thinking is paramount tell you makes the right decisions. during that five militants tried to outflank the three soldiers led by. and started throwing hand grenades at them. covered one of those grenades with his own body. of course i was frightened but i tried to compose myself i was thinking somehow i had to come back because mom was waiting for me this is a thought the camp you down. here is now before you're. ready for it well perhaps not completely ready to prepare yourself for death but we do know the risks we know what. and above all where it is that we.

that was the first. and the first. tape measure. think of them especially if. it was different to all the other new recruits. he approached me and asked if he could enroll in my group who he wanted to serve in a special messy unit. i showed him a blank sheet from my notebook and said see the sheet that you too are a clean sheet at the moment it's up to you to prove yourself worthy like that everything's in your own hands. people have to make the decision themselves if a man wants to put himself to the test to go through this trial den he must do so

also becoming a soldier was always my ambition to work. i'm usually the singer is a chosen arbitrarily fall in love with the first is mostly the soldier with the loudest voice. in this regard to you again it was always the best when he sang in the school choir and was never even barest. you can so he had no problem saying that army with so many people listening to him. we both thought there was still plenty of time before he left town so when the fifteenth of november when he had to go eventually came around because we spent the whole night packing his things and harry on and here's a sweet tooth he had won so have his huge hold all was crammed to the break with

snickers chocolate bars and other sweets flutist hysteria taking warm clothes out to because they didn't fit but he wouldn't allow me to touch the suite and. that was completely out of the question to start. tell you that a few. times i just knew that everything would be fine for some reason we were so confident because we were going to get married officially after he came back with everything was planned but even sent out invitations how could he not come back with a little that the mere thought of it never crossed our minds that sorry i can't.

i heard somewhere that heroes and cowards feel exactly the same things when the difference is that the hero moves on anyway while the card steps back. on the case natural to be afraid every deployment feels like the first ever seen repeats itself everyone scared while getting ready for the mission i never think i'm invincible in mosul fearless nothing like that we're lies that event off of the mission in the classroom we drew plans of the conflicts. this usually takes the best of us because the bases are always up front because they're the quickest to make decisions like you getting up of deeds during that fight.

that there was a. surprise. and. this was the so-called terrorist group which in just one year before that fight carried out several terror attacks inside pakistan these people were fanatics but abandoned normal life for them life had become war. you're killed me. they took part in attacks on the security services. they were directly involved in killing law enforcement officers. and they were responsible for terror attacks in the town of. in fact the whole area in dagestan and. the special forces are an isolated community i can't understand how their wives are able to wait constantly anxious. even when

a special forces soldier is at home he can be called up at any moment. it means their wives are always waiting knowing that their man might not come back. i just had a heart to heart talk wants me and even. he told me a lot about himself i asked more and more questions sometimes i didn't even have to ask. he just took whatever the subject was and elaborate on it. so when i asked my mother to send me my documents i didn't tell her i was going to sign a contract to serve in a special forces unit. and she might have guessed but she didn't know for sure during my first deployment i was lying to her about where i was and what i was doing. that i can't find the words to describe how it feels when you're super

tense and anxious that every phone call every text message sets your teeth on edge you can or when he calls and tells you in that convoy so if his when i'm good we're going on a mission for about five days maybe more don't worry i'll call as soon as i'm back with the. pole come to us. no camera. so we had an exam passing it grants you the right to wear the special forces chevron and cocky. you know that's the first stage everyone tried really hard your game he was very strong willed i used to say stubborn rules and he would set goals for himself and you could see he was moving on to achieve them. if there was a good thing when you set yourself a goal you try to achieve it at any cost. in spite of all that

of the two hundred twenty two soldiers who took the exam only thirty three of those past. gainey and i were running in the same race this battle marsh is the main test those soldiers stamina. as you can. the purpose of the test is to make sure that we will know what it's like when you're utterly exhausted and still have to drag a fellow soldier along the borders that's a part of the special forces code under no circumstances will we ever leave one of our guys on the battlefield you drag your friend because you know that his life is more important than your own.

