you know it's hard to believe eight years ago i had a fully loaded pistol in my mouth ready to pull the trigger. used in working more drugs and working more i just got to the point where i got to stop this or i'm not going to be around for my kids unlike me at all. ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah there's the sea. sickness you see.

flurries here of course you know him with many different hats on started with stanley cup we're here in the studio three studio in each illegitimate your field. since retiring from professional hockey and revealing to the world that he was a victim of sexual abuse your own florey has become a tireless outspoken advocate for this incredibly important issue and beginning to morrow he and thousands of others will begin the victor walk walking from toronto to the steps of parliament hill in ottawa and feel flurried joins us now thanks for coming back oh thanks for. after going through my own experience. i never want to see a child ever have to go through what i. feel flora he was raised in a small town of russell manitoba. a rule community toto away in the prairies of the

canadian countryside. i was the first of three born to wally and donna flurried dad was destined to be a hockey great as well or if it baseball injury robbed him of his dreams only a teenager instead of a career as a star athlete is fake consisted of driving heavy equipment drinking heavily and half heartedly providing for his family. everyone found ways to cope mom found prescription pain pills well i found aki obviously i've been very open about my own story my own history and people have connected to that when i was five years old i was walking home from kindergarten with a classmate of mine and so they were in our first hockey practice and you want to play it so i quickly ran home and asked my mom if i had any equipment and we found an old pair of skates that were three sizes too big for me a broken hockey stick

a couple of sears catalogs for him and i put them all in a pill sock and i went down to the rink and we try something new for the first time we usually fall down easy struggle my experience that day as i put those skates on and i didn't fall down i just fell in love absolutely with the name of hockey my home life at the time wasn't the greatest and every time i would go to the rink i would get love and attention and respect and all the things that i was missing at home thank god i had hockey and that escape i don't know where i would be today without it. when i was in that school i was playing hockey it from the time i was six years old anybody that would listen to me i would tell them someday i'm going to play in the n.h.l. . we have to be parents we need to know what our kids are doing all the time and we need to see news communicating with them because that's what pedophiles look for as they look for those situations where parents are not available for their children and that is a perfect end for them. well

playing minor hockey in russell manitoba i caught the eye of a coach by the name of graham james he promised me a clear path to the n.h.l. so i came in played for him. thrilled by such a promise i followed his every command little did i know i was making a deal with the devil on the time i was fourteen to sixteen i was raped one hundred fifty times by a coach of mine. i was molested in a dark room and so you know every time i close my eyes you know i can sleep and i never slept for twenty seven years. last confused and trapped i had nowhere to turn this was the man with the keys to professional hockey and the promise of a life away from russell manitoba. i suffered in silence then with the abuse.

i was never the same. name nine hundred eighty nine at the age of twenty i was called up by the calgary flames. and finally achieved my lifelong dream playing in the n.h.l. . once again hockey proved a worthy escape from the problems in my life i haven't got it right that there are you serious that are you saying there are. up on a stanley cup olympic gold medal there was a seven time n.h.l. all star and indorsements thanks to a check back to the. kids cannot stop. the claim was that i

was livin the dream. the three are already in the thread. barely a foot shorter than my peers i survived by playing with the fear of course deep down this fearlessness was all a product of not caring for their lived or died this was a let's stop fighting well wait talks of your teammates here pick on that next little flory such as the windows breaks in. new york city. a long way from the prairie so for us all manitoba.

nine hundred ninety nine i was signed by the new york rangers as a free agent can my life changed forever in the late nineties i shoot story broke that sent shock waves throughout hockey sheldon kennedy who is my teammate in calgary told the world he was molested by his junior hockey coach graeme james all the memories came flooding back memories i thought i had when i was drafted into the n.h.l. . the press reopen my old wounds with every question they asked me about the. no i was never molested by graham james no i have nothing to say about the i was not ready to talk about this i was not ready to relive my trauma i was not ready to be revealed to my. by the media and society so i went to the dark side of life and

all the. drugs and alcohol and gambling and sex and four years very angry very resentful. very little of it i don't know what's going on its side he would just let it go like that all the gotti fearlessness i carried through a youth had transformed into a brazen reach right down to that like my looks and take on anyone who got in my way so much easier to get pissed off to try and kick someone's ass there was to truly face up to emotional trauma feel the best that you can like to get. a little help now like. the workout you watch laurie already like to get out of it and all the cop. have to burry my pain in aggression old they find

