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know what it's like some kind of hallucination at some point in time not a very nice one mind you something happens to my mind. just right now i'm more interested in the question of safety is there anybody with you. alone as to a picture of myself as a shivering whole mind with trembling hands and a battery die and some. those little against assault when physical abuse occurs three times in my case it was many more. i only realise that something's happened after i've already done that it's just a few seconds. sometimes up to he had a few drinks he'd say i want blood. you should go to the emergency room and doctor would record everything that happened with the interior did it without understanding this was violence and i thought it was accidental also but i just black out and that's it i don't understand what i'm doing i just want to give everything up pop.

i'm happy to see you all here today we're going to perform a group task that involves drawing it's called my dream family let's draw a house together to you and you to join windows draw a roof. daddy didn't like noise very much they were terrified of him will kill let them come out to eat but didn't let me sometimes they would bring me something to eat hidden in their sleeves was slice of bread or some water we had a bottle to water flowers and i drank out of it. so much all my first when i would walk down the hall at a man was walking behind me i felt scared the kid shrank back became instantly afraid that mommy was going to have a boo boo boo he always hit my head so that there wouldn't be any bruises i had a severe retitle detachment they operated on me eight times now i have minus twenty vision in my left eye gone blind in my right eye. witnesses i decided to leave when

he emptied a kettle of boiling water on me and i realized that there was no reason to take any for the risks it didn't matter whether or not i died i worried that the children would be left without a mom. we gathered all our papers i had only about ten dollars in my pocket and we left without a place to go. didn't take any clothes or bags we just left. it there what do i do what. do you. mean we're having a conversation. you know what do you want to eat. you need to decrease the roll call they want me to say something. that was not. my life wasn't easy but i had

a place to run away to because my mother father brother and all my relatives were in rest on don where i live to get married and gave birth to my children i mean i could call a taxi come out in my sleep and go but. when i imagine my first husband. they fell madly in love with. me very much too when i was admitted to the maternity hospital for observation she got frostbite on his ear because he was talking to me on the phone for my family used to say you can the lot of each other so much it's impossible to laugh so much you should think about the baby but we couldn't leave without one another we cried. and then i don't even know what happened. was our first child was about to start school my husband took all the money that we had saved and drank it away. i asked him why did

you do that explain it to me. and he hated me for that he hit me hard he beat me so many times but i kept going back to him i left him only after living together he was probably a man to happen this way. i actually think that both of us are to blame. neither of us wanted to give any ground we had those never ending fights on a daily basis it's as simple as that what we should have done is gather our wits and think about who should shut them out first a little. more but we didn't do that. during the last months that we were living together i used to go straight home from work without any intention of thinking i would just ignore her but once i came home she would do something from basically she just started irritating me in some way. i

would just keep my mouth shut instead of talking to her and when she saw that she tried to push me even more and then we would start fighting. even his her twice under a shamed of that. i heard awful screams from my kids i ran in there and saw their father choking a kitten that already had a blue tongue and nose i immediately pried his hands off the kitten and in the instant i found myself at the bottom of the stairs. i came round to a very curious scene where my husband was literally one. being his bare feet on my face. and saying. how do you like that you piece of crap was just out for the kids and and now you're going to be the one who dies. i was outraged on the inside and i said

to myself how dare you wipe your feet on me and that was the turning point. that some people say that when it happens it's like the curtain falls over here. i just don't understand anything anymore oh boy kato was my face. leaving i was scared of what i'd done. she was bleeding like i was he. was covered in blood punch to but i didn't understand where his her. was i decided to kill myself i took sixty sleeping pills and ended up having a mini stroke and i couldn't bring my opera and lower jaws together i mean i couldn't close my mouth at all the polls. show i was in another place in

the state of a person who's committed suicide. but there was just darkness filled with it called chilling terror that i thought would never go away so. i could only see the eyes of my children looking at man asking mommy why what is going to happen charts now why did you do have mom still just mom. can the littles they don't turn us in the intensive care unit somehow managed to revive me. here's a prayer book and him know rate and all slavonic got on my knees and started my training the prayers from my mouth that was shot and than a miracle happened was my mouth closed. there must have been a reason why they revived me and that's why i decided to establish the center where

