didn't it surprise you that they claim you could north or west from the roof yes it did i don't know why they didn't reply it's so strange i can't comment i don't know what happened if i had the opportunity i would have done it myself what are you going to do next or what i'm going to call the clinic and the local registry office i'll try to explain the situation because it's delaying the surgery.

i told you it to think twice because there was an opportunity that she wouldn't be allowed on the plane with or that the police would detain her you can i told her to wear no makeup tearing checking and on the plane she could have put it on later and not before customs a lot of women wear trousers now julip put on a travis high heeled shoes and make up anyway. she was looking for trouble because . of course they didn't want to load jewelry or through the customs because what they saw didn't conform to what her passport sat the ground they call for doctors to check because they saw a woman who according to the documents was a man. i

am not recognized in russian law jazz nothing there about me people tell me that anything which is not expressly forbidden must be allowed so i figured that nothing was forbidden to me because there's no law saying to the seller of your can go through customs in a dress and high heels so i could do it and i did. hear . it when i didn't start a fight stand my feet or throw shoes at them i just looked at them smiled and waited till i saw your face. and you were so serious so concentrated. i'm convinced the top thoughts materialize if you're fraid of something sooner or later you'll have to face it but there's no point hiding the why do that anyway i

want to live openly and freely just live being transaction is a temporary state on a woman and very happy about that whole since i have all my documents my possibly nothing but. ladies and gentlemen please give up your seats to elderly passengers mothers with children all pregnant ladies. but when you were ten when you were thirty you mom i didn't know anything then understand you had a family you were a normal person. i'm still a normal person i think it's living on your own that has brought it all about. and it's nothing that living alone could do i was born with it the doctors have already

told you it's innate it's. why when you believe the experts there's no other way you can't catch it it's all about genes it's a combination of chromosomes and group life doesn't affect it in any way mum white . mom white quickly. go through ok let's take a blood test. from a vein yes give me arms. which. most of the most of the crux of the issue is the removal of a penis causes your nation problems to be honest i can't even look at it yuck. it seems so strange just to kind of review the studio organ. the which is

a it will be quite a long operation because we will have to remove part of some blood vessels and adjust your rethrow within the growing oh maybe we could start with removing the testicles and then decide yes then you'll have to decide look you know you're so cheerful huge because your testicles still produce a little to her yes once the testosterone is gone there will be no such happiness anymore. then we might need to insert physiologically female doses of the hormone to maintain this good mood. you need hormones not for general masculine as asian boy to make your beard grow will be needed as an effective anti stress agent to have a good mood this is the. root of it in as early as the age of five i started to think it was wrong they called me and treated me as a boy uppermost i was aware that there were boys and girls could move and they put

me with the former one that i knew i really belonged with the latter. but it came as a shock to me i tried to analyze myself and came to the conclusion that i couldn't change anything so i just withdrew into myself for the many years with the woman was one small but very great secret that i had to live with morning and what's right that. does occur still difference between q and me as a child at school i didn't kill so why i was one of the children gave me a hard time to me didn't talk to me and insulted me. i was an outcast with the story of my life is based on what was a great tragedy for my mother to sean she believed that she had to give birth to daughter so that there would be someone to look after her when she's old but you know if you call that was her life plan so when after labor the doctor told her it

was a boy she got hysterical and she said take him away it's not my baby she was convinced the babies had been switched and i saw mom was suffering because of me just because i wasn't born a girl i feel guilty for something that wasn't in fact my fault amash it's this feeling to kreutz i was delighted to be a woman willing to i took interest in all aspects of my mother's life i tried to prove i was worthy of her love and if she could only feel love for a daughter i was determined to become that daughter for her. children.

both of the goals. and you were arguing when we were choosing this t. shirt i was afraid it would be too big for me. to be in fact to size up would have been better i told you that you needed a bigger and with a look to the song mommy knows best at least today after i do jewish hair she looks beautiful and usually an ugly one i don't do your hair that well you mean you're not as beautiful can't help crying just looking at it. through juliette's come off it do something normal. i'm here at the top and you have a cool hairstyle that folliot my hair looks like i'm with you how would you have to look the volume is so nice you sure from your lips to god's is. ungrateful pig no way. i think i've spent too much

time with to where i want to live a comb a life of my own and enjoy the high level i've managed to achieve. and i have one more thing to ask of you you don't undergo any surgery mom i am asking you. are dry to understand one simple thing my whole body has changed i'm a woman now and i can't have male organs i'm a woman as you try to understand it once and for all. you cut thirteen doesn't matter you have to admit a woman can't have male organs even if you come to the doctor to do this operation it's called to me term amy and what people call it it's cold

castration but the organ remains anyway. that removing that is the second stay after a year i can remove absolutely everything is just much more expensive. when you buy you aware that you're not that young when i know you do you realize that i could have died three years ago i tried to kill myself do you understand that that i have gained another three years of life would be good you must forgive the suicide rate is almost ninety percent. are they all like that they are weak people they are not very strong people my name is julia. oh i'm speechless because i almost completely forgot what i wanted to ask. after the break you'll meet the person who was always the closest man in julie is life that's a father wanted to be easy if he can meet

a serious said yes absolutely he hasn't seen him for ages will he even recognise him you can see for yourself after the break. ben bernanke has become a god head and instead of walking on water he's walking on paper i'll walk in a paper yeah. yeah yeah but i don't think we're going to last or is like moment you know where they put him in the crypt and then he goes up to heaven i think they're going to put this guy into the crypt and the economy is going to go stink go south though obliterate at. least be two language. programs and documentaries in arabic in

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live. up rules in effect that means you can jump in anytime you want. to live. of us want to love and respect myself by promise that i shall never cease working on myself and from this day on be true to myself for better or for us for richer for poorer in sickness and in health. i will love and accept myself until the day that i die i challenge myself to live in complete harmony with myself and to lead a happy life. and good relations again on the day when you've accepted yourself.

