and started throwing hand grenades at them. with his own body. of course i was frightened but i tried to compose myself i was thinking somehow i had to come back because for me this is a thought the chems you down mom's waiting. here is number four here. every one of us is ready for it well perhaps not completely ready to prepare yourself for death but we do know the risks we know what. and above all where it is that we.

are. just brave. tape measure. think of them especially if. it was different to all the other new recruits. he approached me and asked if he could enroll in my group who he wanted to serve in a special messy unit. i showed him a blank sheet from my notebook and said see the sheet that you too are a clean sheet at the moment it's up to you to prove yourself worthy like that everything's in your own hands. people have to make the decision themselves if a man wants to put himself to the test to go through this trial den he must do so or becoming a soldier was always my ambition to work. on

which usually the singer is a chosen arbitrarily fall in love with the first is mostly the soldier with the loudest voice. in this regard to you again it was always the best when he sang in the school choir and was never even barest. you can so he had no problem saying that army with so many people listening to him. we both thought there was still plenty of time before he left town so when the fifteenth of november when he had to go eventually came around because we spent the whole night picking his things in a hurry wondering spears the sweet tooth he had won so have his huge hold all was crammed to the break with snickers chocolate bars and other sweets flutist hysteria

taking warm clothes out to because they didn't fit but he wouldn't allow me to touch the sweets that was completely out of the question the fact. tell you that. i just knew that everything would be fine for some reason we were so confident because we were going to get married officially after he came back with everything was planned or what even sent out invitations how could he not come back with the mere thought of it never crossed our minds sorry i can't.

i heard somewhere that heroes and cowards feel exactly the same things when the difference is that the hero moves on anyway while the colored steps back. but often the case national to be afraid every deployment feels like the first ever seen repeats itself everyone scared while getting ready for the mission i never think i'm invincible in mosul fearless nothing like that we're lies that event off of the mission in the classroom we drew plans of the conflicts. this usually takes the best of us because the bases are always up front because they're the quickest to make decisions like you give up of deeds during that fight . that there was a. surprise. good. this was the

so-called terrorist group which in just one year before that fight carried out several terror attacks inside pakistan these people were fanatics they'd abandoned normal life for them life had become war really. killed me. they took part in attacks on the security services. they were directly involved in killing law enforcement officers. and they were responsible for terror attacks in the town of. in fact the whole because their area in dagestan. the special forces are an isolated community i can't understand how their wives are able to wait constantly anxious. even when a special forces soldier is at home he can be called up at any moment. it means

their wives are always waiting knowing that their man might not come back. we had a heart to heart talk wants me a new guinea and he told me a lot about himself i asked more and more questions sometimes i didn't even have to ask. he just took whatever the subject was and elaborate on that i thought when i asked my mother to send me my documents i didn't tell her i was going to sign a contract to serve in a special forces unit. and she might have guessed but she didn't know for sure during my first deployment i was lying to her about where i was and what i was doing. that i can't find the words to describe how it feels when you're simply tense and anxious that every phone call every text message sets your teeth on edge you can or when he calls and tells you in that convoy so if his when i'm good we're

going on a mission for about five days maybe more don't worry i'll call as soon as i'm back home with one. poll come to us. no cameras journalist for him by the way we had an exam passing it grants you the right to wear the special forces chevron and khaki bray. that's the first stage everyone tried really hard gainey was very strong willed i used to say stubborn he would set goals for himself and you could see he was moving on to achieve them. when you set yourself a goal you try to achieve it at any cost. in spite of all that of the two hundred twenty two soldiers who took the exam only thirty three of those past.

me and i were running in the same race. marsh's the main test was soldier stamina. as you can. the purpose of the test is to make sure that we will know what it's like when you're utterly exhausted and still have to drag a fellow soldier along the borders that's a part of the special forces code under no circumstances will we ever leave one of our guys on the battlefield you drag your friend because you know that his life is more important than your own. i passed the test on my first attempt and you get me on his second or third after

passing that we could both probably hold our heads up high. exam once in so did you have guinea. he was doing pushups i slapped him on the helmet and said to gether boy. a lot of things remind me of him to work together for example. no i had to do it alone. time just. to keep time when we were doing exercises now i have to ask the other guy after i reenlisted i had nowhere to say time he agreed just like that he did the cleaning and i did the cooking so live together came home together slept in the same air bed woke up every morning and went to sirius together. that's enough time. time.