people in a bad situation and those without a place to go can come. here is some aid clothes and shoes from rest of. you don't take anything when you run away you just run when the chance of. good quality years distant things with selena where stuff like this or this will fade yvonne will be a present for his birthday. but he's. called me herself she came here with two kids and stayed with us she was frightened she was afraid that he would find her even here. it's our little yvonne's first day to day he's three years old we're having our own beliefs. as they make

a wish we all have one wish to have our own home. he was huge for selena first she is our daughter when he came to visit me in his defense i was stunned between my husband and my child i got smacked too. once she accidentally broke erik's when she was helping him carry her to the kitchen he kept jab in harry in the face with the back. i wasn't. i saw the result of the song left a cane her face was covered in neg. or shall we rehearsed. what more is to happen as happened let's go hey chalk let's find a forest inhabitants and ask them what happened they say is a donkey when i was pregnant with everyone he started beating me too i went to the doctor with bruises she thought that i had gotten daisy and fall and i was embarrassed to tell but i should have said it straight away otherwise they wouldn't

believe am i supposed to take my two kids leave my husband and live in a shelter one hour so happen is a is when every kid has their own home right. it's a big wall and no good to go and no enemies this is my around. crying don't cry i know i'm tired of crying too don't cry that. my name is but damn but. i ask everyone who sees this video. by the way to call me or contact me through other means. you can find me on social

networks my ex-wife's name is. please also speak to the children's father hear me out listen to what i think about the situation. she's taken the position of a woman who's been insulted because being hunted down and suffering he resents her husband is a maniac and a tyrant i'm a normal and responsible father. i was on a business trip abroad i wasn't even home. and mommy decided to film the kids playing. protruded balcony with selena and do what you are told to the balcony so interestingly enough because she made this video right before the court hearing to take away my custody of the kids when she was accusing me of beating my own kids why aren't you doing what you're told. i can say one thing she had very different

expectations of this marriage but i have text messages for which she clearly says i'm fed up with your unsettled life your dirty and dusty rust off. but when i came to the rented flat she lived on the first floor of a two story building and i could only see my kids through a window. and say hi hi. when did i last almost a month ago now we have to talk to the wind. they don't let me go anywhere not to guide you to school you know where. what are you doing neal why would you wake up shame on you she was sleeping i was talking to her shame on you go to kindergarten hello is this the police report for them in a well i reached my limit when i kept calling the police and they did nothing to and my husband became a control you know what he felt that he could do anything because nobody was going

to stop him and i don't have a father in law enforcement didn't do anything with this thought i was a bad mouth then him i thought why would i do that is the principal it's not a particularly pleasant experience for me. what's the point of me making up lies about my husband. is it your birthday iran then this kid a rabbit is three years his smile more often and everything will be great. i was. but that. was it. that matters that hurt yeah i knew when to find to be how three i hope that he doesn't have to get shots. this is for yvonne train i can do it i can't even middle of this i don't have her address.

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beyond identifying the problem trucks rational debate and real discussion critical issues facing america if i ever go ready to join the movement then walk a little bit but. certainly tony blair has benefited from war and deaths and he totally destroyed iraq and he's calling for a reinvention of iraq and i did a little back of the our blog occupation i figured that for every dead u.k. soldier in iraq it all had about twenty five thousand pounds to tony blair's retirement. bits would he hit me again today three times in the shoulder with his fists in once

in my head and just because i said don't shout what a moron i hate him once the next time why didn't i we'd him when he raised his hand the first time it was an actor were two thousand and three two months after our wedding. when i asked her then shana do you love him why won't you leave him and she left no. our love ended after the wedding. and one time she said to me mom i have a concussion because i fell down and i asked where did you fall down i slipped and fell and i said did you really fall yes i fell and lattimer's faced. she never complained to me about well at first i felt male solidarity with him i'm a man he's a man i thought doesn't have issues with his wife his character is different on my wall so i more or less took his side and then he basically router i went to him and

asked why what's wrong with you. and i know that if i swear to somebody i'll keep the oath until i die and that's what he said i swear i won't lay a finger on her ever again and she never told me about anything like this again you know. i should pack and leave but something keeps me here yeah i'm probably scared to change my life but i can't tolerate debuts because it can cripple me besides i have nowhere to go to parents but this is now forever. and she was also worried that people would judge her why how could she divorced him people always people. that she had an operation but she already had swelling in her brain. the doctor said it's too late we couldn't save her or it's very hard.

