we were expecting them and we were ready for them at any moment but it was a very difficult area they were able to open fire first. was not. for a special forces soldier thinking is paramount but was that's how he makes the right decisions. during that five militants tried to outflank the three soldiers led by. and started throwing hand grenades at them. both covered one of those grenades with his own body and. of course i was frightened but i tried to compose myself i was thinking somehow i had to come back because mom was waiting for me this is a thought the cams you down mom's waiting. x. is

a serious number for their. every one of us is ready for it well perhaps not completely ready to prepare yourself for death but we do know the risks we know what our task is and above all where it is that we. that was the first loss my unit ever suffered. and the first loss under my command . general due to a good sir. just great. good morning tape measure i often think of them especially if. it was different to all the other new recruits. he approached me and asked if he could enroll in my group who he wanted to serve in a special nessie unit. i showed him a blank sheet from my notebook and said see this sheet which you too are

a clean sheet at the moment it's up to you to prove yourself worthy like that everything's in your own hands. people have to make the decision themselves if a man wants to put himself to the test to go through this trial dan he must do so was becoming a soldier was always my ambition to work. and . i'm usually the singers are chosen arbitrarily fall in love with the first is mostly the soldier with the loudest voice. in this regard to you again it was always the best when he sang in the school choir and was never in barest. you can so he had no problem saying that army with so many people listening to him.

we both thought there was still plenty of time before he left town so when the fifteenth of november when he had to go eventually came around because we spent the whole night packing his things in a hurry one and he has a sweet tooth he had one so have his huge hold all was crammed to the break with snickers chocolate bars and other sweets a lot of hysteria taking warm clothes out to because they didn't fit but he wouldn't allow me to touch the sweets that was completely out of the question that . tell you that. i just knew that everything would be fine for some reason we were so confident and because we were going to get married officially after he came back with everything was planned or what even sent out invitations how could he not come back we thought

of the mere thought of it never crossed our minds that sorry i can't. heard somewhere that heroes and cowards feel exactly the same things when the difference is that the hero moves on anyway while the coward steps back. but up on the base national to be afraid every deployment feels like the first everything repeats itself everyone scared while getting ready for the mission i never think i'm invincible in mosul fearless nothing like that we have allies that event off of the mission in the classroom we drew plans of the conflicts.

this usually takes the best of us because the base are always up front because they're the quickest to make decisions like you getting up of deeds during that fight. that there was a. surprise. good. this was the so-called terrorist group which in just one year before that fight carried out several terror attacks inside pakistan these people were fanatics they'd abandon normal life for them life had become war. killed me. they took part in attacks on the security services. they were directly involved in killing law enforcement officers. and they were responsible for terror attacks in

the town of. in fact the whole area in dagestan and. the special forces are an isolated community i can't understand how their wives are able to wait constantly anxious. even when a special forces soldier is at home he can be called up at any moment. it means their wives are always waiting knowing that their man might not come back. we had a heart to heart talk wants me any game he had he told me a lot about himself i asked more and more questions sometimes i didn't even have to ask. he just took whatever the subject was and elaborate on that. when i asked my mother to send me my documents i didn't tell her i was going to sign

a contract to serve in a special forces unit. and she might have guessed but she didn't know for sure during my first deployment i was lying to her about where i was and what i was doing. that i can't find the words to describe how it feels when you're still tense and anxious that every phone call every text message sets your teeth on edge you can or when he calls and tells you that convoys of his own good we're going on a mission for about five days maybe more don't worry i'll call as soon as i'm back with. us. no camera. so we had an exam passing it grants you the right to wear the special forces chevron and khaki. you know that's the first stage everyone tried really hard your guinea was very strong willed i

used to say stubborn he would set goals for himself and you could see he was moving on to achieve them. with a good thing when you set yourself a goal you try to achieve it at any cost. the big. in spite of all that of the two hundred twenty two soldiers who took the exam only thirty three of those past. gainey and i were running in the same race this battle marsh's the main test on soldier stamina. as you can. the purpose of the test is to make sure that we will know what it's like when you're utterly exhausted and still have to drag

a fellow soldier along the borders that's a part of the special forces code under no circumstances will we ever leave one of our guys on the battlefield you drag your friend because you know that his life is more important than your own. i passed the test on my first attempt and you gainey on his second or third after passing that we could both probably hold our heads up high. in the i.c.u. the exam once in so did you have guinea. this whole he was doing pushups i slapped him on the helmet and said to yourself together boy. a lot of things remind me of him to work together for example no i had to do it alone.

