if i told you it to think twice because there was an opportunity that she wouldn't be allowed on a plane with or that the police would detain her and i told her to wear no makeup tearing check in and on the plane she could have put it on later and not before customs a lot of women wear trousers now but juliet put on and travis high heeled shoes and makeup anyway. she was looking for trouble because. of course they didn't want to allow jewelry or through the customs because what they saw didn't conform to what her passport sat the ground they call for doctors to check because they saw a woman who according to the documents was a man. who are.

not recognized in russian law jazz nothing there about me or people tell me that anything which is not expressly forbidden must be allowed so i figured that nothing was for that and may be you know there's no law saying jew the seller of your can go through customs in a dress and high heels so i could do it and i did. hear . you didn't start a fight stamp my feet or throw shoes at them i just looked at them smiled and waited for i saw your face. and you were so serious so concentrated. i'm convinced that i thought. materialise if you're fraid of something sooner or

later you'll have to face it but there's no point hiding from why do that anyway i want to live openly and freely just live the interim section as a temporary state on a woman and very happy about that since i have almost documents my past will be nothing more than three. ladies and gentlemen please give up your seats to elderly passengers mothers with children all pregnant ladies. but when you were ten when you were thirty you mum i didn't know anything then understand you had a family you were a normal person. i'm still a normal person i think it's living on your own that has brought it all about. and

it's nothing that living alone could do i was born with it the doctors have already told you that in eight months you could you why would you believe the experts there's no other way they can't catch it from all about genes it's a combination of chromosomes and replied it doesn't affect it in any way mum white . mom white quickly. go for it ok let's take a blood test. from a vein yes give me arms. which. most of the most of the crux of the issue is the removal of a penis causes your anation problems to be honest i can't even look at it yuck. seems so strange just to kind of read the studio organ. which is

a it will be quite a long operation because we will have to remove part of some blood vessels and adjust your rethrow within the growing oh maybe we could start with removing the testicles and then decide yes then you'll have to decide look you know you're so cheerful yes because your testicles still produce a little to yes once the saucer has gone there will be no such happiness anymore. then we might need to insert physiologically female doses of the hormone to maintain this good mood. you need hormones not for general masculine is asian or to make your beard grow you needed as an effective anti stress agent to have a good mood this is the. truth of it as early as the age of five i started to think it was wrong that they called me and treated me as a boy uppermost when i was aware that there were boys and girls could move and they

put me with the former all that i knew i really belonged with the latter. but it came as a shock to me i tried to analyze myself and came to the conclusion that i couldn't change anything so i just withdrew into myself for many years with the woman was one small but very great secret that i had to live with morning and was right that . does occur still difference between you and me as a child at school i didn't conceal who i was a lot of the children gave me a hard time to me didn't talk to me and insulted me. i was an outcast from the start of my life is based on what was a great tragedy for my mother to shawn she believed that she had to give birth to daughter so that there would be someone to look after her when she's old nobody

knows if you call that was her life plan so when after labor the doctor told her it was a boy she got hysterical and she said take him away it's not my baby she was convinced the babies had been switched out and i saw mom was suffering because of me because i wasn't born a girl i feel guilty for something that wasn't in fact my fault matias you were. this feeling to kreutz i was delighted to be a woman willing to i took interest in all aspects of my mother's life i tried to prove i was worthy of her love and if she could only feel love for a daughter i was determined to become that daughter for her.

both of the goals. and you were arguing when we were choosing this t. shirt i was afraid it would be too big for me. to be in fact to size up would have been better if i told you that you needed a bigger and with a look to the saudis mommy knows best at least today after i do jewish hair she looks beautiful and usually an ugly one i don't do your hair that well you mean it's not as beautiful or can't help crying just looking at it. did you didn't come off that do something normal. i'm here at the top and you have a cool hairstyle that folliot my hair looks like a bush how would she have to look the volume is so nice you sure from your lips to god's is. ungrateful pig though.