a bar and drink all night when the bouncers finally kick. to the curb and go score some coke keep the party go until dawn. of my crazy lifestyle spread we'll. wake up with life quickly spiraling out of control i was able to rationalize my destructive behavior because i was still leading the league in scoring big life. like this again after a dozen failed drug tests the n.h.l. put their foot down and threw me in rio. forty eight days later i was sold and out of my mind i traded one addiction for another and spent every waking hour at the casino us. a whale a high roller v.i.p. treatment in vegas and always chasing kid money after chasing bad chasing. i

blew over three million dollars at the casinos. the cracks were starting to show and the world could see i was falling apart the team of meds i was sneaking liquor into my soda soon enough the party was back on harder than ever the only way i can sleep was to get completely annihilated or enough so i could just possible and falls asleep because you know those thoughts and those memories is you know that movie just kept playing over and over binges that would last for days missed practices missed dog legations millions of dollars squandered just a blur lost in a haze of drugs sex and dating or you. fast forward to two thousand and four the longer in the league the longer wanted in

the only game i ever loved i sat with a gun inside my mouth. and i two choices that day was i going to die or was a going to live and i chose to live but i had no clue how to live so i realize that the point that i am in therapy for the rest of my life this is the biggest epidemic not only in canada but on the planet you know how volunteer for one in three girls one in five boys before the age of eighteen are sexually molested so it's to a one quarter one quarter in the population canada's moti million souls. really and usually by somebody they know percent of those survivors have been molested by either family members or people that they're close to who was upset the family aapl court and bring this oh pressed charges against your father your arm coal your grandpa your ads. rages it's outrageous that. this can be happening to

you and we live in a country where this type of behavior is absolutely acceptable because of the sentences that are handed down through the justice system but that's a pickle sentence if someone is caught in this i would say. probably two years and they serve and they probably serve you know six to twelve months and it's time for action around the subject i think the core of every single issue that we have in society starts with trauma in childhood and if we don't deal with that and if we don't deal with the full cycle including the pedophiles and we don't get everybody the healing that they need then the cycle is going to just continue over and over and over again now the government has announced they want to stiffen these penalties and their number of other things a victim bill right you've heard about this bill c. ten and tougher on crime stuff and all that but i haven't seen it and till that happens you know i think it's just all talk is cheap so you are going from toronto

to ottawa walk and walk and victor walk to create awareness and promote healing around the subject of child sexual abuse we're starting from the child abuse monument here in truong and then we'll meet walking up the old trans canada highway up to the on arrive on the front steps of parliament at two pm on may twenty fourth . plane travel just like oh it's no big deal but when you're walking. you know ninety eight percent of pedophiles get jail the offending again so we're advocating for stiffer sentences. a. place like.

live live . development is all about numbers really pleased to report this quarter we are one hundred six point zero. but what do we know about the other figures. when i think back that i see mike do. over twenty million dollars last year more than one thousand times the average wal-mart a says. with all due respect i have to say i don't think that's right. just how a free market works. people went from pretty simple financial lives pre nine

hundred eighty to the point now where people are. just totally submerged in their financial accounts and they're all in debt and what exactly devoid society from the protests of the government try to do. might be making things worse. by saying this is not work this is. hopelessly disastrously wrong done not once up close enough loose often not done one by nixon a time the definition is enough. once you king that he needs. to be equal to the. sun. then you're going to bring. how we think i'm. not. going to do no one of each. side is out.

in this just feeling if one means the left as they now be do better than this one tokyo found it is going to go. this is what it was because these events in clinical trial phase and i. after a fourteen hour grind of interviews with nearly every major media program canada and it all too brief five hours of sleep the time for the victor walk is here but i won't be venturing the four hundred kilometer ten day trek to ottawa alone my best friends eat will be walking with me step first step on sale each. beast there is

the. mr zeke is a serbian who fought in the former yugoslavia more in the ninety's he's been in canada for both fifteen years and is now a cop in calgary my friends and victor advocates will also be supporting a walk drive me to r.v.'s teach days destination where the group will sleep in between legs of the journey. but. i'm tired. i'm. going to see if we get this everybody kind of gather around here feel free to come closer come closer. i just want to thank all of you for being here this was an idea about a year goal. and i quickly realize that being a survivor of sexual abuse is the biggest epidemic we have on the planet and

there's not a lot of places where people can goal there's not a lot of times where people are believe that this is happened to them i really just wanted to go for a walk bring awareness to this subject old fully empower other people to come forward and tell their. truth. and disclose their stories i just felt that. i needed to do something important. or you are here we go why don't you. know as well your parents they were kids my mother should probably he was thinking that. he had. twelve children seven. my father started having sex with me as an infant on the kitchen table like you didn't feel we're talking like an infant we're talking like six months a year old like it's a little like indict for me i didn't mark.