i passed the test on my first attempt and you gave me on his second or third after passing that we could both probably hold our heads up high. you know i think the exam once in so did you have guinea. he was doing pushups i slapped him on the helmet and said together boy. a lot of things remind me of him to work together for example no i had to do it alone. just. to keep telling him we were doing exercises now i have to ask the other guy after i reenlisted i had nowhere to stay. time he agreed just like that he did the cleaning and i did the cooking so we lived together came home together slept in

the same air bed woke up every morning and went to sirius together. that's enough with the time time. if he hadn't covered the grenade with his body a lot of other guys would have done it in a split second he made a conscious decision and found the courage to throw himself on top of it. it was not for nothing semi-colon's slow witted grunts but we have a purpose. unless we come here is that russia may drown in chaos. we took a dog holds above it with us on that mission you wouldn't want to bring your longer for us is there was barely enough room in the truck and then we put her in her lap for a group of. mature with and then she started behaving strangely. you're going

running friends keep back and forth whimpering. she must have felt that she was about to die. but we went several meters along the path winds above us would have to the sight of you there was a patch with no snow and we saw a hatch of that very moment it opened and militants started shooting from it. i open file on the hatch and commanded to go for the attack a. sort of jump ahead and suddenly the dog less house a very loud how then she turned back and covered me with her own body and blocked the machine gun thaw that the medicines were aiming strikes at me. i had to last press it was so long so lalage and then it was silence. i couldn't help

myself after that i started crying for. the world from of her i'm very often on think about i've recently taken in a german shepherd puppy and i'm training him for comet tusks. but i notice that she resembles. the same look and he saw the laws just the way she did there is a very clear resemblance between the two of them or. the. good . lead.

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who its central bank or its politicians they say this will never ever happen again and they keep song company but we hope to ensure that if this does company again it doesn't cause such a consequence make us all feel calls for tots. choose your language. make it without the federal subsidies still some. choose to consume. choose the opinions that immigrate to. choose the stories that impact your life choose the access to off.

the books of course my health isn't what it used to be before i was rounded up but i'm trying to get back in shape right now i'm trying to get as fit as a special forces officer is supposed to be. i'm preparing my family and friends for the idea that i'm not going to resign i tried to explain to them there's no one who's ever going to take my place on the missions we carry out i just have to learn the lesson of my wound. i enlisted in the army at the age of eighteen i was a college then finishing my first year i left when my summer examinations were in full swing and went to a suspects not seen it before. i'm fully aware of what happened and what could have happened in that battle i've long since prepared myself for any possible

outcome. there are still people who tried to make me change my mind to convince me that i should resign how could i do that if it's what i remained joy that's what i live for and. i'm not going to plan anything now. military services taught me one very important thing to make no plans for the future ever i could be returning from a combat mission with other guys now but fate decided otherwise. i was lucky to stay alive. now i'm going to mourn those who died at you when you. get up of course so i would like to get it crimson. being

a true warrior and that's what i aspire to. but for now i have to focus on restoring my health and when the time comes i'll do my very best to pass the exam so that i too can wear their crimson. commencing and endure and step five sets of ten push ups ten pulling your legs on to your chest and ten jumps any questions no questions assume front support position on my count . one two three. where you as spetznaz soldier must progress and improve. you there's no point shouting that you're the toughest guy around. because there's always someone tougher. yet. is the job to get paid for it will take a certain delight in doing in this world. there's no point thumping your chest and

boasting about being a member of the special forces i never liked that sort of thing. people often mistake me for a period trooper or a marine but once you know me and called out in the street look there goes a crimson very. old people are reluctant to sit next to me on the buses they're free. for some reason many believe that are bone headed guerrillas who can't think properly and they're only good for hurting people and fighting the good work of the. board a flight is what tells you if you are ready you don't know what will happen tomorrow

and then what situations or skills might come in handy the more you exercise the more easily you'll pass the test it was easier for you to earn the crimson brave and some others it just means you work harder during the training. the aim of these exams is to test our physical fitness which i'm convinced there are no limits to what the human body can do there are only psychological barriers and inspects not even when you can't go on any longer and somehow you do it anyway . the most important thing is to break through the psychological barrier after that everything is easy. brother special forces. see it as blood. you convince yourself that you have to do it. if i hadn't passed the test i wouldn't have the chevrolet

to seal me now. i also really want to go back where a on the uniform. all these factors together were very powerful incentive. he would wear this brain any weather even when it was freezing cold i remember him coming to save beer once to spend the winter holidays with me she got off the train with the screams and berry and he's head people were turning to look at him because he ears were blue with cold but he was so proud to be able to wear the b. ray. and soul of the party. hold jockey competitions within the squad and you getting took part in every one of them during missions we used to make up sketches his act was always brilliant at all. and got called on for people literally cried with laughter. you can

