it feels good to find my place. we spoke to former israeli defense forces soldier tommy got deep you told us that physical differences between men and women have to be taken into account. they think that we have to understand that there are some physical differences between men and women and we can't. disregard them we have to look at them and the knowledge of them and only by not enjoying them we can involve women into different army units and putting them in key roles in the army there are physical differences between men and women and putting i take it as a truth that putting women into into these army units are important because the army can only gain from it you gain compassion you gain a different kind of dialect you gain a lot of different things and the physical aspect is a very important one but if you're talking about an elite unit you can take women

that are elite in their physical abilities but even a woman that is a little more physical is the best of the best in our physical ability will not come to be close to the man that is the fastest or best in his abilities this is our future national join me for updates and. as a spy you have to really split your own personality into to you that is that committed jihad this that was still a life that within me and then that is the son who wanted to counter everything they want to do and then trying to dismantle everything they were doing so you have

to really become a good doctor and get a note of the tool for them you have to follow your own family in order to hold them. them away as it was an eighteen year old to recon calories. also trained sniper. we did a lot of. weird stuff two thousand and four to two thousand and six and then we're back to iraq you know seven for the surge and the team back. you know a. i had to be ninety eight when i try to commit suicide or their thoughts were stream way prevalent my mind. here how tall.

i'm just six to three inches shorter than i am. i was six foot five i was the biggest one in the room i could reach in the top shelf i had to reach of almost my foot. and then to go where i couldn't. walk couldn't do my martial arts like i was able to do was extremely depressing. you were trying to kill yourself hi-fi did i shot mustonen in right here. i had to go into the air this side experience like i said just brilliant light came around me and this arm laid on my shoulder so there was things going be all right here kids will be ok and. you know and then bam out of sync back to my body and i started her like here. ever since then i quit drinking.

the military family respite center that started when the miss kim she saw all this house hasi end sitting empty and was in foreclosure and misc bought it and i'll buy or sell and turn it over to not forgotten outreach to be used for the military families as a place of rest but. i'm sorry you. can't be because. i want that i can move i want to take that. move it over there one there. and that's it. i will always back there and this is open for. i served in the u.s. army and the military intelligence division i think three times total i've been homeless

yeah so three times after i got out of the service i've been homeless. the world doesn't exactly offer our military families are surviving families a place of where they can just kind of fall apart and that's ok and if they need to lay out in the yard and cry. they can and i thought were held the world doesn't offer it's. so everything about what we're creating here is hopefully a sense of sanctuary. a sense of acceptance that's the goal. of. a lot of people believe this area house county. and then like specifically new special healing and spiritual energy.

they've been told that the dalai lama has commented on it but this is like a special place in the world for that. in. the last year that i was in the military i worked as casualty assistance we saw hundred eighty seven deaths that year. i was very involved with the funerals. i took that job very seriously and honored to be able to do it. yes. there's a casualty assistance and what they do is notify the family they. all the paperwork getting everything situated. transfer of the body. i shouldn't say it that way. sorry i.

every soldier every every one of them matter so much and and. some. if you disconnect yourself from the job and call it call them her body because it's too hard to think of them as. people but. sorry they're not just a body. absolutely yeah. i remember . every single one of them. i actually kept a notebook. of all of their funerals. i don't show anybody that. but sorry sidetracked. and i'm sorry i don't really feel comfortable talking about what happened to specific. i have i struggle with nightmares about them and.

it's something that is heavy on my mind and hard for me to hear. on the news and really really. that i struggle with it is definitely associated with that and then why i got out of the military and five i got married to my husband who stayed in the military. he was deployed to iraq in zero seven and he was killed in iraq. and. i was able to hold it together pretty well until his death. and then the ground started to appear. and. that's when everything kind of. exploded. so. hard to do but family. could you talk to them for a while. sure sure thank you i like you best here.

we see. these are visual you know what i mean he. when i came back from iraq. i was like i couldn't really. going inside to stores and all that. doesn't it get a call. on a weird feeling and i'd have to leave and. go whole just through the whole. eighteen year really want to do anything that would be near and work on my car. and . all you see do this was drink. drink and dream. of the. needle by needle i just said to myself well i want to be drinking and drinking enough i want to end up just

killing myself by drinking. salt. i just said fauji i'm not going to want to stop drinking and all that. when that's when i kind of like sara taking taekwondo or. staying. here but it's going. on here it. doesn't save in this one i've got my hundred percent. hundred percent disability here and what is it related like this hundred percent is a pianist. and azadi the. panic attacks and.