just. to keep telling him we were doing exercises now i have to ask the other guy. i had nowhere to stay. time he agreed just like that he did the cleaning and i did the cooking so we lived together came home together slept in the same air bed woke up every morning and went to sirius together. that's enough with the time. time. if he hadn't covered the grenade with his body a lot of other guys would have died in a split second he made a conscious decision and found the courage to throw himself on top of it. it was not for nothing semi-colon's slow witted grunts but we have a purpose. unless we come back here is that russia may drown in chaos.

we took a dog golds above it with us on that mission or you wouldn't want to bring your lawn the forest is there was barely enough room in the truck and then we put her in her lap for everything. which was then she started behaving strangely. yogo and running frantically back and forth whimpering. she must have felt that she was about to die. but we were in several metres along the path before winds above us would have to the sight of you there was a patch with no snow and we saw a hatch of that very moment a dope and an militants started shooting from its. open file in the hatch and commanded to go for the attack a. sort of jump ahead and suddenly the dog lets out

a very loud how then she turned back and covered me with her own body and blocked the machine gun thaw that the medicines were aiming strikes at me. i had to last press it was so long so lalage and then it was silence. i couldn't help myself after that i started crying for. the most part i'm very often on think about i've recently taken in a german shepherd puppy and i'm training him for comet tusks. but i notice that she resembles the baldwin he sabates yes the same looking you saw is sort of a mystery laws just the way she did it there is a very clear resemblance between the two of them or. the guides own lies down. a good book.

told her my language as well but i will only react to situations i have read the reports so unlike. the no i will leave them to stay current comment on your latter point to say. to carry out a call it's all good talking no god. no more weasel words. when you vain a direct question be prepared for a change when you throw a punch be ready for a battle freedom of speech means little down to freedom to question. i look at the pledge it was terrible to say now i'm very hard to make out to let you get along here

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here's the list of course my health isn't what it used to be before i was wounded but i'm trying to get back in shape right now i'm trying to get as fit as a special forces officer is supposed to be. i'm preparing my family and friends for the idea that i'm not going to resign i try to explain to them there's no one who's ever going to take my place on the missions we carry out i just have to learn the lesson of my wound.

my unlisted in the army at the age of eighteen i was at college then finishing my first year i left when my summer examinations were in full swing and went to a suspects nazi unit. i'm fully aware of what happened and what could have happened in that battle i've long since prepared myself for any possible outcome. there are still people who try to make me change my mind to convince me that i should resign how could i do that if it's what i mean joy that's what i live for and. just i'm not going to plan anything now these military services taught me one very important thing to make no plans for the future ever i could be returning from

a combat mission with other guys now but fate decided otherwise. i was lucky to stay alive for now i'm going to mourn those who died at the big new . crop of course so i would like to get it crimson. being a true warrior and that's what i aspire to. but now i have to focus on restoring my health and when the time comes i'll do my very best to pass the exam so that i too can wear their crimson. only a very convincing and endurance test five sets of ten push ups ten pulling your legs on to your chest and ten jumps any questions no questions will assume front support position on my count. one two three. where you

as spence not soldier must progress and improve. you there's no point shouting that you're the toughest guy around of because there's always someone tougher. do you. wish to do. is the job to get paid for it will take a certain delight in doing in this world. there's no point thumping your chest boasting about being a member of the special forces i never liked that sort of thing. people often mistake me for a period trooper or a marine once called out in the street look there goes a crimson beret. people are reluctant to sit next to me on the buses there are three. percent reason many believe

that are boneheaded guerrillas who can't think properly and they're only good for hurting people and fighting the good work of the. board a flight is what tells you if you are ready you don't know what will happen tomorrow and in what situations your skills might come in handy the more you exercise the more easily you'll pass the test it was easier for you to earn the crimson brave and some others it just means you work harder journey training. the aim of these exams is to test our physical fitness which i'm convinced there are no limits to what the human body can do there are only psychological barriers and inspects now even when you can't go on any longer and somehow you do it anyway

