it's not that i feel lonely if i am lonely for him and who could possibly understand what i've experienced in guantanamo and when i talk about it even screws most. no one is able to imagine. and the flag flew over camp delta and guantanamo bay cuba where you know the detainees are housed. to honor all those service members and civilian who have lost their lives during the global war on terrorism and those who continue to fan the ideals of freedom and democracy throughout the world so i really appreciate that because i very much enjoyed serving my country. it's painful and it makes me sad that there are those who think my service is not honorable. if anyone googles my

name torture will come out because my name was put in books of all types which of course have in its title torture the torture team the road torture the trail to torture and all these kinds of things people think i must be the torture lady. i mean nine eleven a lot of people were killed that day i want to make sure somebody was held accountable. how dare anyone on this planet. do that. within our borders. and the united states prosecutor points an accusatory finger at your chest and cause. if you're

a criminal and tells you that you have betrayed your oath and you have betrayed your country majithia disclose a list of names employers want out of it. and he has paid a terrible price. because a lot of reasons for you but. there is no easy answer. downtown which has caused a lot of arctic for a lot of. world war when a plane strikes the pentagon it tries to kill people in the pentagon it's very

personal. it sounds corny to say it was my duty but i felt like i couldn't retire without at least offering to deploy gold and i volunteered to go anywhere. very scary that there is these people out here that just want to destroy our way of life our culture our values. and not understand why. i mean how do you when hearts and minds how do you stop this if you don't understand your enemy. in autumn two thousand and one. who grew up in germany decided to travel to

pakistan to explore his muslim roots. work on the year two thousand and one changed my life. and i traveled to pakistan because i wanted to learn a lot about islam in a short time. like some pakistan had always interested me. i was also curious to see another country. on other issues as christian first and i realized the war had broken out in afghanistan. to make rates continue around the pockets of the taliban trenches north of the pakistani government and i didn't really think much of it because of that i was just nineteen back with them caught moments. and didn't know much about the worlds. well i wasn't particularly interested in politics either.

for the it was just before my return trip to germany i had bought a lot of presents to take home. it was just before christmas. police stopped the bus came up to me and to ask questions. i presented my passport and they told me to get off the bus. that was my last time as a free man pakistani police handover of the americans taken to kandahar air base for interrogation. and they wanted to turn me into a terrorist they wanted me to admit that i was a member of al qaeda and the taliban and that i fought with them who at that time i didn't even know what al qaeda is i said i'm not a terrorist and that is why i will not sign that and then they hung me from the

ceiling by my handcuffs. they put a chain around them and pulled me up so that i was completely. conscious of who i was hanging with my full body weight off the ground into a new month another man was hanging their skin all over his body had term blow that . he was dead and they left him hanging there. the interrogator asked me again to sign. when i said no he just gave a hand signal. and they pulled me up again. i hung like that for five days.

almost every day and night i felt how he was being treated on that. i always immediately knew if he was being punished you know when he was doing fine soft. these are the intuitions of a moderate economy and he says you know. that i thought i cried for three days. i said i can go on like this but here's the point you may need. it communism is not getting me anywhere i have to do something. be so i went to the police. his mother told us that when i read had turned towards old radical islam this creates an expire first of all under four hundred to determine whether that moroccan now is actually intended to fight the american answer. there was

a great commotion within all the security agencies tomorrow it's become sort of especially after we learned that a group of suicide bombers in hamburg the hamburg cell had masterminded the nine eleven attacks a total. harm done so we put out all our feelers. we got the intelligence that were to occur not us always wanted to fight and had bought a combat suit and army boots that incriminating testimony that mainly came from his mother. as. condoning the terrorist attacks on the united states. was a. kind of man's. suddenly he had become the. name. everyone got. first. we have.

i kept seeing groups of people being taken away. in zero nine and they were never seen again. before they blindfolded me they said they were taking me to my execution. in february two thousand and two diane beaver arrives that guantanamo to work as a legal advisor to the camp's commanders. very strange claim those are detainees would show up wherever they came from there maybe these people you know whether their bodyguards of osama bin ladin are whatever their role is maybe there

are pieces of information that are going to make a difference. and i sat in on hundreds and who knows maybe a thousand interrogations i don't know i saw so many it's a mind game it's trying to elicit information. of variety of different ways and playing on a person's ego playing on a person's love of family love of country. not to me when i arrived there i had no idea why i was it was very hot. they finally uncovered my eyes. took me to a small cage. looking like a dog cage only smaller. there were no toilets nothing. no the lights were on twenty four seven and a loss and you know what the in the generators roared so loudly. so this and i

could never really sleep slow and i swear it was more like fainting from exhaustion with only one month on the four movie thoughts. in my nurse and during my first interrogations they asked me about mohamed atta. the stitching does for a guy who flew one of the planes into the towers. mines and they said and that sure friend from hamburg was a more. you live close to hamburg though i think from homeworks all. of seoul you probably went to the same fitness center line there. confused when they didn't like my answer so they put me in solitary confinement.

you got a lot of sneering and negative press for your engagements here in russia especially for your public appearances with food and even though they weren't explicitly political they were just supporting sports one of the things that certain people who zoom has become very adept at is controlling the media for example also right here c.n.n. do i think c.n.n. is you know completely telling it like it is no i think is a have an agenda i think through jim is is bought and paid for. leaks. it was terrible a family's very hard to make up for it once again took so long there was

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know opportunity. start to construct your current. want to be in bed. don't want to be gangsters in a lot of. drug dealers they don't want to blow a window of time that a kid came to be we can see. you just means a zero zero zero zero zero zero zero zero zero zero problems in the hood ever. thirty round clip. well i said. i don't want to die i just really do not want to die a young young age. to do things that work is separation from your bike. and a lack of sleep. and so the detainees then becomes to rely on the

interrogator and hopefully then at some point the detainee will become so compliant the detainees will tell you the things that you're asking about and you'll get the intelligence information that you need. each other i'm going to say i spent an entire year on my own. when your alone for so long that. you feel as though you realise how many things you could have done better in life. do you regret not having done them loose. mark on this you remember almost every person you treated badly. and every heart you broke. as a child i wanted to be rich so i could drive fast cars. because

of i enjoy drinking a lot sometimes it made me violent. i also took drugs. that's how i once lived. in my search for answers i turned to the qur'an and decided to live a religious life as. i know at least one of his interrogations and i may have seen more he wasn't an innocent guy you know i'm sorry you know the cover story of i just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time but i'm really this religious guy just doesn't cut it. it was a very intense time many people felt certain there would be another attack against america and so.