that's why i need to change my sex and my passport in the past but. there's been no surgery no not yet it's very expensive and i don't have enough money to do the right amount first and with the name yury over dove in my passport people treat me as though i'm a non-person and i can't find a job lawyers don't even believe it's really my passport a. few substantiate your claim with a number of medical reports could you present them to me so far you have only presented a medical report from professor clinic or so i thought that report would be enough i didn't think i'd need anything else if you refer to it as a medical statement than you need to have a document proving this clinic really is a magic oregon has ation authorized to issue such reports. i don't have such a document will you be able to present it yes i think so when will you be able to

present it like concern exact date i'll have to submit a request in five days ten how many. about ten probably it's hard to say exactly the cases are joined to the ninth of september if the clinic refuses to provide you with the necessary documents required to all sign an enquiry. didn't it surprise you that they claim you could north a request from the yes it did i don't know why they didn't reply it's so strange i can't comment i don't know what happened if i had the opportunity i would have done it myself what are you going to do next we sure would we're not going to call the clinic and the local registry office try to explain the situation because it's delaying the surgery.

i told you it to think twice because there was an opportunity that she wouldn't be allowed on a plane with more than the police would detain her i told her to wear no make up tearing check in and on the plane she could have put it on later and not before customs a lot of women wear trousers now. put on a travis high heeled shoes and make up anyway. she was looking for trouble because . of course they didn't want to allow jewelry through the customs because what they saw didn't conform to what her

passport sat the ground they call for doctors to check because they saw a woman who according to the documents was a man. why . i am not recognized in russian law jazz nothing there about me or people tell me that anything which is not expressly forbidden must be a lamp so i figured that nothing was forbidden to me because there's no law saying to the seller of your can go through customs in a dress and high heels so i could do it and i did. hear. you in the i didn't start a fight stand my feet or throw shoes at them i just looked at them smiled and

waited till i saw your face. and you were so serious so concentrated. on your profile i'm convinced the top thoughts materialize the fifth your fright of something sooner or later you'll have to face it but there's no point hiding the why do that anyway i want to live openly and freely just live transaction as a temporary state on a woman and very happy about that since i have all my documents i possibly nothing more than three. ladies and gentlemen please give up your seats to elderly passengers mothers with children while pregnant ladies.

but when you were ten when you were thirty you mom i didn't know anything then understand. you had a family you were a normal person. i'm still a normal person i think it's living on your own that has brought it all about. and it's nothing that living alone could do i was born with it the doctors have already told you it's innate it's you why would he believe the experts there's no other way you can't catch it all about genes it's a combination of chromosomes and replied it doesn't affect it in any way mum white . mom white. ok let's take a blood test. from a vein yes give me our. most

of the most of the crux of the issue is the removal of a penis causes your nation problems to be honest i can't even look at it yuck. don't seem so strange just a kind of resisted organ. which is a it will be quite a long operation because we will have to remove part of some blood vessels and adjust your rethrow within the growing oh maybe we could start with removing the testicles and then decide yes then you'll have to decide look you know you're so cheerful each because your testicles still produce a little to yes one status tossed around is gone there will be no such happiness anymore. then we might need to insert physiologically female doses of the hormone to maintain this good mood. you need hormones not for general masculine as asian or

to make your beard grow you needed as an effective anti stress agent to have a good mood this is the. root of it as early as the age of five i started to think it was wrong that they called me and treated me as a boy uppermost i was aware that there were boys and girls could move and they put me with the former one that i knew i really belonged with the latter. but it came as a shock to me i tried to analyze myself and came to the conclusion that i couldn't change anything so i just withdrew into myself for the many years with a woman with one small but very great secret that i had to live with morning and what's right that. does occur still difference between you and me as a child at school i didn't consider why i was one of the children gave me

a hard time to me didn't talk to me and inside. to me. i was an outcast but the story of my life is based on what was a great tragedy for my mother to shawn she believed that she had to give birth to daughter so that there would be someone to look after her when she's old you know if you call that was her life plan so when after labor the doctor told her it was a boy she got hysterical and she said take him away it's not my baby she was convinced the babies had been switched out and i saw mom was suffering because of me just because i wasn't born a girl i feel guilty for something that wasn't in fact my fault matias you were. this feeling to kreutz i was delighted to be a woman willing to i took interest in all aspects of my mother's life i tried to prove i was worthy of her love and if she could only feel love for a daughter i was determined to become that daughter for her.