call him a special horse i'm. sure i've . you know who i am sergeant do you know. if i keep going through this footage again and again and all the emotion i felt then washes over me again i can't seem to get my head around the idea that he can he's no longer with us. but mostly when i went away on my first deployment i was very nervous but i'm from siberia and we went to the south of the country everything was different even the people that deployment was a long one it lasted

a full ten months and it all seems so much easier now because i've got the hang of it at last. but we learned what our task would be twenty four hours before the attack the f.s.b. had informed us about a group of militants in a particular area we had to come the ground for them. i saw a trodden path leading into a bush and noticed a hatch i pointed it out to the commander and at that moment i was wounded. some with the battle only lasted for about five maybe seven minutes. ever. thing happened very quickly with these the movie of the with. the terrorists were hiding out in their lead and the other half they were lying in ambush nearby they started shooting at us from the bushes all of the same time and from several different directions. we the militants decided to try and break

through it with her give you any apple screaming grenade and there. were guns i'm throwing himself onto it the explosion blew him or run his back and it was all over all of us. moving when we approached the militants hideout you know they had the advantage because we weren't expecting an attack. that's why we suffered such losses. but we did retaliate well that we completed our task every single one got what was coming to them. thank you have a number of if right after this so we didn't know exactly who was wounded and who was killed so more later the commander reported casualties and said into his dead or you know i didn't believe in the tourist who. in the neighborhood down all of

them was took off my gear with me and cried. more to your journey was in duty on the night of the twenty fifth of january and stuck in my memory she were the laptop from one of the guys i switched on the computer in so that he was in skype the she was looking at me on intently i asked what's that all the boat i haven't changed we'll meet very soon and he answered no i want to see you now that's what i remember more than anything else. so on deployment everything is different if the group is more close knit when we start an operation there are fifteen soldiers with the commander in charge we know that our comrades and our commander won't leave us no matter how tough it gets we're team. city. so most of the military base is the place where your home and your

family are which all that fuss will attract. but on a mission a man reveals his true colors will after the first deployment but a lot of people leave special forces have a sea of some of them realize it's simply not for them those who do stay though make up a reliable team so you won't be afraid of going anywhere with them even to the moon . when. the when some of our guys go in a combat mission. before they leave. for them to return safe and sound with no losses. school we say the number of beignets going out no should be

the same coming back to their homeland. i passed the exam and now i can wear the special forces insignia everything's great i have no regrets now i'm thinking about signing up for a second tour of duty. why is the price of gold so high. demand global demand do you think oldest money. know the value of the only place we have to live of the water that we need to

survive it's not compared to girl i mean gold we're not going to eat gold we're not going to bait with gold. we're not going to drink what clearly what i'm all is and is in a desperate economic situation absolutely right what we're wrong to do is say therefore any kind of economic development from the outside is going to be a benefit their only purpose is to extract as much money as possible to feed into the global financial system. with we are part of the geo political economic system that's extremely exploited or. first of all it's a question whether mining should even be carried out altogether can it be done in a way which doesn't destroy people's lives resources environment and so on you know

those are pretty serious questions mining is not a what a moment problem it's happening in asia in africa and south america in central america in mexico and it's even happening in canada and the united states. one of the wonderful drama and a lot of these policies i describe you. pleasure to have you with us here on t.v. today i'm sure.

yet here in the united states that's really a pretty astonishing thing when an organization like and we're used to doing work on behalf of writers around the world who are subject to censorship or who self said serve because they know that in china in iran you know they're going to be jailed or write they write we're not used to that here at home and i think that needs to sink in the courts and in the congress to recognize that we really are trading away some quite fundamental values potentially you know if you if you're a pure person under surveillance and you cannot be free os then i think that that is beginning to make a connection with people this is a terrible thing to be happening at our country to have this massive system and really to the world to have this massive system where a few people in complete secrecy can monitor anyone in the world and let's be clear if we look at the obama administration's rationale for who are terrorists they say they don't have to tell you why they declared a certain person a terrorist either so who knows how this information could be used now or in the

future against the american people. this is up to you this morning ukraine seems kind of for creation from the e.u. for european commission of says trade deal with the country are on hold all this made no install plan to go. protests in the capital that are being cheered on by western politicians. also this week a massacre as reported in syria with islamist rebel forces said to have killed dozens of civilians in the latest in a series of atrocities. arledge shakes off the bailout blues after breaking free of the e.u. is aid program but the government warns that doesn't mean an end to austerity. and russia does not want to dominate the world but will stand firm in defending its value as president putin delivers his annual state of the nation address.