zinner old huge and good sir. just prior to. good morning play comrade major. i often think of them especially of gamey he was different to all the other near recruits. he approached me and asked if he could enroll in my group he wanted to serve in a special unit. i showed him a blank sheet from my notebook and said see the sheet that you too are a clean sheet at the moment it's up to you to prove yourself worthy like that everything's in your own hands. people have to make the decision themselves if a man wants to put himself to the test to go through this trial then he must do so also becoming a soldier was always my ambition to work. i'm

usually the singer is the chosen arbitrarily fall in love with the first is mostly the soldier with the loudest voice. in this regard to you again it was always the best song in the school choir and it was never barest. you can so he had no problem saying that army with so many people listening to him. we both thought there was still plenty of time before he left town so when the fifteenth of november when he had to go eventually came around because we spent the whole night picking his things in hari order and he has a sweet tooth he had one so have his huge hold all was crammed to the break with snickers chocolate bars and other sweets a lot of history taking warm clothes out to because they didn't fit but he wouldn't

allow me to touch the sweets that was completely out of the question the fact. now is that feeling. i just knew that everything would be fine for some reason we were so confident because we were going to get married officially after he came back with everything was planned or what even sent out invitations how could he not come back we thought of the mere thought of it never crossed our minds that sorry i can't.

heard somewhere that heroes and cowards feel exactly the same things when the difference is that the hero moves on anyway while the card steps back. but up on the case natural to be afraid every deployment feels like the first ever seen repeats itself everyone scared while getting ready for the mission i never think i'm invincible in mosul fearless nothing like that we're lies that event off of the mission in the classroom we drew plans of the conflicts. this usually takes the best of us because the base are always up front because they're the quickest to make decisions like you get the app of did during that fight. that there was a. surprise. good. this was the

so-called terrorist group which in just one year before that fight carried out several terror attacks inside pakistan these people were fanatics they'd abandon normal life for them life had become war really. killed me. they took part in attacks on the security services. they were directly involved in killing law enforcement officers. and they were responsible for terror attacks in the town of. in fact the whole area in dagestan and. the special forces are an isolated community i can't understand how their wives are able to wait constantly anxious. even when a special forces soldier is at home he can be called up at any moment. it means

their wives are always waiting knowing that their man might not come back. we had a heart to heart talk wants me a new guinea and he told me a lot about himself i asked more and more questions sometimes i didn't even have to ask. he just took whatever the subject was and elaborate on that. thought when i asked my mother to send me my documents i didn't tell her i was going to sign a contract to serve in a special forces unit. and she might have guessed but she didn't know for sure during my first deployment i was lying to her about where i was and what i was doing. that i can find the words to describe how it feels when you're so tense and anxious that every phone call every text message sets your teeth on edge you can or when he calls and tells you in that convoys of his own i'm good we're

going on a mission for about five days maybe more don't worry i'll call as soon as i'm back home with one. poll come us. no camera. so we had an exam passing it grants you the right to wear the special forces chevron and khaki bray. that's the first stage everyone tried really hard gainey was very strong willed i used to say stubborn he would set goals for himself and you could see he was moving on to achieve them. when you set yourself a goal you try to achieve it at any cost. in spite of all that of the two hundred twenty two soldiers who took the exam only thirty three of those past.

me and i were running in the same race. marsh's the main test was soldier stamina. as you can. the purpose of the test is to make sure that we will know what it's like when you're utterly exhausted and still have to drag a fellow soldier along the borders that's a part of the special forces code under no circumstances will we ever leave one of our guys on the battlefield you drag your friend because you know that his life is more important than your own. i passed the test on my first attempt and you gagne on his second or third after passing that we could both probably hold our heads up high.

exam once and so did you have guinea. this he was doing pushups i slapped him on the helmet and said to gether boy. a lot of things remind me of him to work together for example. no i had to do it alone. time just. to keep time when we were doing exercises now i have to ask other guys after i reenlisted i had nowhere to stay time he agreed just like that he did the cleaning and i did the cooking so live together came home together slept in the same air bed woke up every morning and went to sirius together. that's enough

time. time. if he hadn't covered the grenade with his body a lot of other guys would have done it in a split second he made a conscious decision and found the courage to throw himself on top of it. if it was not for nothing semi-colon's slow witted grunts but we have a purpose. unless we come here is that russia may drown in chaos. if we took a dog holds above it with us on that mission you wouldn't want to bring your lawn the first is there was barely enough room in the truck and then would put her in her lap for everything. which was then she started behaving strangely. yoga and running friends keep back and forth whimpering. till she must've felt that

she was about to die. but we went several meters along the path for the winds above us would have to the sight of you there was a patch with no snow and we saw a hatch of that very moment it opened and militants started shooting from it. i open file on the hatch and commanded to go for the attack a. sort of change jumped ahead and suddenly the dog less house a very loud how then she turned back and covered me with her own body and blocked the machine gun thaw that the medicines were aiming strikes at me. i had to last press it was so long so lalage and then there was silence. i couldn't help myself after that i started crying for.

the world for the most part i'm very often on think about i've recently taken in a german shepherd puppy and i'm training him for comet tusks. but i notice that she resembles the ball. is the same looking you saw is of admits the law is just the way she did it there is a very clear resemblance between the two of them. oh my good book. oh my god by i do no longer access bed clearly holy moley china bandspread koi how will we survive treat the mainstream media well in fact by do the e bay of china and no longer exist but calling but it was only ever one of by these many subsidiaries which is the big question and that was for one samsung product