why did you do boys there was no other way. i could we need a father nor hospital i know that on the woman. which i'm not ok it was your first marriage what about the second that was immediately after the first war i don't know if it's still a mystery to me well you said to her my re i love you will you marry me i was trying. to fit in so yes i mean i tried to kill that in myself but i think it's actually easier to be a man i know with you it's physiological but if we're talking about living in a society a woman has a responsibility as. you have to wear makeup shave your legs polish a nail so you can just walk around in worn out. you can do that it's creepy of course not but i want to do that wait send

a man can wear socks with holes in it too short and sweat pants and play pockets. and who will complain clue in about why. he's in there good and bad well i'll tell you a secret i hope no one will hear me even with a didnt like that he is a god with a huge belly with no interaction he believes he is a cool guy because he can drive a woman and find another one there always be someone who will be happy to have him always. the one who can cure i had a number of sham marriages well one was official another marriage another baby and still nothing more nothing changed about only that i was still the same person i had always been with the bottom of all the divorced i supported my child my nan

shelley and helped as best as i could when we divorced she was eight or nine months maybe a year old. now she's twenty six. i guess i wouldn't recognize her if i met her on the street. who i spoke to her on the phone and we had great to meet over. there the more i thought i could give myself the little treat and meet the person who has my own blood flowing three days. to the marine corps. to the scene of your i was there anything rena texted to say she couldn't make it

and she had a lot of things to do she couldn't come which was a pity which in the first says stupid upset. i doubt a reader knew it was my birthday she couldn't mean it to be such an empty present the worst time for me was when i was forty five it was a tough this year of my life that year in may the deepest impressions i've ever had in my whole life i realized that it was too late i was way past the critical stage and i was depressed it's a most dangerous suicidal state for a hit boiling point. to my second attempt to commit suicide failed which i decided there was not much point in trying again for a third time it was much better to see what would happen if i started taking hormones going so that's what i did.

where back exactly where we stopped last time i asked you for a document for any relevance so typical as that could prove that the clinic has a license can you present such documents are not no i can't present such documents you've come to the hearing unprepared again what next what do you expect us to do take my word for it. of news that i believe in anything. that i want to do now. in. the case wouldn't matter anymore. if i

meet him i will have nothing to say to him i can't imagine. what i will do if we can i tell him i certainly want to say hello and i don't want to say hello julia either you or i could but i don't want to. bring i don't want to encourage him i'll never pat him on the shoulder in an operating room and say go on man if he feels that male member prevents him from having a happy life he's free to remove it and i won't come to the hospital with a banner saying no to julia soul of the over i won't do that when he's never done me any wrong after he became a woman although he did me a lot of bad things before but it really puts me off that i have such a father anyway no matter how you look at it i feel ashamed.

oh oh i'm going to do when i have children of my own i won't be able to tell them that this is their grandfather but i can't go for a walk with him or come to his place on saturday to drink beer and watch football to do all the simple things i would like to do. i did not fall in love with him but i felt it was pity you when i saw him for the first time he had our eyes of the beaten dog thrown out on the street he's had this desolate look in his eyes all his life and had always felt he wanted to be me no woman i mean for example he would ask me to stand in front of the mirror and point out that our foreheads look alike and some other things. well appeared we were both in it when i was pregnant with terrible texaco's it's the first thing i wanted to know was whether it was a congenital disorder union and when i found out it wasn't i come down with it at least i will have

a baby i thought you have to understand if after this operation you behave here you've got all these ten twenty thirty years that remain with whom would you let him do it if it'll make life easier for him because in fact it's himself that he's struggling with i'm working don't disturb me why don't disturb me he should have thanked everyone he hold no grudge and forgive everyone would you say that it's not too late for that even know you meant everything will work out for him or her. doing your job you're doing now is humiliating which is difficult with no humidity

how is it demeaning i do my job properly but psychologically you're still a tease mamma i need the money i'm just earning money i know i know humiliating but you can do it all your life i'm not going to i've already told you i'm leaving for moscow i've been offered a job that. this mother of positions for having examined the documents presented to the court the court's role to dismiss the claim by hearing all the deaths from macon amendments and the birth certificate. that it's present project may be in accordance with the law numbers up on it but at.

what do we do now mum would even name me i know how difficult it is federman it's very important for me don't be offended if you know i'm not my child can't you see that i'm definitely not going to answer to the name during trying to understand that and tell dad well use another name when you have one already have another name in all the medical statements you don't have it yet don't be offended mom you have to understand one a very simple thing i love you and i want you to love me too i'm a clever woman i know what to do i've been loving you all my life i've lived my life for you. is the course there when i die i don't want to have the name your ear all the dogs

on my tombstone they were there really sets my teeth on edge and for good i know i won't be able to make many decisions by then you know you're new to the new you'll never even get to see it some are there not the myth thoughts of it frustrates me if you're watching i really don't want that to be a man's name on my tombstone throw in which would be better not to have a drive it's. all a joke but he's your son you can anyone be closer to him the new costs i think most people will show sorry for her. you heard his father saying that it would be easier for him if his son killed himself he moved on what i think his life is difficult for the reason i'm happy man any suffering over with but with all of that. my name is julia.

i was thinking somehow i had to come back because mom was waiting for me. and i just knew that everything would be fine for some reason they were so confident because we were going to get married officially after he came back how could he not come back because the mere thought of it never crossed her mind. when the militants decided to try and break through her screaming grenade. go forward they explode and blow them all run his back toward us and it was all over all. we know that our call moran's on our commander won't leave us no matter how tough it gets we're team. there who are bored of getting was

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