i think i've spent too much time with to where i want to leave a coma life of my own and enjoy the high level i've managed to achieve. and i have one more thing to ask of you you don't undergo any surgery mom i am asking you for your money. dry to understand one simple thing my whole body has changed i'm a woman now and i can't have male organs i'm a woman as you try to understand it once and for all. you cut thirteen or it doesn't matter you have to admit a woman can't have male organs even if you come to the doctor to do this operation it's called to me term

a. lot of people call it it's cold castration but the organ remains anyway. that removing that is the second stay after a year i can remove absolutely everything is just much more expensive. by you aware that you're not that young and i know do you realize that i could you have died three years ago i tried to kill myself do you understand that that i have gained another three years of life would be good almost for the suicide rate is almost ninety percent. are they all like that they are weak people they are not very strong people my name is julia. oh i'm speechless because i've almost completely forgotten what i wanted to ask. after the break you'll meet the person who was always the closest man in julio's life that's

a father what it is if he came it is serious said yes absolutely he hasn't seen him for ages will even recognise him you can see for yourself after the break . weeks between thanksgiving and christmas in the united states a con for roughly twenty percent of annual most topics during that period of time people are much less rational one day when they so yes certainly in our modern era people are often spending money that they don't have and spending it on things they don't need to accomplish what they haven't thought.

it was a. very hard take on. a pattern that has sex with the perfect there are no plans. for the people.

war is probably the most complex and difficult human activity. of all. locked up. in the phenomenon of friendly fire probably extends back to the invention of gunpowder. kill a bunch of people who don't know what they're up their families there are a us people. reading. this some of them shoots my brother in the leg not intentionally because of it because it was ny times four in the morning even the best even the mesh shoulders. are going to make mistakes this is this whole idea of brotherhood and author and then and camaraderie in this sense it was in this context it has absolutely no place.

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quite often countries rich in natural resources are the poorest africa's a colony it's a colony of the big corporations it's a colony of someone's home leaders who are under the thumbs of the big corporations so they have to beg from the world bank's development of social programs goes to pay back debts country is drowning under the amount of debt that they had and so every year they would borrow money. and they would use that same amount of money to pay back. the money. the wages. of us wants and love and respect myself by promise that i shall never cease working on myself and from this day be true to myself. the rich.

in sickness and in health. i will love and accept myself until the day. i challenge myself to live in complete harmony with myself and to lead a happy life. congratulations again on the day when you've accepted yourself. why did you do boys there was no other way to live as a man. i could be neither father nor hosp and i know that i'm a woman. which i am not ok it was your first marriage what about the second that was immediately after the first war i don't know if it's still a mystery to me well you said to her my re i love you will you marry me i was trying. to fit in that's yes i mean i tried to kill that in myself but i think it's actually easier to be a man i know with you it's physiological but if we're talking about living in

a society a woman has so many responsibility as. you have to look good where make shave your legs polish a nail so you can just walk around in worn out box or you can do that it's creepy of course not but i want to do that waves and a man can wear socks with holes in it too short and sweat pants and play pockets. and who will complain clue in about what. he's in there good and bad well i'll tell you a secret i hope no one will hear me even with a dent like that he is a god with a huge belly with no interaction he believes he's a cool guy because he can doubt a woman and find another one there always be someone who will be happy to have him always.

there when you think you know i had a number of sham marriages well one was official another marriage another baby and still nothing more nothing changed about only that i was still the same person i had always been with the compartment on the divorced i supported my child my now actually and helped as best as i could when we divorced she was eight or nine months maybe a year old. now she's twenty six. i guess i wouldn't recognize her if i met her on the street. who i spoke to on the phone and we had great to meet over. there the more i thought i could give myself a little treat and meet the person who has my own blood flowing through the day. to

me of course. i was there in vain rina texted to say she couldn't make it and she had a lot of things to do she couldn't come which was a pity much and i feel so stupid and upset. i doubt a reader knew it was my birthday she couldn't mean it to be such an empty present the worst time for me was when i was forty five it was a tough this year of my life that year left me the best impressions i've ever had in my whole life i realized that it was too late i was way past the critical stage and i was depressed it's a most dangerous suicidal state for a hit boiling point. after

my second attempt to commit suicide failed which i decided there was not much point in trying again for a third time it was much better to see what would happen if i started taking hormones going so that's what i did. where back exactly where we stopped last time i asked you for a document for any relevance so typical as that could prove that the clinic has a license can you present such documents are not i can't present such documents you've come to the hearing unprepared again what next would you expect us to do

