i have to admit that saying the torch in the space was kind of neat i think that when and if the world ever becomes an ideological battle ground again then the olympics will become worth watching but for now it's just generic sports from generic countries a generic stadiums but that's just my opinion. there's one thing that i still can't understand what you mean i don't want to ruin your good mood but i have this one question what are you doing this all for. listen to me you had everything to respect authority he gave them all up and decided to go your way but what for.

it was a wait and for him he tried to restrain himself and find his place in society in spite of this disease. but look here in the first out anyway is that. you said it really puts me off that i have such a father. with a warming up because it was one small but very great secret that i have to live with. and i am a transsexual woman is where news and now i'm going through a transition period the so-called homeowner will stage when i need to adjust to society as a woman you know that's why i need to change my sex in my possibles in the past but in a poor. there's. no surgery no not yet it's very expensive and i don't have enough

money money to the right amount first and with the name yury over dove in my passport people treat me as though i'm a non-person and i can't find a job lawyers don't even believe it's really my past that. hugh substantiate your claim with a number of medical reports could you present them to me so far you have only presented a medical report from professor going to check us clinic i thought that report would be enough i didn't think i'd need anything else if you referred to it as a medical statement than you need to have a document proving this clinic really is a magic oregon has ation authorized to issue such reports. i don't have such a document will you be able to present it yes i think so when will you be able to present a concert and exact date i'll have to submit

a request in five days ten how many. about ten probably it's hard to say exactly the cases are joined to the ninth of september if the clinic refuses to provide you with the necessary documents required to all sign an enquiry. didn't it surprise you that they claim you could north a request from the yes it did i don't know why they didn't reply it's so strange i can't comment i don't know what happened if i had the opportunity i would have done it myself what are you going to do next for when i'm going to call the clinic and the local registry office i'll try to explain the situation because it's delaying the surgery.

i told you it to think twice because there was an opportunity that she wouldn't be allowed on a plane with more than the police would detain her i told her to wear no make up during check in and on the plane she could have put it on later and not before customs a lot of women wear trousers now julip put on a travis high heeled shoes and make up anyway. she was looking for trouble because . of course they didn't want to load jewelry or through the customs because what they saw didn't conform to what her passport sat the ground they call for doctors to check because they saw

a woman who according to the documents was a man. i am not recognized in russian law jazz nothing there about me or people tell me that anything which is not expressly forbidden must be allowed so i figured that nothing was for that and maybe there's no law saying to the seller of your can go through customs in a dress and high heels so i could do it and i did. hear . you get in line i didn't start a fight stand my feet or throw shoes at them i just looked at them smiled and waited till i saw your face. and you were so serious so concentrated.

i'm convinced the thought thoughts materialize your fifth your fright of something sooner or later you'll have to face it but there's no point hiding from why do that anyway i want to live openly and freely just live being transsexual is a temporary state i'm a woman i'm very happy about that is i have all my documents i possibly nothing but . ladies and gentlemen please give up your seats to elderly passengers mothers with children full pregnant ladies. but when you were ten when you were thirty you mom i didn't know anything then

understand you had a family you were a normal person. i'm still a normal person i think it's living on your own that has brought it all about. and it's nothing that living alone could do i was born with it the doctors have already told you it's innate it's. why when you believe the experts there's no other way you can't catch it all about genes it's a combination of chromosomes and group life doesn't affect it in any way mum white . mom white quickly. go through ok let's take a blood test. from a vein yes give me arms. most

of the most of the crux of the issue is the removal of a penis causes your anation problems to be honest i can't even look at it yuck. seems so strange just a kind of really the studio organ. zero which is a girl it will be quite a long operation because we will have to remove part of some blood vessels and adjust your rethrow within the growing oh maybe we could start with removing the testicles and then decide yes then you'll have to decide look at you know you're so cheerful yes because your testicles still produce a little to her yes once that's tossed in is gone there will be no such happiness anymore. then we might need to insert physiologically female doses of the hormone to maintain this good mood. you need hormones not for general masculine as asian boy to make your beard grow will be needed as an effective anti stress agent to