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well in. the face. of course my health isn't what it used to be before i was but i'm trying to get back in shape right now i'm trying to get as fit as

a special forces officer is supposed to be. i'm preparing my family and friends for the idea that i'm not going. resign i try to explain to them there's no one who's ever going to take my place on the missions we carry out i just have to learn the lesson of my wound read the. rest of my enlisted in the army at the age of eighteen i was at college then finishing my first year i left when my summer examinations were in full swing and went to a suspect's not seen it before. i'm fully aware of what happened and what could have happened in that battle i've long since prepared myself for any possible outcome. of this there are still people who try to make me change my mind to convince me that i should resign how could i do that if it's what i remember joy

that's what i live for and. just i'm not going to plan anything now these military services taught me one very important thing to make no plans for the future ever i could be returning from a combat mission with other guys now but fate decided otherwise. i was lucky to stay alive. now i'm going to mourn those who died at you but you. cannot of course so i would like to get it crimson. being a true warrior going to fill it with that's what i aspire to. but for now i have to focus on restoring my health and when the time comes i'll do my very best to pass the exam so that i too can wear their crimson pereira. we're

going mensing an endurance test five sets of ten push ups ten pulling your legs on to your chest and ten jumps any questions or no questions will assume front support position on my company one two three. where you spetznaz soldier must progress and improve. you there's no point shouting that you're the toughest guy around of them because there's always someone tougher. to. yet. is the job to get paid for it will take a certain delight in doing in this world. there's no point thumping your chest and boasting about being a member of the special forces i never liked that sort of thing.

people often mistake me for a period trooper or a marine but once called out in the street look there goes a crimson berry. people are reluctant to sit next to me on the buses they're free. for seven reason many believe that are bone headed guerrillas who can't think properly and they're only good for hurting people and fighting. boy a fight is what tells you if you are ready you don't know what will happen tomorrow and in what situations your skills might come in handy the more you exercise the more easily you'll pass the test it was easier for you to earn the crimson brave

and some others it just means you work harder during the training. the aim of these exams is to test our physical fitness which i'm convinced there are no limits to what the human body can do there are only psychological barriers and inspects not even when you can't go on any longer and somehow you do it anyway . the most important thing is to break through the psychological barrier after that everything is easy. brother special forces. see it as blood. you convince yourself that you have to do it. if i hadn't passed the test i wouldn't have the chevrolet to seal me now. i also really want to go back where a on the uniform i'm. all these factors together were very powerful incentive for.

you would wear these barraine any weather even when it was freezing cold i remember him coming to save beer once to spend the winter holidays with me she got off the train with the screams and barry and his head people were turning to look at him because he ears were blue with cold but he was so proud to be able to wear the b. ray. and soul of the party. hold jockey competitions within the squad and you gainey took part in every one of them during missions we used to make of sketches it's just that it was always brilliant says it all. and got called in for people literally cried with laughter. you could almost push the horse i'm. sure i'm glad. you know who i am sergeant

do you know. if i keep going through this footage again and again and all the emotion i felt then washes over me again i can't seem to get my head around the idea that he can he's no longer with us. but mostly when i went away on my first deployment i was very nervous but i'm from siberia and we went to the south of the country everything was different even the people about the deployment was a long one it lasted a full ten months it all seems so much easier now because i've got the hang of it at last. but we learned what our task would be twenty four hours before the attack the f.s.b.

had informed us about a group of militants in a particular area we had become the ground for them. i saw a trodden path leading into a bush and noticed a hatch i pointed it out to the commander and at that moment i was wounded. some with the battle only lasted for about five maybe seven minutes. ever. thing happened very quickly because the movie of the with. the terrorists were hiding out in their lead and the other half they were lying in ambush nearby they started shooting at us from the bushes all of the same time and from several different directions. we the militants decided to try and break through it with her give you any apple screaming grenade and.

we're going so i'm throwing himself onto it the explosion blew him over on his back and it was all over all of us. moving when we approached the militants hideout you know they had the advantage because we weren't expecting an attack. that's why we suffered such losses. but we did retaliate well that we completed our task every single one got what was coming to them. thank you have a number of if right after the assault we didn't know exactly who was wounded and who was killed so more later the commander reported casualties and said give of his dead or you know i didn't believe him interest or who. in the neighborhood down on them was took off my gear with me and cried. more to you jamie was in duty on the night of the twenty fifth of january and stuck

in my memory it's a laptop from one of the guys i switched on the computer in so that he was in skype the q. was looking at me on intently i asked what's that all the boat i haven't changed we'll meet very soon and he answered no i want to see you now that's what i remember more than anything else. so on deployment everything is different to the group is more close knit when we start an operation there are fifteen soldiers with the commander in charge we know that our comrades and our commander won't leave us no matter how tough it gets we are team. city. so most of the military base is a place where your home and your family are. all that fuss will attract you but on a mission

a man reveals his true colors. after the first deployment but a lot of people leave special forces have a sea of some of them realize it's simply not for them those who do stay though they make up a reliable team so you won't be afraid of going anywhere with them even to the moon . before the when some of our guys go in a combat mission. for they leave. for them to return safe and sound with no losses. school we say the number of beignets going oh no the same coming back to their homeland. i passed the exam and now i can wear the special forces insignia everything's great

i have no regrets now i'm thinking about signing up for a second tour of duty. the olympic torch is on its epic journey to such a. one hundred twenty three days. through to some months under thompson cities of russia. relayed by fourteen thousand people or sixty five thousand kilometers. in a record setting trip by land air sea and others face. a

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