if the clinic refuses to provide you with the necessary documents required to all sign an enquiry. didn't it surprise you that they clean you could north a request from the yes it did i don't know why they didn't reply it's so strange i can't comment i don't know what happened if i had the opportunity i would have done it myself what are you going to do next we sure would we're not going to call the clinic and the local registry office try to explain the situation because it's delaying the surgery.

itself i told you it to think twice because there was an opportunity that she wouldn't be allowed on the plane with or that the police would detain her i told her to wear no make up tearing check in and on the plane she could have put it on later and not before customs a lot of women wear trousers now julip put on and travis high heeled shoes and make up anyway. she was looking for trouble because. of course they didn't want to allow jewelry through the customs because what they saw didn't conform to what her passport sat the ground they call for doctors to check because they saw a woman who according to the documents was a man. why

. i am not recognized in russian law jazz nothing there about me or people tell me that anything which is not expressly forbidden must be a lamp so i figured that nothing was for that and maybe. there's no law saying to the seller of your can go through customs in a dress and high heels so i could do it and i did. hear. it when i didn't start a fight stand my feet or throw shoes at them i just looked at them smiled and waited till i saw your face. and you were so serious so concentrated.

i'm convinced the top thoughts materialize your fifth your fright of something sooner or later you'll have to face it but there's no point hiding because why do that anyway i want to live openly and freely just live being transsexual is a temporary state on a woman and very happy about that since i have almost documents but possibly nothing more than three. ladies and gentlemen please give up your seats to elderly passengers mothers with children full pregnant ladies. but when you were ten when you were thirty mum i didn't know anything then understand you had a family you were a normal person. i'm still a normal person i think it's living on your own that has brought it all about. and

it's nothing that living alone could do i was born with it the doctors have already told you it's innate it's you why would you believe the experts there's no other way you can't catch it it's all about genes it's a combination of chromosomes and group life it doesn't affect it in any way mum white. mom white quickly. go through ok let's take a blood test. from a vein yes give me our. most of the most of the crux of the issue is the removal of a penis causes your anation problems to be honest i can't even look at it yuck.

seems so strange just a kind of really the studio organ. the which is a it will be quite a long operation because we will have to remove part of some blood vessels and adjust your rethrow within the growing oh maybe we could start with removing the testicles and then decide yes then you'll have to decide look you know you're so cheerful huge because your testicles still produce a little to yes once the saucer has gone there will be no such happiness anymore. then we might need to insert physiologically female doses of the hormone to maintain this good mood. you need hormones not for general masculine ization or to make your beard grow will be needed as an effective anti stress agent to have a good mood this is the. root of it as early as the age of five i started to think it was wrong that they called me and treated me as

a boy uppermost when i was aware that they were boys and girls could move and they put me with the former home that i knew i really belonged with the latter. but it came as a shock to me and i tried to analyze myself and came to the conclusion that i couldn't change anything so i just withdrew into myself for the many years with the woman was one small but very great secret that i had to live with morning and what's right that. does occur still difference between you and me as a child at school i didn't conceal who i was one of the children gave me a hard time they bowed to me didn't talk to me and insulted me. i was an outcast with the story of my life is based on what was a great tragedy for my mother to shawn she believed that she had to give birth to daughter so that there would be someone to look after her when she's old i'll bet

you know if you call that was her life plan so when after labor the doctor told her it was a boy she got hysterical and she said take him away it's not my baby she was convinced the babies had been switched to yellow and i saw mom was suffering because of me just because i wasn't born a girl i feel guilty for something that wasn't in fact my fault matias you up. this feeling to kreutz i was delighted to be a woman willing to i took interest in all aspects of my mother's life i tried to prove i was worthy of her love and if she could only feel love for a daughter i was determined to become that daughter for her.

