always you can get more news on views on our web site's pretty impossible to be bored there are t. programs start in just a moment here on r t interest. so what we've got to do is identify the threats that we have it's crazy. let it be an arms race. theory dramatic development only personally i'm going to resist i

don't see how that strategy will be successful ready. to sit down and talk. to the lord commander fall into a deep sleep and while he was sleeping he took one of the men's rooms and then closed with flash. i was born a male i started living as a female when i was nineteen years old had a sex change when i was thirty years old i've now been living as a woman for twenty eight years and i fully regret this nobody can change genders it's impossible. it's delusional it's a mental illness. the lord god made

a woman from the word he had taken out of the man and he brought her to the man once i finally had the surgery i went with this was the wrong thing to do it was the wrong thing to do to cut off my male anatomy. command. this is now one of my bones from the flesh from my flesh she shall be called woman because she was taken out of man that is why a man leaves his father and mother and if you nineteen to his wife and they become one flesh. the fact of the matter is that forty percent of people who are attempting suicide are people who regret ever changing genders.

and. right there around four o'clock. but usually i wake up beforehand if you just wakes me up. i read the bible and then i have friday and then i try to be still and and listen for his voice his guidance. my name is billy burley. living here in la polk in this house and i used to work for nasa. and let me show you all around the house a little bit. so the weather over here in the code is so i'm sure we don't have air conditioning over here and so we keep the doors and windows open for good bit through. the year.

canny little introverted kid had a speech impediment and tried to put in a lot of people didn't understand me and my body told me i belonged with the boy but i thought. that i belong with the girl. i didn't know which way to go i wanted to be like my sisters i thought. i should be like my fifty years and my older sister started wearing makeup. with some of her makeup in the bathroom. and then in the sixth grade when i was. on the formerly teen and we had

a new. well he would do when he had a chance he wouldn't play with me he would fondo me and. try to get me to have an erection and just continue to play with me. a map he should sure into a room. for just a moment. come on come in and get you into a room back here you are going to keep moving around come on a quiet bad. hold. i will. silence the da. da da da go away just lay down. go lay down first off my name is. i'm an author i've written eight books so far three of them to do with transsexuality i was born male grew up in

a very conservative republican family my father was pretty much absent most of my childhood he was an alcoholic. my mother was mentally ill childhood was so troubled and trips so traumatic that in retrospect i was able to look at it and realize that there was no way i was getting out of childhood normal you go and you take a shower and you're there to get clean but every time i had to take off my clothes every time i went to they you know there's no getting around the fact that i wasn't a girl that i was a boy and that really is the one memory that sticks out is just how much i hate. my penis. by the time i left high school when i was eighteen i was cross-dressing most of the time once i was away from school and

a couple of years afterwards i ended up in san francisco which had a very small gay community and i started i had made the decision by the time i was about twenty to start living full time as a girl. when you start dating people and if you pass well enough the whole purpose is are you a transsexual or are you a woman and my in my mind i was always a woman i'm wanting to date and i'm not telling the men that i'm dating that i have a penis and so when they find out they become violent. there were a couple instances where i was beaten very badly. georgevitch sort of. and i'm a leader of go to center for journey political start our center is very well known especially for transgender surgery and we perform all types of run for the surgery

male to female female to male or to do surgery possible complications and one of the. very very. very volatile sort of regretful after one of the on the way in terms of transformation we would try oldest to to make a detail as to be a first very functional and then to be. more acceptable in a static code heel if you discuss them both male to female results and much better because he was sort of dreamy create a completely normal female and this person is usually can have a sexual intercourse and enjoy in sexual activity according to our experience more than ninety percent transgender surgery starts to be a very popular. person's doctors and you can you can find out to many drew. i'm going to make my journey to least would be different right now and i

would be very nice lady or i would be a very strong man or something ladies and up to that. some event like alcohol or drug abuse or something ladies. get away from a seizure of a new beginning to this the main milestone was finding a doctor who would give me the hormones if i get the hormones and female cross that's hormones my life will be perfect and then you think well if i can only get my voice get my male voice up here then that that'll make me you know just happy and then you think the next thing is well if i can get breast implants. that's all i need it's never enough and finally if you. gone through the therapy and you can convince a doctor to start cutting on you you go and you have a sex change i had my sex change in one thousand nine hundred ninety and in the

