more toward the east in comments like that all the reinforce it was determination maurice then. noticed. one person has been killed and eight injured in a gas explosion in a residential building in shakti city in southwestern russia i think splosion happened on the top floor of a nine story building a two of the stories suffered a collapse destroying four flats eight people including a child were reportedly rescued while it's feared others may still be trapped under the rubble we will keep you updated. so there are just some of the top stories for this hour on this monday life on r.t.e. international we are back soon with much more.

country has gone into a nihilistic fever that's why i think and they've got to hit the road and get out the traveling across america to find what makes america the charlatans the genius of this place especially american hero this is it we've come a point around which alan would have done something we always are on the margins something. called the culture party. where starting last with is going to headed east into the swamp we're going into

the belly of the beast and i think i want to leave now doesn't get any more gondo than that we may be completely different by the end of this to. my mind i'm zero as i was in my teen daughter recon carries. trade sniper. we did a lot of. weird stuff two thousand and four to two thousand and six and then we're back to iraq you know seven for the surge in being back. you know a. nineteen ninety eight when i try to commit suicide or their thoughts were stream lee probably my ma and. your house well.

i'm just sixteen you're three inches shorter than i am. i was six foot five i was the biggest one in the room i could reach in the top shelf i had to reach of almost nine foot. and then to go where i couldn't. walk couldn't do my martial arts like i was able to do was extremely depressing. you were trying to kill yourself hi-fi did i shot myself from the neck right here. i had to go into the er the side experience like i said just brilliant light came around me and this arm laid on my shoulder so there was things going be all right here kids will be ok and. you know and then bam out of sync back to my body and i started her like here. ever since then i quit

drinking. the military family respite center that started when the miss kim she saw all this house hasi end sitting empty and it was in foreclosure and misc bought it and i'll buy or sell and turn it over to not forgotten outreach to be used for the military families as a place of rest but. i'm sorry you. can't be because. ok i wear that i can i want to take that. over there one there. and that's it. they were all the way back there and this is open for. i served in the u.s. army and the military intelligence division i think three times total i've been

homeless yeah so three times after i got out of the service i've been homeless. the world doesn't exactly offer our military families are surviving families a place of where they can just kind of fall apart and that's ok and if they need to lay out in the yard and cry. they can and i thought were hell the world doesn't offer it's but i can see how everything about oh well we're creating here is hopefully a sense of sanctuary. a sense of acceptance that's the goal. of. a lot of people believe that this area tell us county. and then like specifically new have put special healing and spiritual

energy he. has been told that the dalai lama has commented on it but this is like a special place in the world for that. i mean. the last year that i was in the military i worked as casualty assistance we saw one hundred eighty seven deaths that year so. i was very involved with the funerals. i took that job very seriously and i honored to be able to do it in iraq. yes in iraq. and i go to. a casualty assistance. what they do is notify the family they help with all the paperwork getting everything situated. transfer of the body. i shouldn't say it that way. sorry i.

every soldier every every one of them matter saw and and. sometimes you disconnect yourself from the job and call it call them her body because it's too hard to think of them as. people but. sorry they're not just a body. actually yeah. i remember . every single one of them. i actually kept a notebook. of all of their funerals. i don't show anybody that. but sorry. and i'm sorry i don't really feel comfortable talking about what happened in specific. i have i struggle with nightmares about them and.

it's something that is heavy on my mind for me to. move around the news in the room. that i struggle with is definitely associated with that and then one i got out of the military and five i got married to my husband who stayed in the military. he was deployed to iraq in seven and he was killed in iraq. and. i was able to hold it together pretty well until his death. and then. you hear. and. that's when everything kind of. exploded. so. how did you feel but found like. you would wonder you could you talk to them for a while they asked. you sure sure thank you i like you that's. what. you

see not all ones are visual you know i didn't he. when i came back from iraq. i was like i couldn't really. going inside to stores and all that. doesn't it get a call. on the career field even right after you leave and. go whole just through the whole. eighteen years really want to do anything that would be near and work on my car. and. all you see do this was drink. drink. all the. and then little by little i just said to myself well i want to be drinking and drinking enough i want to end up just

killing myself by drinking. so all. i just said fauji i'm not going to want to stop drinking and all that. when that's when i kind of like charity can take one dollar. and stay. here it is already. here. tells in savings when i got my hundred percent. hundred percent disability. and what is it related like this hundred percent is a pianist. and saeed he. panicked.