because it was that. sense of the world yes are you going to say i had a lot of drugs in the world more food and. booze my mother was and that to me. a lot of the abuse that. i do any drugs and i just being back there and writing and middle of some abuse sorry. i was just impossible to go there without chair and fear. shame and tears and else i am in trucks for forty years. this kilometer twenty seven were approaching twenty miles not really sure at this point oh i'm still standing. like i thought oh no no all.

right now apple scored or something all. of this. you know like you're honestly. whole. all. of the. old my gawd rick you had nine more of those. all my coke with you this is going to. make it oh oh . like that's the last.

bit to. lose rockall ski boots. or if walking on the grass is better. business. see how much you miss walking with your eyes hurts my ear on this and then it's here it's like. walking on the grass for. that's called a veteran move. my sore feet and aching body seem a trivial afterthought as i got a firsthand glimpse of

a real pain. to be done by someone i still beats me. get closer to thanks for being there yeah yeah i know bottom of the bell so thanks for going. there was your name. for certain started going to see. how did you all good awesome how's that workin for a good day it's hard to miss hard yeah it's a string yeah i think. it's good it's good thank you for sharing your story a little bit. that's as much as i've been able to get yeah. that's good oh it's a good you know what. is baby steps right still within walking trunk. it's not the. thing to open up and say that. you know what. i

was really just. i will openly admit it. hopefully by walking more people be heard sexy. say yes i'm going to. get the treatment like i have three. to four. it's huge. day the walk passes through the town of peterborough small close knit community still reeling from devastating news it was recently revealed that a local junior hockey coach had been molesting his players for generations and only recently had someone finally spoken up you are walking into a city is grappling with its own really tough allegation this is a volunteer will not it's not allegations go into when you have sixty two counts and i know then what i'm kind of fall gets caught in on average they are one

hundred and twenty five victims so you know you can say alleged all you want but the guy is guilty and it'll be interesting to see what happens you know when he gets in the court system. and stole a minor oh ok thank you so much all for you are on and takes the cake if you want to cologne in there we can all mourn really really share in a story to tell but when i approached about including her in the documentary it was apparent she was not ready to reveal her trauma and you can ramp u.k. with us using her life his name and voice the documentary. for shooting a documentary by the way to. tell that story you are going to be but it would be great if you can. although later in the walk

we were given permission to include her in the film and she asked us to withhold her name she told me her devastating story off camera oh we were permitted to capture it on audio so. well it's happened in your family. and. i think i do know. they all this there were kids like i was. using me and my sister at the same time but we never took all of each other in all the time. then first as hell then the next and then when i was eighteen my doctor that. like my whole day. in the hospital against me. and then. they all just get away with that if you can get any. one piece of advice. for me greater than the shame it's not yours to bear you have to get to

a point in your life. you gotta say ok is this going to define am for the rest of my life your sweet loving person as with the world and believe believe that because it's real and it's the truth all that stuff that is the past. as we continued our march towards our war we're once again approached by the woman who refused to tell her story and care today she was feeling far more open to the idea of being filmed and sherry. and to each and every one. laughed about. that.

good luck the reason i'm here and i know i know we're all connected. we're all connected. you're never alone. rock bottom gets you to the keys part honestly i've got to. stop. we've walked one hundred sixty kilometers in the last four days old legs and feet are getting tired but so many saying it's we know the other day that said if you ever feel like you're getting tired or you want to stop and you don't want to walk anymore just remember there's kids there today being abused every second of every minute of every hour we're going on a long. we're going to try rattle some cages.

laughing today we're walking for a little. prick some boys allegedly took photos of the assault and shared them with their school and retail was bullied and bullied religiously and april of this year her mom says she could no longer take a tragically. took her own life. and leave her stepfather said she had taken her life not because of the rape itself. but she was heartbroken that society just. that we're all walking. make changes to the just.

make it his read describe that he's the thief a feed baby or is she a mule this same you are a thief so if you had to be out of this it is going to be peace and distance not the dentist to get you ready but they feed the baby that's it's the big thing about the meter. you can see the border from here was a. steel fence cures on this side there's always down. like they said this is this is all. and this is something that you have every right to be here have a right to call collect my food be a part of my family on both sides of the border. play started an organization called the arizona border recall we or

a standalone entity. that is doing. with these to be done in the five years it's getting worse the violence is escalating because it's millions of. bridges really good are great when somebody calls you know because they believe that their ranch is there are areas and they don't believe that their federal girl is taking responsibility for their security which we would for anywhere else.

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