back of my mind i didn't think i thought it might be like all the other stuff i had done but i was hoping just hoping it would make me feel. i don't want to get it. so why would you tell your neighbor that you did something that was so stupid it's absolutely ridiculous to. transition pretty embarrassing you go through a gender change to be that stupid to believe that you can actually change you get to be pretty. quick to handle the truth. i was born in los angeles family people i was taken to my grandmother's house quite

frequently as my parents like to go away on the weekend they like to camp and fish . became interested in my grandma's house. and i mentioned something to her about that so she decided to make me a purple dress to put it on and wear the dress i finally got so interested and excited about wearing a dress that i get tired of waiting till i was going to go to grandma's house to secretly press trips so i snatched the dress home my mom found the dress and so then. i was never allowed to go to grandma's house again. the first step was i changed my name secretly when i was about thirteen years old to crystal probably in my late twenty's. i started to talk to doctors about hormone therapy and i began to take hormone therapy thirty five years ago there wasn't much

information and we concluded that based on everything that was available at the time. undergoing hormone therapy further hormone therapy and gender reassignment surgery would be the answer to resolve this quote gender identity disorder that's when i in april of one thousand nine hundred eighty three i underwent the gender reassignment surgery by dr fiber in trinidad colorado it was amazing i felt like the world had been lifted from my shoulders and it was really wonderful the only thing i don't know is was it all the medication from five hours of surgery that made me feel this way or was it because i had gone through the surgery because you're pretty heavily medicated my. female name at the time was laura jensen. joining me every day on the alex simon short and i was speaking to us of the world

of politics sport i'm sure i'll see that. in a nice tell things quiet and small. i'm a little bit apprehensive going into surgery but all for a little and fight it seemed finally were at this point. and after going into. surgery in the. coming out of surgery and being in the. elevator. and mean that it was. i was very relieved. i was losing

a lot of the through the surgical i. put. into my new. housing. and finally. this is now. now. i never had the full ability to have intercourse because the vagina that they make is so small so any time i tried to have intercourse it was extremely painful and it wouldn't happen so these surgeries are nothing more than plastic surgery they they don't create the phalluses that they create for a female to males are really hideous looking i've had several female to male friends and you look at it and you just go oh god you paid for that it's horrible

the sex change didn't solve my discomfort the doctors who are honest will say that the gender dysphoria is always there and it's because the confusion is it's not so much it starts out being about your anatomy but really what it's you don't like yourself. being free and society being i call it in my book a social pariah is not the way you want to live the isolation drives you to despair and so yeah suicide is a big big thing maybe. when. yesterday. the first time was right before the surgery in one thousand nine hundred

and the only thing that kept me from doing a. coward at heart. at the time. somebody i knew had some cocaine so i tempted to use it to kill myself and it obviously didn't work but. my heart was pounding so hard. it was going to come out of my chest. i feel safer. staying in one place where people might find out what i do and who i am i don't want people. i don't want to be. by the people around me. i was leading church one day.

three four years ago now and i got to email it said i'm ready to commit suicide. and it was a transgender. for two or three years. i was actually exchanging information and talking with them on some level up to five times a day to keep from committing eventually restored. computer made. my slippers and this is where i sit and work i don't need any more. everything is. on the computer on the phone talking to people. now for twenty five years alone and so it was when i d. transition that everything began to make sense to me and when i realized that

how important it was to de transition to become psychologically emotionally and socially a healthy person that i wanted others who wanted to de transition to have a way to come back to that same experience that i have and if they have regret and want to transition i have built a website for them sex change regret come. in our area. you know we're doing we're doing good billy contacted me by email like most people do and we began to exchange information and i talked to a moment phone his story was just like mine. he was sexually abused i was sexually abused and that was kind of the trigger point of changing genders. among kids who want to come gets clothes on.