and sometimes i on a first came i used to always get up they couldn't sleep and i always get all penelope walking around looking out the window ols my wife would tell me i'm already doing the girl can't sleep on her commute looking out the windows at women snooki well to see. one one night. i got up and i will curl up and i told her he'd get up get up at school at school surely he will k. in the normal school she like or you going to go to school we gotta go to the bunkers or not like. she told me the next more e-mails likely go for i don't know when the. one percent are going to rolled out of bed on the forums. and says that what do you do in. fact my wife woke me up last night.

telling everybody get down there were a good name have you know you're going to. let us see if you did. see it here half way back my old dale was well i have. had it with the enough sleep. yeah didn't. the monster told. that it. was in my car thirty eight

chevy. camaro it looks like a spaceship. and it's amazing. this is all a three ninety six engine this is a called a condo ram and it has two corporators. it is from a tank or something you know. why are you doing it while you're working on cars that were you know carson's on what thirteen years old. these are the q in practice for you and yes because my mind is always some of these one to work on my cars it's not like when i came back from iraq i was like i didn't have no interest in them or the media but little by little i started getting better at it you know back again into it and saying no i gotta

keep up my he calls what he's a prayer for to be here in this role with part of the legacy say like pry eat or something like that or golf or write on people always go cat is. he like the way loops and you're always saying cool cool is a nice color can i take a picture ovid and they're just like makes you feel like cool like you did something like you do something and people appreciate it. seemed wrong. but old rules just don't. meet you get to shape out just to become educated and engagement equals betrayal.

when so many find themselves worlds apart. just to look for common ground. you know world a big part of the new lot is and conspiracy it's time to wake up to dig deeper to hit the stories that mainstream media refuses to tell more than ever we need to be smarter we need to stop slamming the door on the back and shouting past each other it's time for critical thinking it's time to fight for the middle for the troops the time is now for watching closely watching the hawks. i've been saying the numbers mean something they matter the us is over twenty trillion dollars in debt more than ten white collar crimes happen each day. eighty

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this is my favorite part about the flying tragic he's actually doing. what they feel when you plan something now that they're. psycho thought to where. you could text. them so i mean it's just like don't think of to me. like that. to ground yourself. a lot of us. feel that we were. misled misguided. even know. we join. you know to serve

our community. in this is like a real way. to give people a sense of purpose and to be grounded. well for me i feel like it's a way of cleansing the karma you know that i. and now. focusing my energies into. building communities and helping other beings. instead of destroying them. taking their freedom away. now reach tries to be sustainable in all aspects of our operation we use solar energy. our septic systems for grey water so there were water in the fields and everything we use well water here on the property.

recycle avery thing. the first time i've seen the inside. it does look. like. i would just go two years ago thanks to some funding from from nothing got out reach with the denver and took about a four day course on autopilot and i came back and installed a system in my greenhouse this is it i have but it's basically a pilot project for not forgotten it's a training tool itself to get people interested if they're interested in and then and it's also used will use it to try to get funding if we can find people that are interested and want to back up

a larger project to get the job better and we can also teach other veterans this place is it my house but it's open to any of the veterans that want to come here take a look help out learn whatever they want to do. very sweet. you know if there is a spiritual component to all this it's not religious it's it's trying to get these guys to. veterans to to figure out who they are you know most of us go to war when we were very young and a lot of us had problems before we ever went to war.

by the time i was thirty one years old thirty four years old made it up with a lot of that's going a. what is it going to alcoholics anonymous with the new drink that much of the time it has mississippi alcoholics don't drink to get drunk alcoholics drink to feel normal. that's why alcoholics that's way drug addicts do what they do. you actually encourage drink when you're in the new cars to drink when you know three. well they create not a mission in the future squads in airmen's clubs and officers clubs and it's it's a social lubricant and in people especially there were income but there is they get out there and they become a couple weeks well yeah. the units they went self medicating is.