both of the goals. and you were arguing when we were choosing this t. shirt i was afraid it would be too big for me. to be in fact to size up would have been better if i told you that you needed a bigger and with a look to the song mommy knows best at least today after i do jewish hair she looks beautiful and usually an ugly when i don't do your hair is that what you mean you're not as beautiful can't help crying just looking at it. drew didn't come off that do something normal. i'm here at the top and you have a clear hairstyle that folliot my hair looks like a bush how would she have to look the volume is so nice you sure from your

lips to god's is. ungrateful pig go away. i think i've spent too much time get to where i want to leave a come life of my own and enjoy the high level i've managed to achieve. and i have one more thing to ask of you don't undergo any surgery mom i am asking you for your money or dry to understand one simple thing my whole body has changed i'm a woman now and i can't have male organs i'm a woman as you try to understand it once and for all. you can thirteen or it doesn't matter you have to admit a woman can't have male organs even if you come to the doctor to do this operation

it's called to me term name and what people call it it's cold castration but the organ remains anyway. removing that as the second stay after a year i can remove absolutely everything is just much more expensive. when you buy you are aware that you're not that young and i know do you realize that i could have died three years ago i tried to kill myself do you understand that that i have gained another three years of life would be good you must for the suicide rate is almost ninety percent. are they all like that they are weak people they are not very strong people my name is julia. oh i'm speechless because i almost completely forgot what i wanted to ask. after the break you'll meet the person who was always the closest man in julie is life that's

a father wanted to be easy if we're if he committed a serious said yes absolutely he hasn't seen him for ages will he even recognise him you can see for yourself after the break. ben bernanke has become a god and instead of walking on water he's walking on paper i walk in a paper yeah. yeah yeah yeah but i don't think we're going to last or is like moment you know where they put him in the crypt and then he goes up to heaven i think they're going to put this guy into the crypt and the economy is going to go stink go south though obliterated. we speak

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resumes there are of us people. reading. this some of them shoots my brother in the leg not intentional because it because it was night times four in the morning even the best given the pouch shoulders. are going to make mistakes this is this whole idea of brotherhood and author. and camaraderie in this sense it was in this context that has absolutely no place. to live the torch is on its epic journey to such. one hundred and twenty three days. through two thousand and nine hundred towns and cities of russia. really by fourteen thousand people or sixty five thousand killing. in a record setting trip by land air sea an outer space.

a little fake torch relay. on r t r c dot com. quite often countries rich in natural resources are the poorest africa's a colony it's a colony of the big corporations it's a colony of someone's home leaders who are under the thumbs of the big corporations so they have to beg from the world bank's development of social programs goes to pay back debts country is drowning under the amount of debt that they did and so every year they would borrow money. and they would use that same amount of money to pay back oh this can all that money really helps. the wages. love and respect myself by promise that i shall never cease working on myself and

from this day on be true to myself for better or for us for richer for poorer in sickness and in health. i will love and accept myself until the day that i die i challenge myself to live in complete harmony with myself and to lead a happy life. good relations again on the day when you've accepted yourself. why did you do boys there was no other way. i could be neither father nor hospital i know that i'm a woman. which i'm not ok it was your first marriage what about the second that was immediately after the first war i don't know it's still a mystery to me well you said to her my re i love you will you marry me i was

trying. to fit in so yes i mean i tried to kill myself but i think it's actually easier to be a man i know with you it's physiological but if we're talking about living in a society a woman has a responsibility as. you have to wear makeup shave your legs polish a nail so you can just walk around in worn out box or you can do that it's creepy of course not but i wanted you that way to send a man can wear socks with holes in it too short and sweatpants and played. and who will complain clue and about why. he isn't there good and bad well i'll tell you a secret i hope no one will hear me even with a dent like that he is a god with a huge belly with no interaction he believes he's a cool guy because he can dive a woman and find another one there always be someone who will be happy to have have

always. the one who can feel i had a number of sham marriages well one was official votes of another marriage another baby and still nothing more nothing changed about only that i was still the same person i had always been with compartment on the divorced i supported my child my nan surely and helped as best as i could when we divorced she was eight or nine months maybe a year old. now she's twenty six. i guess i wouldn't recognize her if i met her on the street. who i spoke to her on the phone and we agreed to meet over. there the more i

thought i could give myself a little treat and meet the person who has my own blood flowing through her and they look to me a clue. i was there in vain rina texted to say she couldn't make it and she had a lot of things to do she couldn't come which was a pity much and i feel so stupid and upset with. i doubt a reader knew it was my birthday she couldn't mean it to be such an empty present the worst time for me was when i was forty five it was a tough this year of my life that year and made the best impressions i've ever had in my whole life i realized that it was too late i was way past the critical stage

and i was depressed it's a most dangerous suicidal state for a hit boiling point. after my second attempt to commit suicide failed which i decided there was not much point in trying again for a third time it was much better to see what would happen if i started taking hormones going so that's what i did. where back exactly where we stopped last time i asked you for a document for any relevant so typical as that could prove that the clinic has