both of the goals. and you were arguing when we were choosing this t. shirt i was afraid it would be too big for me so easy to be in fact to size up would have been better if i told you that you needed a bigger and with a look to the song mommy knows best at least today after i do jewish hair she looks beautiful and usually an ugly when i don't do your hair is that what you mean you're not as beautiful or can't help crying just looking at it. through debts

come off that do something normal. so how come here at the top and you have a cool hairstyle that folliot my hair looks like a bush how would she have to look the volume is so nice you sure from your lips to god's is. ungrateful pig no way. i think i've spent too much time with to where i want to leave a coma life of my own and enjoy the high level i've managed to achieve. and i have one more thing to ask of you don't undergo any surgery mom i am asking you when you are money. dry to understand one simple thing my whole body has

changed i'm a woman now i can't have male organs i'm a woman as you try to understand it once and for all. you cut thirteen doesn't matter you have to admit a woman can't have male organs even if you come to the doctor to do this operation it's called to me term amy what do people call it it's cold castration but the organ remains anyway. that removing that is the second stay after a year i can remove absolutely everything is just much more expensive. by you aware that you're not that young and i know you do you realize that i could have died three years ago i tried to kill myself do you understand that that i have gained another three years of life would be good you must for the suicide rate is almost ninety percent. are they all like that they are weak people they are not

very strong people my name is julia. i'm speechless because i've almost completely forgotten what i wanted to ask. after the break you'll meet the person who was always the closest man in julie is life but a father wanted to be easy if they are if he can meet a serious said yes absolutely he hasn't seen him for ages will he even recognise him you can see for yourself after the break. if you're thinking about an alcoholic drink associated with russell it's probably not going to be one that springs into your head but they've been making it here on the black sea coast for more than two thousand kids and there's an industry which

really can compete with the best the rest of the world has to offer i've come to meet some of the people going the greats and to see if i can find out the secret to the perfect place. but. i. guess. the a supply problem is terrible they are legendary hard to make out to let you get along here is a plot that never had sex with others make their lives let's call it was. just say. listen the

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on our reporter's twitter. on instagram looked. to be in the know. on law. and. you would fly in julius and i view of us watching love and respect myself and i have i promise that i shall never cease working on myself and from this day on be true to myself abets up wolf for us a ritual for poor a in sickness and in health. i will love and accept myself until the day that i die i challenge myself to live in complete harmony with myself and to lead a happy life. congratulations again on the day when you've accepted yourself. why did you boys there was no other way i couldn't live as

a man. i could be neither father nor hospital i know that i'm a woman. which i'm not ok it was your first marriage what about the second that was immediately after the first war i don't know if it's still a mystery to me well you said to her my re i love you will you marry me i was trying. to fit in yes i mean i tried to kill that in myself but i think it's actually easier to be a man i know with you it's physiological but if we're talking about living in a society a woman has so many responsibility as. you have to wear makeup shave your legs polish a nail so you can just walk around in worn out box or you can do that it's creepy of course not but i want to do that weights and a man can wear socks with holes in it too short and sweat pants and play pockets.

and who will complain clue in about what. he's in there good and bad well i'll tell you a secret i hope no one will hear me even with a didnt like that he is a god with a huge belly with no reaction he believes he is a cool guy because he can drive a woman and find another one there always be someone who will be happy to have him always. cool i had a number of sham marriages well one was official right another marriage another baby and still nothing more nothing changed about lee i was still the same person i had always been with compartment on the divorced i supported my child my nationally and helped as best as i could when we divorced she was eight or nine months maybe a year old. now she's twenty six. i guess i wouldn't recognize her

if i met her on the street. who i spoke to her on the phone and we had great to meet over. there the more i thought i could give myself a little treat and meet the person who has my own blood flowing through the day. to me of course. i was there in vain and rina texted to say she couldn't make it and she had a lot of things to do she couldn't come which was a pity much and i feel so stupid and upset.

