless back then we were emptying our mental hospitals by basically saying now we have the man said help you and you can also get on disability so go forth and take care of yourself the predominant population on the row at that time and continues to date are the homeless mentally ill obviously many of them are also involved with addiction and and sometimes you can't figure out which came first and that doesn't even matter the fact is they've got melanoma a serious mental illness because the institutions don't exist anymore breaking close down all of those places and they took all the mental people and they gave it

to society and then where do we go you either get committed and get locked in and smoke a cigarette three times a day and when they tell you or you sit on the street you become homeless and you can at least have your own life to some point. in many ways it's an open asylum for the mentally ill we don't have closed asylums anymore except for our jails and our prisons l.a. county twin towers jail is the largest mental institution in the united states. because we no longer hospital wards are mentally ill so we criminalize them because of their behavior on the streets people were really questioning me like how can you open a place just for people who are crazy isn't that really stigmatized. and i said no i think we're going to be just the most righteous best. drop in center we're

going to fast food we're going to feel like a family we're going to just make it a place people want to come to. that's how we lay out so that people had a place to stay at night. by like two thousand and two we had one hundred employees half of them were members we also set up our own permanent housing i came and take with some of the most beautiful people. that one could ever really. family. you know we could be together we play cards to gather we sing together karaoke number. deal with all types of people. first never anyplace i mean all types of people all types. come down and.

i saw people just like me depression was one of my biggest things. i've been called to this is i was seven years old i love that i always say i'm on the pill i do it in a way every time i do it it would say i have. this. girl in and out around the city nurses. my body. i know my health. my body i had my breast. cancer so i'm trying to be strong and i'm trying to be you know it you know and just enjoy my life what i have right now what i'm doing right now is loving myself. taking care of my business no matter how much pain i'm me and i got to do.

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very good. very good. very wise to life from people. bitterness where you. are. trailer house over here in san pedro my father was in the service in world war two then i was raised in new mexico where my grandmother was born.

rich and powerful plant in new mexico it. four years altogether in arkansas and i put the last twenty years. but. i had my first cats when i was three years old leaving i've been feeding these for over five years now i had to pay for fifty a month or cat food i couldn't get to keep get food if i had to pay two and three and four dollars a night for stuff from containers. like eight dollars for just a few thing that struck me worst. was there was no clean fresh water for the birds and kept. caustic. solutions and all kinds of poisons go and cite drugs in the water stood to camps on the verge of drinking and no clean food supply for them should know by now if those in my terminal here this camp and with

a lot more contact are the only cat or. kitten kinking to get again say it when there's been this now this is a problem the uniform know this no this is the one that had the signs kid right here. the monkey kitty and it looked like a rat well this last race i got it to him readers. so we hopefully will have more. yellows kill the little ones had a lot of red in her war yeah that means i don't care for anything red and blue. moon they're also purple to sort they're green of the cast the jets are going to be for knowing that the man with the ransom was muumuu last final moulin longing for ok and this then last night. and guy's a psycho it will incite when someone of the sun they come out of it like he sits around and do nothing all day long and her rifle roof sexually harassing her.

six. things are right there was no starker within the cycle level will anything when one phone a tick that lands are ways around unless they're not here so no need. to really what i meant of address the guy was bollinger one i just don't like. people who take advantage of low people. when he was taking advantage of. being the shia for getting live there she just kind of adopted me as her fiance and i've been her fiance or since this been nine years ago reduced or two to like her as a person and i start to understand her who she is. here in her. mental illness with the collection of tray she has storage is full of cash like three different ones just completely piled up that she pay every month nothing but

. that's who she is and i take her just who for who she is and that's why she loves me and i love her for the. hardships of that i guess that's hard to my blessings from god. you know because in the beginning was like truly i would defend her with my life you believe that i'll die behind this will lead you right here. to . life and. life with a conundrum could be a good. story and everybody down here knows that if they bother her today they're going to have to deal with me so they basically don't bother her at all. they hate that she cares all the church. richard b. a long time to people off the street or why you don't know who she won't she doesn't want that see people understand she you have to let them be who they are when she's ready to go inside shorts you she wants to live almost should you have

to let her leave her slot or should i just live on the street even though she has a door. she needs a trailer large ones there were she go. even though his mothers will set the money he she gave him he's been on drugs and these people give me one drug no one else to buy more they keep psyching him. and he almost finished his psychology course in with three years of medical school ended up at medical school and crackle i can end up so bad can memory sing and now i sing about one back to medical school even though he has pancreatic cancer which is really a sick move. he is she is a lot of ways and he caused me a lot of grief. and ok we know we have family home. hangover la la. well just get. this. i