a license can you present such documents are not i can't present such documents you've come to the hearing unprepared again what next what do you expect us to do take my word for it. of the news that i believe in anything. that i want to do now. in. the case wouldn't matter anymore. if i meet him i will have nothing to say to him i can't imagine. what i will do if we me what can i tell him i certainly want to say hello and i don't want to say hello julia either you or i could but i don't want to. bring i don't want to encourage him i'll never pat him on the shoulder in an operating room and say go on man if he feels that male member prevents him from having

a happy life he's free to remove it and i won't come to the hospital with a banner saying no to julia soul of the over i won't do that when he's never done me any wrong after he became a woman although he did me a lot of bad things before but it really puts me off that i have such a father anyway no matter how you look at it i feel ashamed. kolo. when i have children of my own i won't be able to tell them that this is their grandfather but i can't go for a walk with him or come to his place on saturday to drink beer and watch football to do all the simple things i would like to do. i did not fall in love with him what i felt was pity you when i saw him for the first time he had the eyes of the beaten dog thrown out on the street he's had this

desolate look in his eyes all his life and have always felt he wanted to be me no woman i mean for example he would ask me to stand in front of the mirror and point out that our foreheads look alike and some other things. well appeared we were both in it when i was pregnant with terrible texaco's it's the first thing i wanted to know was whether it was a congenital disorder union and when i found out it wasn't i come down with it at least i will have a baby i thought you're through with the end if after this operation you behave here you've got all these ten twenty thirty years that remain with whom would you let him do it if it'll make life easier for him because in fact it seems self that he's struggling with and working don't disturb me why don't disturb me he should have thanked everyone he hold no grudge and forgive everyone would you stop it's not too late for that even know you meant everything will work out for him or her.

doing your job you're doing now is humiliating which is difficult with no humiliating how is it demeaning i do my job properly but psychologically you're still a tease i need the money i'm just earning money i know i know humiliating but you can do it all your life i'm not going to i've already told you i'm leaving for moscow i've been offered a job that. smothered

your positions for having examined the documents presented to the court the court ruled to dismiss the claim by hearing over there from making amendments and the birth certificate. that i didn't present project may be in accordance with the law numbers up on it but at. what do we do now mum would even name me i know how difficult it is feverish and it's very important for me don't be offended if you know i'm not my child can't you see that i'm definitely not going to answer to the name during trying to understand that and tell dad well use another name when you have one already have another name

in all the medical statements you don't have it yet don't be offended mom you have to understand one very simple thing i love you and i want you to love me too i'm a clever woman i know what to do i've been loving you all my life i've lived my life for you. is the course there when i die i don't want to have the name yuri or overdog for my tombstone or the other man you're really sets my teeth on edge and i'm good i know i won't be able to make any decisions by then you know you're there you couldn't move you'll never even get to see it from arthur met the myth thought of it frustrates me if you're watching i really don't want that to be a man's name a much tombstone throw in which would be better not to have a drive at school. but he's your son can anyone be closer to him the new i think most people will sorry for her. you heard his father saying that it would be

easier for him if his son killed himself he moved on what i think his life is difficult to reason on happy man any suffering over with but with all of that. my name is julia. when the crisis leaves us traces everywhere and. empty clothes rooms become the norm. children pay for the mistakes of adults. by working in a tobacco field or in a cafe. they are the ones who come back call him blasts.

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knew that everything would be fine for some reason they were so confident because we were going to get married officially after he came back how could he not come back because the mere thought of it never crossed her mind. when the militants decided to try and break through and i heard you again yeah but screaming grenade. explosions blow them all round his back. and it was all over all. we know that our comrades and our commander won't leave us no matter how tough it gets we're a team. you're getting was a senior in his military trio. you know he knew that if he didn't smother that grenade with his body more of just comrades would die he gave his own life to save his friends.

police used tear gas and bottles on first houses in the center of ukraine's capital after thousands will come out to demand the country's leadership resigned of its snubbing of the. we may not give in to external pressure not released from russia the only thing the european union can try to do is keep blame stormin anybody russia who cares. meanwhile brussels points the finger at mosco for disrupting the deal despite kiev statements it was only being pragmatic one making the choice. the enemy with a and reports claim the cia workers had gone tunneled a prison is as double agents using them as spies after their release i'll see assesses the workings of the practice which.