take my word for it. of news but i believe in anything. that i want to do. in. the case wouldn't matter anymore. if i meet him i will have nothing to say to him i can't imagine. what i will do if we me what can i tell him i certainly want to say hello and i don't want to say hello julia either you or i could but i don't want to. bring i don't want to encourage him i'll never pat him on the shoulder in an operating room and say go on man if he feels that male member prevents him from having a happy life he's free to remove it and i won't come to the hospital with a banner saying no to julia soul of the over i won't do that when he's never done

me any wrong after he became a woman although he did me a lot of bad things before but it really puts me off that i have such a father anyway no matter how you look at it i feel ashamed. kolo going to do when i have children of my own i won't be able to tell them that this is their grandfather but i can't go for a walk with him or come to his place on saturday to drink beer and watch football to do all the simple things i would like to do. i did not fall in love with him what i felt was pity you when i saw him for the first time he had our eyes of the beaten dog thrown out on the street he's had this desolate look in his eyes all his life and always felt he wanted to be me no woman

i mean for example he would ask me to stand in front of the mirror and point out that our foreheads look alike and some other things. people were prosecuted when i was pregnant with terrible texaco's it's the first thing i wanted to know was whether it was a congenital disorder union and when i found out it wasn't i come down with it at least i will have a baby i thought you have to understand if after this operation you behave here all these ten twenty thirty years that remain with whom would you let him do it if it will make life easier for him because in fact it seems self that he's struggling with i'm working don't disturb me why i don't just mean you should have thanked everyone he hold no grudge and forgive everyone if you start it's not too late for that even know you meant everything will work out for him or her.

doing your job you are doing now is humiliating which is difficult but not you minutes and how is it demeaning i do my job properly but psychologically you're still a tease mom i need the money i'm just earning money i know i know. what you can do it all your life i'm not going to i've already told you i'm leaving for moscow i've been offered a job that. this mother of positions for having examined the documents presented to the court records rule to dismiss the claim by hearing over there from making amendments in

the birth certificate. that if present project may be appealed in accordance with the law numbers up on it but at. what do we do now mum would even name me i know how difficult it is federman it's very important for me don't be offended if you know i'm not my child can't you see that i'm definitely not going to answer to the name you're eating try to understand that and tell dad well use another name when you have one already have another name in all the medical statements you don't have it yet don't be offended mom you have

to understand one very simple thing i love you and i want you to love me too i'm a clever woman i know what to do i've been loving you all my life i've lived my life for you. is the course there when i die i don't want to have the name yuri or overdog on my tombstone or there were there when you're really sets my teeth on edge and for good i know i won't be able to make many decisions by then you know you're new to the new you'll never even get to see it from arthur met them if thought of it frustrates me to hear which and i really don't want that to be a man's name on my tombstone throw in which would be better not to have a drive at school. but he's your son you can anyone be closer to him than you cost i think most people both feel sorry for her. you heard his father saying that it would be easier for him if his son killed himself he moved on what i think his life

is difficult for the reason i'm happy man any suffering over with but what of that . my name is julia. if you're thinking about an alcoholic drink associated with russia it's probably not going to be one that springs into your head but they've been making it here on the black sea coast for more than two thousand kids and there's an industry which really can compete with the best the rest of the world has to offer i've come to meet some of the people going the greats and to see if i can find out the secret to the perfect.

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just knew that everything would be fine for some reason there were so confident because we were going to get married officially after he came back how could he not come back. out of it never crossed her mind. one of the militants decided to try and break through. screaming her in a book. splosion blow them all round his back. and it was all over all. we know that our comrades on our commander won't leave us no matter how tough it gets we're team. you're both getting was a senior in his military trio. he knew that if he didn't smother that grenade with his body more of his comrades would die he gave his own life to save his friends.

police used tear gas and box on so purse houses in the center of ukraine's capital off to thousands woke hours to demand the country's leadership resign it's now being on the easy we may not give it to explode the pressure of not at least for all russia the only thing the european union can try to do is keep blame storming anybody russia who cares. meanwhile brussels point the finger at moscow for disrupting big deal despite key of statements it was only being pragmatic one making the choice. also this hour the enemy within we're told claim this cia recruited got a ton of prisoners as double agents using them as clients after their release of c.s.s. is there watching.