some things i on a first came i used to always get up they couldn't sleep and i always get all. from would be walking around looking out the window old my wife would tell me i'm pretty doing the girl can't sneak her commute looking out the windows at women snooki well to see. one one night. i got up and i will curl up and i told her he'd get up get up at school at school surely he will katie in the normal school she like or you going to go to school we got to go to the bunkers or not like. she told me the next morning. i go wrong on august. twenty first and they're going to rolled out of that on the forums. and says that what are you doing. back my wife woke me up last night.

telling everybody get down there were a good name ever did or just. read through to see if you did. say do you have play back my old belt well i have. had it with the enough sleep. just. yet in. the months to golds. that it.

was in my car is a third of the chevy. camaro it looks like a space. and it's amazing. and this is all through ninety six in june this is the call the congo ram and it has to carburetors. this is from a tank or something you know. why are you doing it were you working on cars we were you know carson's over thirteen years old. these are the human breakthroughs are you at yes because your mind is always some of these one to work on my cars and that's not going to put when i came back from iraq i was like i didn't have no interest in them or the media but little by little i started getting better at it you know back again into it and saying you

know we're going to keep up my he calls it what is it for you we're doing here in the store with prose that is to say like pry eat or something like that or go off or write on here people always go carrot is. he like the way he loops and you're always cool it's a nice color can i take a picture of it. and they're just like makes you feel cool like you did something make you do something and people appreciate it. joining me every thursday on the alex salmond show and i'll be speaking to guest of the world of politics sport business i'm show business i'll see that. your health care executive our bank your cost like getting a gift from a fellow governor millions hundreds and millions trillions of dollars if you're not part of a couple all you are the one paying for it yes and that's why there's

a lot of social unrest that's the yellow vest movement in france and around the world as the global insurrection against banker occupation is coming to america in twenty nineteen seconds or yellow best in your torch and let's. party i wanted because it's all about relevance. because you know provision on my back when i wanted to. ask but i. think oh. you're so your height oh i lost his boss because i just got the. resources you know. any of those in prison but the pressure on us i don't mean. showing off as you know part of us you're not. you know just i mean what i'm already but i was just going to go eat and eat i mean it was a lot. different up as well i must admit that really feels i just really get off on getting worse but those were the o's they just needed to sound if we're going to

spend on one of these but i was just this well is part of this. my family fussy you call a car bomb i just bought that already yes it will be and he thought of getting up there calling with you. my thought aloud problem you just got to go you. make this manufacture to be sentenced to public will. when the ruling classes protect themselves. with the financial merry go round be the one percent. we can all middle of the room see. the real news is really.

this is my favorite part about the flying project he's actually doing. what they feel when you plant something that they're. like oh thought to where i could text you. then so that it's like don't think to me. like that. it's going to ground you sell. a lot of us. feel that we were. misled misguided. even know. we join.

you know to serve our community. in this is like a real way to. give people a sense of purpose and to be grounded. well for me i feel like it's a way of cleansing the karma you know that i. and now. focusing my energies into. building communities and helping other beings. instead of destroying them. taking their freedom away. now reach tries to be sustainable in all aspects of our all we use solar energy. our septic systems for grey water so there were

water in the fields and everything we use well water here on the property. recycle avery thing. asked the first time i've seen the inside. school it does look. like. i would just go to three years ago thanks to so some funding from nothing got an outreach with the denver and took about a four day course on autopilot and i came back and installed a system in my greenhouse this is that i ouse but it's basically a pilot project we're not forgotten it's a training tool itself and we get people interested if they're interested in and then and it's also used will use it to try to get funding if we can find people

that are interested and want to back up a larger project and to get the job of it there and we can also teach other veterans this place is it my house but it's open to any of the veterans that want to come here take a look help out learn whatever they want to do. very sweet. you know it is a spiritual component to all this it's not religious it's it's trying to get these guys to. veterans to to figure out who they are you know most of us go to war when we're very young and a lot of us had problems before we ever went to war.

