i don't want to die i just really do not want to die young young. my dear dear diary i am so happy. this is the best summer of my life. i am a student now and i am going to the village with mom we will have strawberries on the terrace i am taking my favorite guitar. what a beautiful summer what a wonderful life is waiting for me. the chinese friends made me a guitar out on the sea missed this so i started playing the seven string guitar i played quite well he played it well to some level that i started when i was about

ten years old. the some in the park it was a sunny day she was too shy to approach me i saw him in the corner of my eye there was some sentimental song playing in my mind i'm trying to remember it now but i can't something sad for some reason maybe it's because i'm leaving the city for the whole summer and won't see him until lot of people was. sort of drawing the picture . nobody expected it to end that way through a good note. feel

. is that just doesn't excuse it i didn't there were no passenger trains so we walked to let a grat. we couldn't recognize it though tape was crisscrossed over all the windows all the shop windows were blocked with sandbags stick down but they left some of the statues like the bronze horseman that is is that even that was

also covered with saddle bags. so we could recognize our own city in a day the whole city was blocked in. this streets emptied my last friend left leningrad. at least mom and dad are with me we're not going anywhere we will stay until the end. i know this war will be over soon they said on the radio that it won't be for long. we are a big and strong country. i know it will be over soon i will see him. he will be back and we will be happy. but bush the beloved and the first bombs hit house number one hundred nine on nest the prospect of those though and my dad. still said to the germans wanted to bomb everything must cost you well way station and the train tracks. leading to moscow. yes they

were dropping bombs everywhere there were so many casualties when i heard about it i rushed to my dad's factory and met my geography teacher the head of the get us. up he knew my dad well video they had served in the imperial army together he told me recently your father's alive don't worry about him but yeah so you. told me there was no place to escape to so they just had to carry all those bombay exams had lost their legs or arms or just more of. the somewhere on the front no fighting the fascists he must be really close the germans are already in the outskirts of leningrad and i haven't got a single letter from him how was he is he wounded i still dream about the. three of them when there was a fishmonger next to us on rubenstein street for word while you are free to take up

several kinds of study trying to ferry the world with the huge pyramids or virtue of your crap or on display what are the use the shops were always full of goods you will only do for the moment you one day mum went on with so that all the shelves were empty all your. things disappeared like that in a flash. but after that they started the food rationing. this is terrible were threatened with starvation we only have one hundred twenty five grams of bread but soon we'll only have bread crumbs a famine is coming a real one. there hasn't been a single day that i felt full you leave the table still feeling as though you want to eat. mom. asks me are you full i say of course i am.

because i don't want to upset or. i don't think we can survive we will never eat properly again. at least we still have run mom makes flat bread from it it's not very filling but at least you feel as though you have something in your stomach for a little while at least. for the dad brought us to run that it's what's left over from making some flour oil spill they used it to feed it to cattle to run the it was very difficult to chew but mom tried to make it edible. jell in she boiled it as much as she could tell it but even adding charcoal. it was still tred full to eat but there was nothing else so that's what we had to do polish on walking along rubenstein street. we all have russian carts and pills but given these bottles of

syrup they called it was sort of like sweetened water with you when you well someone dropped the bottle you threw up out of all food smashed i'm also turn to the ground two three and she will swear this happened i saw it with my own eyes glued the people were crawling around trying to lick what they could off the ground with the words used to warm this is what the seeds did to people feel the ship of the. divine media in the vampire they bombed the diet ski warehouses the fire lasted for a few days it was awful the fire was huge the whole of living grad could see.

it was the main storage place for all the food in the city. they bombed it so much that the entire storage facility was leveled to the ground zero here and people were eating the earth because it had small traces of sugar in it i tried to eat it as well but i couldn't it was nothing else to eat so many people ate that oh dad brought home some glue were afraid at first but then mambo that healing and it turned into jelly we ate it with vinegar that's what saved us. i just want to cry i cry and cry some more i have such a heavy heart i'm sick of everything. even of life. starvation and famine everywhere and people keep dying sleds carry the dead through the streets from morning to night leningrad population has decreased dramatically