was sleeping else and threw in a blanket. real close friends. sometimes i still go outside and sleep. sometimes when i'm inside it reminds me of why the hell out of there at the age of sixteen. i try to have my so committed to a hospital because i wasn't going to acting with other people and healthy way i didn't feel connected to anything i remember feeling very depressed and. i thought wanted to save the world in myself you know a headache if i go in at sixteen then i never have to come back out again but they would accept me. they would be a bad place to be you know i ran away from home at seventeen years old and i

actually got a job paid writ in school. that married and. had my daughter my first daughter at age twenty two and my other daughter and then my last dollar baby. their father divorced me at that point i mean. there was nothing healthy about. everything with distorted. i don't know how i raised those three girls like that. when he said that my father passed away that hurt me really bad. i've lost everyone in my life that i cared about they're gone and then happened i came to skid row.

i developed a real bad try again came we came here. and i really didn't know and never thought about it i don't know when you run into a roman doing your most folk and that's what that's what i was going to do. but. that's what i wanted to tama nice remember saying to myself i said he had a long nap in keep doing what i'm doing is going to happen because i just knew a little from glen is to say enjoy it and maybe a down syndrome. road is very good to me scare me say oh he's used down here now been through most turbulent times now the. geos and their situations are part of mud dish it is a drug addiction crack cocaine also addicted to lifestyle of downtown oh we're. no one judge

a small. group in compton raj or some other one horse i was three years old. people warsi had horses in the back yard but they'd never roll i just are going to be forced to take them out no i didn't ride to miss it you. know i do i tell it. like a stand to the old old why you like it so much what you did before i am they they spark me yeah that's what i want to know too that i like the smell of eleven when they spark me like a baseball award for. best all our horses they spark we decide what my dream would be too little. branch. be were horses you. just be around smell them walk ride a baby. teach people about. going to come the horses

believe that. don't work. i don't know if they get it because of the past arrest so many people end up i love going to hell for. you to get places we've all of wall people up and down the whole black man you can hardly walk up and down the street cause could be a valid after everything gone are everybody's either in jan they all went to santa monica venice or hollywood or somewhere else we don't need more channels we have woman to institutions and we need more doctors to come down here so the more people pass now sandwiches that's what we really need we need more understanding we need the awareness that we're not told drug addicts three days. things impact our central nervous system the environment that we grow up in and that we live in our d.n.a. basically what we're born with our genes and drugs. i don't mean is the reward neurotransmitter i mean it's what seems and release is from

our brain cells when we are sexually aroused when we smell something good we'd like to be when and. we smoke crack the brain of a schizophrenia person untreated unmedicated is a wash with don't need more souls in the brain a person who doesn't because frankly the scripture frank brain cannot filter out the noise is the heat. the vibrations the other people talking to you it's all tuning at once so the medications that we give people for schizophrenia reduce the don't for me unfortunately they reduce it too much and they feel good inside sake don't get to feel pleasure any more why. these folks wake up every morning and have to face another day being

a stigmatized marginal person in the world and have to make decisions about using street drugs or using prescribed drugs or street drugs or easier to get them prescribe drugs street drugs feel better prescribe drugs don't particularly feel better in their hands everywhere is mentally ill people there's always a major because we need them there it's on medication for self medicate so be it how else we're going to do i can't even get my mobile telephone what am i supposed to give our medication so drugs soup on the street before i am. trying to make it. the problem is terrible they come up very hard to make

a plan to get along here is a plug that never had sex with the target there are no plans let's play. lists lists lists lists legislative. play. live. thousands of people this has been documented have been executed in libya without any trial at all for just being labeled get after the oil is so this is the state of justice in libya when you say that it was

a good solution i wonder good for whom because success for as you see is transform it transitions in some money to the genocide situation into chaos yet is better now because of how i saw the crimes it's very complicated situation but there are moments of atrocities. because at one time i save money to hire a hitman to shoot me dead from the next building or through the open window. i search through the internet typing things like i'm looking for you i'm waiting for you before i wrote and waiting for you know i'm looking for you i didn't care at all what this man would feel like deprived disabled will. be with you know you want the battery is thrown out. i love everything about him i have grown

to love every here everyone interesting their tips him actually be healthy years and other guys who drink beer in a bench i've always promised that if she ever realizes it's too much for her and she decides to leave me i will accept her decision without criticism because it's her choice. deliberate torch is on its epic journey to such. one hundred and twenty three days. through two thousand nine hundred ton two cities of russia. really by fourteen thousand people or six. in a record setting trip. on

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