by the time i was thirty one years old or thirty four years old right and. what a lot of that is going to. amy. what is it going to alcoholics anonymous with the new drink much of the video has mississippi alcoholics don't drink to get drunk alcoholics drink to feel normal. that's why alcoholics that's way drug addicts do what they do. you actually encourage during when you're in the new cars to drink when you know three. well they create a commission in the future squads in airmen's clubs and officers clubs and it's it's a social lubricant and in people. especially there were income but there is they get out there and they become a couple weeks well yeah. so you understand what self medicating is.

so self medicating you may not go out of marijuana or was cocaine methamphetamines anything that's altering trying to get us out of that bad mindset using the chemical that would be self medicating and that's what made of it there is do and. now i think that if you asked. over eighty percent self medicated or getting out of the service over eighty percent of asians a self medicated. one where you were in one way or the other. i'm clean of the. i'll call. for. this is my second month. did you not but my whole life was either a heroin or alcohol. and that was it. and then you know

and then once you get marilyn then it becomes ah and then outcome is. just. bad. anymore it's far more easily available anywhere anyway in the rather in the grocery story line it out on. the new kid gas station it's not my right to get it anywhere. packaged or in the world but you know when you come to places like this where you have people that were in the military i'll still call the records because i'm just and you better well and can't say that they understand you better if you're already coming from the l. you can tell your story and you can say you tell your story can't tell your story

like this in church or in the plaza or any place else. by the way why no one would be seen to you know the from out of the lake here your church is for religion. this is a whole different story. drug addiction alcohol addiction is a whole different story. you know you got it everyone. you know you got it as they say you have to put your own recovery if you sit around and feel sorry for yourself. no one is going to help you know so even if you go to. interview again like get all the complaining well you know they have they have counseling i don't know how good it is you know that that's that's a dicey game as far as i'm concerned you never know how good the counselor is and

you know what the counselors experienced either counsellors psychiatry sutil the lot a lot of drugs by telling them that they don't need to do the. do this and that but this is the counselors got a drinking problem of course it's not good. to tell you that you need to stop yours . because the ground zero has been teased to you guys or has bee d.s.d. which he probably does and most most people who are in the healing professions are in there to cure their own own diseases to start with. we're going to. be chasing their own demons. but that's just something you learned over the years. oh are you going to kiss is. j.v. meet reason we. don't have more you do it or don't cover to get it right she is seen as not all nervous and jittery like there was. not

a year for a good start so. i have a service cat more. but yeah yeah also like if i ma and i want him having nightmares yeah he'll mealtimes i want to. know he said so much i just look in my face. well so kids you see you p.t.s.d. he's a p.t.s.d. service dog guess what does it mean well what it means is instead of taking fourteen pills three times a day i have him to relax me and comfort me. and soothe me when i mean irritated and that of being comatose with. it's job yeah animal shelters. really. in a good. had some people say you know you should look for a different job you don't get paid enough. but the more i work there

the more i realize it's not the money you know these these dogs your beans like us but. someone needs to take care of it. she. was kept in a good place let's go this way since i'm. not a little of. it too. early when you're wrong we women. it's definitely more therapeutic then like meeting with some nurse practitioner they want to like hot six medications at you after ten minutes of knowing. her that's good. stuff. the longer one in search of her you learn to be patient you also share your love.

they need the. wall. when they need something they are. social animals they're very warm catholic you know they. didn't immediately need to be with other dogs or with people they need just like people need. to interact with other. intelligence meet. u.s. secretary of state my pompei all tells us america is a force for good in the middle east well that's pretty amazing and online censoring continues apace also for the democrats the party of war no.

officer. told to get up off the ground or begin to down. democrats on the sounds of fighting in the grown man like wrestling essentially. through his or her own. twisted away from the officer. the officer did they kind of lunge for the weapon once missed and then when it happened on tree swung as i didn't hit him i never saw any contact with. any kind of went back to where they were so the officers back here there try again fifteen feet apart at this point and that's when the officer pulled out his gun and he did it on three. as a spy you're half to really split your own personality into two you don't is that committed to harvest that was still alive there within me and then there is the

person who wanted to counter everything they want to do and then trying to dismantle everything they were doing so you have to really become a production in order to fool them you have to follow your own family in order to fall the. u.s. media coverage of alleged trumped russia collusion provokes the ire of the american president to want to let even publish the complete guide to his impeachment. for people are being killed ninety three injured after a huge explosion rocked the afghan capital near a recovery center for of work. as the british parliament proposed for tuesday's momentous photo.