i doubt a reader knew it was my birthday she couldn't mean it to be such an empty present the worst time for me was when i was forty five it was a tough this year of my life that year left me the best impressions i've ever had in my whole life i realized that it was too late i was way past the critical stage i was depressed it's a most dangerous suicidal state for a hit boiling point. after my second attempt to commit suicide failed which i decided there was not much point in trying again for a third time it was much better to see what would happen if i started taking hormones going so that's what i did.

where back exactly where we stopped last time i asked you for a document for any relevance so typical as that could prove that the clinic has a license can you present such documents are not i can't present such documents you've come to the hearing unprepared again what next would you expect us to do take my word for it. of news but i believe in anything. that i want to do now. the case wouldn't matter anymore. if i meet him i will have nothing to say to him i can't imagine. what i will do if we me what can i tell him i certainly

want to say hello and i don't want to say hello julia either you or i could but i don't want to. bring i don't want to encourage him i'll never pat him on the shoulder in an operating room and say go on man if he feels that male member prevents him from having a happy life he's free to remove it and i won't come to the hospital with a banner saying no to julia sole of your i won't do that when he's never done me any wrong after he became a woman although he did me a lot of bad things before but it really puts me off that i have such a father anyway no matter how you look at it i feel ashamed that. kolo is going to get intimate with when i have children of my own i won't be able to tell them that this is their grandfather but i can't go for

a walk with him or come to his place on saturday to drink beer and watch football to do all the simple things i would like to do. i did not fall in love with him what i felt was pity you when i saw him for the first time he had the eyes of the beaten dog thrown out on the street he's had this desolate look in his eyes all his life. always felt he wanted to be me no woman i mean for example he would ask me to stand in front of the mirror and point out that our foreheads look alike and some other things. people were both in it when i was pregnant with terrible texaco's as the first thing i wanted to know was whether it was a congenital disorder union and when i found out it wasn't i come down with it at least i will have a baby i thought your film the dentist after this operation you behave here all these ten twenty thirty years that remain with whom would you let him do it

if it'll make life easier for him because in fact it seems self that he's struggling with working don't disturb me why i don't just mean you should have thanked everyone he hold no grudge and forgive everyone but if not it's not too late for that even know you meant everything will work out for him or her. doing your job you're doing now is humiliating which is difficult but not humiliating how is it demeaning i do my job properly but psychologically you're still

a tease mom i need the money i'm just earning money i know i know humiliating but you can do it all your life i'm not going to i've already told you i'm leaving for moscow i've been offered a job that. smothered your positions for having examined the documents presented to the courts the court's role to dismiss the claim by hearsay over there from a can imagine it's in the birth certificate. that it's present project may be in accordance with the law numbers up on it but at.

what do we do now mum would even name me i know how difficult it is feverish and it's very important for me don't be offended if you know i'm not my child can't you see that i'm definitely not going to answer to the name during trying to understand that and tell dad well use another name when you have one already have another name in all the medical statements you don't have it yet don't be offended mom you have to understand one very simple thing i love you and i want you to love me too i'm a clever woman i know what to do i've been loving you all my life i've lived my life for you. is the course there when i die i don't want to have the name yury or overdog for my tombstone or the other man you're really sets my teeth on edge and for good i know

i won't be able to make any decisions by then you know you're new to the new you'll never even get to see it from arthur make the myth thoughts of it frustrates me if you're watching i really don't want that to be a man's name a much tombstone throw in which would be better not to have a dr at school. but he's your son you can anyone be closer to him than you i think most people both was sorry for her. you heard his father saying that it would be easier for him if his son killed himself he moved on what i think his life is difficult to reason on happy man any suffering over with but what of that. my name is julia.

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