they say time heals that's not true we will be only deepens the sorrow but we console ourselves with the fact that we still have. we have memories of a mobile you were a member her name and her daughter will remember it happened to us. yet you like to believe that she is the senior school i think that i learned there are no i feel yet a useful mash in english of your last stand masterpiece d.h. and he loved. my other activity mamma b. yes yes. but he can't tell mom.

it's cold today right yes did you put on a glove you know why i know it will only do the court case got tossed around everywhere. for a month had passed when the investigator called me in and said sign here and i'll send it to the court sure yet it turned out that he had attached to sheets from behind. me after i'd signed it did i ask what is he charged with. involuntary manslaughter after i change the charges and that's it. you're going to be beheaded and tending cattle in the summer and then he was back. he behaved tissue was in the right he walked with this head proudly held high he came to court with bottles of champagne he was so proud and happy we worked for i really started dating. you know by now i always take the

woman's side one hundred percent of the time not the man's men who abuse women a week. they don't go anywhere in their careers they don't have any special skills or respect from a table when you work they aren't strong enough to fight another man so they attack the most harmless screeches women and kids. they raise their heads against their wives and children would. not right marina i see that you've done your homework the topic was mighty no world . before joining the center i felt like a tortoise and a shelf bob i mean i was totally closed to the world i was preoccupied with the pain sitter and this grief all negative things how do you feel about this person at the moment what i pity him why because i really feel sorry for him he's unable to

smile wake up in the morning look out the window and see the blue sky the sun and be happy about it but now we know how to be happy about it and finally we says oh and that's to dictated to the future if somebody asked me a year and a half ago if i wanted to get married again at that time i would have said no i don't want to but now i probably consider this option. must see that. violence happens when you let it happen but i wouldn't allow anybody to abuse me anymore i simply won't let it happen again of course it's like saying i ran into him completely by accident we were going to the clinic when he turned up and grabbed policeman i had an umbrella in my bag and i started hitting him with it he just blinked his eyes you know all these abusers who beat women by cowards they get scared when the woman fights back. one more go a lot of women think they can change men you are there's no way you can change them

but it's useless. when a man raises his head and no woman should. run from him while i live with an idiot. it's better to be a good. mistress only three idiots why are you what. did your husband call you or come to visit. i have hallucinations we were having a stroll and it seems like dad loomed up ahead of us where ran in the opposite direction really like a person was approaching you mistook someone else for i don't know maybe. rights that he's looking for us that he was just being bad mouth to the kid right some agape and it's you who cannot stop this from french people like him can get energy

from nature from god they saw a cup and energy from other people in them. bless our food oh lord in the name of the father the son and the holy spirit come and. pass the bread please. and i've been living with my second husband for five years now he's a person sent to me from having because he doesn't train doesn't smoke. he really leaves out my soul he knows how to calm me down so what's going on here is simply a very in for as old woman this is because of the burden of age and us and problems that often come solid when i'm tired. and then he simply comes up to me and says let's roll my little girl. that's what's up my darling come down you shouldn't get so worked up like that. because when she takes me away contests with the.

and it works. i'm glad that i left before it was too late not waiting until i died because i know that a lot of women die at the hands of man like that. in general relationships are complicated and maybe things like that are a part of human nature things like these. but they believe together they love each other and then this stupid stuff starts. somebody didn't wash a dish somebody didn't add salt to the soup somebody had problems with work came home and flew off the handle or the wall of religious loved ones will always forgive. on a thorny monotonically always calls me when he feels really bad but most one time he stayed the night in the center with the kids he got to like in the shelters. and

sad you know wives you can't even imagine. i want to know how. little she stares plastering the walls and he fell in love was one of our single mothers. he took her in her child to live with him at his house in the us the one dog. you will see and now it turns out that i'm excited i left him with me was bizarre. how are you find. going of course he just can't stand it. to miss her. sure it's not fun living alone i come home seized by some wild fear so i just go outside for a walk so it was freezing outside twenty degrees below zero but i do anything just to avoid going back home. you know i think if it wasn't for you i would have been able to set up

a center will pick you up one of them like you must get seems that my dream to help people came true because of this pain. we had the most somehow i think that the moral of this story is that everybody should think about his or her own actions. and never shift responsibility to the other person that. came by feel bad or cheer asked god last year.

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