almost two million people have already died. i visited our neighbor today her father died yesterday she was wrapped in a sheet and taken away in a sled. my only distraction now is my books. but we delivered books that the wards had quite often and i would read to the wounded soldiers. knitted up a little as there's a bill once i went to one ward and said aloud what should i read which they said anything but nothing about war yet he still but so i decided to read pushkin have get me an egg into them at that was a good he writes about a duel and that one of the soldiers said you promised to read nothing about war but these two have just shot each other up well that was quite awkward. and the hospital today i wounded soldier told me that if you had died they would

have told me by now. neither food nor letters can get through this siege just be sure to survive i will wait for you i have all your pictures my most treasured possessions. in the sky did my first royal from a window with arctic air to me in gold and this is where the sphinx is can be saying. here in my sketch pad when. we had to cover the sphinx as with wooden boards. a sketch about that to me had called the view from the arctic out of the window. today is my birthday today i felt full dad brought two small frozen any ends and a hundred grams of raisins his whole ration. mom cooked noodles and mixed oil and

bull down eons with. the noodles were lovely and grease. the ne and completely had the taste of grease the first course was jelly made from. mom brought home one hundred fifty grams of meat today what a pleasure it was to eat just a little meat i tried to make it last as long as i possibly could it was such bliss i just want to eat eat and eat but most importantly we are still all together and honor my mom dad and me. another spring in leningrad i used to love it and now i hate it so much it brings no love anymore only death. starlit nights just look like a mass grave. another summer without you. for a whole year i haven't received a single letter from you. i know you cannot be alive anymore i will never be happy

again in the spring asylum. in april all the people of leningrad went out to clean the city streets we were expecting an epidemic because the dead were everywhere and there was a raw sewage flowing past houses because the sewage system was not working. so they told everybody to go out and clean up the city and everybody did. that even those who could barely hold a tool in their hands went out to break up the ice is a little you. need. leningrad became so clean it was a real joy to see it. in may the trans started working again.

i will never forget this day i can't believe dad is gone. news of his death was too sad and. even today this morning we talked about him thinking he was alive remembering different things about him. we were happy that he looked relatively well. it turned out though that by then he was already gone. i cannot believe he's gone it can't be how i wanted to be a mistake it's hard it's terrible we didn't even say goodbye. a few days ago i broke my mare into pieces i was waiting for a disaster and my fears came true in the most horrible way. i cry all the time. there was nobody with it was buried in

a mass grave. it is obviously more for the latest because it's pink. when they wanted to avoid rate they really needed to buy guns environ how to use them i'm. sure this is the one that i want to go with them once again it's the field. women are definitely the target of the gun lobby and you don't want to kill them not want to kill anybody but if somebody would he would do this with her. i've noticed that more and more and that's really scary marketing tactics which implies that women have some sort of moral obligation to protect their family and young girls shoot out here too so we do have a pink or. more kids young kids choke on food than are killed by firearms if being armed made us safer in america we should be the safest nation on earth

we're clearly not the safest.

deliberate torch is on its epic journey to such. one hundred and twenty three days. through two thousand nine hundred towns and cities of russia. relayed by fourteen thousand people or sixty five thousand killings. in a record setting trip by land air sea and others face. olympic torch relay. on r t r g dot com. my mum was very ill you know one day dad said we were not going to the bomb shelter. that night there was incredibly heavy bombing. it was

a direct hit on that very shelter and everyone was buried underneath here and nobody survived more than. a few people were too exhausted even to remove the rubble and it was so cold. the temperature was still certain degrees below zero. and it didn't get any better but if you heard the mud the entire month of january february and march it was so cold thirty to forty degrees below should we could never even at the fire go out water would freeze instantly. we took the sleds over to but couldn't prospect we put little buckets on to the slats there was a hole in the ice close to the riverbank. although sometimes we went there to get water. it was easy to lose the buckets when we climbed back up the embankment but

i.q. the way the water would splash over the rim of the buckets will be any pulling those sleds was very difficult because the ground was completely frozen yellow. but still we kept going and taking those two buckets back home now we drag that water and use it to wash there was nowhere else to get it and. the bombing is not as bad as the starvation and. i'm so then. starvation has caused mom stomach to swell she's in the hospital. i will not see her again. the doctors say she won't survive. my dear mom i can't leave you i don't want to live without you i'm all alone. mommy. the cellists i spent new year's eve of nine hundred forty three alone