have a good mood this is the. root of it as early as the age of five i started to think it was wrong that they called me and treated me as a boy uppermost i was aware that they were boys and girls could move and they put me with the former one that i knew i really belonged with the latter. but it came as a shock to me i tried to analyze myself and came to the conclusion that i couldn't change anything so i just withdrew into myself for the many years with the woman with one small but very great secret that i had to live with morning and was right that. does occur still difference between you and me as a child at school i didn't kill so when i was little but other children gave me a hard time to me didn't talk to me and inside. to me. i was an outcast but

the story of my life is based on what was a great tragedy for my mother to shawn she believed that she had to give birth to daughter so that there would be someone to look after her when she's old nobody knows if you call that was her life plan so when after labor the doctor told her it was a boy she got hysterical and she said take him away it's not my baby she was convinced the babies had been switched to yellow and i saw mom was suffering because of me just because i wasn't born a girl i feel guilty for something that wasn't in fact my fault matias you were. this feeling to kreutz i was delighted to be a woman willing to i took interest in all aspects of my mother's life i tried to prove i was worthy of her love and if she could only feel love for a daughter i was determined to become that daughter for her.

both of the goals. and you were arguing when we were choosing this t. shirt i was afraid it would be too big for me. to be in fact to size up would have been better if i told you that you needed a bigger and with a look to the song mommy knows best at least today after i do jewish hair she looks beautiful and usually an ugly when i don't do your hair is that what you mean you're not as beautiful or can't help crying just looking at it. come off it do something normal. so how calm here at the top and you have

a cool hairstyle that folliot my hair looks like a bush you have what you have to look the volume is so nice that you're sure from your lips to god's is. ungrateful pig no way. i think i've spent too much time get to where i want to live a comb a life of my own and enjoy the high level i've managed to achieve. and i have one more thing to ask of you you don't undergo any surgery mom i am asking you when you are money. dry to understand one simple thing either my whole body has changed i'm a woman now or you can't have male organs i'm a woman as you try to understand it once and for all. you can thirteen or it

doesn't matter you have to admit a woman can't have male organs even if you come to the doctor to do this operation it's called to me term a. lot of people call it it's cold castration but the organ remains anyway. that removing that is the second stay after a year i can remove absolutely everything is just much more expensive. when you buy you aware that you're not that young when i know you do you realize that i could have died three years ago i tried to kill myself do you understand that that i have gained another three years of life would be good you must for the suicide rate is almost ninety percent. are they all like that they are weak people they are not very strong people my name is julia. well i'm

speechless because i've almost completely forgotten what i wanted to ask. after the break you'll meet the person who was always the closest man in julie is life that's a father what it is if three years she committed a serious said yes absolutely she hasn't seen him for ages will he even recognize him you can see for yourself after the break. weeks between thanksgiving and christmas in the united states a confluence roughly twenty percent of annual mall shopping during that period of time people are much less rational one day when they sell yes certainly in our modern era people are often spending money that they don't have and spending it on things they don't need to accomplish what they haven't.

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a happy life. couldn't good relations again on the day when you've accepted yourself. why did you do boys there was no other way as a man. i could be neither father nor hospital i know that on the woman she needed which i'm not ok it was your first marriage what about the second that was immediately after the first and what's more i don't know it's still a mystery to me well you said to her my we i love you will you marry me i was trying. to fit in that's yes i mean i tried to kill myself but i think it's actually easier to be a man i know with you it's physiological but if we're talking about living in a society a woman has a responsibility as. if you have to look good where makeup shave your legs polish

a nail so you can just walk around in worn out boxer you can do that it's creepy of course not of course but i want to do that weights and a man can wear socks with holes in it too short and sweat pants and play pocket for . and who will complain clue in about why. he's in there good and bad well i'll tell you a secret i hope no one will hear me even with a didnt like that he is a god with a huge belly with no reaction he believes he is a cool guy because he can doubt a woman and find another one there always be someone who will be happy to have have always. the one you can fool i had a number of sham marriages well one was official another marriage another baby and

still nothing more nothing changed about only that i was still the same person i had always been with compartment on the divorced i supported my child my nan surely and helped as best as i could when we divorced she was eight or nine months maybe a year old. now she's twenty six. i guess i wouldn't recognise her if i met her on the street. who i spoke to her on the phone with greed to meet over. there the more i thought i could give myself a little treat and meet the person who has my own blood flowing three days. to me a call.