so self medicating you mean the co alcohol of marijuana era was cocaine methamphetamines anything that's altering trying to get us out of that bad mindset using a chemical that would be self medicated and it's what made it there and do and. now i think that if you asked. over eighty percent self medicated for getting out of the service over eighty percent of asians are self medicated have one where one way or the other. i'm clean of the. i'll call you for. this is my second month. did you not but my whole life. was either a heroin or i'll call. that was it. and then you know

and then once you get off maryland then it becomes off. and then i'll call you. just as bad. anymore it's far more easily available anywhere any way in the other in the grocery story why don't you know. he could gas station it's not my right to get it anywhere near i've been packaged dorie. but you know when you come to places like this where you have people that were in the military i'll still call them records because understand you better well and can't say that they understand you better if you're already coming from the l. you can tell your story and you can you tell your story can't tell your story like this in church or in the plaza or anyplace else like

why no one would be saying to you you know the from out of the lake your church is for religion. this is a whole different story. drug addiction alcohol addiction is a whole different story. you know you got to get everyone. you know you got to as they say you have to put just your own recovery you sit around and feel sorry for yourself. no one is going to you know so even if you go to. interview and like get all the complaining well you know they have they have to swim i don't know how good it is you know that that's that's a dicey game as far as i'm concerned you never know how good the counselor is. and you know what the counselors experienced either counselors psychiatry sutil on

a lot of drugs but telling them that they don't need to. do this and that because it's the council's got a drinking problem of course it's not going. to tell you that you need to stop yours. says counsellor because bts do you have gas or has b. d.s.d. which he probably does and most most people who are in the healing professions are in there to cure their own own diseases to start with stuff. from the kind of health you know. you're chasing their own demons. but that's just something you learned over the years. you going to. j.v. meet reason we. have more you don't you don't cover to look at it has. seen is not all nervous and jittery like there was. not a year for a good start so. i have

a service can more. but yeah yeah also like if i mom and i want to having nightmares. mealtimes i want to call it so much i just look in my face. so kids you see. he's a p.t.s.d. service dog what does it mean well what it means is instead of taking fourteen pills three times a day i have him to relax me and comfort me. and soothe me when i mean. instead of being comatose with. it's job. really. in a good. had some people say you know you should. look for a different job you don't get paid enough there. but the more i work there

the more i realize it's not about the money you know these these dogs they are beings like us but. someone else to take care. of. anything let's go this way since a. money maker if it is too. early when you're wrong we come up. it's definitely more therapeutic then like meeting with some nurse practitioner that wants to like hot six medications at you after ten minutes of knowing. your honey that's good. stuff. longer one insert your courage say learn to be patient you also share your love well. they need your wall.

they need something they are also aware of for their very own path they you know they. didn't immediately need to be with other dogs or with people they need just like people who need. to interact with other. intelligent meat. sauce or their family had to get up off the ground to serve began to pat your. game face on the sounds of. a grown man mislead especially early. john. wish to do away from the officer the joy of his crew.

the obviously did they kind of lunge for the web in one smith's and then when it happened on three swung at constitutions didn't hit him i never saw any contact between the two any kind went back to where they were so the officers back here they're fine again fifteen feet apart at this point and that's when the officer saw his gun in your bigotry. seemed wrong oh well let's just don't all. get to shape out these days become educated and engagement equals betrayal. when so many find themselves worlds apart when she's to look for common ground. flick there's someone else living inside of me or controlling my body.

the byproduct of the drug is the cause like severe depression. because it literally meet him into a zombie it's crazy. you know we don't have to do anything it's not our fault you know shoes crazy and all that. shit here's a traumatic time to get rid of. headlines here on oxy the us media piles the pressure on going all trauma alleging he suppressed the details of his whole plot i'm a puritan and publishing a complete guy.