if he hadn't covered the grenade with his body a lot of other guys would have done it in a split second he made a conscious decision and found the courage to throw himself on top of it. if it was not for nothing semi-colon's slow witted grunts but we have a purpose. unless we combat terrorism that russia may drown in chaos. we took a dog gold's a bubble with us on that mission you wouldn't want to bring your lawn the first is there was barely enough room in the truck and then we put her in her lap for freedom of movement. which was then she started behaving strangely. yogo and running friends keep back and forth whimpering. till she must've felt that

she was about to die. but we went several metres along the paths before winds above us would have to the site near there was a patch with no snow and we saw a hatch of that very moment it opened and militants started shooting from its. open file in the hatch and commanded to go for the attack a. sort of jump ahead and suddenly the dog less house a very loud how then she turned back and covered me with her own body and blocked the machine gun thaw that the medicines were aiming strikes at me. i had to last press it was so long so lalage and then it was silence. i couldn't help myself after that i started crying for.

the most part i'm very often think about i've recently taken in a german shepherd puppy and i'm training him for comet tusks. but i notice that she resembles. the same looking you saw is. just the way she did it there is a very clear resemblance between the two of them. do we speak your language or not a day of. school music programs and documentaries and spanish more matters to you. a little too much of angles to the stories. you hear.

this all teach spanish. visit. the year that was us two thousand and thirteen and what has made it memorable we ask in this edition of crossfire who excelled and who disappointed us what stories captured our attention because of hope or do you despair. some of the sixteen percent imports came from illegal fishing and. the european union is ironically taking fish from some of the poorest nations on earth so this is a very serious and very urgent problem that needs immediate international action. they enter our territorial waters they fish they load the fish into the ships and leave for europe. to day

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of course my health isn't what it used to be before i was but i'm trying to get back in shape right now i'm trying to get as fit as a special forces officer is supposed to be. i'm preparing my family and friends for the idea that i'm not going to resign i try to explain to them there's no one who's ever going to take my place on the mission . i just have to learn the lesson of my wound. in the army at the age of eighteen i was at college then finishing my first year i left when my summer examinations were in full swing and went to

a unit and. i'm fully aware of what happened and what could have happened in that battle i've long since prepared myself for any possible outcome. there are still people who try to make me change my mind to convince me that i should resign how could i do that if it's what i mean joyeux that's what i live for. just i'm not going to plan anything now these military services taught me one very important thing to make no plans for the future ever i could be returning from a combat mission with other guys now but fate decided otherwise. i was lucky to stay alive and. now i'm going to mourn those who died at you when

you. get up of course so i would like to get it crimson. being a true warrior and that's what i aspire to. but for now i have to focus on restoring my health and when the time comes i'll do my very best to pass the exam so that i too can wear their crimson. commencing and endurance test five sets of ten push ups ten pulling your legs on to your chest and ten jumps any questions no questions will assume front support position on my count . one two three. where you spence not soldier must progress and improve. you there's no point shouting that you're the toughest guy around of them because there's always someone tougher. to do.

yet. is the job to get paid for it will take a certain delight in doing in this world. there's no point thumping your chest and boasting about being a member of the special forces i never liked that sort of thing. people often mistake me for a period trooper or a marine but once you know me and called out in the street look there goes a crimson barry. marshall people are reluctant to sit next to me on the buses there are three. percent reason many believe that are boneheaded guerrillas who can't think properly and they're only good for hurting people and fighting the good work of the.

board a flight is what tells you if you are ready you don't know what will happen tomorrow and then what situations or skills might come in handy the more you exercise the more easily you'll pass the test it was easier for you to earn the crimson very even some others it just means you work harder during the training. to be aim of these exams is to test our physical fitness which i'm convinced there are no limits to what the human body can do there are only psychological barriers and inspects now even when you can't go on any longer and somehow you do it anyway . the most important thing is to break through the psychological barrier after that everything is easy. brother special forces.