it was very difficult. we had three separate apartments joined by a long corridor but all of them were empty because everyone had been evacuated so i was alone in three apartments that were useable of all boards. as it was dark because we had no electricity. no electricity no water. there was no heat. and we had no firewood either yet wolf. the worst has happened i am sick i can't stand up and i'm freezing they're breaking up wooden houses and leningrad outside it is thirty degrees below inside it's only minus ten. water freezes in doors every day go by tram to the demolished houses i just have the

energy to carry a single small plank i'm not using the firewood just in case mom suddenly comes back. that any additional user was there let me see her in hospital yes. i went expecting to see her round puffy face which they saw you but i just saw a skinny woman. my mom was my dear mom that she looked so thin like there. i'm so happy i have recovered i've been back on my feet for two days when i saw myself in the mirror i was scared i saw a completely unfamiliar old and skeletal face i now look at least thirty but that doesn't matter even if i do look like a skeleton the most important thing is i'm not sick.

comrades people of letting grads this siege of leningrad has been broken by the heroic red army soldiers have built a railway across our liberated country devolved astray as the railway workers will be arriving today with the first train from the heartland. january seventeenth one thousand nine hundred forty three the focus of the day the siege finally ended when we heard the noise from our soldiers guns we were so happy . the scenes took millions of lives. even now we know exactly how many. was. when the blockade was over people started sending in food from all over the country .

i'm feeling better now i go to the alexander nevsky ministry to pick rats make soup with it city there are no nettles in leningrad they're quite tasty we have. now the only thing that upsets me still is the bombing it's more frequent now. will we still live. i even want to play my guitar again i just wish the bombing a flight and graduate stop. it on the should i was really scared by the air raid sirens isn't it that they were lots of them but he should be anti aircraft guns fired planes were flying with them and there was a lot who are all over the sea it was terrifying and the syrians carried on and one after the other i have no idea how our soldiers and officers cope with all that. when the bombing is over a look to the sky i don't know if god does exist but i feel he's up there so.

they say he doesn't exist but if you do please let my love come back to town here to. look why i spent most of the seats on the rooftops. bus one like nobody told us to do that. but they were always dropping fire bombs to go so we had no choice but to get out there to save our hosts fergus would go. mom says i'm crying in my sleep i said that i was scared of the bomb. i saw him in a dream wounded and then dead i saw his pale face and his blue eyes looking at me his lips were white he's begging help me save me i'm waiting for him the genius cut short by a bomb. exploded at you the germans were shelling the city subways yes they

knew the location of every tram stop because i deal with so we had to move them every single day and yes they did argue well they don't play in the last battle but we do they were firing at the. stops the people who are going to work when the attack started there was no way to escape from this that the showing was quite far from the buildings around christine the board and a sun. but that the view there was no cover to hide under the wall so there were plenty of casualties. they were firing at maturity homesick. trying to target crowded places. they did that quite a long time. from leningrad today is the twenty seventh of january nineteen forty four our moment of triumph. pray the blockade is over we one we have survived i want to cry to cry of

joy. momma survive two i miss my dad so much my dear dad we are in life greed it is to feel like i think and. today there will be fireworks people are exhausted but they will still take to the streets my dear dear diary he's alive he's returned from the front he's lost weight i have not been this happy since before the war for the first time in my life i want to cry because i'm so happy. we will walk along the river spring will come to leningrad again. now i know that we will have a long and happy life. i am certain of. you

know my guitar is here i can get it why do you even imagine please watch my even yes they help me with my guitar.

northwest thank you you're welcome. oh sorry well you know how to treat it better than i do sorry i can play. your language. cool if we can without any financial sell some of.

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if you. know opportunity. to construct europe. no longer be a bit gives don't want to be gangstas they don't want to. deal with us they don't want to blow with no time but k.k. maybe we can see. you just made the boat as i was and i was in the hood. with thirty round clips. but i said. i don't want to die i just really do not want to die young young. zachary what happened that day i don't know but. years later is when i got arrested for. a crime i did not do. we have numerous cases where police officers

lie about polygraph results. innocent people taking shots the police officers don't beat people anymore i mean it just doesn't happen really. in the course of interrogation why because there's been this is like men. no because the psychological techniques are more effective in obtaining confessions than physical abuse they were off taking they could do what they wanted they can say what they want and there was no evidence of what they did or what they said. were not psych to active camps at guantanamo where patients are forced that this comes after a mouse or strike never turned the world's attention to the place that some.

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