. the most important thing is to break through the psychological barrier after that everything is easy. brother special forces. see it as blood. you convince yourself but you have to do it. if i hadn't passed the test i wouldn't have the chevrolet to seal me now. i also really want to go back where a on the uniform. all these factors together were very powerful incentive for me. he would wear this brain any weather even when it was freezing cold i remember him coming to save beer once to spend the winter holidays with me she got off the train with the screams and very in his head people were turning to look at him because he ears were blue with cold but he was so proud to be able to wear the b.

ray. of the party. hold jockey competitions within the squad and you get me took part in every one of them during missions we used to make up sketches it's just that it was always brilliant at all. and for people literally cried with laughter. you can code must push the horse i'm. sure. you know who i am sergeant do you know. if i keep going through this footage again and again and all the emotion i felt then washes over me again i can't seem to get my head around the idea that if he's no longer with us.

but mostly when i went away on my first deployment i was very nervous. i'm from siberia and we went to the south of the country everything was different even the people that deployment was a long one it lasted a full ten months and it all seems so much easier now because i've got the hang of it at last. but we learned what our task would be twenty four hours before the attack the f.s.b. had informed us about a group of militants in a particular area we had to come the ground for them. i saw a trodden path leading into a bush and noticed a hatch i pointed it out to the commander and at that moment i was wounded.

from with the battle only lasted for about five maybe seven minutes. ever. thing happened very quickly with these the movie in the house the terrorists were hiding out in their lead and the other half they were lying in ambush nearby and they started shooting at us from the bushes all of the same time and from several different directions. we the militants decided to try and break through it with her you can yap of screaming grenade at that. woman so i'm throwing myself onto it the explosion blew him over on his back and it was all over all of us. when we approached the militants hideout you know they had the advantage because we weren't expecting an attack. that's why we suffered such losses.

but we did retaliate well that we completed our task every single one got what was coming to them. and put up a number of if right after the assault we didn't know exactly who was wounded and who was killed so more later the commander reported casualties and said give of his dead or you know i didn't believe in the tryst or who. in the neighborhood down all of them is took off my gear with me and cried. more to the of jamie was in duty on the night of the twenty fifth of january and stuck in my memory. the laptop from one of the guys i switched on the computer in so that he was in skype the q. was looking at me on intently i asked what's that all the boat i haven't changed we'll meet very soon and he answered no i want to see you now that's what i

remember more than anything else. so on deployment everything is different to the group is more close knit when we start an operation there are fifteen soldiers with the commander in charge we know that our comrades and our commander won't leave us no matter how tough it gets we are team. so most of the military base is the place where your home and your family are which is all that fuss attracts. but on a mission a man reveals his true colors. after the first deployment but a lot of people leave special forces some of them realize it's simply not for them those who do stay though they make up a reliable team so you won't be afraid of going anywhere with them even to the moon . when.

the when some of our guys go on a combat mission. before they leave. for them to return safe and sound with no losses. school we say the number of beignets going oh no should be the same coming back to their homeland. i passed the exam and now i can wear the special forces insignia everything's great i have no regrets now i'm thinking about signing up for a second tour of duty. i

play as street cleaner who's in love with a waitress i go on stage managing that there's an audience i used to take drugs and drink like a fish called the police told me about the circus but i was such a punk i was like what circus. or circus of clinton's gonna. break down stereotypes about kids from disadvantaged backgrounds.

they look like bounty islands where the locals can enjoy the sun and the ocean. but what was buried here years ago. means these people are suffering the consequences. how much more poison lies on the ground. behind this zone there is what we call the callet bank on which there is a deposit of plutonium left by security test which caused the dispersion already and you clyde's despite previous cleaning efforts there remains a deposit of a little less than two kilos of plutonium stuck in the rock the coral reef with about ten metres down nuclear tests a never ending legacy. they all told me my language and all but i will only react to situations i have read the reports and

letting the players know i will leave them to the state department to comment on your latter point to say it is to secure a call is on the docket else i. think you know more weasel words when you made a direct question be prepared for a change when your son should be ready for a battle freedom of speech and let him down the freedom to cost. plus defines a country's success. faceless figures of economic growth. for a factual standard of living.

police in ukraine's capital pushed protesters banned from government offices dismantling barricades that have paralyzed while at the opposition has pledged to stand its ground also. or to thirty year and along with thousands of other people me see charges dropped against them a massive project is truly being prepared in russia. and plans for a multi-trillion dollar free trade zone across the asia pacific struggles to overcome fear is that some countries could fall prey to ravenous corporations looking to take advantage.