turn to see if there's blood. convince yourself but you have to do it. if i hadn't passed the test i wouldn't. really want to. say on the uniform. that all these factors together were very powerful incentive for me. he would wear these brain any weather even when it was freezing cold i remember him coming to save beer once to spend the winter holidays with me she got off the train with the screams and berry and he's head people were turning to look at him because he ears were blue with cold but he was so proud to be able to wear the b. ray. of the party. hold jockey competitions within the squad and you getting took part in every one of them

during missions we used to make up sketches it's just that it was always brilliant at all. and for people literally cried with laughter. you could almost push the horse i'm. sure i'm sure. you know who i am sergeant do you know. if i keep going through this footage again and again and all the emotion i felt then washes over me again i can't seem to get my head around the idea that if he's no longer with us. when i went away on my first deployment i was very nervous but i'm from

siberia and we went to the south of the country everything was different even the people that deployment was a long one it lasted a full ten months it all seems so much easier now because i've got the hang of it at last. but we learned what our task would be twenty four hours before the attack the f.s.b. had informed us about a group of militants in a particular area we had to come the ground for them. i saw a trodden path leading into a bush and noticed a hatch i pointed it out to the commander and at that moment i was wounded. i'm with the battle only lasted for about five maybe seven minutes. every. thing happened very quickly with these the movie of the with. the terrorists were hiding

out in the lead and the other half they were lying in ambush nearby they started shooting at us from the bushes all of the same time and from several different directions. we the militants decided to try and break through it with her you again yap of screaming grenade at that. woman so i'm throwing himself onto it the explosion blew him over on his back and it was all over all of us. moving when we approached the militants hideout you know they had the advantage because we weren't expecting an attack. that's why we suffered such losses. but we did retaliate well that we completed our task every single one got what was coming to them. and they have a number of if right after the assault we didn't know exactly who was wounded and

who was killed so more later the commander reported casualties and said him of his dead or you know i didn't believe in the tourist who. in the neighborhood down all of them is took off my gear with me and cried. more to your journey was in duty on the night of the twenty fifth of january and stuck in my memory she were the laptop from one of the guys i switched on the computer in so that she was in skype the she was looking at me on intently i asked what's that all the boat i haven't changed we'll meet very soon and he answered no i want to see you now that's what i remember more than anything else. so on deployment everything is different to the group is more close knit when we start an operation there are fifteen soldiers with the commander in charge we know that our

comrades and our commander won't leave us no matter how tough it gets we are team. the. soldiers the military base is the place where your home and your family are. all that fuss will attract you but on a mission a man reveals his true colors. after the first deployment but a lot of people leave special forces have a sea of some of them realize it's simply not for them those who do stay though make up a reliable team so you won't be afraid of going anywhere with them even to the moon . when. the when some of our guys go in

a combat mission. before they leave. for them to return safe and sound with no losses. school we say the number of beignets going out no should be the same coming back to their homeland. i passed the exam and now i can wear the special forces insignia everything's great i have no regrets now i'm thinking about signing up for a second tour of duty. he

survived war atrocities. to make a final decision. has changed his life and the world around him. by giving up. hope. and love to so many children. nikolai the miracle worker on our team. on their way to antarctica the crew of the i can to make sure that a face many challenges. here you have to look out for yourself crashing on to rocks

trapped in pack ice in extreme conditions anything can happen antarctica always comes up with surprises you have to keep your eyes open because if there's always something going wrong the ship carries huge reserves of water food fuel as well as helicopters and people able to survive extreme conditions they're ready for anything even an apocalypse she's really an incredible ship calling all antarctica stations but this is academic a field of radio check please respond. look at the pledge it was terrible to say now i'm very hard to make out to let you get along here a lot longer than they ever had sex with others make their lives let

alone was. just so. listen the i'm listening. unexplored antarctica what is it in this icy expanse that attracts the people who come here. with you know i only go to the dock. and enter into. a new generation of polar explorers is coming.

we have a new group of specialists here now all of them are young how are they going to get along with each other and i don't know. who. used to be a bureaucrat. seriously. what adventures await this mysterious. where they live want to eat and want to be actually doing it until to go.

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