t.v. seven years after transitioning to woman and woman. started thinking ok i've been doing this for seven years now my problem should've gone away from by now but they had me and i actually had more problems at that point another problem is just trying to pass. trying to do my hair just try trying to do my makeup just for i trying to look just right to where people would not be on confortable because you can see when people identify you as being transgender. this isn't why. nothing has

really changed i'm still struggling i was better off if i was before the surgery before the hormone treatment so it was at that point five years after the surgery there about i started to have about changing back and that's my student id. and for now a swim in the last year i had a really big adam's apple heavy brown ridge. pretty big. the idea after i had surgery. when i was transitioning back to mail. in louisiana and the driver's license i had a lot of other pictures from that period but one day. when i was. looking at the pictures for me back during this period seven eight years of being

female it was so discouraging that i wasted so much my life in this particular period doing all of this. just in this state that i was. i raised all of the pictures that i had with the computer and destroyed the pictures of me from that period to try to write that period of my life with god's help i went through the change and i went back to being in may. so i went through the surgery and the bad side of it was so much pain and so much discomfort and read a grad it turned dream or it and then me for. third period that i had been in then when he took the band in. my stomach to show me the skin. i was almost horrified at it to me it was gross but it was surgery and the

paperwork that the surgeon gave me. when i had the surgery done initially he gave me the paperwork and said ok i'm changed to mayo i'm sixty years old there's no reason for me after a lifetime of being in transition to go and start living dressing as a man a name. there's there's there's no. there's no. there's no benefit but there is a benefit and standing before an audience of young kids and college who are considering this. and saying to them ok i'm the real deal i started living when i as a woman when i was twenty i've lived forty years of my life i have breast augmentation i've had genital surgery i've had forty years of hormones all of it has not made my

life any better it's never solved the problem you break your your left leg you go into a doctor's office and under the transsexual rule of medical treatment they say this is your new normal and we're going to break your right leg too i think it's safe to say. when somebody has been crossed and affirmed physically abused and sexually abused that psychotherapy is the most needed therapy hormones and surgery. was already. a good. day. her daughter came over to my fourth christian athlete meeting and it was bigger than i first met her.

and that was. her for coffee and i didn't know it. so i asked one of my classmates was. a lot of my younger classmates so so she said at the safeway for asking for her trying to meet up with somebody i shared with her my pal. what had happened. and at that time she said ok let's be friends we had shared the same cycle but i was saying we both like doing especially. now i can't i know he will say he remembers one time we were high and. i sat close to him when my head on the shoulder and there was that point.

when strangely. that it was ok for me to start. in a romantic wife and i did. be intimate theme to tween rachel and me. with me being surgically altered i. come to want to. enjoy intimacy in that wonderful fresh air. it is beautiful. for a little bit more right. if you notice. the green is starting to turn back to brown vs me pretty soon after a few months. i think i thought about it for not too long maybe

a week or two and responded to my older daughter said. she want they want me to be happy. and i knew i was going to change for the big moment came when i was praying and the lord jesus appeared. to me as a vision in the air is so i could touch him just like i could touch anybody here and he came and reached down to me with his hands and picked me up and said you're now safe with me forever and it was at that moment that my life changed in a split second. leg of this i'm healthy. many of the people who've gone through this before me are dead. they're out there still struggling. with their

identity and i'm alive and well and healthy and married for twenty one years to my wife. restoration and i'm helping other people what other thing that's better in life when you're reaching out and helping other people with their life. a. little too pretty. to pretty tasty. i am so happy i am the way i am now. even though i have problems i have a choice to let my problems. burden me. more

to look to see each day as a beautiful day and just to enjoy the life. in. you and me baby in his hands he's viewing me baby in his hands he got the whole world.

it's face for the next actual threat like china becoming a superpower and get its act together and like we did during the cold war oh after russia put up sputnik the us landed on the loom that's why i mention the live and look if we have an existential crisis coming down the path guys like trump and other entrepreneurial you know leaders will mobilize the country and i walk on this challenge because right now america doesn't have anybody else out there to play with you know something. that you know.

or don't. define all the terrorist stronghold in syria sees the u.s. and russia over al qaida affiliates there are a verse three of the nine eleven attacks. coexistence with terrorists is impossible those are all branches of al qaida which we have been fighting since the terror attacks in two thousand and one and all we've seen are the actions of cowards interested in a bloody military conquest of a villain. a suicide bombing kills thirty two people are wrongly enough down a stand against the local police chief while the twin blasts in the same province targets school goers during morning rush hour.