to the scene of your i was there in vain and rena texted to say she couldn't make it and she had a lot of things to do she couldn't come which was a pity morgan i feel so stupid and upset. i doubt a reader knew it was my birthday she couldn't mean it to be such an empty present the worst time for me was when i was forty five it was a tough this year of my life that year and made the best impressions i've ever had in my whole life i realized that it was too late i was way past the critical stage and i was depressed it's a most dangerous suicidal state for a hit boiling point. after my second attempt to commit suicide failed which i decided there was not much point

in trying again for a third time it was much better to see what would happen if i started taking hormones going so that's what i did. where back exactly where we stopped last time i asked you for a document for any relevant so typical as that could prove that the clinic has a license can you present such documents or not no i can't present such documents you've come to the hearing unprepared again what next would you expect us to do take my word for it. of news that i believe in anything. that i want to do.

just an operation the case wouldn't matter anymore. if i meet him i will have nothing to say to him i can't imagine. what i will do if we me what can i tell him i certainly want to say hello and i don't want to say hello julia either you or i could but i don't want to. bring i don't want to encourage him i'll never pat him on the shoulder in an operating room and say go on man if he feels that male member prevents him from having a happy life he's free to remove it and i won't come to the hospital with a banner saying no to julia soul of the over i won't do that when he's never done me any wrong after he became a woman although he did me a lot of bad things before but it really puts me off that i have such a father anyway no matter how you look at it i feel ashamed.

kolo. when i have children of my own i won't be able to tell them that this is their grandfather but i can't go for a walk with him or come to his place on saturday to drink beer and watch football to do all the simple things i would like to do. i did not fall in love with him but i felt it was pity you when i saw him for the first time he had the eyes of the beaten dog thrown out on the street he's had this desolate look in his eyes all his life and always felt he wanted to be me no woman i mean for example he would ask me to stand in front of the mirror and point out that our foreheads look alike and some other things. will appear to be when i was

pregnant with terrible texaco's it's the first thing i wanted to know was whether it was a congenital disorder union and when i found out it wasn't i come down with it at least i will have a baby i thought you have to understand if after this operation you behave here you've got all these ten twenty thirty years that remain with whom would you let him do it if it'll make life easier for him because in fact it seems self that he's struggling with i'm working don't disturb me why don't disturb me he should have thanked everyone he hold no grudge and forgive everyone would you say that it's not too late for that even know you meant everything will work out for him or her.

doing your job you are doing now is humiliating which is difficult but not you minutes and how is it demeaning i do my job properly but psychologically you're still a tease mom i need the money i'm just earning money i know i know humiliating but you can do it all your life i'm not going to i've already told you i'm leaving for moscow i've been offered a job that. smothered you positions for having examined the documents presented to the court records rule to dismiss the claim by hearing over there from making amendments and the birth certificate. that it's present project may be in accordance with the law numbers up on it but at.

what do we do now mum would even name me i know how difficult it is federman it's very important for me don't be offended if you know i'm not my child can't you see that i'm definitely not going to answer to the name during trying to understand that and tell dad well use another name when you have one already have another name in all the medical statements you don't have it yet don't be offended mom you have to understand one a very simple thing i love you and i want you to love me too i'm a clever woman i know what to do i've been loving you all my life i've lived my life for you.

is the course there when i die i don't want to have the name your ear all the dogs on my tombstone that were there really sets my teeth on edge and for good i know i won't be able to make many decisions by then you know you're going to get a new you'll never even get to see it from arthur met them if thought of it frustrates me if you're watching i really don't want that to be a man's name a much tombstone throw in which would be better not to have a dr at school. but he's your son can anyone be closer to him the new i think most people will sorry for her. you heard his father saying that it would be easier for him if his son killed himself he moved on what i think his life is difficult to reason i'm happy man any suffering over with but with all of that. my name is julia.

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